{"id":17272,"date":"2008-07-12T15:30:00","date_gmt":"2008-07-12T14:30:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=17234"},"modified":"2008-07-12T15:30:00","modified_gmt":"2008-07-12T14:30:00","slug":"stranger","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/07\/12\/stranger\/","title":{"rendered":"Stranger"},"content":{"rendered":"<div>autor: <strong>Destiny<\/strong><br \/>betaread: <strong>Helushka<\/strong><\/div>\n<div>Je n\u011bco kolem p\u016flnoci a j\u00e1 sed\u00edm v kuchyni, \u0161\u00e1lek k\u00e1vy pevn\u011b sv\u00edr\u00e1m v ruce a d\u00edv\u00e1m se n\u011bkam do zdi. P\u0159em\u00fd\u0161l\u00edm. P\u0159em\u00fd\u0161l\u00edm nade mnou, nad n\u00edm, nad n\u00e1mi.<br \/>V posledn\u00ed dob\u011b je v\u0161echno \u0161patn\u011b, v\u0161echno se pokazilo a j\u00e1 nem\u016f\u017eu naprosto nic d\u011blat, jen ml\u010dky p\u0159ihl\u00ed\u017eet, neschopen cokoli \u0159\u00edci nebo nam\u00edtnout. V\u0161echno je neskute\u010dn\u011b slo\u017eit\u00e9, ale p\u0159esto tak jednoduch\u00e9.<\/div>\n<div>Jsou to asi dva m\u011bs\u00edce zp\u00e1tky, co jsem si v\u0161iml, \u017ee je n\u011bco \u0161patn\u011b, \u017ee se n\u011bco d\u011bje s mou l\u00e1skou. Nev\u00edm, kdy p\u0159esn\u011b jsem na to p\u0159i\u0161el, jestli r\u00e1no, ve\u010der, jestli venku nebo doma, ale od t\u00e9to chv\u00edle jsem si uv\u011bdomil, \u017ee nejsem ten jedin\u00fd v Billov\u011b \u017eivot\u011b.<br \/>Byl to hrozn\u00fd pocit, kdy\u017e jsem zvedl nep\u0159\u00edjemn\u011b zvon\u00edc\u00ed telefon a ze sluch\u00e1tka se ozval hlas nezn\u00e1m\u00e9ho chlapce, kter\u00fd se do\u017eadoval m\u00e9 l\u00e1sky.<\/div>\n<hr \/>\n<div>Nejd\u0159\u00edv jsem tomu nev\u011b\u0159il, kdy\u017e mi ten kluk \u0159\u00edkal, \u017ee spolu pravideln\u011b sp\u00ed, byl jsem zaslepen\u00fd, naivn\u00ed.<br \/>Doufal jsem, \u017ee tohle by mi Bill nikdy neud\u011blal, bezmezn\u011b jsem mu v\u011b\u0159il, ve v\u0161em, p\u0159esto jsem si za\u010dal chov\u00e1n\u00ed Billa v\u00edc v\u0161\u00edmat. Ka\u017ed\u00fd t\u00fdden okolo jeden\u00e1ct\u00e9 v noci se \u0161el proj\u00edt a mn\u011b najednou do\u0161lo, \u017ee nechod\u00ed ven, \u017ee celou dobu chodil za <em>n\u00edm<\/em>. A j\u00e1? J\u00e1 na n\u011bho \u010dekal doma, s opl\u00fdvaj\u00edc\u00ed l\u00e1skou jsem \u010dekal, a\u017e zarachot\u00ed kl\u00ed\u010de v z\u00e1mku a on m\u011b p\u016fjde obejmout a pol\u00edbit.<br \/>Jak mohl a jak se m\u016f\u017ee po tom v\u0161em chovat, jakoby se nic nestalo? To mu ned\u011bl\u00e1 probl\u00e9my vyspat se s n\u011bjak\u00fdm klukem, potom p\u0159ij\u00edt za mnou a \u0161eptat mi, jak moc m\u011b miluje?<\/div>\n<div><em>Nobody believes me when I tell them that you\u00b4re out of your mind.<br \/>Nobody believes me when I tell them that there\u00b4s so much you hide.<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Na moment se proberu z m\u00fdch my\u0161lenek a pod\u00edv\u00e1m se na hodiny, je p\u0159esn\u011b \u010dtvrt na jednu, usm\u011bji se. Co asi tak m\u016fj Bill d\u011bl\u00e1? V\u00edm to, v\u00edm moc dob\u0159e, co d\u011bl\u00e1, ale nem\u016f\u017eu a hlavn\u011b si to nechci p\u0159ipustit.<\/div>\n<div>Jak dlouho m\u011b asi podv\u00e1d\u00ed? Odkdy u\u017e mu nesta\u010d\u00edm? Kdy si uv\u011bdomil, \u017ee pot\u0159ebuje zpest\u0159it sv\u016fj sexu\u00e1ln\u00ed \u017eivot? Nev\u00edm, co jsem d\u011blal \u0161patn\u011b, milovali jsme se spolu tolikr\u00e1t a j\u00e1 m\u011bl v\u017edy pocit, \u017ee se mu to l\u00edbilo, ale to jsem se asi \u0161eredn\u011b spletl.<\/div>\n<div>\u010castokr\u00e1t jsem p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161lel, jestli je chyba ve mn\u011b, d\u011bl\u00e1m pro n\u011bj v\u0161echno, snesl bych mu modr\u00e9 z nebe, ale jemu to nesta\u010d\u00ed, nikdy. Chce v\u0161echno a hned, ano, asi jsem na to m\u011bl myslet, kdy\u017e jsme s Billem p\u0159ekro\u010dili tu pomyslnou hranici bratrstv\u00ed, zn\u00e1m ho p\u0159ece dokonale, v\u00edm, \u017ee ho hodn\u011b v\u011bc\u00ed rychle omrz\u00ed. Omrzel jsem ho snad i j\u00e1? P\u0159estal jsem ho bavit? Ne, rad\u0161i to nechci v\u011bd\u011bt.