{"id":10232,"date":"2010-11-09T15:00:00","date_gmt":"2010-11-09T14:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=10207"},"modified":"2010-11-09T15:00:00","modified_gmt":"2010-11-09T14:00:00","slug":"love-death-24","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2010\/11\/09\/love-death-24\/","title":{"rendered":"Love &#038; Death 24."},"content":{"rendered":"<div><strong>autor: Rachel<\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>Tom: &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Co\u017ee?&#8220; dlan\u00ed&nbsp; se op\u0159u o ze\u010f&nbsp;a bolestiv\u011b&nbsp;p\u0159iv\u0159u v\u00ed\u010dka, zpod kter\u00fdch se vykut\u00e1l\u00ed&nbsp;dal\u0161\u00ed slzy. M\u011bl jsem tu\u0161en\u00ed,&nbsp;\u017ee se n\u011bco d\u011bje, pocit, \u017ee n\u011bco nen\u00ed&nbsp;v po\u0159\u00e1dku&#8230; skute\u010dnost, \u017ee se doopravdy n\u011bco mohlo st\u00e1t, jsem si v\u0161ak dosud nep\u0159ipou\u0161t\u011bl. Mam\u010dina slova jen zes\u00edlila pocity a ten hore\u010dn\u00fd stav, kter\u00fd jsem v n\u011bkolika posledn\u00edch minut\u00e1ch pro\u017e\u00edval. Vzala mi v\u0161echna m\u00e1 slova, posledn\u00ed nad\u011bji, \u017ee bych se mohl m\u00fdlit&#8230; a p\u0159esto jsem v\u011bd\u011bl, \u017ee n\u011bco nen\u00ed tak, jak by m\u011blo b\u00fdt. C\u00edtil jsem to&#8230; stejn\u011b, jako m\u00e9 dvoj\u010de. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Stalo se t-to&#8230; teprve p\u0159ed chvilkou. Volali mi&#8230;,&#8220; mam\u010din zlomen\u00fd&nbsp;hlas, jen marn\u011b&nbsp;utlumuj\u00edc\u00ed&nbsp;tich\u00e9&nbsp;vzlyky, se ke mn\u011b&nbsp;dolinul ve chv\u00edli, kdy jsem si h\u0159betem ruky ot\u0159el prvn\u00ed&nbsp;slzu, kterou v\u0161ak v m\u017eiku nahradila druh\u00e1. A po n\u00ed dal\u0161\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>Nevn\u00edm\u00e1m je v\u0161ak. Sna\u017e\u00edm se alespo\u0148&nbsp;trochu zm\u00edrnit t\u0159as sv\u00e9ho t\u011bla, zachovat klid a chladnou hlavu a norm\u00e1ln\u011b&nbsp;uva\u017eovat. Netrv\u00e1&nbsp;mi tak dlouho uv\u011bdomit si, co je pro m\u011b&nbsp;v t\u00e9to chv\u00edli nejd\u016fle\u017eit\u011bj\u0161\u00ed. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Kde jsi?&#8220; zept\u00e1m se svou ot\u00e1zku do sluch\u00e1tka a jen neklidn\u011b \u010dek\u00e1m na odpov\u011b\u010f&#8230; kter\u00e9 se mi v\u0161ak dostane a\u017e za n\u011bkolik dlouh\u00fdch vte\u0159in.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Na tom te\u010f&nbsp;nez\u00e1le\u017e\u00ed, Tome, jsi na ve\u010de\u0159i a nem\u016f\u017ee\u0161&#8230;,&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;\u0158ekni mi, kde jsi!&#8220; ne\u00fastupn\u011b&nbsp;zopakuji svoji ot\u00e1zku, ani\u017e bych ji nechal domluvit a znova za\u010dnu nerv\u00f3zn\u011b p\u0159ech\u00e1zet po toalet\u00e1ch. N\u011bjak\u00e1 pitom\u00e1 ve\u010de\u0159e je to posledn\u00ed, co m\u011b v tuto chv\u00edli zaj\u00edm\u00e1. Na nikom a na ni\u010dem mi nez\u00e1le\u017e\u00ed v\u00edc ne\u017e na Billovi. Nic pro m\u011b te\u010f nen\u00ed d\u016fle\u017eit\u011bj\u0161\u00ed, ne\u017e b\u00fdt u n\u011bj a ud\u011blat v\u0161e, co bude v m\u00fdch sil\u00e1ch.