{"id":12086,"date":"2010-03-20T17:00:00","date_gmt":"2010-03-20T16:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=12057"},"modified":"2010-03-20T17:00:00","modified_gmt":"2010-03-20T16:00:00","slug":"forgive-me-do-not-lie-9","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2010\/03\/20\/forgive-me-do-not-lie-9\/","title":{"rendered":"Forgive me&#8230; do not lie 9."},"content":{"rendered":"<div><strong>autor: J\u00e1jinka<\/strong><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><img decoding=\"async\" title=\"356\" class=\"right\" src=\"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-content\/uploads\/32e06dc489_59538096_o2.jpg\" alt=\"356\" \/><\/div>\n<div>Bill<\/div>\n<div>Probouz\u00edm se do jasn\u00e9ho r\u00e1na. To je perfektn\u00ed, dneska byla asi posledn\u00ed noc, co jsem se po\u0159\u00e1dn\u011b vyspal. Ne to byl vtip, ale u\u017e se na Toma neskute\u010dn\u011b t\u011b\u0161\u00edm. Kolik je? Dev\u011bt? Mus\u00edm jet pro ty v\u011bci, aby Tom vid\u011bl, \u017ee to mysl\u00edm v\u00e1\u017en\u011b, ale to mohu vy\u0159e\u0161it hned, vezmu s sebou do Hamburku Toma, aspo\u0148 bude Anita p\u0159i vyjedn\u00e1v\u00e1n\u00ed povoln\u011bj\u0161\u00ed. M\u00e1ma tu s n\u00e1mi taky m\u016f\u017ee chv\u00edli z\u016fstat, m\u016f\u017ee bydlet dole. Jdu se tam po cest\u011b pod\u00edvat, dole je to je\u0161t\u011b v\u00edc luxusn\u00ed, a nav\u00edc, kdy\u017e se tu m\u016f\u017eu voln\u011b pohybovat, je to tu i \u00fatuln\u00e9. Nen\u00ed to tu a\u017e tak moc velk\u00e9, je to norm\u00e1ln\u00ed vila. Nebo dole m\u016f\u017eou bydlet kluci, Georg s Gustavem, je to tu tak dost velk\u00e9. Mus\u00edm se jich zeptat. Kdyby se ale ten d\u016fm cel\u00fd p\u0159estavil, bylo by to mnohem hez\u010d\u00ed a mnohem \u00fatuln\u011bj\u0161\u00ed. Sb\u00edh\u00e1m schody do gar\u00e1\u017ee, nased\u00e1m do auta a rychle do nemocnice za Tomem.<\/div>\n<div>P\u0159ij\u00ed\u017ed\u00edm p\u0159ed vchod. Zamyk\u00e1m auto a rychlej\u0161\u00edm krokem si to m\u00ed\u0159\u00edm ke vchodu, na recepci dnes nen\u00ed Elen, asi m\u00e1 volno.<\/div>\n<div>,,Dobr\u00e9 r\u00e1no, doktor Stein? Je u sebe?&#8220; pt\u00e1m se sestry.<\/div>\n<div>,,Ano, je.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>D\u011bkuji j\u00ed a miz\u00edm se domluvit s doktorem.<\/div>\n<div>Tom<\/div>\n<div>Moc v\u011bc\u00ed s sebou po t\u00e9 nehod\u011b nem\u00e1m, a to si m\u011b Bill chce st\u011bhovat k sob\u011b. Doktor tu byl p\u0159ed p\u016fl hodinou, \u017ee m\u011b dnes pust\u00ed. Podepsal jsem mu jak\u00fdsi pap\u00edr a ode\u0161el. Obl\u00e9k\u00e1m si sv\u00e9 voln\u00e9 kalhoty a triko. Jdu k zrcadlu, teda Tome, ty vypad\u00e1\u0161. Div\u00edm se Billovi, \u017ee se mu l\u00edb\u00edm. Uvazuji si \u0161\u00e1tek kolem hlavy, je\u0161t\u011b na sebe kouk\u00e1m a mysl\u00edm, \u017ee pohoda. Dopad\u00e1m na \u017eidli za sebou, tak kde je ten Bill? Cvakne klika, nakl\u00e1n\u00edm se p\u0159es op\u011br\u00e1tko \u017eidle, abych vid\u011bl, kdo vch\u00e1z\u00ed do dve\u0159\u00ed. Do m\u00edstnost\u00ed vch\u00e1z\u00ed vysok\u00e1 postava, moje \u010dernovlas\u00e1, \u0161t\u00edhl\u00e1 a senza\u010dn\u00ed l\u00e1ska.<\/div>\n<div>,,Bille,&#8220; \u0161ept\u00e1m u\u017easle.