{"id":12520,"date":"2010-01-25T15:30:00","date_gmt":"2010-01-25T14:30:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=12490"},"modified":"2010-01-25T15:30:00","modified_gmt":"2010-01-25T14:30:00","slug":"forgive-me-do-not-lie-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2010\/01\/25\/forgive-me-do-not-lie-2\/","title":{"rendered":"Forgive me&#8230; do not lie 2."},"content":{"rendered":"<div><strong>autor: J\u00e1jinka<\/strong><\/div>\n<div><em><br \/><\/em><\/div>\n<div><img decoding=\"async\" title=\"356\" alt=\"\" class=\"right\" src=\"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-content\/uploads\/32e06dc489_59538096_o2.jpg\" \/><\/div>\n<div>Mus\u00edm. Te\u010f nebo nikdy. I kdyby m\u011b nepochopila&#8230; i kdyby m\u011b zavrhla, bude mi mnohem l\u00edp.<\/div>\n<div>,,Mami.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>Ode dve\u0159\u00ed se na m\u011b d\u00edv\u00e1.<\/div>\n<div>,,Co se d\u011bje?&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>Hlavu klop\u00edm dol\u016f, o\u010di se zar\u00fdvaj\u00ed do podlahy. Hled\u00e1m spr\u00e1vn\u00e1 slova.<\/div>\n<div>,,Posa\u010f se, pot\u0159ebuju ti n\u011bco \u0159\u00edct.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>P\u0159ejde ke mn\u011b, \u017eidli si postav\u00ed naproti mn\u011b. M\u00edrn\u011b naklon\u00ed hlavu, jako\u017ee poslouch\u00e1. Kde m\u00e1m za\u010d\u00edt? Co j\u00ed v\u016fbec chci \u0159\u00edct?<\/div>\n<div>,,V\u00ed\u0161, mami, nev\u00edm, pro\u010d ti to chci v\u016fbec pov\u011bd\u011bt, ale asi chci, aby se mi tro\u0161ku ulevilo. P\u0159ed \u0161esti lety, kdy jsem se odst\u011bhoval od Toma do Berl\u00edna a on z\u016fstal doma, zamiloval jsem se do n\u011bj. Ne jako do bratra, ale jako do p\u0159\u00edtele. Je to nechutn\u00e9, zak\u00e1zan\u00e9 a v\u0161e, co t\u011b napadne, ale je to asi t\u00edm, jak jsme si moc podobn\u00ed. P\u0159ed ka\u017ed\u00fdm jsme si hr\u00e1li, \u017ee je v\u0161echno v pohod\u011b, \u017ee se nic ned\u011bje. Ono se nic ned\u011blo, jak si Tom myslel, ale j\u00e1 nemohl. Necht\u011bl jsem se v tom zamotat je\u0161t\u011b v\u00edc, ano jsme spolu v kapele, ale to je n\u011bco jin\u00e9ho. Nemus\u00edm b\u00fdt jen s n\u00edm, nechce si pov\u00eddat jen se mnou, nav\u00edc, kdy\u017e hrajeme, nen\u00ed moc \u010dasu \u0159e\u0161it osobn\u00ed v\u011bci. A kdy\u017e si Tom p\u0159ed rokem a p\u016fl na\u0161el Anitu, byl to konec. V\u00edm, \u017ee m\u011b mo\u017en\u00e1 nepochop\u00ed\u0161 a zavrhne\u0161, ale cht\u011bl jsem, aby se mi tro\u0161ku uleh\u010dilo to tr\u00e1pen\u00ed.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>Slzy si znovu na\u0161ly cestu ven, tisknu se k Tomov\u011b mikin\u011b, snad p\u0159ed mamkou anebo p\u0159ed sebou sam\u00fdm.<\/div>\n<div>,,Bille, j\u00e1 nev\u00edm co ti na to m\u00e1m \u0159\u00edct. Kdybych nebyla tv\u00e1 m\u00e1ma, \u0159eknu dobr\u00e1, ale oba dva jsem v\u00e1s p\u0159ivedla na sv\u011bt, oba v\u00e1s vychovala. V\u00edm, \u017ee t\u011b to tr\u00e1p\u00ed, a i p\u0159es to, \u017ee je to zak\u00e1zan\u00e9, budu k tomu slep\u00e1 a p\u0159\u00e1t ti&#8230; p\u0159\u00e1t v\u00e1m\u2026 abyste byli \u0161\u0165astn\u00ed. A\u0165 spolu nebo sami.