<\/div>\n<hr \/>\n<div>&#8222;V nemocnici&#8230; \u010dek\u00e1m, m\u011bli by ho ka\u017edou chv\u00edli p\u0159iv\u00e9zt. Ale, Tome&#8230;,&#8220; odv\u011bt\u00ed, ne\u017e v\u0161ak sta\u010d\u00ed cokoli nam\u00edtnout, jen souhlasn\u011b pok\u00fdv\u00e1m hlavou.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Ok, do p\u016flhodiny jsem u tebe,&#8220; odpov\u00edm a rychle hovor ukon\u010d\u00edm. Budu si muset posp\u00ed\u0161it a je\u0161t\u011b&nbsp;v\u0161echno vysv\u011btlit Caroline. H\u0159betem ruky si ot\u0159u mokr\u00e9 stopy slz na tv\u00e1\u0159i a rychle vyb\u011bhnu z toalet ven. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Zam\u00ed\u0159\u00edm k s\u00e1lu kolem dal\u0161\u00edch \u010d\u00ed\u0161n\u00edk\u016f&nbsp;a rychl\u00fdm krokem vejdu dovnit\u0159. Rozhl\u00e9dnu se kolem&#8230; a kdy\u017e&nbsp;se m\u00fdm o\u010d\u00edm naskytne usm\u00edvaj\u00edc\u00ed&nbsp;se Carolinina tv\u00e1\u0159, popojdu kolem ostatn\u00edch stol\u016f&nbsp;k tomu na\u0161emu. Nem\u00e1m \u010das na dlouh\u00e9 vysv\u011btlov\u00e1n\u00ed, proto douf\u00e1m, \u017ee to pochop\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Caroline&#8230; omlouv\u00e1m se, ale budu muset odej\u00edt,&#8220; promluv\u00edm na ni hned, jakmile zaregistruje moji osobu a jen st\u011b\u017e\u00ed&nbsp;popad\u00e1m ztracen\u00fd&nbsp;dech z rychl\u00e9&nbsp; ch\u016fze. Caroline se na m\u011b&nbsp;jen oto\u010d\u00ed a p\u0159ekvapen\u011b zamrk\u00e1. Jej\u00ed v\u00fdraz se z vesel\u00e9ho zm\u011bn\u00ed na zklaman\u00fd, kdy\u017e ke mn\u011b od stolu vzhl\u00e9dne s u\u017easl\u00fdm pohledem.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Ale pro\u010d? Nem\u016f\u017ee\u0161&nbsp; p\u0159eci odej\u00edt, Tommy,&#8220; nam\u00edtne pohotov\u011b&nbsp;a sv\u00fdmi slovy tak odporuje t\u011bm m\u00fdm. Ani nev\u00ed, o co jde a u\u017e&nbsp;mi v tom br\u00e1n\u00ed!&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Je to nutn\u00e9, Bill m\u011bl nehodu. Mus\u00edm za n\u00edm, copak to nech\u00e1pe\u0161?&#8220; odpov\u00edm rychle a sna\u017e\u00edm se zabr\u00e1nit t\u0159asu, kter\u00fd m\u011b op\u011bt za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1 ovl\u00e1dat. Zat\u00edmco j\u00e1 se tady zdr\u017euju s dal\u0161\u00edm a dal\u0161\u00edm vysv\u011btlov\u00e1n\u00edm, Bill je n\u011bkde \u00fapln\u011b s\u00e1m, v ohro\u017een\u00ed \u017eivota. Pot\u0159ebuje m\u011b te\u010f mnohem v\u00edc, ne\u017e Caroline a jej\u00ed odm\u011b\u0159en\u00fd pap\u00e1, kter\u00fd m\u011b te\u010f op\u011bt sj\u00ed\u017ed\u00ed t\u00edm opovr\u017eliv\u00fdm a nanejv\u00fd\u0161e ura\u017een\u00fdm pohledem, jako bych si pr\u00e1v\u011b dovolil n\u011bco smrteln\u011b drz\u00e9ho a neodpustiteln\u00e9ho. M\u00e9 dvoj\u010de je te\u010f pro m\u011b d\u016fle\u017eit\u011bj\u0161\u00ed v\u00edc ne\u017e cokoli jin\u00e9ho&#8230; Caroline je v\u0161ak nejsp\u00ed\u0161 jin\u00e9ho n\u00e1zoru. Jen z v\u00fdrazu v jej\u00ed tv\u00e1\u0159i m\u016f\u017eu snadno rozpoznat, \u017ee se j\u00ed moje rozhodnut\u00ed ani trochu nel\u00edb\u00ed. Protentokr\u00e1t m\u00e1 ale bohu\u017eel sm\u016flu. &nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Ale co na\u0161e z\u00e1snuby?