{"id":15011,"date":"2009-03-16T15:30:00","date_gmt":"2009-03-16T14:30:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=14977"},"modified":"2009-03-16T15:30:00","modified_gmt":"2009-03-16T14:30:00","slug":"song-to-say-good-bye-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2009\/03\/16\/song-to-say-good-bye-2\/","title":{"rendered":"Song to say Good Bye! 2."},"content":{"rendered":"<div>autor: <strong>Sa\u0161a<\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>B\u011bh\u00e1m po tmav\u00fdch uli\u010dk\u00e1ch Magdeburku a po\u0159\u00e1d se ot\u00e1\u010d\u00edm za sebe, p\u0159ed sebe, jako nejv\u011bt\u0161\u00ed magor. Hled\u00e1m mou l\u00e1sku! J\u00e1 ho prost\u011b mus\u00edm naj\u00edt. Nem\u016f\u017eu ho nechat na pospas temn\u00fdm noc\u00edm. I kdy\u017e vlastn\u011b u\u017e tenkr\u00e1t jsem ho nechal! Tak co te\u010f vlastn\u011b chci napravovat?<\/div>\n<div>I kdybych ho na\u0161el, tak mi u\u017e nikdy neodpust\u00ed a j\u00e1 sob\u011b vlastn\u011b taky ne!<\/div>\n<div>Op\u0159u se o bar\u00e1k v jedn\u00e9 ulici a sesunu se na zem.<\/div>\n<div>P\u0159ed o\u010dima m\u00e1m cel\u00fd n\u00e1\u0161 \u017eivot, cel\u00fdch 14 let, co jsme spolu str\u00e1vili. To j\u00e1, j\u00e1 to v\u0161echno zkazil.<\/div>\n<div>J\u00e1 byl ten, kter\u00fd NIC ne\u0159ekl a jen koukal jako pako, kdy\u017e odch\u00e1zel\u2026<\/div>\n<div><em>flashback<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,Tome?&#8220;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,\u00c1no, brouku.&#8220;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,V\u00ed\u0161, co kdy\u017e se to dozv\u00ed m\u00e1ma nebo Gordon?&#8220; zeptal se m\u011b Bill a m\u011b zamrazilo v z\u00e1dech.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,Nedozv\u00ed!&#8220; \u0159ekl jsem jednodu\u0161e.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,Tome, jak to m\u016f\u017ee\u0161 v\u011bd\u011bt, sakra?&#8220; \u0159ekl nakrknut\u011b. P\u0159i\u0161el jsem k n\u011bmu a kouknul se mu do o\u010d\u00ed.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,I kdyby se to dozv\u011bd\u011bla, tak co?&#8220; zeptal jsem se.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,Tome, ta by n\u00e1s zabila, no nebo sp\u00ed\u0161 m\u011b! Tys byl v\u017edycky ten lep\u0161\u00ed!&#8220; \u0159ekl mi s ironi\u00ed v hlase<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>,,Bille. Kdy\u017e u\u017e tak se v tom povezeme oba! Jasn\u00fd?&#8220; Kouknul jsem se mu hluboko do o\u010d\u00ed.<\/em><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div><em>konec flashbacku<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Nejrad\u0161i bych te\u010f \u0161el dom\u016f a v\u0161echno m\u00e1m\u011b vyklopil, ale k \u010demu by mi to bylo?<\/div>\n<div>Mo\u017en\u00e1 jen k tomu, \u017ee by se mi malinko ulevilo, ale t\u00edm si nejsem jist.<\/div>\n<div>Billovi u\u017e by to stejn\u011b nepomohlo!<\/div>\n<hr \/>\n<div>BILL<\/div>\n<div>Je mi zle z toho, co d\u011bl\u00e1m. Je mi zle ze sebe samotn\u00e9ho. Jsem nechutn\u00fd fe\u0165\u00e1k.