{"id":18507,"date":"2008-04-12T21:58:00","date_gmt":"2008-04-12T20:58:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=18467"},"modified":"2008-04-12T21:58:00","modified_gmt":"2008-04-12T20:58:00","slug":"es-l-uft","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/04\/12\/es-l-uft\/","title":{"rendered":"Es l\u00e4uft"},"content":{"rendered":"
„Bille, ne! A\u0165 n\u00e1s nikdo nevid\u00ed!“ vy\u010d\u00edt\u00e1m ti a odstrkuji t\u011b od sebe. Bez n\u00e1znaku l\u00edtosti, a proto m\u00e1m te\u010f mo\u017enost vid\u011bt tv\u016fj chmurn\u00fd obli\u010dej. „Bille\u2026“ hlad\u00edm t\u011b po tv\u00e1\u0159i. V\u017edy\u0165 v\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee nesm\u00edme\u2026 l\u00e1sko\u2026 Bylo by pak po v\u0161em. Po na\u0161ich snech, pro kter\u00e9 bychom ob\u011btovali i samotn\u00fd \u017eivot. „Dobr\u00e1, ale nezdr\u017e\u00edme se tam p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 dlouho, \u017ee ne?“ pla\u0161e se m\u011b pt\u00e1\u0161. Bo\u017ee, Bille! Ne, nezdr\u017e\u00edme se tam. Ihned odejdeme, jakmile nebudeme st\u00e1t v tv\u00e1\u0159 ka\u017ed\u00e9ho vidouc\u00edho oka. „Je mnoho d\u016fle\u017eit\u011bj\u0161\u00edch okam\u017eik\u016f, kter\u00e9 nechci ztratit jen d\u00edky n\u00e1v\u0161t\u011bv\u011b v klubu\u2026“ p\u0159\u00edmo hled\u00edm do tv\u00fdch radostn\u00fdch o\u010d\u00ed. Ale n\u011bco se v nich leskne\u2026 z\u00e1blesk smutku. J\u00e1 v\u00edm, co t\u011b tak tr\u00e1p\u00ed. V\u00edme to oba. Av\u0161ak na\u0161e l\u00e1ska je siln\u011bj\u0161\u00ed, ne\u017e n\u00e1tlak okol\u00ed. Nikdy se mu nepodd\u00e1me, nikdy se neprozrad\u00edme. Toto je na\u0161e tajemstv\u00ed\u2026 to nejcenn\u011bj\u0161\u00ed, co m\u00e1me.<\/div>\n
„Tady jste!“ zvol\u00e1 n\u00e1\u0161 producent. Ano, nezb\u00fdvalo ji\u017e mnoho\u2026 a mohlo b\u00fdt po v\u0161em. Zv\u011bdav\u011b na tebe pohl\u00e9dnu. S v\u011bdom\u00edm toho, co se mohlo st\u00e1t, neb\u00fdt m\u00e9 d\u016fslednosti, sklop\u00ed\u0161 o\u010di k zemi. Ach, te\u010f sis to uv\u011bdomil t\u00e9\u017e. Velk\u00e9 tajemstv\u00ed \u017e\u00e1d\u00e1 velkou odvahu a odhodl\u00e1n\u00ed\u2026 Ne, nebu\u010f smutn\u00fd. Nem\u00e1m r\u00e1d, kdy\u017e se mra\u010d\u00ed\u0161. V\u017edy\u0165 ty za nic nem\u016f\u017ee\u0161, jsi m\u016fj mal\u00fd brat\u0159\u00ed\u010dek, za kter\u00e9ho m\u00e1m st\u00e1le velkou zodpov\u011bdnost. V\u0161e, co ud\u011bl\u00e1\u0161, je vina m\u00e1\u2026 proto\u017ee vid\u00edm do tv\u00e9 du\u0161e. V\u017edy m\u016f\u017eu zabr\u00e1nit tv\u00fdm \u010din\u016fm\u2026 Zak\u00e1zat st\u00edn\u016fm, aby t\u011b sledovaly, jsem tv\u016fj ochr\u00e1nce, hl\u00eddaj\u00edc\u00ed tvou du\u0161i ve dne i v noci\u2026<\/div>\n
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Je neuv\u011b\u0159iteln\u00e9, jak rychle se m\u016f\u017ee \u017eivot zm\u011bnit. Sta\u010d\u00ed jeden v\u00fdst\u0159el\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n
Ne! Bille! Bill\u00e9\u00e9\u00e9! Slova ve mn\u011b ti\u0161e k\u0159i\u010d\u00ed. Hrout\u00ed\u0161 se k zemi, tv\u00e1 \u00fasta se pootev\u0159ou\u2026 fanynky \u0159vou. Pokud to v\u0161ak nen\u00ed pl\u00e1\u010d \u010f\u00e1bl\u016fv\u2026<\/div>\n
Svou kytaru odhod\u00edm a b\u011b\u017e\u00edm za tebou. P\u0159ipad\u00e1 mi to jako v\u011b\u010dnost, ale v\u017edy\u0165 je to jen p\u00e1r krok\u016f\u2026 Bille, l\u00e1sko! Neee!<\/div>\n