&#8220; vyhrkne&#8230; ne\u017e&nbsp;v\u0161ak sta\u010d\u00edm jakkoli zareagovat, p\u0159itiskne si dla\u0148&nbsp;na \u00fasta, jako by pr\u00e1v\u011b \u0159ekla n\u011bco, co m\u011blo z\u016fstat ve v\u0161\u00ed tajnosti. Pooto\u010d\u00edm se a jen v n\u011bm\u00e9m \u00fa\u017easu se zad\u00edv\u00e1m do jej\u00edch o\u010d\u00ed, kter\u00fdmi na m\u011b st\u00e1le pohl\u00ed\u017e\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Co\u017ee? Jak\u00e9&nbsp;z\u00e1snuby?&#8220; jen nev\u011b\u0159\u00edcn\u011b&nbsp;zopakuji jej\u00ed&nbsp;p\u0159edchoz\u00ed&nbsp;slova a nespou\u0161t\u00edm o\u010di z jej\u00ed&nbsp;tv\u00e1\u0159e. <em>Na\u0161e<\/em> z\u00e1snuby? Ale jak\u00e9? O \u017e\u00e1dn\u00fdch z\u00e1snub\u00e1ch jsme se spolu nikdy nebavili&#8230; nebo snad ano? O \u010dem to sakra mluv\u00ed?!<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;No, p\u0159eci&#8230;,&#8220; vykokt\u00e1&nbsp;nesouvisle, to u\u017e&nbsp;je ale i na m\u011b&nbsp;moc. Nem\u016f\u017eu uv\u011b\u0159it tomu, \u017ee si n\u011bco takov\u00e9ho jen tak napl\u00e1novala, ani\u017e&nbsp; by se mi p\u0159edt\u00edm o tom jen slovem zm\u00ednila nebo si o tom se mnou promluvila. Tak\u017ee proto ta ve\u010de\u0159e, ten oblek&#8230; a tohle v\u0161echno? Ne, to se mi snad jenom zd\u00e1. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Co m\u00e1&nbsp;tohle kurva znamenat?!&#8220; rozk\u0159iknu se neoby\u010dejn\u011b&nbsp;rozzloben\u00fdm hlasem a c\u00edt\u00edm, jak se ve mn\u011b&nbsp;za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1&nbsp;va\u0159it vztek spolu se zoufalstv\u00edm. Ne\u017e v\u0161ak sta\u010d\u00ed Caroline vykoktat dal\u0161\u00ed nesmysluplnou odpov\u011b\u010f, zas\u00e1hne jej\u00ed milovan\u00fd pap\u00e1.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Na moji Caroline nebude nikdo zvy\u0161ovat hlas. Ani jej\u00ed&#8230; p\u0159\u00edtel,&#8220; znechucen\u011b&nbsp; vyslov\u00ed&nbsp;posledn\u00ed&nbsp;slovo a zpra\u017e\u00ed m\u011b&nbsp;tak opovr\u017eliv\u00fdm a pov\u00fd\u0161en\u00fdm pohledem, kter\u00fd m\u011b m\u011bl nejsp\u00ed\u0161 \u00fapln\u011b zesm\u011b\u0161nit. Nec\u00edt\u00edm se v\u0161ak jako mal\u00fd harant, kter\u00e9ho m\u016f\u017ee peskovat, kdy chce a jak chce, te\u010f u\u017e ne. Nenech\u00e1m se od n\u011bj d\u00e1le ur\u00e1\u017eet a poni\u017eovat&#8230; te\u010f u\u017e ne. A je mi \u00fapln\u011b jedno, co si o mn\u011b po tomhle bude myslet. Nez\u016fstanu tady u\u017e ani o minutu d\u00e9le! &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;N\u011bco se d\u011bje, p\u00e1nov\u00e9? M\u00e1te n\u011bjak\u00fd&nbsp;probl\u00e9m?