{"id":12500,"date":"2010-01-27T18:30:00","date_gmt":"2010-01-27T17:30:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=12470"},"modified":"2010-01-27T18:30:00","modified_gmt":"2010-01-27T17:30:00","slug":"uz-nemam-silu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2010\/01\/27\/uz-nemam-silu\/","title":{"rendered":"U\u017e nem\u00e1m s\u00edlu&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<div><strong>autor: Cera<\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><img decoding=\"async\" title=\"360\" alt=\"\" class=\"center\" src=\"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-content\/uploads\/487ed9f035_60903461_o2.jpg\" \/><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>V\u0161ude kolem je tma a j\u00e1 se schov\u00e1v\u00e1m pod jej\u00ed \u010dern\u00fd h\u00e1v. Pohlcuje m\u011b. Po tv\u00e1\u0159\u00edch mi kanou dal\u0161\u00ed a dal\u0161\u00ed slzy. Jedna za druhou\u2026 Sm\u00e1\u010dej\u00ed mi pol\u0161t\u00e1\u0159 a j\u00e1 se je u\u017e ani nesna\u017e\u00edm zastavit&#8230; U\u017e na to nem\u00e1m s\u00edlu\u2026<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>Pokolik\u00e1t\u00e9 u\u017e tu takhle le\u017e\u00edm\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Pokolik\u00e1t\u00e9 se l\u00e1skou sou\u017e\u00edm\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Pokolik\u00e1t\u00e9 puk\u00e1 mi srdce\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Pokolik\u00e1t\u00e9 to ho\u0159kosti v\u00edno chutn\u00e1 trpce\u2026<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>Moje srdce je roztrh\u00e1no na tis\u00edce mal\u00fdch kous\u00ed\u010dk\u016f bez jak\u00e9koli nad\u011bje, \u017ee by ho n\u011bkdo dok\u00e1zal znovu poskl\u00e1dat dohromady a zacelit tak v\u0161echny r\u00e1ny, ani\u017e by na n\u011bm z\u016fstal jedin\u00fd \u0161r\u00e1m.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>Jak dlouho jsem s\u00e1m, zoufal\u00fd\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Jak dlouho po tob\u011b tou\u017e\u00edm, potaj\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Jak dlouho s\u017e\u00edr\u00e1 m\u011b pocit ukrutn\u00e9 bolesti\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Jak dlouho vzn\u00e1\u0161\u00edm se nad propast\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n<hr \/>\n<div>Propast\u2026Nekone\u010dn\u00e1 nicota v m\u00e9m nitru, proch\u00e1zej\u00edc\u00ed t\u011blem, dost\u00e1vaj\u00edc\u00ed se a\u017e do morku kost\u00ed a nejen tam. Vkradla se mi i do my\u0161lenek. Kdy\u017e zav\u0159u o\u010di, vid\u00edm, jak se p\u0159ede mnou otev\u00edr\u00e1 jako matka rozev\u00edraj\u00edc\u00ed n\u00e1ru\u010d sv\u00e9mu d\u00edt\u011bti. T\u00edm d\u00edt\u011btem jsem j\u00e1\u2026<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>D\u00edt\u011b, kter\u00e9 ut\u00edk\u00e1 od lid\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n<div>D\u00edt\u011b, jeho\u017e slzy nikdo nevid\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n<div>D\u00edt\u011b, kter\u00e9 zak\u00e1zan\u011b miluje\u2026<\/div>\n<div>D\u00edt\u011b, jemu\u017e budoucnost nic neslibuje\u2026<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee budoucnost pro m\u011b nen\u00ed\u2026 Proto\u017ee budoucnost pro m\u011b neexistuje\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Vst\u00e1v\u00e1m a odemyk\u00e1m dve\u0159e sv\u00e9ho pokoje. V\u0161ichni v dom\u011b sp\u00ed, tak\u017ee \u0161ance, \u017ee m\u011b n\u011bkdo uvid\u00ed, je nulov\u00e1. V\u00edm, co mus\u00edm ud\u011blat\u2026<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>Jen jednou, naposled, vid\u011bt jeho tv\u00e1\u0159\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Jen jedenou, naposled, zahl\u00e9dnout kolem n\u011bj and\u011blskou svatoz\u00e1\u0159\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Jen jednou, naposled, \u0159\u00edct mu, jak ho m\u00e1m r\u00e1d\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Jen jednou, naposled, \u0159\u00edct mu: &#8222;Miluju t\u011b!&#8220;, kdy\u017e bude sp\u00e1t\u2026<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>Po \u0161pi\u010dk\u00e1ch dojdu a\u017e na konec chodby a vstoup\u00edm do zapov\u011bzen\u00e9ho kr\u00e1lovstv\u00ed, kr\u00e1lovstv\u00ed sv\u00e9ho bratra. Koberec tlum\u00ed m\u00e9 kroky a j\u00e1 se pomalu p\u0159ibli\u017euji k jeho posteli. Tak jako u\u017e tolikr\u00e1t se schoul\u00edm do k\u0159esla a pozoruji ho. Vlasy m\u00e1 rozhozen\u00e9 na pol\u0161t\u00e1\u0159i. Dokonalou tv\u00e1\u0159 mu zdob\u00ed jemn\u00fd, tajupln\u00fd \u00fasm\u011bv. Copak se mu asi zd\u00e1?