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>Schoul\u00edm se do jej\u00ed n\u00e1ru\u010de. Jsem na jednu stranu te\u010f tak stra\u0161n\u011b \u0161\u0165astn\u00fd.<\/div>\n<div>,,Mami&#8230; d\u011bkuji&#8230; jsi ta nejlep\u0161\u00ed m\u00e1ma&#8230; m\u00e1m t\u011b r\u00e1d,&#8220; vzlyk\u00e1m.<\/div>\n<div>Konej\u0161iv\u011b m\u011b hlad\u00ed po z\u00e1dech.<\/div>\n<div>,,Poj\u010f, p\u016fjdeme sp\u00e1t&#8230; a\u0165 jsme na z\u00edtra odpo\u010dat\u00ed.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>Slab\u011b k\u00fdvnu. L\u00edn\u011b se zved\u00e1me ze \u017eidl\u00ed. Proch\u00e1z\u00edm chodbou do pokoje. Rozsv\u00edt\u00edm si a l\u00edn\u011b proch\u00e1z\u00edm cel\u00fdm pokojem k oknu, abych mohl zat\u00e1hnout \u017ealuzie. Unaven\u011b si leh\u00e1m do postele, choul\u00edm se do klub\u00ed\u010dka a tisknu k sob\u011b jeho mikinu.<\/div>\n<hr \/>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Bol\u00ed m\u011b z\u00e1da, usnul jsem, jak jsem si lehl, a te\u010f se ned\u00e1m dohromady. Mnu si o\u010di, abych se tro\u0161ku probral. Projdu bytem do koupelny, v puse kart\u00e1\u010dek, a d\u00edv\u00e1m se na sv\u00e9 kruhy pod o\u010dima, kter\u00e9 se mi vytvo\u0159ily pl\u00e1\u010dem a \u00fanavou. Posledn\u00ed dobou nejsem fakt vyspanej. Opl\u00e1chnu si obli\u010dej a vrac\u00edm se do pokoje. Beru prvn\u00ed tepl\u00e1ky, kter\u00e9 mi p\u0159ijdou pod ruku a jdu do kuchyn\u011b. Mamka sed\u00ed na \u017eidli s hrnkem k\u00e1vy a novinami v ruce.<\/div>\n<div>,,Dobr\u00e9 r\u00e1no.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>,,Dobr\u00e9,&#8220;opl\u00e1c\u00ed mi pozdraven\u00ed s \u00fasm\u011bvem.<\/div>\n<div>Do ruky beru hrn\u00ed\u010dek a taky si naliju tro\u0161ku t\u00e9 \u010dern\u00e9 k\u00e1vy. Sed\u00e1m si p\u0159ed n\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>,,Co p\u00ed\u0161ou?&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>Zvedne ke mn\u011b o\u010di a pod\u00e1v\u00e1 mi noviny.<\/div>\n<div>,,S\u00e1m si to p\u0159e\u010dti.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>Vezmu je do ruky a zap\u00edchnu o\u010di do \u010dl\u00e1nku<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><em>Podle nejnov\u011bj\u0161\u00edch informac\u00ed, kytarista skupiny Tokio Hotel, Tom Kaulitz(23) le\u017e\u00ed ve Fakultn\u00ed nemocnici v k\u00f3matu, podle doktor\u016f je v\u0161ak mimo ohro\u017een\u00ed \u017eivota, v\u00edce informac\u00ed na p\u0159\u00e1n\u00ed rodiny necht\u011bj\u00ed zve\u0159ejnit. S rodinou se n\u00e1m nepoda\u0159ilo spojit, proto\u017ee frontman skupiny a bratr kytaristy bydl\u00ed na utajen\u00e9 adrese, mana\u017eer, buben\u00edk a baskytarista skupiny se k tomu t\u00e9\u017e odm\u00edtaj\u00ed vyj\u00e1d\u0159it, ale je to pro n\u011b pr\u00fd zdrcuj\u00edc\u00ed. Odpoj\u00ed Toma z p\u0159\u00edstroj\u016f? Je to konec Tokio Hotel? Co na to Bill? V pr\u016fb\u011bhu t\u00fddne v\u00e1s o tom budeme d\u00e1le informovat.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em><br \/><\/em><\/div>\n<div>Znechucen\u011b noviny odhod\u00edm na st\u016fl a rad\u011bji se napiji ji\u017e studen\u00e9 k\u00e1vy.