&#8220; hlas mlad\u00e9ho \u010d\u00ed\u0161n\u00edka r\u00e1zn\u011b&nbsp; ukon\u010d\u00ed v\u0161echny m\u00e9&nbsp;my\u0161lenky a donut\u00ed&nbsp;m\u011b&nbsp;odtrhnout pohled od Carolinina otce. Oto\u010d\u00edm se k \u010d\u00ed\u0161n\u00edkovi a zavrt\u00edm hlavou.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Ne&#8230; jen odch\u00e1z\u00edm,&#8220; ozn\u00e1m\u00edm mu, na\u010de\u017e&nbsp;mi rukou uk\u00e1\u017ee k v\u00fdchodu ze s\u00e1lu a nab\u00eddne sv\u016fj doprovod.<\/div>\n<div>Oto\u010d\u00edm se k v\u00fdchodu a bez jedin\u00e9ho pohledu \u010di rozlou\u010den\u00ed&nbsp;zam\u00ed\u0159\u00edm z tohoto m\u00edsta pry\u010d, nevn\u00edmaj\u00edc Carolinino vol\u00e1n\u00ed&nbsp;a prosby, a\u0165&nbsp;se vr\u00e1t\u00edm. M\u00e1m toho u\u017e&nbsp;akor\u00e1t dost! Tady m\u011b&nbsp;u\u017e&nbsp;nikdo nikdy neuvid\u00ed! A je mi \u00fapln\u011b u prdele, jestli jsem se te\u010f zachoval spole\u010densky, jestli jsem na jej\u00edho pap\u00e1 ud\u011blal dojem nebo ne. Nezaj\u00edm\u00e1 m\u011b nikdo z t\u011bch snob\u016f tam za mnou, pro kter\u00e9 nen\u00ed d\u016fle\u017eit\u00e9 nic jin\u00e9ho ne\u017e pen\u00edze a majetek. Mn\u011b z\u00e1le\u017e\u00ed na n\u011bkom \u00fapln\u011b jin\u00e9m&#8230; &nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;D\u011bkuji za doprovod, u\u017e v\u00e1s nebudu pot\u0159ebovat,&#8220; odv\u011bt\u00edm \u010d\u00ed\u0161n\u00edkovi, kter\u00fd se mnou vy\u0161el a\u017e ven p\u0159ed vchod. Rozlou\u010d\u00edm se a oto\u010d\u00edm&#8230; p\u0159eci jen si v\u0161ak je\u0161t\u011b na n\u011bco vzpomenu. Oto\u010d\u00edm se zp\u00e1tky k \u010d\u00ed\u0161n\u00edkovi&#8230; a jedin\u00fdm rychl\u00fdm \u0161kubnut\u00edm strhnu z krku \u010dern\u00e9ho mot\u00fdla.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;A je\u0161t\u011b&nbsp;n\u011bco&#8230; Tohle jim vra\u0165te. U\u017e&nbsp;ho nebudu pot\u0159ebovat,&#8220; poznamen\u00e1m a vtisknu mu l\u00e1tku do dlan\u011b. Kr\u00e1tce na n\u011bj zamrk\u00e1, a kdy\u017e souhlasn\u011b k\u00fdvne hlavou, v\u00edm, \u017ee mi m\u00e9 p\u0159\u00e1n\u00ed spln\u00ed. Oto\u010d\u00edm se a rozb\u011bhnu se po chodn\u00edku k nejbli\u017e\u0161\u00ed tramvaji&#8230; &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div>Posledn\u00ed&nbsp;paprsky zapadaj\u00edc\u00edho slunce pronikaj\u00ed skrz b\u00edl\u00e9 sklo velk\u00fdch oken do nemocni\u010dn\u00ed chodby, kterou jen z posledn\u00edch sil zam\u00ed\u0159\u00edm dovnit\u0159. Rozhl\u00e9dnu se po n\u00ed&#8230; a kdy\u017e na sam\u00e9m jej\u00edm konci spat\u0159\u00edm zn\u00e1mou, sed\u00edc\u00ed osobu, jen rychle se k n\u00ed rozb\u011bhnu. Nem\u00fdl\u00edm se. Zarudl\u00e9, uslzen\u00e9 o\u010di a bolest\u00ed poznamenan\u00e1 tv\u00e1\u0159&#8230; to je to, co se naskytne m\u00fdm o\u010d\u00edm, kdy\u017e zpomal\u00edm a pomalu p\u0159istoup\u00edm bl\u00ed\u017e. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Mami?