{"id":17017,"date":"2008-08-07T16:00:00","date_gmt":"2008-08-07T15:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=16979"},"modified":"2008-08-07T16:00:00","modified_gmt":"2008-08-07T15:00:00","slug":"in-memoriam","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/08\/07\/in-memoriam\/","title":{"rendered":"In memoriam"},"content":{"rendered":"<div>autor: <strong>tokiaccka<\/strong><br \/>betaread: <strong>Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n<div><em>Jednou sem m\u011bla taky depku. M\u00fdmu klukovi um\u0159ela m\u00e1ma. Zrovna o pr\u00e1zdnin\u00e1ch. Nev\u011bd\u011bla jsem, co m\u00e1m d\u011blat. Sna\u017eila jsem se mu pomoct. Ale nev\u011bd\u011bla jsem jak. Tak vznikla tahle mini pov\u00eddka. Je to na p\u00edsni\u010dku od Negative: In memoriam.<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Jako ro\u010dn\u00ed obdob\u00ed m\u011bn\u00ed sv\u00e9 tv\u00e1\u0159e, tak m\u011bn\u00edm svoj\u00ed tv\u00e1\u0159 j\u00e1.<\/div>\n<div>D\u00e9\u0161\u0165 jako slzy padaj\u00ed potichu dol\u016f. S rozta\u017een\u00fdmi pa\u017eemi.<\/div>\n<div>V\u00e1nky \u0161eptaj\u00ed tv\u00fdm hlasem m\u00e9 jm\u00e9no. J\u00e1 ho \u0161ept\u00e1m s\u00e1m. Tady.<\/div>\n<div>T\u00ed\u017eiv\u00e9 st\u00edny mi p\u0159ich\u00e1zej\u00ed \u0159\u00edct ten stejn\u00fd star\u00fd zaru\u010den\u00fd p\u0159\u00edb\u011bh. Jak jsme se narodili. Ty o deset minut pozd\u011bji ne\u017e j\u00e1.<\/div>\n<div>Jsem zasekl\u00fd na tom m\u00edst\u011b, jak v\u011bze\u0148 tohohle pokoje. Na\u0161eho spole\u010dn\u00e9ho pokoje.<\/div>\n<hr \/>\n<div>Bolestiv\u00e9 vzpom\u00ednky na tebe a na m\u011b si po\u0159\u00e1d prom\u00edt\u00e1m v hlav\u011b. St\u00e1le dokola.<\/div>\n<div>Beru barvy touhy a maluji t\u011b na svou ze\u010f. Tv\u016fj obli\u010dej. Tv\u00e9 t\u011blo. Tebe.<\/div>\n<div>Je snad tak moc \u017e\u00e1dat zlat\u00e9ho klidu? Je to jednoduch\u00e9 a pochopiteln\u00e9. Nen\u00ed \u017e\u00e1dn\u00e9 v\u00fdchodisko. Nem\u016f\u017ee\u0161 se vr\u00e1tit. Jsi ve sv\u00e9m klidu.<\/div>\n<div>P\u0159eji si, abych byl mrtv\u00fd. Mrtv\u00fd jako ty a padaj\u00edc\u00ed mot\u00fdl. Padal bych za tebou. Dol\u016f. Do zem\u011b. Do hrobu. Do rakve.<\/div>\n<div>Po jednom pro\u017eit\u00e9m dni, co jsme byli jen spolu, jsem se zamiloval.<\/div>\n<div>Douf\u00e1m, \u017ee nalezne\u0161 sv\u016fj nesmrteln\u00fd klid. V\u011b\u010dn\u00fd, opravdov\u00fd. P\u0159eji ti to. Douf\u00e1m. V\u011b\u0159\u00edm.<\/div>\n<div>V\u00edm, \u017ee je\u0161t\u011b nem\u016f\u017eu um\u0159\u00edt, nemohl bych znovu \u017e\u00edt. Ty bys necht\u011bl, abych \u0161el za tebou. Ale p\u0159itom bys cht\u011bl b\u00fdt se mnou. Tak jako j\u00e1 s tebou. Tak moc.<\/div>\n<div>Hodn\u011b nikdy nen\u00ed dost. Te\u010f u\u017e to v\u00edm. D\u00edky tob\u011b.<\/div>\n<div>Jsme uv\u011bzn\u011bni v \u010dase, dokud n\u00e1s smrt neodvede pry\u010d. Jen\u017ee\u2026 tebe u\u017e odvedla. J\u00e1 z\u016fstal.<\/div>\n<div>A v moment\u011b, kdy jsem nejv\u00edc vystra\u0161en\u00fd, jsi nep\u0159\u00edtomn\u011b spal a brzy ses ztratil. Nav\u017edy. Nechal jsi m\u011b tu.<\/div>\n<div>A poka\u017ed\u00e9, kdy ses p\u0159estal nadechovat, jsi byl bl\u00ed\u017e k m\u00edstu, kam nepat\u0159\u00ed\u0161. Jen\u017ee se to ned\u00e1 vr\u00e1tit.<\/div>\n<div>Nikdy jsem nemyslel, \u017ee to m\u016f\u017ee b\u00fdt tak t\u011b\u017ek\u00e9 a drsn\u00e9. Bez tebe na tomhle sv\u011bt\u011b. Tys byl moje nad\u011bje.<\/div>\n<div>Po tom v\u0161em nem\u016f\u017eeme dostat v\u0161echno. J\u00e1 nic nechci, krom\u011b tebe.<\/div>\n<div>V tom sladk\u00e9m v\u00fdletu jsi mi byl d\u00e1n jako dar. Vzpom\u00edn\u00e1\u0161?<\/div>\n<div>Douf\u00e1m, \u017ee tam n\u011bkde na m\u011b \u010dek\u00e1\u0161, na tom m\u00edst\u011b, kde se zase obejmeme. Najdu si t\u011b. V\u0161ude. V\u017edycky.<\/div>\n<div>Ty jsi \u0161el prvn\u00ed a j\u00e1 p\u016fjdu po tob\u011b. Ale ne hned. Pochop.<\/div>\n<div>Jsem v depresi, ale je mi to jedno. Je to deprese kv\u016fli tob\u011b. Tak j\u00ed nech\u00e1m, a\u0165 d\u011bl\u00e1 co chce.<\/div>\n<div>Chyb\u00ed\u0161 mi. Moc. St\u00e1le. Ka\u017ed\u00fdm okam\u017eikem.<\/div>\n<div>Douf\u00e1m, \u017ee m\u011b sly\u0161\u00ed\u0161. V\u011b\u0159\u00edm. Snad. Ur\u010dit\u011b.<\/div>\n<div>autor: <strong>tokiaccka<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>autor: tokiacckabetaread: Janule Jednou sem m\u011bla taky depku. M\u00fdmu klukovi um\u0159ela m\u00e1ma. Zrovna o pr\u00e1zdnin\u00e1ch. Nev\u011bd\u011bla jsem, co m\u00e1m d\u011blat. Sna\u017eila jsem se mu pomoct. Ale nev\u011bd\u011bla jsem jak. Tak vznikla tahle mini pov\u00eddka. Je to na p\u00edsni\u010dku od Negative: In memoriam.<\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a class=\"myButt \" href=\"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/08\/07\/in-memoriam\/\">Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[45],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17017","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ff-jednodilky"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17017","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=17017"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17017\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=17017"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=17017"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=17017"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}