{"id":13222,"date":"2009-10-21T18:30:00","date_gmt":"2009-10-21T17:30:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=13191"},"modified":"2009-10-21T18:30:00","modified_gmt":"2009-10-21T17:30:00","slug":"hate-you-for-lovin-me-12","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2009\/10\/21\/hate-you-for-lovin-me-12\/","title":{"rendered":"Hate you for lovin&#8216; me 12."},"content":{"rendered":"<div><strong>autor: Ketty<\/strong><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><img decoding=\"async\" title=\"328\" alt=\"\" class=\"right\" src=\"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-content\/uploads\/aba48f41ad_53652148_o2.jpg\" \/><\/div>\n<div><strong>The line between love and hate<\/strong><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><em>Co k tomuhle d\u00edlu \u0159\u00edct&#8230;v tomhle d\u00edle je v\u0161echno..nebo sp\u00ed\u0161 \u010d\u00e1st v\u0161eho..x) Zkr\u00e1tka m\u016fj obl\u00edben\u00fd..krom\u011b toho &#8211; zapn\u011bte si tu hudbu..tahle skladba znamen\u00e1 Hate..s tou to v\u0161echno vznikalo..x) U\u017eijte si to \ud83d\ude09<\/em><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div style=\"text-align:center\"><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"209\" height=\"30\" src=\"http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/-KsRpAL97Aw\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Tom se zahled\u011bl do desky stolu. Nemohl se p\u0159itom d\u00edvat Davidovi do obli\u010deje&#8230; na to to bylo moc intimn\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;V\u017eij se do t\u00e9 situace, jen si to p\u0159edstav\u2026 Je ti \u010dtrn\u00e1ct, chod\u00ed\u0161 ven s holkama, ve \u0161kole plat\u00ed\u0161 za nejv\u011bt\u0161\u00edho playboye, a pak p\u0159ijde\u0161 dom\u016f a tam na tebe \u010dek\u00e1 bratr. Sebel\u00edtostiv\u011b ti pov\u00edd\u00e1 o tom, jak ho lidi ve \u0161kole nemaj r\u00e1di a holky si ho nev\u0161\u00edmaj. Je ti ho l\u00edto a \u0159\u00edk\u00e1\u0161 mu, \u017ee v\u0161echno bude dobr\u00fd, obj\u00edm\u00e1\u0161 ho\u2026 A pak je mu patn\u00e1ct, maluje se, zp\u00edv\u00e1, p\u00ed\u0161e b\u00e1sni\u010dky o l\u00e1sce. A ty si \u0159\u00edk\u00e1\u0161, \u017ee mus\u00ed b\u00fdt hrozn\u011b ne\u0161\u0165astn\u00fd. Mezit\u00edm se z obj\u00edm\u00e1n\u00ed stane pravidlo. Ka\u017ed\u00e1 odpoledn\u00ed debata kon\u010d\u00ed l\u00e1skypln\u00fdm obejmut\u00edm. Pak mu jednou ze srandy d\u00e1\u0161 pusu na dobrou noc, kdy\u017e je teda tak ne\u0161\u0165astnej. A on z toho ud\u011bl\u00e1 pravidlo, je ura\u017eenej, kdy\u017e mu tu pusu ned\u00e1\u0161. Pak je ti \u0161estn\u00e1ct, m\u00e1\u0161 obrovskej \u00fasp\u011bch, na ka\u017ed\u00fdm prstu tis\u00edc fanynek a ka\u017edou druhou noc m\u00e1\u0161 na pokoji n\u011bjakou jinou. Zat\u00edmco tv\u016fj bratr h\u00e1z\u00ed na p\u00f3diu smutn\u00e9 obli\u010deje a v rozhovorech vykl\u00e1d\u00e1, \u017ee \u010dek\u00e1 na pravou l\u00e1sku. \u0158\u00edk\u00e1\u0161 si &#8211; je to tv\u016fj mlad\u0161\u00ed br\u00e1cha, t\u0159eba\u017ee jen o deset minut. P\u0159ece bys pro n\u011bj i vra\u017edil. Tak pro\u010d bys mu nevy\u0161el vst\u0159\u00edc, kdy\u017e chce jen takov\u00e9 banality, jako abys s n\u00edm