&#8220; \u0161eptnu ti\u0161e, snad proto, \u017ee v\u0161ude kolem n\u00e1s se nerozprost\u00edr\u00e1&nbsp;nic jin\u00e9ho, ne\u017e&nbsp;ticho, snad proto, \u017ee nechci vylekat osobu, kter\u00e1 sebou i p\u0159es m\u016fj tich\u00fd hlas m\u00edrn\u011b trhne. Pomalu ke mn\u011b pozvedne pohled a m\u00edrn\u011b pootev\u0159e \u00fasta.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Tome&#8230; p\u0159eci jen jsi p\u0159i\u0161el,&#8220; vydechne ti\u0161e a jej\u00ed&nbsp;o\u010di se zalesknou nov\u00fdmi slzami, kdy\u017e&nbsp;se jej\u00ed&nbsp;zlomen\u00fd&nbsp;pohled setk\u00e1&nbsp;s t\u00edm m\u00fdm.<\/div>\n<div>Nedok\u00e1\u017eu j\u00ed&nbsp;odpov\u011bd\u011bt. Nem\u016f\u017eu ani vid\u011bt to, jak tady sed\u00ed \u00fapln\u011b sama a tr\u00e1p\u00ed se. Kleknu si k n\u00ed a siln\u011b ji obejmu tak, jako jsme to d\u011bl\u00e1vali snad ka\u017ed\u00fd ve\u010der, kdy\u017e jsem byl je\u0161t\u011b t\u00edm mal\u00fdm, bezstarostn\u00fdm d\u00edt\u011btem. P\u0159esn\u011b tohle objet\u00ed te\u010f pot\u0159ebuji a v\u00edm, \u017ee ona jej pot\u0159ebuje taky. Te\u010f pot\u0159ebujeme jeden druh\u00e9ho navz\u00e1jem. B\u00fdt spolu, v\u011b\u0159it a doufat&#8230; doufat, \u017ee v\u0161echno bude zase v po\u0159\u00e1dku. &nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;\u0158\u00edkali&#8230; \u0159\u00edkali, \u017ee&#8230; \u017ee m-m\u011bl o\u0161kliv\u00e1&nbsp;p-poran\u011bn\u00ed&nbsp;hlavy a&#8230;,&#8220; mam\u010din hlas se zlom\u00ed&nbsp;a zanikne v dal\u0161\u00edm tich\u00e9m vzlyku, kter\u00e9&nbsp; tlum\u00ed&nbsp;do m\u00e9ho ramene. Jej\u00ed slova ve mn\u011b vyvol\u00e1vaj\u00ed bolest, c\u00edt\u00edm prvn\u00ed slzy, kter\u00e9 se mi vkr\u00e1daj\u00ed do o\u010d\u00ed a nemilosrdn\u011b m\u011b v nich \u0161t\u00edpaj\u00ed. Nebr\u00e1n\u00edm jim v\u0161ak. Nech\u00e1v\u00e1m je samovoln\u011b st\u00e9kat po m\u00e9 tv\u00e1\u0159i, polyk\u00e1m tich\u00e9 vzlyky a rozt\u0159esen\u00fdmi prsty hlad\u00edm po vlasech mamku, kter\u00e1 se v m\u00e9m objet\u00ed chv\u011bje st\u00e1le v\u00edc a v\u00edc.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;\u0160\u0161\u0161, klid, mami. V\u0161echno bude zase dobr\u00e9, Bill bude v po\u0159\u00e1dku, uvid\u00ed\u0161&#8230;,&#8220; za\u0161ept\u00e1m do jej\u00edch vlas\u016f&nbsp;a sna\u017e\u00edm se alespo\u0148&nbsp;trochu zm\u00edrnit jej\u00ed&nbsp; usedav\u00fd&nbsp;pl\u00e1\u010d, a sv\u00fdmi uti\u0161uj\u00edc\u00edmi slovy p\u0159esv\u011bd\u010dit nejen ji, ale hlavn\u011b s\u00e1m sebe. Zbl\u00e1znil bych se, kdybych nev\u011b\u0159il v nic, co by se alespo\u0148 z poloviny mohlo st\u00e1t skute\u010dnost\u00ed&#8230; v nic, co by mi dalo alespo\u0148 malou nad\u011bji, \u017ee v\u0161echno bude dobr\u00e9.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Kde je?&#8220; za\u0161ept\u00e1m ot\u00e1zku a nato se od mamky pomalu odpoj\u00edm. Zad\u00edv\u00e1&nbsp;se na m\u011b&nbsp; o\u010dima pln\u00fdma slz a rozt\u0159esen\u011b se nadechne.