{"id":17675,"date":"2008-06-02T14:30:00","date_gmt":"2008-06-02T13:30:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=17636"},"modified":"2008-06-02T14:30:00","modified_gmt":"2008-06-02T13:30:00","slug":"never-land","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/06\/02\/never-land\/","title":{"rendered":"Never land"},"content":{"rendered":"<div>autor: <strong>Khalil S.<br \/><\/strong>betaread: <strong>Verushka<\/strong><\/div>\n<div>Zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00ed to pocit, promlouvat do ticha, \u010dekat na odpov\u011b\u010f a p\u0159itom v\u011bd\u011bt, \u017ee se j\u00ed nedo\u010dk\u00e1m. Neusly\u0161\u00edm nikdy nic jin\u00e9ho, ne\u017e svou vlastn\u00ed ozv\u011bnu. Pro\u010d? Semkla m\u011b nicota nebo mi n\u011b\u010d\u00ed m\u0159\u00ed\u017ee zatarasily cestu k ostatn\u00edm\u2026?<\/div>\n<div>Ne, to v\u0161e J\u00e1&#8230; To v\u0161e jsou moje chyby a j\u00e1 za n\u011b plat\u00edm\u2026 Nebav\u00ed m\u011b ustavi\u010dn\u011b p\u0159esv\u011bd\u010dovat okol\u00ed, \u017ee m\u00e1m na to &#8222;zapadat&#8220;.<\/div>\n<div>Dnes jsem si p\u0159\u00e1l b\u00fdt strom. Moje ko\u0159eny by pevn\u011b sv\u00edraly zem a j\u00e1 si bral jej\u00ed s\u00edlu. Strom. Mohutn\u00fd, stalet\u00fd strom&#8230; Alespo\u0148 takhle bych splynul s okol\u00edm, bez jak\u00fdchkoli obsc\u00e9nn\u00edch \u010din\u016f&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Cht\u011bl jsem ut\u00edkat&#8230; rozb\u011bhl jsem se, ale po chv\u00edli zase zastavil. Do\u0161lo mi, \u017ee p\u0159ed sebou neute\u010du. Nikdy.<\/div>\n<hr \/>\n<div>Pro\u0161el jsi kolem mne, otev\u0159el jsem pusu, cht\u011bl ti toho tolik \u0159\u00edct, ale nezmohl jsem se ani na pozdrav. Tv\u016fj pohled byl zoufal\u00fd a stejn\u011b pr\u00e1zdn\u00fd jako ten m\u016fj. Ale j\u00e1 si to nep\u0159ipou\u0161t\u011bl, ty jsi byl p\u0159ece v\u017edycky ten siln\u011bj\u0161\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>V\u011b\u0159 mi, \u017ee v duchu ve mn\u011b kdosi k\u0159i\u010del, opravdu. P\u0159ed chv\u00edl\u00ed jsem st\u00e1l p\u0159ed zrcadlem a vid\u011bl tebe. Usm\u00e1l jsem se, pak jsem uvid\u011bl skute\u010dnost a za\u010dal plakat.<\/div>\n<div>A\u0165 d\u011bl\u00e1m cokoli, v\u017edy je to \u0161patn\u011b. A\u0165 se tv\u00e1\u0159\u00edm jakkoli, v\u017edy je to \u0161patn\u011b.<\/div>\n<div>Sv\u011bt je pln\u00fd pravidel, kter\u00e9 n\u00e1m ostatn\u00ed stanovuj\u00ed a j\u00e1 si uv\u011bdomuji, \u017ee v nich neum\u00edm kli\u010dkovat. Ostatn\u00ed n\u00e1s po\u0159\u00e1d soud\u00ed na mor\u00e1ln\u00ed a nemor\u00e1ln\u00ed, lep\u0161\u00ed a hor\u0161\u00ed&#8230; Podstatn\u00e9 a nepodstatn\u00e9&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Nau\u010dil jsem se nev\u011b\u0159it nikomu a nedoufat v nic&#8230; Zvykl jsem si na vy\u010d\u00edtav\u00e9 pohledy ostatn\u00edch a starostliv\u00e9 ot\u00e1zky rodi\u010d\u016f.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Jsi v po\u0159\u00e1dku?&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Ano, mami, v\u0161e je v pohod\u011b&#8230;&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>Ani vlastn\u00ed matka nepozn\u00e1 nucen\u00fd \u00fasm\u011bv a l\u017eiv\u00fd t\u00f3n hlasu. Zmocn\u00ed se m\u011b pocit vy\u010d\u00edtat j\u00ed to&#8230; Prokl\u00edt ji za to, \u017ee nev\u00ed, jak mi je&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Kdy\u017e m\u011b ale letmo pol\u00edb\u00ed do vlas\u016f, na v\u0161e zapomenu, p\u0159iv\u0159u o\u010di a vn\u00edm\u00e1m alespo\u0148 tu trochu n\u011bhy, kterou mi pr\u00e1v\u011b dala. Nem\u016f\u017ee za to. Nem\u016f\u017ee za m\u011b. Jsem \u0161patn\u00fd \u010dlov\u011bk.. Vin\u00edm ostatn\u00ed, ale oni za nic nem\u016f\u017eou, to v\u0161echno j\u00e1. Ale moje ze\u010f nem\u016f\u017ee za to, \u017ee na m\u011b nevid\u00edte&#8230; Je tu pr\u00e1v\u011b proto, aby jste mi nemohli ubl\u00ed\u017eit.