<br \/>Je asi dob\u0159e, \u017ee jsem si za\u010dal v\u0161\u00edmat, jak se chov\u00e1. Kdy\u017e se na m\u011b pod\u00edv\u00e1, nevid\u00edm tu v\u00e1\u0161e\u0148, to jisk\u0159en\u00ed a tu l\u00e1sku, kterou jsem kdysi v\u00eddal v jeho hn\u011bd\u00fdch o\u010d\u00edch. Te\u010f je tam pr\u00e1zdnota. Lituje snad toho, \u017ee m\u011b podv\u00e1d\u00ed? P\u0159ijde mi, \u017ee mu na tom ani tro\u0161ku nez\u00e1le\u017e\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div><em>Theres no kindness in your eyes<br \/>The way you look at me, it\u00b4s just not right<br \/>I can tell whats going on this time<br \/>Theres a stranger in my life<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Bol\u00ed to. Neskute\u010dn\u011b moc m\u011b to bol\u00ed, ale nechci o n\u011bho p\u0159ij\u00edt, boj\u00edm se, \u017ee kdybych mu \u0159ekl, \u017ee o jeho nev\u011b\u0159e v\u00edm, tak \u017ee by m\u011b opustil, mo\u017en\u00e1 by \u0161el za <em>n\u00edm<\/em>. Za t\u00edm klukem, kter\u00fd mi ni\u010d\u00ed \u017eivot. Nesnesl bych to, bez Billa jsem troska, miluju ho k zbl\u00e1zn\u011bn\u00ed, zaj\u00edk\u00e1m se l\u00e1skou k n\u011bmu a nedok\u00e1\u017eu proti tomu nic d\u011blat. P\u0159itom chci b\u00fdt stejn\u00fd jako on, chci b\u00fdt tak bezstarostn\u00fd a neohledupln\u00fd k ostatn\u00edm lidem, k lidem, kter\u00e9 m\u00e1m r\u00e1d. Nechci b\u00fdt ten citliv\u00fd, ten, kter\u00e9ho zni\u010d\u00ed l\u00e1ska.<\/div>\n<div>L\u00e1ska, tak kr\u00e1sn\u00e9 a p\u0159itom tak d\u011bsiv\u00e9 slovo, znamen\u00e1 v\u0161echno a p\u0159esto nic. Pro mnoh\u00e9 je to nad\u011bje, \u0161t\u011bst\u00ed, \u017eivot. Pro m\u011b bolest, utrpen\u00ed a smutek.<\/div>\n<div>Rachot kl\u00ed\u010d\u016f protrhne moje p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161len\u00ed a j\u00e1 najednou c\u00edt\u00edm, \u017ee je v\u0161echno jako d\u0159\u00edv, \u017ee Bill je zase tady, i kdy\u017e z\u00edtra op\u011bt zmiz\u00ed, ale vr\u00e1til se, vr\u00e1til se ke mn\u011b.<br \/>&#8222;Tome? Jsem doma!&#8220; Oh, ano, op\u011bt tak perfektn\u011b upraven\u00fd, jinak by nevy\u0161el ven.<br \/>Obj\u00edm\u00e1 m\u011b, c\u00edt\u00edm jeho v\u016fni, miluji tu v\u016fni, miluji jeho.<\/div>\n<div><em>Did I ever do anything that was this cruel to you?<br \/>Did I ever make you wonder who was standing in the room?<br \/>You made yourself look perfect in everyway<br \/>So when this goes down, I\u00b4m the one that will be blamed<br \/>Your plan is working so you can just walk away<br \/>Baby your secret\u00b4s safe.<br \/><\/em><\/div>\n<div>Ne, dnes je\u0161t\u011b nen\u00ed ten den, kdy mu \u0159eknu, \u017ee o tom v\u0161em v\u00edm. Nev\u00edm, jestli takov\u00fd den v\u016fbec p\u0159ijde, jestli mu to n\u011bkdy dok\u00e1\u017eu \u0159\u00edct. Strach je p\u0159ece v\u011bt\u0161\u00ed ne\u017e up\u0159\u00edmnost.<br \/>Rad\u0161i se budu tr\u00e1pit, ne\u017e abych o n\u011bho p\u0159i\u0161el, budu se tr\u00e1pit do konce sv\u00e9ho \u017eivota a to jen kv\u016fli n\u011bmu, kv\u016fli m\u00e9 l\u00e1sce, kv\u016fli Billovi.<\/div>\n<div>autor: <strong>Destiny<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>autor: Destinybetaread: Helushka Je n\u011bco kolem p\u016flnoci a j\u00e1 sed\u00edm v kuchyni, \u0161\u00e1lek k\u00e1vy pevn\u011b sv\u00edr\u00e1m v ruce a d\u00edv\u00e1m se n\u011bkam do zdi. P\u0159em\u00fd\u0161l\u00edm. P\u0159em\u00fd\u0161l\u00edm nade mnou, nad n\u00edm, nad n\u00e1mi.V posledn\u00ed dob\u011b je v\u0161echno \u0161patn\u011b, v\u0161echno se pokazilo a j\u00e1<\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a class=\"myButt \" href=\"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/07\/12\/stranger\/\">Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[45],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17272","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ff-jednodilky"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17272","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=17272"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17272\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=17272"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=17272"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=17272"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}