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;P\u0159ivezli&#8230; p\u0159ivezli ho teprve p\u0159ed chv\u00edl\u00ed, ne\u017e&nbsp;jsi p\u0159i\u0161el. J-je&#8230; je na s\u00e1le a&#8230; doktor \u0159\u00edkal&#8230; \u0159\u00edkal&#8230; \u017ee za mnou pak p\u0159ijde&#8230; a\u017e&nbsp; bude n\u011bco v\u011bd\u011bt,&#8220; odpov\u00ed&nbsp;mi mezi vzlyky a v prstech promne od slz vlhk\u00fd&nbsp;kapesn\u00edk, kter\u00fd&nbsp;st\u00e1le dr\u017e\u00ed v dlani. Slab\u011b se pousm\u011bji, pohlad\u00edm ji po tv\u00e1\u0159i a po ruce, a usad\u00edm se vedle n\u00ed, z\u00edraj\u00edc do pr\u00e1zdn\u00e9 st\u011bny p\u0159ed sebou a v duchu odpo\u010d\u00edt\u00e1vaj\u00edc minutu za minutou&#8230; &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Nev\u00edm, jak dlouho jsem na chodb\u011b&nbsp;sed\u011bl a hypnotizoval m\u00edsto p\u0159ed sebou. Rud\u00e9,&nbsp;\u010derven\u00e9 paprsky za\u0161ly za jeden z velk\u00fdch \u010dern\u00fdch mrak\u016f, za\u010d\u00ednaj\u00edc\u00ed \u0161ero za\u010dalo rychle houstnout a m\u011bnit se v hustou, neproniknutelnou tmu. Minuty se zm\u011bnily v hodiny, \u010das se v\u0161ak vlekl a\u017e moc pomalu na to, aby m\u011b to nech\u00e1valo klidn\u00fdm a chladn\u00fdm. Pohledem jsem propaloval dve\u0159e kousek ode m\u011b&#8230; a kdy\u017e se kone\u010dn\u011b otev\u0159ely, byl jsem prvn\u00ed, kdo vysko\u010dil k p\u0159ich\u00e1zej\u00edc\u00edmu doktorovi. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Pan\u00ed&nbsp;Kaulitzov\u00e1?&#8220; doktor\u016fv hlas protrhne to t\u00ed\u017eiv\u00e9, n\u011bkolikahodinov\u00e9&nbsp;ticho na chodb\u011b&nbsp;a j\u00e1&nbsp;jen sto\u010d\u00edm pohled na m\u00e1mu, st\u00e1le sed\u00edc\u00ed&nbsp; na \u017eidli. Lehce sebou trhne, a kdy\u017e zachyt\u00ed doktor\u016fv pohled, jen rychle vstane, o\u010dek\u00e1vaj\u00edc prvn\u00ed zpr\u00e1vy.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;V\u00e1\u0161 syn je mimo nebezpe\u010d\u00ed, ale \u010dek\u00e1&nbsp;ho je\u0161t\u011b&nbsp;spousta operac\u00ed. Na s\u00e1le si ho ponech\u00e1me celou noc, nem\u00e1m&nbsp;\u017e\u00e1dn\u00e9&nbsp;nov\u00e9&nbsp;zpr\u00e1vy a zat\u00edm ani nem\u016f\u017eu \u0159\u00edct, jak moc je jeho stav z\u00e1va\u017en\u00fd. Na noc m\u016f\u017eete j\u00edt zat\u00edm dom\u016f, ozvu se v\u00e1m, a\u017e budu v\u011bd\u011bt n\u011bco nov\u00e9ho,&#8220; odpov\u00ed, zat\u00edmco v\u0161ak mamka jen souhlasn\u011b p\u0159ik\u00fdvne, j\u00e1 se znova zad\u00edv\u00e1m na doktora p\u0159ed sebou. Nehnu se odsud&#8230; i kdybych tu m\u011bl sed\u011bt a \u010dekat celou noc. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Chci tu z\u016fstat&#8230; a po\u010dkat, a\u017e v\u0161echny operace skon\u010d\u00ed. Chci tu b\u00fdt s Billem,&#8220; pronesu pevn\u011b a nespou\u0161t\u00edm pohled z doktora, kter\u00fd ke mn\u011b vzhl\u00e9dne od sv\u00fdch pap\u00edr\u016f.