<\/div>\n<div>Proj\u00ed\u017ed\u00edm si internetov\u00e9 str\u00e1nky. Adolescenti si zde p\u00ed\u0161\u00ed den\u00ed\u010dky, v\u011b\u0159\u00ed ve virtu\u00e1ln\u00ed realitu, doufaj\u00ed v nemo\u017en\u00e9 a st\u011b\u017euj\u00ed si na skute\u010dnost. St\u011b\u017euj\u00ed si na sv\u011bt, m\u00edsto aby se radovali. Nebo to opravdu nen\u00ed z \u010deho se radovat?<\/div>\n<div>M\u00edsto abych se sm\u00e1l, pl\u00e1\u010du. Pro\u010d? Proto\u017ee je ch\u00e1pu. Sv\u011bt je pln\u00fd reklam, kter\u00e9 n\u00e1m ukazuj\u00ed, jak m\u00e1me vypadat, co si m\u00e1me kupovat. A my tomu v\u0161emu slep\u011b p\u0159ihl\u00ed\u017e\u00edme, nech\u00e1v\u00e1me sebou manipulovat. Z l\u00e1sky d\u011bl\u00e1me rutinu, z romantiky propagaci pro svou firmu na parf\u00e9my, kter\u00e9 n\u00e1m stejn\u011b nikoho nep\u0159ikouzl\u00ed. K\u00e9\u017e by ano. K\u00e9\u017e by mi dovedli p\u0159ikouzlit tebe.<\/div>\n<div>Dnes jsem si p\u0159e\u010detl dva &#8222;dopisy&#8220; na rozlou\u010denou. V jednom z nich jak\u00e1si d\u00edvka, s designem jedn\u00e9 americk\u00e9 animovan\u00e9 poh\u00e1dky, psala, \u017ee d\u00e1l nem\u016f\u017ee. Pr\u00fd nezapad\u00e1 a nem\u00e1 s\u00edlu na to, aby se d\u00e1l sna\u017eila. Kdy\u017e jsem \u010detl ta slova &#8211; a nebyla to hra\u010dka, dnes je modern\u00ed d\u011blat ze slov k\u016flni\u010dky na d\u0159\u00edv\u00ed &#8211; sm\u00e1l jsem se j\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>Tehdy jsem si snad uv\u011bdomil svou hloupost. \u017dijeme jen tak kr\u00e1tce a m\u00edsto, abychom se sna\u017eili uskute\u010dnit sv\u00e9 sny, lou\u010d\u00edme se s \u017eivotem nebo \u0159e\u0161\u00edme realitu, vn\u00edm\u00e1me \u010das a p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 se j\u00edm zab\u00fdv\u00e1me&#8230; Moje aura byla p\u0159ed p\u011bti minutami \u010dern\u00e1, nyn\u00ed je \u00fapln\u011b jin\u00e1. Za jakou chv\u00edli se v\u0161e m\u011bn\u00ed\u2026 D\u016fkaz toho, \u017ee \u010das vlastn\u011b neexistuje.<\/p>\n<p>Vstal jsem od po\u010d\u00edta\u010de a rozb\u011bhl se k tob\u011b, br\u00e1\u0161ko. Ano, tehdy jsem to byl poprv\u00e9 j\u00e1. Pro\u017e\u00edval jsem dan\u00fd okam\u017eik celou svou bytost\u00ed.<\/p><\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Tome!&#8220; K\u0159i\u010del jsem.<\/div>\n<div>Jakmile jsem v\u0161ak rozrazil dve\u0159e tv\u00e9ho pokoje\u2026 zapomn\u011bl jsem d\u00fdchat. Um\u00edral jsem spole\u010dn\u011b s tebou&#8230; Le\u017eel jsi na zemi v lou\u017ei krve, kter\u00e1 ti tekla z \u017e\u00edly na ruce. Po\u0159ezan\u00e9 ruce.<\/div>\n<div>Vedle tebe dopis na rozlou\u010denou&#8230; St\u00e1lo v n\u011bm, \u017ee d\u00e1l nem\u016f\u017ee\u0161&#8230; Nem\u016f\u017ee\u0161 se vyrovnat s n\u011b\u010d\u00edm, co spole\u010dnost zavrhuje&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Jak uboh\u00fd je sv\u011bt? Ano, hlup\u00e1k pr\u00e1v\u011b k\u00fdve hlavou&#8230; J\u00e1 se omlouv\u00e1m, cht\u011bl jsem se zeptat. &#8222;Jak uboz\u00ed jsou lid\u00e9, kte\u0159\u00ed se nechaj\u00ed ovl\u00e1dat spole\u010densk\u00fdmi normami?!&#8220;<\/p>\n<p>autor: <strong>Khalil S.<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>autor: Khalil S.betaread: Verushka Zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00ed to pocit, promlouvat do ticha, \u010dekat na odpov\u011b\u010f a p\u0159itom v\u011bd\u011bt, \u017ee se j\u00ed nedo\u010dk\u00e1m. Neusly\u0161\u00edm nikdy nic jin\u00e9ho, ne\u017e svou vlastn\u00ed ozv\u011bnu. Pro\u010d? Semkla m\u011b nicota nebo mi n\u011b\u010d\u00ed m\u0159\u00ed\u017ee zatarasily cestu k ostatn\u00edm\u2026? 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