<\/div>\n<div>Slu\u0161\u00ed mu to, vst\u00e1v\u00e1m se \u017eidle a jdu k n\u011bmu, aspo\u0148 se s n\u00edm p\u0159iv\u00edtat. Rukama p\u0159ej\u00ed\u017ed\u00edm po jeho boc\u00edch a za z\u00e1dy je spoj\u00edm, je po\u0159\u00e1d o n\u011bco vy\u0161\u0161\u00ed, sj\u00ed\u017ed\u00edm jeho tv\u00e1\u0159 o\u010dima a nemohu je odtrhnout, nakonec sj\u00ed\u017ed\u00edm ke rt\u016fm. To u\u017e jen pohledem nevydr\u017e\u00edm a vp\u00edj\u00edm se do jeho kr\u00e1sn\u00fdch, pln\u00fdch rt\u016f. Sv\u00fdm jazykem mi vych\u00e1z\u00ed vst\u0159\u00edc, c\u00edt\u00edm, jak se sv\u00fdmi rty t\u0159e o ty m\u00e9. Skous\u00e1v\u00e1 mi ret s piercem, to je mi velice p\u0159\u00edjemn\u00e9, jednou rukou si m\u011b p\u0159itahuje za boky a druhou mi zaj\u00ed\u017ed\u00ed na z\u00e1tylek, skousnu mu jemn\u011b jazyk, odezvou je mi tich\u00fd vzdech do \u00fast. Mr\u00e1z po z\u00e1dech mi zna\u010d\u00ed, \u017ee m\u011b to vzru\u0161uje, odtahuji se od n\u011bj. Kouk\u00e1 na m\u011b vyd\u011b\u0161en\u00fdm pohledem.<\/div>\n<hr \/>\n<div>,,Nech si n\u011bjakou energii,&#8220; mrknu na n\u011bj.<\/div>\n<div>,,Pravda, mus\u00edme ti jet pro v\u011bci do Hamburku, to n\u00e1m zabere skoro cel\u00e9 odpoledne.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>On to nepochopil, necht\u011bl jsem \u0159\u00edct skrz \u0159\u00edzen\u00ed, ale skrz to, co se bude d\u00edt, a\u017e p\u0159ijedeme dom\u016f. Chci to, stra\u0161n\u011b, chci si za\u017e\u00edt ten kr\u00e1sn\u00fd pocit&#8230; m\u00edt s Billem sex. M\u00edt s n\u00edm n\u011bco intenzivn\u00edho, vzru\u0161uj\u00edc\u00edho, a hlavn\u011b pln\u00e9ho l\u00e1sky. Ne t\u00e9 bratrsk\u00e9, ale t\u00e9 partnersk\u00e9, mileneck\u00e9. Ani nev\u00edm, kde se ve mn\u011b tato slova berou, kdy\u017e si nepamatuji ani kde bydl\u00edm, ale tohle si prost\u011b \u010dlov\u011bk pamatovat mus\u00ed. Stoj\u00edm a d\u00edv\u00e1m se na n\u011bj nep\u0159\u00edtomn\u00fdm pohledem.<\/div>\n<div>,,Tome, co se d\u011bje?&#8220; pt\u00e1 se m\u011b.<\/div>\n<div>,,No, jen&#8230; Bille&#8230; v\u00ed\u0161&#8230; kde&#8230; j\u00e1 bydl\u00edm?&#8220; kokt\u00e1m.<\/div>\n<div>Jde ke mn\u011b a tiskne mi polibek na nos.<\/div>\n<div>,,Po cest\u011b zavol\u00e1\u0161 Anit\u011b, a omluv\u00ed\u0161 se j\u00ed a vysv\u011btl\u00ed\u0161 j\u00ed, \u017ee chce\u0161 b\u00fdt te\u010f s rodinou, a jestli by to nepochopila. A jestli ti m\u016f\u017ee \u0159\u00edct, kde bydl\u00ed\u0161, na to se j\u00ed zeptej jako prvn\u00ed, kdyby ti to pak n\u00e1hodou necht\u011bla \u0159\u00edct.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>Nechce toho po mn\u011b n\u011bjak moc? Pom\u016f\u017ee mi vz\u00edt ta\u0161ku, absolutn\u011b si nepamatuji, \u017ee bych si tyhle v\u011bci bral a pro\u010d. M\u00e1m oble\u010den\u00ed tak na t\u00fdden minim\u00e1ln\u011b. Ot\u00e1\u010d\u00edm se a d\u00edv\u00e1m se zp\u011bt do pokoje, d\u00edky&#8230; tys mi dal moji nejv\u011bt\u0161\u00ed l\u00e1sku. Vych\u00e1z\u00edm z pokoje a n\u00e1sleduji Billa tichou, b\u00edlou chodbou. S doktorem Steinem se lou\u010dit nebudu, uvid\u00edm ho je\u0161t\u011b na terapi\u00edch a budu si sem chodit pro l\u00e9ky, jejich\u017e soupis m\u00e1 Bill v ta\u0161ce. Vych\u00e1z\u00edme p\u0159ed nemocnici, jak dlouho jsem nebyl na vzduchu, zastav\u00edm se, natahuji \u010derstv\u00fd vzduch do plic, je to hrozn\u011b dlouho a j\u00e1 jsem tak zmaten\u00fd, \u017ee si nic nepamatuji, je to jako skl\u00e1da\u010dka. Bill, ta ta\u0161ka na t\u00fdden, Anita&#8230; v\u0161echno. P\u0159ipad\u00e1m si jako z jin\u00e9ho sv\u011bta. Te\u010f u\u017e to bude lep\u0161\u00ed&#8230; za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1m znovu.