<\/div>\n<div>Ze za\u010d\u00e1tku jsem si to nedok\u00e1zal p\u0159ipustit, \u017ee v tom l\u00edt\u00e1m, ale te\u010f? Te\u010f u\u017e v\u00edm, jak\u00e1 je ze m\u011b troska. U\u017e tenkr\u00e1t jsem se tomu m\u011bl postavit, ale ne\u0161lo to! S\u00e1m bych tu hroznou bolest nep\u0159ekonal! Te\u010f u\u017e mi nikdo nedok\u00e1\u017ee pomoct. U\u017e ani Tom! M\u00edsto toho, abych ho miloval, tak u\u017e cejt\u00edm jenom nen\u00e1vist.<\/div>\n<div>Nen\u00e1vist z velk\u00e9 a bolestiv\u00e9 l\u00e1sky! Je to v\u016fbec mo\u017en\u00fd? \u0158eknu v\u00e1m jednu v\u011bc, a to, \u017ee &#8220;PRAV\u00c1 L\u00c1SKA NEEXISTUJE.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>U\u017e nikdy na n\u00ed nebudu v\u011b\u0159it! Byl jsem slep\u00fd, zaslepen\u00fd l\u00e1skou, kter\u00e1 nikdy neexistovala!<\/div>\n<div>,,K \u010dertu s tebou, Tome!!!&#8220; za\u0159vu z pln\u00fdch plic do pr\u00e1zdn\u00fdch ulic. Jen poslouch\u00e1m ozv\u011bnu toho, co jsem pr\u00e1v\u011b zak\u0159i\u010del.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>TOM<\/div>\n<div>Stoj\u00edm u okna a pozoruji sn\u011bhov\u00e9 vlo\u010dky, jak lehounce dopadaj\u00ed na silnici<\/div>\n<div>,,Copak asi d\u011bl\u00e1\u0161, l\u00e1sko?&#8220; \u0161eptnu a zav\u0159u o\u010di. V tu chv\u00edli m\u011b bodne u srdce, m\u00e1m divn\u00fd pocit.<\/div>\n<div>N\u011bco se stalo, Billovi se n\u011bco stalo! C\u00edt\u00edm to! N\u011bco mu je a j\u00e1 nev\u00edm co? Kdybych aspo\u0148 v\u011bd\u011bl kde t\u011b hledat.<\/div>\n<div>Sesunu se na zem a zoufale d\u00e1m hlavu do dlan\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>Jsem bezmocn\u00fd jako kus hadru! Nev\u00edm, co d\u011blat? Na to, abych ode\u0161el, jsem a\u017e moc velk\u00fd srab a to je na tom to nejhor\u0161\u00ed!<\/div>\n<div>U\u017e odmali\u010dka jsem byl rozmazlen\u00fd fracek, kter\u00fd se o sebe nikdy nedok\u00e1zal postarat s\u00e1m! A Bill, ten se o sebe musel starat u\u017e od prvn\u00ed t\u0159\u00eddy.<\/div>\n<div>M\u00e1m\u011b na n\u011bm nikdy nez\u00e1le\u017eelo! Ona v\u011bd\u011bla, \u017ee je jin\u00fd, a proto ho nem\u011bla r\u00e1da! Byla k n\u011bmu jako kus ledu, jako by nebyl jej\u00ed!<\/div>\n<div>Je mi z n\u00ed zle! Je zl\u00e1, bezcitn\u00e1 mrcha! Nesn\u00e1\u0161\u00edm j\u00ed!<\/div>\n<div>Pro\u010d mi do\u0161lo, jak\u00e1 je, a\u017e te\u010f? Kdybych nebyl slepej, tak by se to nikdy nemuselo st\u00e1t!<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div>autor: <strong>Sa\u0161a<\/strong><\/div>\n<div>betaread: <strong>Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>autor: Sa\u0161a B\u011bh\u00e1m po tmav\u00fdch uli\u010dk\u00e1ch Magdeburku a po\u0159\u00e1d se ot\u00e1\u010d\u00edm za sebe, p\u0159ed sebe, jako nejv\u011bt\u0161\u00ed magor. Hled\u00e1m mou l\u00e1sku! J\u00e1 ho prost\u011b mus\u00edm naj\u00edt. Nem\u016f\u017eu ho nechat na pospas temn\u00fdm noc\u00edm. I kdy\u017e vlastn\u011b u\u017e tenkr\u00e1t jsem ho nechal! 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