{"id":15307,"date":"2009-02-10T17:00:00","date_gmt":"2009-02-10T16:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=15272"},"modified":"2009-02-10T17:00:00","modified_gmt":"2009-02-10T16:00:00","slug":"es-ist-vorbei","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2009\/02\/10\/es-ist-vorbei\/","title":{"rendered":"Es ist vorbei"},"content":{"rendered":"<div><span style=\"false\">autor: <strong>Majka<\/strong><\/span><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"400\" height=\"300\" title=\"241\" alt=\"\" class=\"left\" src=\"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-content\/uploads\/df5adf67da_40962131_o2.jpg\" \/><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Cel\u00fdm Berl\u00ednem se proh\u00e1n\u011bl studen\u00fd podzimn\u00ed v\u00edtr a lid\u00e9 venku na ulic\u00edch se choulili do sv\u00fdch kab\u00e1t\u016f a bund. Z oblohy se pozvolna sn\u00e1\u0161ely drobn\u00e9 b\u00edl\u00e9 vlo\u010dky. Letos p\u0159i\u0161el prvn\u00ed sn\u00edh opravdu brzy&#8230;<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Jedna n\u011b\u017en\u00e1 nezbednice up\u0159eden\u00e1 z ledov\u00e9 krajky se uli\u010dnicky zhoupla v dal\u0161\u00edm n\u00e1poru vzduchu a p\u0159ist\u00e1la na chladn\u00e9m okenn\u00edm skle. Prostorn\u00fd hotelov\u00fd pokoj za n\u00edm se topil v \u0161eru, dalo chvilku pr\u00e1ce rozeznat vysokou nehybnou postavu stoj\u00edc\u00ed hned u okna.<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Mlad\u00fd \u010dernovlas\u00fd mu\u017e st\u00e1l se sklopenou hlavou, ruce bezvl\u00e1dn\u011b spu\u0161t\u011bn\u00e9 pod\u00e9l \u0161t\u00edhl\u00e9ho t\u011bla, u jeho nohou le\u017eel arch b\u00edl\u00e9ho, z p\u016flky popsan\u00e9ho pap\u00edru. Ned\u00edval se na n\u011bj. Jeho o\u010di byly sice otev\u0159en\u00e9 a sm\u011b\u0159ovaly t\u00edm sm\u011brem, ale nebyly schopn\u00e9 vn\u00edmat. A kdy\u017e mlad\u00edk po n\u011bkolika nekone\u010dn\u011b dlouh\u00fdch minut\u00e1ch zvedl pomalu svou hlavu, jeho pohled byl vyhasl\u00fd a pr\u00e1zdn\u00fd. Bez lesku, bez sebemen\u0161\u00ed jisk\u0159i\u010dky z\u00e1jmu o cokoliv&#8230; jako bez \u017eivota.<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Hled\u011bl p\u0159ed sebe a nevid\u011bl, d\u00fdchal, ale jeho srdce jako by p\u0159est\u00e1valo b\u00edt. Mysl\u00ed mu zlov\u011bstn\u011b proplouvaly jednotliv\u00e9 v\u011bty z pr\u00e1v\u011b p\u0159e\u010dten\u00e9ho dopisu a s ka\u017ed\u00fdm dal\u0161\u00edm \u0159\u00e1dkem v n\u011bm um\u00edraly v\u0161echny jeho pocity a on se propadal do st\u00e1le v\u011bt\u0161\u00edho pr\u00e1zdna a temnoty&#8230; Jak n\u011bkdo m\u016f\u017ee b\u00fdt tak krut\u00fd?<\/span><\/div>\n<hr \/>\n<div><span style=\"false\">&#8222;<em>D\u00e1v\u00e1m v\u00e1m na v\u00fdb\u011br &#8211; bu\u010f dobrovoln\u011b a nav\u017edy ukon\u010d\u00edte sv\u016fj neleg\u00e1ln\u00ed, neetick\u00fd a naprosto nep\u0159\u00edpustn\u00fd incestn\u00ed vztah, kter\u00fd udr\u017eujete se sv\u00fdm dvoj\u010detem, nebo se o v\u00e1s dozv\u00ed cel\u00e1 ve\u0159ejnost, p\u0159\u00e1tel\u00e9, rodina a hlavn\u011b policie, kter\u00e9 r\u00e1d poskytnu ve\u0161ker\u00e9 d\u016fkazy v\u010detn\u011b obrazov\u00e9ho materi\u00e1lu!&#8220;<\/em><\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Posledn\u00ed v\u011bta&#8230; tak dlouh\u00e1, tak definitivn\u00ed&#8230; Za\u0159\u00edzla se mu do \u017eil, zap\u00edchla do srdce, spalovala cel\u00e9 jeho nitro&#8230; Nebyl schopn\u00fd se po\u0159\u00e1dn\u011b nadechnout, ve sp\u00e1nc\u00edch mu tepalo a krev v \u017eil\u00e1ch nekontrolovateln\u011b zhoustla a nemohla proudit&#8230; Po mrtvoln\u011b bled\u00fdch tv\u00e1\u0159\u00edch mu st\u00e9kaly slzy, kter\u00e9 nec\u00edtil. Nevn\u00edmal ani jemn\u00fd t\u0159es sv\u00e9ho t\u011bla.