{"id":17478,"date":"2008-06-22T14:30:00","date_gmt":"2008-06-22T13:30:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=17439"},"modified":"2008-06-22T14:30:00","modified_gmt":"2008-06-22T13:30:00","slug":"bolest-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/06\/22\/bolest-2\/","title":{"rendered":"Boles\u0165"},"content":{"rendered":"<div>autor: <strong>aKira<\/strong><br \/>betaread: <strong>Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n<div><em>(moja prv\u00e1 ff-ka \u010do zverej\u0148ujem, tak bu\u010fte kusom zhovievav\u00fd xD P\u00edsan\u00e9 pri dos\u0165 deprimuj\u00facej n\u00e1lade pri Hilf mir Fliegen a Gone with the sin (sk\u00faste si to pusti\u0165 pri tom xD) to\u0165 vsio)<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Boles\u0165.<\/div>\n<div>U\u017e nec\u00edtim ni\u010d in\u00e9, iba t\u00fa jedin\u00fa vec, boles\u0165. V\u0161etko je naopak, poskr\u00facan\u00e9, znehodnoten\u00e9&#8230; Tak pre\u010do neviem presta\u0165? Viem ak\u00fd si naozaj. A aj tak \u0165a milujem.<\/div>\n<div>A to bol\u00ed&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Zidealizovali si ma ako zvodcu, lama\u010da srdc\u00ed. No, opak je pravdou. Citlivej\u0161\u00ed \u010dlovek odo m\u0148a sn\u00e1\u010f ani nie je. Alebo sk\u00f4r naivnej\u0161\u00ed. A ty, p\u00e1n romantick\u00fd, citliv\u00fd, \u010dakaj\u00faci na prav\u00fa l\u00e1sku? Ty si \u00faplne in\u00fd. Arogantn\u00fd a egoistick\u00fd. Div\u00edm sa, \u017ee si sa stal spev\u00e1kom a nie hercom.<\/div>\n<div>Bol\u00ed to. Tak dlho! Zosmie\u0161\u0148uje\u0161 a poni\u017euje\u0161 ma! No zvykol som si. Je to u\u017e dlho. No st\u00e1le to tak bol\u00ed.<\/div>\n<hr \/>\n<div>Vyznal som sa ti z l\u00e1sky. Povedal, \u017ee aj napriek tomu, ak\u00fd si, aj tak \u0165a milujem. A ty? Vysmial si ma! Vraj som chutn\u00fd, vyspal by si sa so mnou, len\u017ee to je asi tak v\u0161etko. Pche! E\u0161te aj teraz si zah\u013eaden\u00fd do seba! Bolo by to pre teba ako vyspa\u0165 sa so sam\u00fdm sebou, nie? Tak podobn\u00fd a z\u00e1rove\u0148 tak odli\u0161n\u00fd.<\/div>\n<div>Bol\u00ed to, ve\u013emi&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Vid\u00edm \u0165a, stoj\u00ed\u0161 tu predo mnou, a so smiechom nie\u010do drv\u00ed\u0161 v ruke. Prizriem sa bli\u017e\u0161ie a spozn\u00e1vam v tvojich ruk\u00e1ch svoje srdce, zni\u010den\u00e9, roz\u0161\u013eapan\u00e9.<\/div>\n<div>A to bol\u00ed&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>A tak niekedy prem\u00fd\u0161\u013eam, mal si ma v\u00f4bec r\u00e1d? M\u00e1\u0161 nejak\u00e9 city? Mus\u00ed\u0161 ma\u0165, preto\u017ee tie texty \u010do p\u00ed\u0161e\u0161 nevznikli len tak. Len\u017ee o kom s\u00fa? Nech\u00e1pem \u0165a. U\u017e d\u00e1vno neviem \u010d\u00edta\u0165 v tvojich o\u010diach. Vid\u00edm tam len hrub\u00fd m\u00far, za ktor\u00fd ma nechce\u0161 pusti\u0165. Pre\u010do bra\u010dek? Pre\u010do? Vie\u0161, t\u00e1 tvoja chladnos\u0165 bol\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>Ako dlho si sa nesmial? A nie, nemysl\u00edm ten falo\u0161n\u00fd dennodenn\u00fd \u00fasmev! Mysl\u00edm ten od srdca! Ten prav\u00fd, nefal\u0161ovan\u00fd radostn\u00fd \u00fasmev, do ktor\u00e9ho som sa za\u013e\u00fabil! Len\u017ee ten vymizol v de\u0148 na\u0161ich 15tych naroden\u00edn. Neviem pre\u010do, neviem ako. Odvtedy si in\u00fd. Mysl\u00ed\u0161 len na seba! Ko\u013ekokr\u00e1t si mi povedal, \u017ee ma nen\u00e1vid\u00ed\u0161? A pre\u010do? Pre moju l\u00e1sku?