z\u016fst\u00e1val a obj\u00edmal ho, kdy\u017e us\u00edn\u00e1. V\u0161echno to ochotn\u011b d\u011bl\u00e1\u0161 a \u0159\u00edk\u00e1\u0161 si, \u017ee je to p\u0159ece p\u011bkn\u00fd, \u017ee mezi sebou m\u00e1te takovej p\u011bknej vztah. On je spokojenej, tak\u017ee v\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee to m\u00e1 n\u011bjakej smysl. Pak ale vid\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee to v\u016fbec nen\u00ed v tom, \u017ee by nem\u011bl s k\u00fdm b\u00fdt. M\u00e1 je\u0161t\u011b v\u011bt\u0161\u00ed mo\u017enosti ne\u017e ty a nedok\u00e1\u017ee je vyu\u017e\u00edt. Ochotn\u011b ho dr\u017e\u00ed\u0161 za ruku, kdy\u017e jste spolu sami.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<hr \/>\n<div>Potom p\u0159ijde a ozn\u00e1m\u00ed ti, \u017ee je mo\u017en\u00e1 na kluky. \u0158ekne to tak vyd\u011b\u0161en\u011b, \u017ee nevid\u00ed\u0161 jinou mo\u017enost, ne\u017e dr\u017eet ho a nepou\u0161t\u011bt, hlavn\u011b aby se t\u00edm tak netr\u00e1pil. Postupem \u010dasu u\u017e mu v\u016fbec nep\u0159ipad\u00e1 zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00ed zeptat se t\u011b, jestli mu nenamas\u00edruje\u0161 z\u00e1da nebo mu nebude\u0161 asistovat p\u0159i myt\u00ed. D\u00edv\u00e1 se na tebe tak nevinn\u011b, \u017ee si zkr\u00e1tka nem\u016f\u017ee\u0161 myslet, \u017ee by m\u011bl n\u011bjak\u00e9 zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00ed \u00famysly. \u0158\u00edk\u00e1\u0161 si &#8211; chud\u00e1k kluk, v patn\u00e1cti mu sebrali norm\u00e1ln\u00ed \u017eivot a on byl nucenej v hrozn\u011b kr\u00e1tk\u00fdm \u010dase dosp\u011bt. To ty sice taky, ale on je je\u0161t\u011b v\u00edc ve stresu ne\u017e ty a ty v\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee je p\u0159eci jenom mlad\u0161\u00ed a je odjak\u017eiva hodn\u011b citlivej. Na cest\u00e1ch nem\u00e1 v\u016fbec nikoho a neum\u00ed si naj\u00edt holku ani kluka, tak\u017ee pokud ti z\u00e1le\u017e\u00ed na tom, aby to ve zdrav\u00ed p\u0159e\u017eil, mus\u00ed\u0161 mu sv\u00fdm zp\u016fsobem nahrazovat partnera i rodinu. Mazl\u00ed\u0161 se s n\u00edm, dot\u00fdk\u00e1\u0161 se ho, nech\u00e1v\u00e1\u0161 ho hr\u00e1t si s tv\u00fdm t\u011blem, a sna\u017e\u00ed\u0161 se vsugerovat si, \u017ee je to v po\u0159\u00e1dku,&#8220; Tom na chv\u00edli p\u0159eru\u0161il sv\u00e9 vypr\u00e1v\u011bn\u00ed. S\u00e1hl po skleni\u010dce skotsk\u00e9 a trochu upil. David k n\u011bmu up\u00edral ohromen\u00fd pohled a neopova\u017eoval se ho p\u0159eru\u0161ovat. Tomovy o\u010di se leskly, kdy\u017e te\u010f vypr\u00e1v\u011bl o sv\u00e9m komplikovan\u00e9m vztahu s dvoj\u010detem. Nikdy to nikomu nevykl\u00e1dal. \u0158e\u0161il to v\u017edycky jen s Billem, i kdy\u017e jen v metafor\u00e1ch. Na to, aby si otev\u0159en\u011b promluvili o probl\u00e9mu, o kter\u00e9m v\u011bd\u011bli, \u017ee mezi nimi je, nem\u011bli ani jeden dost odvahy.<\/div>\n<div>Zamrkal a pokusil se pokra\u010dovat.