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Na druh\u00e9 stran\u011b pokoje, za jeho z\u00e1dy, se potichu otev\u0159ely a zase zav\u0159ely hotelov\u00e9 dve\u0159e. Cvakl z\u00e1mek a tich\u00fd \u0161elest p\u0159ich\u00e1zej\u00edc\u00edch krok\u016f d\u00e1val zn\u00e1t p\u0159\u00edtomnost n\u011bkoho dal\u0161\u00edho. N\u011bkoho, koho u\u017e nem\u011bl milovat. N\u011bkoho, kdo u\u017e nem\u011bl milovat jeho. N\u011bkoho, jemu\u017e se m\u011bly b\u011bhem p\u0159\u00ed\u0161t\u00edch okam\u017eik\u016f zhroutit sny stejn\u011b jako se te\u010f hrout\u00ed Billovi&#8230;<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">&#8222;L\u00e1sko? Hledal jsem t\u011b&#8230;&#8220;<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">N\u011b\u017en\u00fd dotek bratrovy dlan\u011b, jeho hork\u00fd dech na krku, l\u00e1skypln\u00e1 slova&#8230; To v\u0161e donutilo Billa bolestn\u011b zav\u0159\u00edt o\u010di. <em>&#8222;Tome&#8230; j\u00e1 nem\u016f\u017eu&#8230; nem\u016f\u017eu ti to \u0159\u00edct&#8230; ne te\u010f&#8230; je\u0161t\u011b ne!&#8220;<\/em><\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">&#8222;Bill\u00ed? V\u017edy\u0165 se cel\u00fd klepe\u0161! Je ti zima?&#8220;<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Jemn\u00e9 t\u0159en\u00ed, kter\u00fdm se Tom sna\u017eil zah\u0159\u00e1t br\u00e1\u0161kovy pa\u017ee, bylo tak p\u0159\u00edjemn\u00e9. <em>&#8222;Chci je\u0161t\u011b alespo\u0148 naposledy c\u00edtit tv\u00e9 rty&#8230; tebe&#8230;&#8220;<\/em><\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">&#8222;Poj\u010f, zah\u0159eju t\u011b&#8230;&#8220; Lehounk\u00fd polibek do vlas\u016f, Tomovo t\u011blo p\u0159itiskl\u00e9 na jeho, jak se sna\u017eil p\u0159edat sv\u00e9mu dvoj\u010deti trochu ze sv\u00e9ho vlastn\u00edho tepla.<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">&#8222;<em>Tak moc t\u011b miluju&#8230; tak stra\u0161n\u011b moc&#8230;&#8220;<\/em> &#8222;Tome&#8230; miluju t\u011b&#8230; stra\u0161n\u011b moc!&#8220;<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Kone\u010dn\u011b se Bill oto\u010dil k bratrovi, pevn\u011b ho obejmul, tv\u00e1\u0159 zabo\u0159il do jeho ramene. Ani na okam\u017eik nenechal Toma nahl\u00e9dnout do sv\u00fdch o\u010d\u00ed, uzamkl jejich zoufal\u00fd v\u00fdraz za pevn\u011b zav\u0159en\u00e1 v\u00ed\u010dka. P\u0159esto&#8230; nebo mo\u017en\u00e1 pr\u00e1v\u011b proto&#8230; Tom vyc\u00edtil pr\u00e1zdnotu, kter\u00e1 prostupovala celou Billovu du\u0161i.<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Cht\u011bl se zeptat&#8230; ale b\u00e1l se odpov\u011bdi.<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Sklonil hlavu a nesly\u0161n\u011b nas\u00e1l v\u016fni Billov\u00fdch vlas\u016f&#8230; d\u016fv\u011brn\u011b zn\u00e1mou&#8230; omamuj\u00edc\u00ed&#8230; ale ani ta jej nedok\u00e1zala uklidnit. Z\u0159eteln\u011b c\u00edtil, jak se mu do srdce vkr\u00e1d\u00e1 temn\u00fd st\u00edn strachu, kr\u016f\u010dek po kr\u016f\u010dku, st\u00e1le rychleji s t\u00edm, jak se Bill v jeho n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed st\u00e1le v\u00edc a v\u00edc chv\u011bl.<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Nevydr\u017eel to&#8230; dlan\u011bmi jemn\u011b uchopil bratrovu tv\u00e1\u0159 a zvedl ji.