<\/div>\n<div>Povzdechnu si, alespo\u0148 on je \u0161\u0165astn\u00fd\u2026 co j\u00e1 bych za to dal\u2026 za jedin\u00fd okam\u017eik v jeho objet\u00ed\u2026<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>Jestli pak v\u00ed\u0161, o \u010dem j\u00e1 sn\u00edm\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Jestli pak v\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee nad tebou ka\u017edou noc bd\u00edm\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Jestli pak v\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee oded\u00e1vna jsi pro m\u011b v\u00edc\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Jestli pak v\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee m\u016fj \u017eivot bez tebe neznamen\u00e1 nic\u2026<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>M\u00e1m to ud\u011blat? Ud\u011blat to, po \u010dem tou\u017e\u00edm?<\/div>\n<div>M\u00e1m riskovat? Ne\u2026 i kdy\u017e v\u00edm, \u017ee bych m\u011bl\u2026 Jsem na to v\u0161ak a\u017e p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 velk\u00fd slaboch. V\u00edm, \u017ee existuje nad\u011bje. Nad\u011bje, \u017ee c\u00edt\u00ed to, co j\u00e1. M\u011bl bych v\u011b\u0159it\u2026 Nam\u00edsto toho ale d\u011bl\u00e1m p\u0159esn\u00fd opak &#8211; nev\u011b\u0159\u00edm.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>Nev\u011b\u0159\u00edm, \u017ee by se to mohlo st\u00e1t\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Nev\u011b\u0159\u00edm, \u017ee bys m\u011b mohl milovat\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Nev\u011b\u0159\u00edm, \u017ee bys op\u011btoval m\u016fj zak\u00e1zan\u00fd cit\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Nev\u011b\u0159\u00edm\u2026 tak na\u010d tu d\u00e1le b\u00fdt\u2026<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>Naposledy na n\u011bj pohl\u00e9dnu a zam\u00ed\u0159\u00edm si to zp\u011bt k sob\u011b. Z no\u010dn\u00edho stolku vynd\u00e1m mal\u00fd ostr\u00fd p\u0159edm\u011bt. \u017diletku\u2026 Chv\u00edli ji obrac\u00edm mezi prsty. Je\u0161t\u011b st\u00e1le si to m\u016f\u017eu rozmyslet&#8230; Je\u0161t\u011b st\u00e1le bych ji mohl schovat zp\u011bt do \u0161upl\u00edku. Ale neud\u011bl\u00e1m to\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Z ran na rukou mi te\u010dou tenk\u00e9 pot\u016f\u010dky krve a prvn\u00ed kapky dopadaj\u00ed na b\u00edl\u00e9 prost\u011bradlo.<\/div>\n<div>V\u00edm, \u017ee d\u011bl\u00e1m chybu. V\u00edm, \u017ee bych m\u011bl bojovat\u2026 Sta\u010dilo by si vz\u00edt jenom kapesn\u00edky a zav\u00e1zat jimi z\u00e1p\u011bst\u00ed. Ov\u0161em ani tohle neud\u011bl\u00e1m\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Kl\u00ed\u017e\u00ed se mi o\u010di\u2026 Chce se mi sp\u00e1t\u2026 Us\u00edn\u00e1m\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Cht\u011bl jsem vedle tebe sed\u011bt v parku nam\u00edsto n\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Probudit se vedle tebe a\u017e se rozedn\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Cht\u011bl jsem t\u011b h\u00fd\u010dkat a milovat\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Hory doly slibovat\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Cht\u011bl jsem ti zaprodat svou du\u0161i\u2026<\/div>\n<div>A\u017e bys usly\u0161el, jak se moje srdce v tvoj\u00ed bl\u00edzkosti rozbu\u0161\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Cht\u011bl jsem ti st\u00e1r um\u0159\u00edt v n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Av\u0161ak \u017eivot nen\u00ed v\u017edy takov\u00fd, jak si \u010dlov\u011bk poru\u010d\u00ed\u2026<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div><strong>autor: Cera<\/strong><\/div>\n<div><strong>betaread: Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>autor: Cera V\u0161ude kolem je tma a j\u00e1 se schov\u00e1v\u00e1m pod jej\u00ed \u010dern\u00fd h\u00e1v. Pohlcuje m\u011b. Po tv\u00e1\u0159\u00edch mi kanou dal\u0161\u00ed a dal\u0161\u00ed slzy. Jedna za druhou\u2026 Sm\u00e1\u010dej\u00ed mi pol\u0161t\u00e1\u0159 a j\u00e1 se je u\u017e ani nesna\u017e\u00edm zastavit&#8230; U\u017e na to nem\u00e1m<\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a class=\"myButt \" href=\"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2010\/01\/27\/uz-nemam-silu\/\">Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[45],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-12500","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ff-jednodilky"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12500","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=12500"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12500\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=12500"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=12500"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=12500"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}