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;A najednou ti je osmn\u00e1ct\u2026 jsi dosp\u011bl\u00fd a tv\u016fj bratr taky\u2026 a nezm\u011bn\u00ed se nic. V\u016fbec nic. Den co den si chod\u00ed popov\u00eddat za tebou do postele v tourbuse, p\u0159i\u010dem\u017e t\u011b samoz\u0159ejm\u011b hlad\u00ed po obli\u010deji nebo se t\u011b jakkoliv jinak dot\u00fdk\u00e1. A tob\u011b dojde, \u017ee je n\u011bco \u0161patn\u011b. Takhle daleko to nem\u011blo zaj\u00edt. Jste si extr\u00e9mn\u011b bl\u00edzko a ty najednou nev\u00ed\u0161, jak z toho ven. U\u017e nechce\u0161 d\u00e1l, c\u00edt\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee d\u00e1l u\u017e nic nen\u00ed, pak u\u017e je jen regul\u00e9rn\u00ed mileneck\u00fd vztah. A to ty nem\u016f\u017ee\u0161 dopustit. Zni\u010dilo by to naprosto v\u0161echno, co jsi budoval takovou dobu. Tu bezmeznou d\u016fv\u011bru a oddanost\u2026 V\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee kdybys cokoliv pot\u0159eboval, on by to pro tebe ud\u011blal. Jen\u017ee za tuhle cenu, \u017ee to bude\u0161 v\u0161echno d\u00e1l sn\u00e1\u0161et.<\/div>\n<div>Nem\u016f\u017ee\u0161 ho te\u010f nechat b\u00fdt, nep\u0159e\u017eil by to, je na tob\u011b z\u00e1visl\u00fd, nem\u00e1 jinak nikoho, kdo by pro n\u011bj d\u011blal v\u011bci co ty. A on to pot\u0159ebuje. Zn\u00e1\u0161 ho, s\u00e1m v\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee se l\u00eds\u00e1 ke komu m\u016f\u017ee. Jen\u017ee u m\u011b si toho m\u016f\u017ee dovolit nejv\u00edc.<\/div>\n<div>No, a pak se kone\u010dn\u011b zamiluje\u0161, po devaten\u00e1cti letech pop\u00edr\u00e1n\u00ed faktu, \u017ee l\u00e1ska existuje. C\u00edt\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee t\u011b to naprosto pohlcuje, nejrad\u0161i bys byl neust\u00e1le s n\u00ed. A za\u010dne\u0161 p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161let nad v\u011bcmi, nad kter\u00fdmi sis myslel, \u017ee nikdy uva\u017eovat nebude\u0161. Proti sv\u00e9 v\u016fli pl\u00e1nuje\u0161 budoucnost, vid\u00ed\u0161 to \u017eiv\u011b p\u0159ed sebou. Ty a tvoje l\u00e1ska, velkolep\u00e1 svatba, l\u00edb\u00e1nky n\u011bkde daleko na zapadl\u00e9m proslun\u011bn\u00e9m ostrov\u011b a potom velk\u00fd d\u016fm, luxusn\u00ed auto, dv\u011b d\u011bti, velkej pes, lo\u017enice slad\u011bn\u00e1 do modra a p\u0159edev\u0161\u00edm tvoje partnerka\u2026 a n\u011bjak si uv\u011bdom\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee na bratra tam n\u011bjak\u2026 nen\u00ed m\u00edsto\u2026 Kone\u010dn\u011b si uv\u011bdomuje\u0161, \u017ee bys cht\u011bl taky \u017e\u00edt sv\u016fj vlastn\u00ed \u017eivot\u2026 Samoz\u0159ejm\u011b se s n\u00edm \u010dasto v\u00eddat, d\u00e1vat mu na hl\u00edd\u00e1n\u00ed d\u011bti a ob\u010das s n\u00edm zaj\u00edt na skleni\u010dku. Ale\u2026 nem\u016f\u017ee\u0161 mu uspokojovat jeho pot\u0159eby cel\u00fd \u017eivot.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>\u0158\u00edk\u00e1\u0161 si, jak to n\u011bjak \u0161etrn\u011b vy\u0159e\u0161it, jen\u017ee do toho dostane\u0161 rozk\u00e1z\u00e1no to, co celou dobu nechce\u0161 &#8211; p\u0159edst\u00edrat skute\u010dnej vztah se sv\u00fdm dvoj\u010detem. A on ihned ochotn\u011b souhlas\u00ed, co\u017e t\u011b naprosto vyd\u011bs\u00ed\u2026 Nakonec svol\u00ed\u0161 a celou dobu si \u0159\u00edk\u00e1\u0161 &#8211; tohle je n\u00e1\u0161 konec. Pokud tohle nen\u00ed vrchol, co m\u016f\u017ee b\u00fdt? V\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee jste na absolutn\u00ed