<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">&#8222;Bille&#8230; otev\u0159i o\u010di.&#8220;<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">&#8222;<em>Necht\u011bj to, Tome! Nem\u016f\u017eu ti d\u00e1t p\u0159e\u010d\u00edst v\u0161echnu tu bolest, kter\u00e1 m\u011b zab\u00edj\u00ed! To, \u017ee je v\u0161e ztraceno, \u017ee my jsme ztracen\u00ed&#8230; to, \u017ee je konec&#8230;&#8220;<\/em> Dlouh\u00e9, ebenov\u011b \u010dern\u00e9 vlasy se slab\u011b zavlnily, jak Bill sotva znateln\u011b, s bolestn\u011b zachmu\u0159en\u00fdm obo\u010d\u00edm, zavrt\u011bl hlavou.<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">&#8222;L\u00e1sko&#8230; pros\u00edm!&#8220; V Tomov\u011b nal\u00e9hav\u00e9 prosb\u011b zazn\u011blo zoufalstv\u00ed. Slova z jeho \u00fast vy\u0161la automaticky, t\u00f3n jeho hlasu v\u0161ak pat\u0159il nevy\u0159\u010den\u00fdm my\u0161lenk\u00e1m, kter\u00e9 prosily o opak&#8230; <em>&#8222;L\u00e1sko&#8230; pros\u00edm, neotv\u00edrej o\u010di! Tolik se boj\u00edm toho, co v nich uvid\u00edm&#8230;&#8220;<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Nekone\u010dn\u011b dlouho hled\u011bl na Billovu tv\u00e1\u0159, tak neuv\u011b\u0159iteln\u011b bledou a pod jeho rukama nep\u0159irozen\u011b chladnou. Na jeho zav\u0159en\u00e1 chv\u011bj\u00edc\u00ed se v\u00ed\u010dka&#8230; M\u011bl strach, \u017ee se najednou otev\u0159ou&#8230; a m\u011bl strach, \u017ee se neotev\u0159ou u\u017e nikdy&#8230;<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">P\u0159i pohledu na dv\u011b jak krystaly t\u0159pytiv\u00e9 slzy putuj\u00edc\u00ed po bratrov\u00fdch l\u00edc\u00edch, zanech\u00e1vaj\u00edc za sebou dlouhou \u00fazkou cesti\u010dku a\u017e k brad\u011b, uc\u00edtil i on s\u00e1m pal\u010divou bolest ve sv\u00fdch \u010dokol\u00e1dov\u00fdch o\u010d\u00edch.<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Odrhl sv\u016fj zrak od Billa a rychle zamrkal. Nepomohlo to. Slan\u00e1 kapi\u010dka si prosadila svou a sv\u00e9hlav\u011b opustila sv\u016fj dosavadn\u00ed bezpe\u010dn\u00fd \u00fakryt za tmav\u00fdmi \u0159asami v koutku Tomova oka.<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">&#8222;Sakra, Bille\u2026&#8220; Tomovi se zlomil hlas, bratrovo jm\u00e9no u\u017e jen za\u0161eptal.<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">A z Billova hrdla se ozval tich\u00fd vzlyk, kter\u00fd u\u017e nedok\u00e1zal zadr\u017eet. <em>&#8222;Tom\u00ed&#8230; l\u00e1sko&#8230; tohle j\u00e1 nezvl\u00e1dnu&#8230; nedok\u00e1\u017eu se t\u011b vzd\u00e1t&#8230; to by m\u011b zabilo!&#8220;<\/em><\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Billovy rty se na nepatrn\u00fd okam\u017eik pootev\u0159ely, jakoby cht\u011bl n\u011bco \u0159\u00edct, a pak se s \u00fap\u011bnlivou nal\u00e9havost\u00ed p\u0159itiskly na Tomovy. Prudce, tvrd\u011b&#8230; jako by \u017e\u00e1daly o trochu jeho dechu&#8230; jako by prosily o \u017eivot.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Ani jeden z nich nev\u011bd\u011bl, jak dlouho takhle st\u00e1li. Ml\u010dky a t\u00e9m\u011b\u0159 bez pohnut\u00ed ve vz\u00e1jemn\u00e9m objet\u00ed, \u00fasta na \u00fastech, t\u011blo na t\u011ble. Tak pevn\u011b p\u0159itiskl\u00ed, tak pevn\u011b spojen\u00ed&#8230; l\u00e1skou. \u010cas kolem nich ti\u0161e plynul a vyvol\u00e1val zd\u00e1n\u00ed, \u017ee existuj\u00ed jen oni dva, \u017ee cel\u00fd sv\u011bt utichl&#8230; nav\u017edy?