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Ob\u00e1v\u00e1m se, \u017ee tu nem\u016f\u017eete&#8230;&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Je to m\u00e9&nbsp;dvoj\u010de! M\u00e1m pr\u00e1vo tady z\u016fstat a po\u010dkat si na v\u00fdsledky a z\u016fstanu tady! Nem\u016f\u017eete m\u011b p\u0159eci jen tak poslat dom\u016f a sl\u00edbit, \u017ee mi pozd\u011bji zavol\u00e1te, to nejde! Nehnu se odsud ani na krok, pokud nebudu v\u011bd\u011bt, co se s Billem d\u011bje!&#8220; odv\u011bt\u00edm pevn\u00fdm hlasem a nevn\u00edm\u00e1m mamku, kter\u00e1 se m\u011b sna\u017e\u00ed uti\u0161it. Bill m\u011bl nehodu, na s\u00e1le si s n\u00edm d\u011blaj\u00ed b\u016fhv\u00edco&#8230; a j\u00e1 m\u00e1m jen tak sed\u011bt doma a \u010dekat, a\u017e si n\u00e1hodou n\u011bkdo vzpomene a zavol\u00e1 mi? Ne, to v \u017e\u00e1dn\u00e9m p\u0159\u00edpad\u011b neud\u011bl\u00e1m! &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Uklidn\u011bte se, pane Kaulitzi. Uji\u0161\u0165uji v\u00e1s, \u017ee pro va\u0161eho bratra d\u011bl\u00e1me v\u0161e, co je v na\u0161ich sil\u00e1ch. Slibuji, \u017ee se s\u00e1m osobn\u011b postar\u00e1m o to, abyste se v\u0161echny v\u00fdsledky dozv\u011bd\u011bl jako prvn\u00ed hned, jakmile je budu m\u00edt. B\u011b\u017ete dom\u016f, tady stejn\u011b nic nezm\u016f\u017eete. T\u00edm, \u017ee tu budete sed\u011bt a \u010dekat, Billovi nijak nepom\u016f\u017eete,&#8220; odv\u011bt\u00ed mi st\u00e1le klidn\u00fdm hlasem a j\u00e1 jen m\u016f\u017eu vid\u011bt, jak mi na d\u016fkaz sv\u00fdch slov pod\u00e1 pravou ruku. Trochu zav\u00e1h\u00e1m&#8230; nato v\u0161ak uc\u00edt\u00edm na sv\u00e9 dlani lehk\u00fd stisk.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Pros\u00edm, Tome,&#8220; mam\u010din hlas jen nesly\u0161n\u011b&nbsp;za\u0161ept\u00e1&nbsp;tichou prosbu a vytrhne m\u011b&nbsp;tak z m\u00e9ho p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161len\u00ed.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>Zad\u00edv\u00e1m se do jej\u00edch pros\u00edc\u00edch o\u010d\u00ed, kter\u00fdmi ke mn\u011b vzhl\u00ed\u017e\u00ed&#8230; a nato up\u0159u sv\u016fj pohled na doktora, kter\u00fd m\u011b jen ml\u010dky uji\u0161\u0165uje v tom, co p\u0159ed chv\u00edl\u00ed \u0159ekl. Sklop\u00edm pohled a ti\u0161e vydechnu, zam\u00fd\u0161lej\u00edc se nad jeho n\u00e1vrhem. Copak m\u00e1m na vybranou?&nbsp; &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><strong>autor: Rachel<\/strong><\/div>\n<div><strong>betaread: Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>autor: Rachel Tom: &nbsp; &#8222;Co\u017ee?&#8220; dlan\u00ed&nbsp; se op\u0159u o ze\u010f&nbsp;a bolestiv\u011b&nbsp;p\u0159iv\u0159u v\u00ed\u010dka, zpod kter\u00fdch se vykut\u00e1l\u00ed&nbsp;dal\u0161\u00ed slzy. M\u011bl jsem tu\u0161en\u00ed,&nbsp;\u017ee se n\u011bco d\u011bje, pocit, \u017ee n\u011bco nen\u00ed&nbsp;v po\u0159\u00e1dku&#8230; skute\u010dnost, \u017ee se doopravdy n\u011bco mohlo st\u00e1t, jsem si v\u0161ak dosud nep\u0159ipou\u0161t\u011bl. 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