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>Bill<\/div>\n<div>Celou cestu z pokoje a\u017e sem ven Tom nepromluvil jedin\u00e9 slovo, asi nad v\u0161\u00edm p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161l\u00ed, ot\u00e1\u010d\u00edm se a on stoj\u00ed. Je roztomil\u00fd, je\u0161t\u011b k tomu, jak m\u00e1 ty nech\u00e1pav\u00e9 pohledy, kter\u00e9 se za n\u011bkolik t\u00fddn\u016f zm\u011bn\u00ed. Zamilovan\u00fd na nen\u00e1vistn\u00fd, starostliv\u00fd na ignoruj\u00edc\u00ed, roztomil\u00fd na neutr\u00e1ln\u00ed. Bude to hr\u016fza, vzpomene si jak hr\u00e1t, a j\u00e1 asi nebudu schopn\u00fd fungovat jako Bill z Tokio Hotel, ani jako Bill Kaulitz. Bude m\u011b nen\u00e1vid\u011bt tolik lid\u00ed. Br\u00e1\u0161ka, l\u00e1ska moje&#8230; a jeho l\u00e1ska Anita. M\u011bl bych p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161let, co pak budu d\u011blat. Mezit\u00edm u\u017e Tom stoj\u00ed u m\u011b.<\/div>\n<div>,,Tak co, br\u00e1\u0161ko? Jedeme?&#8220; usm\u00edv\u00e1 se.<\/div>\n<div>Kdybys, Tome, jen v\u011bd\u011bl, vzdych\u00e1m uvnit\u0159 sv\u00e9ho t\u011bla, navenek se ale tv\u00e1\u0159\u00edm velice neutr\u00e1ln\u011b a\u017e \u0161\u0165astn\u011b.<\/div>\n<div>,,Ano, jedeme,&#8220; opl\u00e1c\u00edm mu \u00fasm\u011bv.<\/div>\n<div>Odemyk\u00e1m auto, Tomovu ta\u0161ku h\u00e1\u017eu dozadu a sed\u00e1m si na sedadlo \u0159idi\u010de. Tom ji\u017e sed\u00ed na sedadle spolujezdce se zapnut\u00fdm p\u00e1sem. N\u00e1sleduji ho, ot\u00e1\u010d\u00edm na n\u011bj hlavu, usm\u011bju se a startuji motor.<\/div>\n<div>,,A jedeme, sm\u011br Hamburk.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>,,Bille, po\u010dkej. Je\u0161t\u011b m\u011b pros\u00edm polib,&#8220; \u017eadon\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>Nakl\u00e1n\u00edm se k n\u011bmu, tisknu mu do rt\u016f jen letm\u00fd polibek, a hned se zase odtahuji.<\/div>\n<div>Na d\u00e1lnici je pom\u011brn\u011b pohoda, Tom usnul hned, co jsme vyjeli z Berl\u00edna. Mysl\u00edm jen na to, co \u0159ekneme Anit\u011b, co ona ud\u011bl\u00e1? Jestli Toma opust\u00ed, tak se mnou br\u00e1cha do smrti nepromluv\u00ed, jenom\u017ee jak mu m\u00e1m vysv\u011btlit, aby se k n\u00ed choval stejn\u011b jako p\u0159edt\u00edm, ani\u017e bych mu musel \u0159\u00edct, \u017ee my dva vlastn\u011b mezi sebou nic nem\u00e1me a do n\u00ed je zamilovan\u00fd jako bl\u00e1zen.<\/div>\n<div><em>Flashback<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,Bille, pros\u00edm t\u011b, pot\u0159ebuji s tebou mluvit,&#8220; vlet\u00ed mi do pokoje jako velk\u00e1 voda.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Po koncert\u011b jsem byl tak hotov\u00fd, \u017ee jsem si musel d\u00e1t sprchu, tak\u017ee stoj\u00edm uprost\u0159ed pokoje s ru\u010dn\u00edkem kolem pasu, rukama v bok a povyta\u017een\u00fdm obo\u010d\u00edm. Tom na m\u011b up\u00edr\u00e1 pohled, jeho tv\u00e1\u0159e zr\u016f\u017eov\u00ed.