<\/div>\n<div>,,Pro\u010d to p\u00ed\u0161ou,&#8220; znechucen\u011b vy\u0161lu k m\u00e1m\u011b pohled.<\/div>\n<div>,,Nev\u00edm, ale asi jim to d\u011bl\u00e1 dob\u0159e, h\u00e1zet na ostatn\u00ed \u0161p\u00ednu,&#8220; odpov\u00edd\u00e1 sklesl\u00fdm t\u00f3nem.<\/div>\n<div>Nech\u00e1pav\u011b krout\u00edm hlavou nad t\u011bmi listy. Nem\u011bl jsem to rad\u011bji ani \u010d\u00edst.<\/div>\n<div>,,Pojedeme do nemocnice?&#8220; vede jinam \u0159e\u010d mamka.<\/div>\n<div>,,Jasn\u011b, jen se l\u00e9pe obl\u00e9knu.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>Odch\u00e1z\u00edm do pokoje. Je tu tma, tah\u00e1m za \u0161\u0148\u016frku od \u017ealuzi\u00ed a ty se l\u00edn\u011b zvedaj\u00ed nahoru. Kone\u010dn\u011b do m\u00edstnosti proud\u00ed trocha sv\u011btla. Natahuju na sebe d\u017e\u00edny a \u010dern\u00e9 triko. Proch\u00e1z\u00edm pokojem, h\u00e1\u017eu v\u011bci na k\u0159eslo a na postel, a\u0165 to tu nevypad\u00e1 tak moc nepo\u0159\u00e1dn\u011b. Pozastav\u00edm se u zrcadla, ale co ud\u011bl\u00e1m s \u00fa\u010desem? M\u00e1m ty vlasy te\u010f hrozn\u00fd. Rukou st\u0159el\u00edm po gumi\u010dce, nikdy jsem si vlasy do gumi\u010dky ned\u00e1val, ale v\u0161echno je jednou poprv\u00e9. Nezapomenu na Tomovu mikinu, h\u0159ejiv\u011b si ji obl\u00e9k\u00e1m, je\u0161t\u011b se s n\u00ed pomazl\u00edm a m\u016f\u017eeme j\u00edt. Mamka si m\u011b zkoumav\u011b prohl\u00ed\u017e\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>,,Co se d\u011bje?&#8220; pt\u00e1m se nerv\u00f3zn\u011b.<\/div>\n<div>,,Slu\u0161\u00ed ti to,&#8220; usm\u00edv\u00e1 se.<\/div>\n<div>Vych\u00e1z\u00edme ven, nikde ani noha co\u017e je mi velice p\u0159\u00edjemn\u00e9. Nem\u00e1m \u010das na to odpov\u00eddat n\u011bkomu na ot\u00e1zky. Kone\u010dn\u011b jsme se dostali k autu a m\u016f\u017eeme vyrazit za Tomem. Cesta je klidn\u00e1, aut v tuto dobu moc nejezd\u00ed. Bu\u010f jsou v\u0161ichni v pr\u00e1ci nebo doma. Z r\u00e1dia se line n\u011bjak\u00e1 sladk\u00e1 p\u00edse\u0148 a p\u0159in\u00e1\u0161\u00ed mi takovou melancholickou n\u00e1ladu.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><em>Flashback<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em><br \/><\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,Tome?&#8220; klepu na dve\u0159e jeho pokoje.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Nic, ticho. Beru tedy za kliku a vch\u00e1z\u00edm do m\u00edstnosti. Je tu \u0161ero, jen sv\u011btlo z lampi\u010dky u jeho postele osv\u011bcuje prostory. Proch\u00e1z\u00edm a\u017e k n\u011bmu. Zpod pe\u0159iny kouk\u00e1 jen jeho k\u0159ehk\u00e1 tv\u00e1\u0159, spokojen\u011b oddechuje podle pravideln\u011b zvedaj\u00edc\u00ed se pe\u0159iny. Skl\u00e1n\u00edm se nad n\u011bj. O\u010dima zkoum\u00e1m ka\u017ed\u00e9 z\u00e1kout\u00ed jeho tv\u00e1\u0159e, zastav\u00edm na rtech. Nejrad\u011bji bych se k n\u011bmu sklonil a lehce ho l\u00edbl na rty. Piercing ve rtu je jako magnet, kter\u00fd p\u016fsob\u00ed na m\u016fj v jazyku. Pohledem stoup\u00e1m k jeho nosu, nachlup stejn\u00e9mu jako je ten m\u016fj, a\u017e k o\u010d\u00edm&#8230; kter\u00e9 jsou do \u0161iroka&#8230; otev\u0159en\u00e9?<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,T-Tome?&#8220; \u0161eptnu.