hranici bratrstv\u00ed, dokonce mo\u017en\u00e1 trochu za hranic\u00ed, ale stejn\u011b se sna\u017e\u00ed\u0161 plnit, co m\u00e1\u0161. Nem\u016f\u017ee\u0161 je v\u0161echny zklamat. A najednou\u2026&#8220; Tomovi p\u0159esko\u010dil hlas, kdy\u017e se kone\u010dn\u011b dost\u00e1val k aktu\u00e1ln\u011bj\u0161\u00edm moment\u016fm. &#8222;A najednou ti ten nevinnej br\u00e1\u0161ka sed\u00ed na kl\u00edn\u011b, \u0159\u00edk\u00e1 ti, jak rozt\u00e1hne tvoje nohy\u2026 a ty nem\u00e1\u0161 s\u00edlu mu \u0159\u00edct, \u017ee takhle to u\u017e d\u00e1l nejde\u2026&#8220; Tom si ot\u0159el o\u010di.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;V\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee u\u017e to nen\u00ed tak nevinn\u00e9. \u017de se u n\u011bj n\u011bco m\u00e1lo zm\u011bnilo, i kdy\u017e si to nechce p\u0159iznat. Musel k tomu nakonec dosp\u011bt, bylo to od za\u010d\u00e1tku jasn\u00e9. Zaprv\u00fd se\u0161 zamilovanej, naprosto si u\u017e\u00edv\u00e1\u0161 ten nejlep\u0161\u00ed vztah, co jsi kdy v \u017eivot\u011b m\u011bl, a zadruh\u00fd v\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee p\u0159ekro\u010dit tu hranici \u00fapln\u011b, by byla osudov\u00e1 chyba, u\u017e by se to nedalo vr\u00e1tit zp\u00e1tky. A u\u017e jsi v t\u00e9hle z\u00e1le\u017eitosti ud\u011blal chyb dost. Na tv\u00e9 prosby samoz\u0159ejm\u011b nereaguje, a tak ti nezb\u00fdv\u00e1, ne\u017e vy\u0159e\u0161it to po sv\u00e9m &#8211; prost\u011b ho chv\u00edli ignorovat. Vid\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee ho to zm\u00e1h\u00e1, ale z\u00e1rove\u0148 se uji\u0161\u0165uje\u0161, \u017ee tak \u017e\u00edt dok\u00e1\u017ee\u2026 Mus\u00ed si zvyknout, \u017ee mu nem\u016f\u017eu do smrti d\u011blat n\u00e1hra\u017eku\u2026&#8220; Tom na chv\u00edli zav\u0159el o\u010di a hluboce si povzdechl.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Davide, ani nev\u00ed\u0161, jak m\u011b to mrz\u00ed, kdy\u017e ho takhle vid\u00edm, ale v\u00edm, \u017ee jedn\u00e1m spr\u00e1vn\u011b. U\u017e ch\u00e1pu, co bylo \u0161patn\u011b\u2026 Moc jsem ho miloval, tolik jsem se sna\u017eil neubl\u00ed\u017eit mu, a\u017e jsem mu ubl\u00ed\u017eil tis\u00edckr\u00e1t v\u00edc. Nev\u00edm, jestli v\u016fbec n\u011bkdy je\u0161t\u011b budeme moct b\u00fdt opravdov\u00fdmi bratry\u2026 ale pokud budeme d\u00e1l muset hr\u00e1t tuhle hru, tak si ned\u011bl\u00e1m moc velk\u00e9 nad\u011bje\u2026&#8220; Tom sklopil zrak. Nakonec se mu poda\u0159ilo p\u0159ekonat slzy, tekouc\u00ed zpod v\u00ed\u010dek, p\u016fsobil tak v\u0161ak o to \u017ealostn\u011bj\u0161\u00edm dojmem.<\/div>\n<div>Davidem to viditeln\u011b ot\u0159\u00e1slo. Vztah mezi nimi byl mnohem v\u00edc vzru\u0161uj\u00edc\u00ed, ne\u017e kdy doufal\u2026 bylo neuv\u011b\u0159iteln\u00e9 jen si to p\u0159edstavit\u2026 Bylo mu jich te\u010f neskute\u010dn\u011b l\u00edto, m\u011bli se v\u017edycky tak r\u00e1di\u2026 a to zp\u016fsobilo jejich konec. N\u011bkter\u00e9 v\u011bci byly tak nespravedliv\u00e9.