<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">My\u0161lenky &#8211; Billovy, kter\u00e9 u\u017e v\u011bd\u011bly, i Tomovy, kter\u00e9 teprve tu\u0161ily, byly odneseny pry\u010d. Zbyli jen dva lid\u00e9, kte\u0159\u00ed kdysi d\u00e1vno byli jedn\u00edm, ne\u017e je p\u0159\u00edroda n\u00e1siln\u011b rozd\u011blila a ka\u017ed\u00e9mu z nich dala vlastn\u00ed srdce. Neptala se, jestli to tak cht\u011bj\u00ed. Jen konala&#8230; Kdo by se tedy divil, \u017ee hn\u00e1ni sv\u00fdm vlastn\u00edm j\u00e1, svou existenc\u00ed, sv\u00fdm byt\u00edm, tou\u017eili op\u011bt po vz\u00e1jemn\u00e9m spojen\u00ed&#8230; kter\u00e9 u\u017e ale bylo posuzov\u00e1no zcela jin\u00fdmi z\u00e1kony, ne\u017e t\u011bmi p\u0159\u00edrodn\u00edmi.<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Tyhle z\u00e1kony vymysleli lid\u00e9 &#8211; s\u00edla mocn\u011bj\u0161\u00ed ne\u017e sama p\u0159\u00edroda. A lid\u00e9 tak\u00e9 \u010dekali na sebemen\u0161\u00ed chybu, aby mohli trestat. Jak supi krou\u017eili nad t\u011bmi, kdo by se snad opov\u00e1\u017eili poru\u0161it pravidla. T\u0159eba n\u011b\u010d\u00edm tak sm\u011b\u0161n\u00fdm jako je&#8230; l\u00e1ska.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Venku znovu prudce zafoukal v\u00edtr a okno v m\u00edstnosti se zat\u0159\u00e1slo pod jeho n\u00e1porem. Tom otev\u0159el o\u010di a setkal se s pohledem sv\u00e9ho dvoj\u010dete. V\u011bd\u011bl to. V\u011bd\u011bl to hned, jak spat\u0159il tu mrtvou temnotu za jeho v\u00ed\u010dky. Dohnali je. Zabili to posledn\u00ed, co zbylo v Billovi. A zab\u00edjej\u00ed to posledn\u00ed, co je v Tomovi. L\u00e1sku. Jejich l\u00e1sku&#8230; jejich sen&#8230; jejich \u017eivot&#8230;<\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">Jako by oba zkamen\u011bli, st\u00e1li naproti sob\u011b, hled\u00edc si navz\u00e1jem pr\u00e1zdn\u00fdma o\u010dima do srdc\u00ed. Zd\u00e1lo se, \u017ee ani nevn\u00edmaj\u00ed zvuk t\u0159\u00ed\u0161t\u00edc\u00edho se skla, jak okenn\u00ed r\u00e1m nevydr\u017eel tlak st\u00e1le s\u00edl\u00edc\u00edho v\u011btru&#8230; a p\u0159ece &#8211; v jedin\u00e9m okam\u017eiku se oba jako na povel pod\u00edvali vst\u0159\u00edc b\u011bsn\u00edc\u00edm \u017eivl\u016fm venku. Vst\u0159\u00edc p\u0159\u00edrod\u011b a jej\u00edm z\u00e1kon\u016fm&#8230;<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">autor: <strong>Majka<\/strong><\/span><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"false\">betaread: <strong>Helushka<\/strong><\/span><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>autor: Majka Cel\u00fdm Berl\u00ednem se proh\u00e1n\u011bl studen\u00fd podzimn\u00ed v\u00edtr a lid\u00e9 venku na ulic\u00edch se choulili do sv\u00fdch kab\u00e1t\u016f a bund. Z oblohy se pozvolna sn\u00e1\u0161ely drobn\u00e9 b\u00edl\u00e9 vlo\u010dky. Letos p\u0159i\u0161el prvn\u00ed sn\u00edh opravdu brzy&#8230; Jedna n\u011b\u017en\u00e1 nezbednice up\u0159eden\u00e1 z ledov\u00e9 krajky<\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a class=\"myButt \" href=\"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2009\/02\/10\/es-ist-vorbei\/\">Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[45],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15307","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ff-jednodilky"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15307","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=15307"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15307\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=15307"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=15307"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=15307"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}