{"id":16198,"date":"2008-10-25T19:00:00","date_gmt":"2008-10-25T18:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=16162"},"modified":"2020-10-26T01:28:43","modified_gmt":"2020-10-26T00:28:43","slug":"to-elect","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/10\/25\/to-elect\/","title":{"rendered":"To Elect"},"content":{"rendered":"

autor:<\/strong> Licona<\/strong><\/p>\n

\nUvedomujem si mnoh\u00e9 nedokonalosti tejto poviedky. Uv\u00edtam aj kritick\u00e9 koment\u00e1re.<\/em><\/p>\n

PS – P\u00edsan\u00e9 v\u00a0hlbokej depresii… Licona<\/em><\/p>\n

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Pozn\u00e1te ten pocit, ke\u010f na nie\u010do neust\u00e1le mysl\u00edte? Chcete na to nemyslie\u0165, ale za chv\u00ed\u013eu sa op\u00e4\u0165 pristihnete, \u017ee v\u00e1m my\u0161lienky zabl\u00fadia op\u00e4\u0165 t\u00fdm smerom? M\u00e1te pocit, \u017ee ste nasadli do vlaku a\u00a0pr\u00e1ve idete cez tmav\u00fd tunel a\u00a0netu\u0161\u00edte, \u010di z\u00a0neho v\u00e1\u0161 vlak e\u0161te niekedy vyjde?<\/p>\n

Ja som sa pr\u00e1ve takto c\u00edtil. Nikdy predt\u00fdm som nemal tak\u00fdto pocit \u2013 akoby som nad svoj\u00edm \u017eivotom nemal absol\u00fatne \u017eiadnu moc. Akoby som padal. Alebo bol v\u00a0tmavom tuneli…<\/p>\n

Vietor mi rozvieval vlasy. Nebol to v\u0161ak pr\u00edjemn\u00fd pocit. Vietor bol chladn\u00fd, prenikal mi cez bundu a\u017e na ko\u017eu. Telom mi prebehla tria\u0161ka. Pok\u00fasil som sa nemyslie\u0165 na zimu. Bolo to \u013eahk\u00e9. V\u00a0poslednej dobe bolo \u013eahk\u00e9 zabudn\u00fa\u0165 na v\u0161etko okrem toho, na \u010do som chcel zabudn\u00fa\u0165 najviac. Na jeho tv\u00e1r…<\/p>\n

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Zad\u00edval som sa do dia\u013eky. Krvavo\u010derven\u00e9 l\u00fa\u010de slnka zalievali mohutn\u00e9 skaly, ktor\u00e9 sa t\u00fd\u010dili do neba, akoby sa ho chceli dotkn\u00fa\u0165. Ja som to v\u0161ak u\u017e nevidel. D\u00edval som sa \u010falej ako na horizont. D\u00edval som sa do minulosti. A\u00a0so spomienkami sa mi op\u00e4\u0165 za\u010dali vyn\u00e1ra\u0165 tv\u00e1re. Jedna milovan\u00e1 a\u00a0jedna nen\u00e1viden\u00e1. Tv\u00e1r m\u00f4jho brata Toma a\u00a0tv\u00e1r jeho priate\u013eky Jess. Jedna tv\u00e1r lemovan\u00e1 dredami a\u00a0druh\u00e1 dlh\u00fdmi hebk\u00fdmi blon\u010fat\u00fdmi vlasmi. Pam\u00e4tal som si ten pocit, ke\u010f som tie vlasy dr\u017eal. Potiahol som jej ich, zaja\u010dala. Ten jakot bol ako balzam na moju du\u0161u. Vtedy. A\u00a0tepl\u00e1 krv stekaj\u00faca po mojich ruk\u00e1ch bola ako rieka, ktor\u00e1 odn\u00e1\u0161ala v\u0161etok sm\u00fatok, ktor\u00fd som c\u00edtil. Ale aj to sa zmenilo. Keby som len bol vedel, \u017ee ju miluje… keby som to tak bol vtedy vedel, ni\u010d z\u00a0toho by sa nestalo a\u00a0ja by som sa nec\u00edtil, akoby som stratil \u010das\u0165 svojej du\u0161e. Alebo cel\u00fa. Ktovie, mo\u017eno, keby mnou teraz niekto pohrkal, c\u00edtil by, \u017ee vo mne nie je ni\u010d. \u017de moje telo je len pr\u00e1zdna \u0161krupina. Len obal. Moja du\u0161a odletela spolu s\u00a0Tomovou. Tak pre\u010do som to e\u0161te neukon\u010dil?<\/p>\n