<\/div>\n<div>Bol\u00ed to, ako tis\u00edc no\u017eov v srdci, ktor\u00e9 si mi ukradol&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>A preto som sa rozhodol. In\u00fa cestu nevid\u00edm. Viem, \u017ee sklamem ve\u013ea \u013eud\u00ed, viem \u017ee bud\u00fa trpie\u0165, no moja boles\u0165 zmizne! Kone\u010dne bude pre\u010d. A budem vo\u013en\u00fd!<\/div>\n<div>Pomaly vyber\u00e1m z pe\u0148a\u017eenky mal\u00e9 p\u00fazdro. M\u00e1m ho st\u00e1le pri sebe. Otv\u00e1ram ho a usmejem sa na mal\u00fd leskl\u00fd predmet. A v tom sa zh\u00e1\u010dim! Takto to nechcem! Chcem nie\u010do in\u00e9! Nie\u010do extra! Aspo\u0148 raz v \u017eivote chcem nie\u010do lep\u0161ie. A v tom ma to napadne.<\/div>\n<div>Prech\u00e1dzam k balk\u00f3nu, otv\u00e1ram sklenen\u00e9 dvere. Srdce mi spla\u0161ene bije, no nevn\u00edmam to. U\u017e d\u00e1vno som sa nau\u010dil nevn\u00edma\u0165 ho. St\u00fapim na prv\u00fa prie\u010dku z\u00e1bradlia. Pozriem dolu. Jedin\u00e1 slza pad\u00e1 do temnoty. Ak\u00e1 ir\u00f3nia. Presne o tom si spieval. Vraj nesk\u00e1\u010d! Len\u017ee niekedy sa in\u00e1\u010d ned\u00e1. Rozm\u00fd\u0161\u013eam, bude\u0161 v\u00f4bec plaka\u0165? Bude ti to aspo\u0148 trochu \u013e\u00fato? No, odpove\u010f neviem. Pomaly postupujem na druh\u00fa, tretiu, \u0161tvrt\u00fa prie\u010dku. E\u0161te jedna a je po v\u0161etkom. Zatv\u00e1ram o\u010di, p\u00fa\u0161\u0165am sa&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>A v tom ma nie\u010die ruky pevne chytia za boky. Prudko o\u010di znovu otvor\u00edm. T\u00fa bielu poko\u017eku spozn\u00e1m v\u0161ade. Pri\u0165ahuje\u0161 ma ku sebe, ot\u00e1\u010da\u0161 ma ako v tej pesni\u010dke, \u0161epk\u00e1\u0161<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Pros\u00edm, nesk\u00e1\u010d!!&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>Pozriem sa ti do o\u010d\u00ed a kone\u010dne ich vid\u00edm. Vid\u00edm ten strach, t\u00fa osamelos\u0165! A vid\u00edm aj l\u00e1sku.<\/div>\n<div>\u0160epk\u00e1\u0161 mi ospravedlnenia. Vysvet\u013euje\u0161 mi v\u0161etko \u010do som nevedel, nech\u00e1pal. \u017de v 15tich si si uvedomil, \u010do ku mne c\u00edti\u0161 a ako si sa toho b\u00e1l, ako ti bolo zle zo seba sam\u00e9ho, ke\u010f si si ma doberal, poni\u017eoval. A ja \u0165a len posl\u00facham. Pevne ma obj\u00edma\u0161 a usmieva\u0161 sa. T\u00fdm prav\u00fdm \u00fasmevom. Pla\u010de\u0161, slzami radosti i sm\u00fatku.<\/div>\n<div>Ne\u017ene ma pobozk\u00e1\u0161 na pery.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Milujem \u0165a, Tomi,&#8220; vrav\u00ed\u0161 potichu.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Milujem \u0165a, Bill\u00ed,&#8220; \u0161epk\u00e1m do tvojich vlasov.<\/div>\n<div>A zis\u0165ujem, \u017ee aj t\u00e1 najhor\u0161ia no\u010dn\u00e1 mora sa m\u00f4\u017ee skon\u010di\u0165 \u0161\u0165astne&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>autor: <strong>aKira<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>autor: aKirabetaread: Janule (moja prv\u00e1 ff-ka \u010do zverej\u0148ujem, tak bu\u010fte kusom zhovievav\u00fd xD P\u00edsan\u00e9 pri dos\u0165 deprimuj\u00facej n\u00e1lade pri Hilf mir Fliegen a Gone with the sin (sk\u00faste si to pusti\u0165 pri tom xD) to\u0165 vsio) Boles\u0165. 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