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,Jo, promi\u0148&#8230; p\u0159ijdu pozd\u011bji.&#8220;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,Kdy\u017e u\u017e jsi tu&#8230; co jsi mi cht\u011bl?&#8220; pt\u00e1m se ho.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Tom nerv\u00f3zn\u011b, zapichuje o\u010di do koberce. Zhluboka se nadechuji a stejn\u011b tak i vydechuji. \u010cek\u00e1m, co z n\u011bj vyleze.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,Co bys \u0159ekl na to, kdybych se o\u017eenil?&#8220; vyst\u0159el\u00ed hlavou nahoru, \u0161\u0165astn\u00e9 o\u010di se vr\u00fdvaj\u00ed do m\u00fdch.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Co mu na tohle m\u00e1m ksakru \u0159\u00edct? Ne, Tome. Neber si ji, j\u00e1 t\u011b miluji? Nebo j\u00e1 nev\u00edm.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,Co\u017ee?&#8220; jedin\u00e9 na co se zm\u016f\u017eu.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,Cht\u011bl bych si Anitu vz\u00edt.&#8220;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>K\u00fdv\u00e1m, jako\u017ee rozum\u00edm. V hlav\u011b mi st\u00e1le dokola hu\u010d\u00ed jeho slova, slova, kter\u00e1 jsem nikdy necht\u011bl sly\u0161et. Nadechnut\u00ed, vydechnut\u00ed. Jedin\u00e9, na co se zm\u016f\u017eu, je, \u017ee se ot\u00e1\u010d\u00edm k n\u011bmu z\u00e1dy.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,A\u0165 ti to vyjde,&#8220; prohod\u00edm neutr\u00e1ln\u011b, abych vyj\u00e1d\u0159il nestrannost v t\u00e9to z\u00e1le\u017eitosti.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,D\u011bkuji, Bille, m\u00e1m t\u011b r\u00e1d.&#8220;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>R\u00e1d? Co je to m\u00edt r\u00e1d oproti m\u00e9mu miluji. Tv\u00e1\u0159 si skr\u00fdv\u00e1m do dlan\u00ed, jemn\u011b prsty mas\u00edruji \u010delo, sj\u00ed\u017ed\u00edm na sp\u00e1nky. No to bude je\u0161t\u011b zaj\u00edmav\u00e9&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Konec Flasbacku<\/em><\/div>\n<div>,,Bille, l\u00e1sko&#8230; kde mi l\u00edt\u00e1\u0161?&#8220; dol\u00e9h\u00e1 ke mn\u011b hlas.<\/div>\n<div>Ot\u00e1\u010d\u00edm se po zvuku, Tom se na m\u011b \u0161iroce usm\u00edv\u00e1.<\/div>\n<div>,,Ale nic, jen jsem se zamyslel&#8230;&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>Tom m\u011b hlad\u00ed po ruce, kterou m\u00e1m jako v\u017edy polo\u017eenou na \u0159ad\u00edc\u00ed p\u00e1ce. No jo, \u010dek\u00e1 n\u00e1s t\u011b\u017ek\u00fd \u017eivot&#8230; hlavn\u011b m\u011b.<\/div>\n<div>,,Zavolej t\u00e9 Anit\u011b.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div><strong>autor: J\u00e1jinka<\/strong><\/div>\n<div><strong>betaread: Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>autor: J\u00e1jinka Bill Probouz\u00edm se do jasn\u00e9ho r\u00e1na. To je perfektn\u00ed, dneska byla asi posledn\u00ed noc, co jsem se po\u0159\u00e1dn\u011b vyspal. Ne to byl vtip, ale u\u017e se na Toma neskute\u010dn\u011b t\u011b\u0161\u00edm. Kolik je? Dev\u011bt? 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