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Mo\u017eno som d\u00fafal, \u017ee v\u0161etko raz pominie. \u017de sa raz zobud\u00edm a\u00a0zist\u00edm, \u017ee nele\u017e\u00edm v\u00a0spac\u00e1ku uprostred temn\u00e9ho lesa pln\u00e9ho hr\u00f4zostra\u0161n\u00fdch zvukov, ale v\u00a0m\u00e4kkej posteli a\u00a0nado mnou sa skl\u00e1\u0148a Tom s\u00a0t\u00fdm jeho ve\u010dn\u00fdm \u00fasmevom na per\u00e1ch a\u00a0s\u00a0tanierom pln\u00fdm vo\u0148av\u00fdch palaciniek. A\u00a0na chv\u00ed\u013eu som t\u00fa v\u00f4\u0148u skuto\u010dne zac\u00edtil. Na tv\u00e1ri sa mi rozlial \u00fasmev. Zrazu som si uvedomil, kde som. Skalisk\u00e1 mali tmav\u0161iu farbu, ako ke\u010f som tam pri\u0161iel. Podo mnou tiekol pot\u00f4\u010dik a\u00a0ligotal sa ako diamant. Okolit\u00e9 lesy, ktor\u00e9 by mi v\u00a0d\u00e1vnych \u010dasoch nah\u00e1\u0148ali strach, boli pren\u00e1dhern\u00e9. Vietor nah\u00e1\u0148al zlat\u00e9 l\u00edstie – bolo ist\u00e9, kto nakoniec vyhr\u00e1.<\/p>\n

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\u201eScotty!\u201c zakri\u010dal som. Ozval sa \u0161tekot a\u00a0ten m\u00f4j biely chlp\u00e1\u010d takmer zakopol o\u00a0svoje vlastn\u00e9 laby, \u010do sa tak pon\u00e1h\u013eal.<\/p>\n

\u201eScotty, k\u013eud,\u201c povedal som mu, ke\u010f do m\u0148a narazil a\u00a0takmer sme obaja spadli cez zr\u00e1z. To by bola hl\u00fapa smr\u0165 \u2013 po tom v\u0161etkom, \u010d\u00edm sme spolu pre\u0161li.<\/p>\n

\u201ePo\u010f, p\u00f4jdeme. U\u017e bude tma, mus\u00edme si n\u00e1js\u0165 nejak\u00e9 miesto na sp\u00e1nok.\u201c<\/p>\n

Zak\u00fdval chvostom, akoby mi rozumel. Ne\u0161iel v\u0161ak dvakr\u00e1t nad\u0161ene. Vedel som, \u017ee les sa mu nep\u00e1\u010di. Ale nemali sme na v\u00fdber. Bu\u010f v\u00e4zenie pre m\u0148a a\u00a0\u00fatulok pre Scottyho, alebo les.<\/p>\n

Scotty, jedin\u00fd tvor, ktor\u00fd mi rozumie. Zac\u00edtil som v\u010fa\u010dnos\u0165. Tak\u017ee mo\u017eno mi k\u00fasok du\u0161e nakoniec zostal. E\u0161te raz som sa pozrel do h\u013abky na te\u010d\u00facu vodu. Mo\u017eno som mal sko\u010di\u0165. Ve\u010f \u010do ma v\u00a0\u017eivote e\u0161te \u010dakalo? Op\u00e4\u0165 sa mi vynorila Tomova tv\u00e1r. Usmievala sa. Aj napriek tomu, \u010do som sp\u00f4sobil. K\u00a0\u010domu som ho dohnal. Zrazu sa jeho \u00fasmev vytratil a\u00a0nahradila ho zlos\u0165 a\u00a0sm\u00fatok.<\/p>\n

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Mus\u00edm trpie\u0165 za svoje hriechy. Ale dokedy to vydr\u017e\u00edm? Sp\u00e1chal som ich to\u013eko, m\u00f4\u017ee to trva\u0165 veky…<\/p>\n

Povzdychol som si a\u00a0vybral som sa za Scottym. Mo\u017eno treba d\u00fafa\u0165, \u017ee raz u\u017e bude dobre. Niekedy n\u00e1m ni\u010d in\u00e9 nezost\u00e1va. Bez d\u00fafania by sme neboli \u013eu\u010fmi. A\u00a0v\u017edy je d\u00f4vod, pre\u010do \u017ei\u0165. Len kv\u00f4li \u017eivotu samotn\u00e9mu. Alebo kv\u00f4li ka\u017edodenn\u00fdm mali\u010dkostiam. Pozrel som na Scottyho a\u00a0na kr\u00e1su jesene. A\u00a0aj napriek sm\u00fatku a\u00a0neistote som to vedel… Vedel som, \u017ee spolu to zvl\u00e1dneme.<\/p>\n

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autor: Licona
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autor: Licona Uvedomujem si mnoh\u00e9 nedokonalosti tejto poviedky. Uv\u00edtam aj kritick\u00e9 koment\u00e1re. PS – P\u00edsan\u00e9 v\u00a0hlbokej depresii… Licona Pozn\u00e1te ten pocit, ke\u010f na nie\u010do neust\u00e1le mysl\u00edte? Chcete na to nemyslie\u0165, ale za chv\u00ed\u013eu sa op\u00e4\u0165 pristihnete, \u017ee v\u00e1m my\u0161lienky zabl\u00fadia op\u00e4\u0165 t\u00fdm<\/p>\n

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