<\/div>\n<div>David nemohl jinak, ne\u017e vst\u00e1t od stolu a pevn\u011b Toma sev\u0159\u00edt v objet\u00ed. S\u00e1m nedok\u00e1zal uv\u011b\u0159it, jak hr\u016fzostra\u0161n\u00e9 v\u011bci se mohou skr\u00fdvat za n\u011b\u010d\u00edm tak harmonick\u00fdm\u2026<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Tome, j\u00e1 v\u00edm, \u017ee je to pro tebe t\u011b\u017ek\u00fd, ale chovej se te\u010f k n\u011bmu, pros\u00edm, aspo\u0148 trochu tak jako d\u0159\u00edv\u2026 T\u00edmhle tempem se mi n\u011bkde slo\u017e\u00ed na p\u00f3diu a co s n\u00edm\u2026 V\u00ed\u0161, kdybys to d\u011blal postupn\u011b, t\u0159eba by si na to zvyknul a \u010dasem by si n\u011bkoho na\u0161el,&#8220; David pokr\u010dil rameny, kdy\u017e se op\u011bt usadil na svoje m\u00edsto.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;To bych r\u00e1d\u2026 Beztak si mysl\u00edm, \u017ee to pro n\u011bj bude probl\u00e9m, s t\u00edm jeho punt\u00ed\u010dk\u00e1\u0159stv\u00edm\u2026 to by si musel naj\u00edt n\u011bkoho stejn\u011b\u2026 dokonal\u00fdho, jako je on s\u00e1m,&#8220; zavrt\u011bl Tom hlavou.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;To je podle m\u011b pr\u00e1v\u011b ono &#8211; jsi skoro jako on, n\u011bco ho k tob\u011b t\u00e1hne\u2026 Ale neboj, d\u0159\u00edv nebo pozd\u011bji u\u017e si n\u011bkoho najde\u2026 v\u017edy\u0165 u\u017e mu bude dvacet, na podzim\u2026 Nem\u011bj strach, Tome. Nikdy to nen\u00ed tak stra\u0161n\u00fd, aby se to nedalo \u0159e\u0161it,&#8220; David se na Toma povzbudiv\u011b usm\u00e1l.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;D\u00edky, Davide\u2026 zkus\u00edm s t\u00edm n\u011bco ud\u011blat\u2026 p\u0159ehl\u00ed\u017eet ho \u00fapln\u011b byla mo\u017en\u00e1 chyba\u2026 n\u011bco vymysl\u00edme\u2026&#8220; Tomovi po rtech p\u0159eb\u011bhl lehk\u00fd \u00fasm\u011bv a znovu si zavdal alkoholu. V\u011bd\u011bl, \u017ee David ani zdaleka nem\u016f\u017ee pochopit v\u00e1\u017enost situace. Nev\u011bd\u011bl v\u0161echno.<\/div>\n<div>T\u00e9 noci si poprv\u00e9 uv\u011bdomil, jak moc je pro n\u011bj bratr d\u016fle\u017eit\u00fd\u2026 a to nev\u011bstilo nic dobr\u00e9ho.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><strong>autor: Ketty<\/strong><\/div>\n<div><strong>betaread: Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>autor: Ketty The line between love and hate Co k tomuhle d\u00edlu \u0159\u00edct&#8230;v tomhle d\u00edle je v\u0161echno..nebo sp\u00ed\u0161 \u010d\u00e1st v\u0161eho..x) Zkr\u00e1tka m\u016fj obl\u00edben\u00fd..krom\u011b toho &#8211; zapn\u011bte si tu hudbu..tahle skladba znamen\u00e1 Hate..s tou to v\u0161echno vznikalo..x) U\u017eijte si to \ud83d\ude09 Tom se<\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a class=\"myButt \" href=\"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2009\/10\/21\/hate-you-for-lovin-me-12\/\">Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[269],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-13222","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-hate-you-for-lovin-me"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13222","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=13222"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13222\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=13222"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=13222"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=13222"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}