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,Bille, co tu d\u011bl\u00e1\u0161?&#8220; chraplav\u011b polo\u017e\u00ed ot\u00e1zku.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Nerv\u00f3zn\u011b polknu.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,Nic, jen jsem ti cht\u011bl n\u011bco \u0159\u00edct, ale spal jsi&#8230; u\u017e odch\u00e1z\u00edm. Promi\u0148,&#8220; znovu \u0161ept\u00e1m.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>U\u017e, u\u017e se ot\u00e1\u010d\u00edm, abych se zachr\u00e1nil odchodem ze dve\u0159\u00ed, kdy\u017e ztr\u00e1c\u00edm p\u016fdu pod nohama. Reflexem zav\u00edr\u00e1m o\u010di. Kdy\u017e z\u00edsk\u00e1v\u00e1m odvahu, znovu je otv\u00edr\u00e1m, d\u00edv\u00e1m se p\u0159\u00edmo do bratrov\u00fdch.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,Tak Bille, a te\u010f mi \u0159ekni, cos mi cht\u011bl.&#8220;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em><br \/><\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Konec Flashbacku<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em><br \/><\/em><\/div>\n<div>Samoz\u0159ejm\u011b jsem mu nic ne\u0159ekl, proto\u017ee jsem zbab\u011ble utekl. A\u017e te\u010f si uv\u011bdomuji, \u017ee jsme u nemocnice. A p\u0159ed n\u00ed stoj\u00ed novin\u00e1\u0159i. Lov\u00edm ve sv\u00e9 prostorov\u011b velk\u00e9 ta\u0161ce, kterou m\u00e1m po\u0159\u00e1d v aut\u011b, slune\u010dn\u00ed br\u00fdle. Parkuji od nich d\u00e1l. Nemus\u00ed v\u011bd\u011bt, \u010d\u00edm jsem p\u0159ijel. Mamka mi vys\u00edl\u00e1 vyd\u011b\u0161en\u00fd pohled.<\/div>\n<div>,,Neboj, mami, to zvl\u00e1dneme.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>Sice ji podporuji, ale s\u00e1m jsem \u0161\u00edlen\u011b nerv\u00f3zn\u00ed.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div><strong>autor: J\u00e1jinka<\/strong><\/div>\n<div><strong>betaread: Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div style=\"text-align:center\"><em><strong>Klikni na anketu, d\u00edky J. :o)<\/strong><\/em><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>autor: J\u00e1jinka Mus\u00edm. Te\u010f nebo nikdy. I kdyby m\u011b nepochopila&#8230; i kdyby m\u011b zavrhla, bude mi mnohem l\u00edp. ,,Mami.&#8220; Ode dve\u0159\u00ed se na m\u011b d\u00edv\u00e1. ,,Co se d\u011bje?&#8220; Hlavu klop\u00edm dol\u016f, o\u010di se zar\u00fdvaj\u00ed do podlahy. Hled\u00e1m spr\u00e1vn\u00e1 slova. ,,Posa\u010f se, pot\u0159ebuju<\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a class=\"myButt \" href=\"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2010\/01\/25\/forgive-me-do-not-lie-2\/\">Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[301],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-12520","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-forgive-me-do-not-lie"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12520","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=12520"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12520\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=12520"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=12520"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=12520"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}