U tv\u00e9 bezmocn\u011b padl\u00e9 postavy tvrd\u011b dopadnu na kolena. Dech m\u00e1m zrychlen\u00fd, srdce m\u011b bol\u00ed. Jsi ran\u011bn\u00fd\u2026 a j\u00e1 c\u00edt\u00edm tvou bolest. Sklon\u00edm se nad tebe. Tvou tv\u00e1\u0159, je\u017e m\u00e1 podobu and\u011bla, beru do rukou. Sv\u00fdma bezmocn\u00fdma o\u010dima na m\u011b hled\u00ed\u0161\u2026 Bille, ne\u2026 tohle je\u0161t\u011b nen\u00ed tv\u016fj konec, je\u0161t\u011b ne. Do mysli se mi hrne hned n\u011bkolik okam\u017eik\u016f str\u00e1ven\u00fdch s tebou\u2026 Ne. Blokuji jim cestu. Je\u0161t\u011b ne, toto nen\u00ed n\u00e1\u0161 konec. Toto je teprve za\u010d\u00e1tek\u2026<\/div>\n
Tv\u00e9 o\u010di ke mn\u011b promlouvaj\u00ed. Nep\u0159em\u00fd\u0161l\u00edm nad n\u00e1sledky, nep\u0159em\u00fd\u0161l\u00edm nad sv\u011btem. Nad budoucnost\u00ed \u010di na\u0161\u00edm osudem\u2026 Vzhl\u00e9dnu nahoru, ke stropu ar\u00e9ny. M\u00e1m vid\u011bt and\u011bla? Ne. Jen sv\u011btla reflektor\u016f m\u011b oslep\u00ed. Av\u0161ak and\u011bl, kter\u00e9ho hled\u00e1m, le\u017e\u00ed p\u0159ede mnou. Tv\u00e9 o\u010di st\u00e1le ne\u00faprosn\u011b ke mn\u011b hovo\u0159\u00ed\u2026 Skl\u00e1n\u00edm se k tob\u011b. Te\u010f nebo nikdy – pravda stejn\u011b jednou vyjde na povrch, tak na\u010d to zdr\u017eovat\u2026<\/div>\n
P\u0159iv\u0159e\u0161 v\u00ed\u010dka. Tv\u00e9 sametov\u00e9 rty se pootev\u0159ou\u2026 vy\u010derp\u00e1n\u00edm \u010di om\u00e1men\u00edm?<\/div>\n
Rychle\u2026 na\u0161ept\u00e1v\u00e1m si. V hlav\u011b mi proud\u00ed slova p\u00edsni\u010dky, je\u017e si kdysi slo\u017eil. \u017dij sekundou. P\u0159izp\u016fsob\u00edm se tv\u00fdm pravidl\u016fm, podlehnu tv\u00fdm p\u0159\u00edkaz\u016fm. A\u0165 jsem pohlcen okam\u017eikem, a\u0165 nikdy neskon\u010d\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n
Sklon\u00edm se bl\u00ed\u017ee k tv\u00fdm rt\u016fm, kter\u00e9 b\u011bhem n\u011bkolika vte\u0159in pozbudou n\u00e1dechu \u017eivota. Ne, j\u00e1 to zm\u011bn\u00edm. Jen j\u00e1 m\u00e1m pr\u00e1vo ur\u010dovat cestu tv\u00e9ho osudu, nebo\u0165 nad n\u00edm dr\u017e\u00edm kl\u00ed\u010d. Nevn\u00edm\u00e1m okoln\u00ed vzlyky, kter\u00e9 se nesou halou. Ani bodyguarda, jen\u017e se k n\u00e1m bl\u00ed\u017e\u00ed\u2026 Odpus\u0165te. M\u00e9 rty se dotknou t\u011bch tv\u00fdch, hebk\u00fdch, a maj\u00ed tu \u010dest odemknout z\u00e1mek do hlouby tv\u00e9ho sv\u011bdom\u00ed\u2026 Nehraj\u00ed hru mot\u00fdl\u00ed, av\u0161ak and\u011blovu. Sv\u00e9 ruce mal\u00e1tn\u011b ovine\u0161 kolem m\u00e9ho pasu\u2026 nen\u00ed to naposled, \u017ee ne? Pt\u00e1m se, ale odpov\u011b\u010f mi nep\u0159ich\u00e1z\u00ed\u2026 T\u011b\u017ek\u00e9 z\u00e1va\u017e\u00ed t\u00ed\u017e\u00ed m\u00e9 srdce. Slza m\u00e1 unik\u00e1 skrz zav\u0159en\u00e1 v\u00ed\u010dka. M\u00e9 u\u0161i ocitnout a t\u00edm se v\u0161e zkaz\u00ed\u2026 Sekunda utekla. Nez\u016fstala, jen se na chv\u00edli pozastavila. Byla pe\u010dliv\u011b ulo\u017eena do jedn\u00e9 ze slo\u017eek v m\u00fdch vzpom\u00ednk\u00e1ch\u2026 z\u016fstane\u0161 tam nav\u011bky, neute\u010de\u0161, \u017ee ne?<\/div>\n
S\u00e1l utichl a propukla hysterie\u2026 Nechci je sly\u0161et, nechci je vid\u011bt\u2026 Pro\u010d to? Pt\u00e1m se. Nechte n\u00e1s pros\u00edm \u017e\u00edt, jsme lid\u00e9\u2026 Otev\u0159u sv\u00e1 v\u00ed\u010dka, ale o\u010di m\u00e9 vn\u00edmaj\u00ed jen z\u00e1\u0159i tv\u00fdch. Bille, splnil jsem ti sen\u2026 vzpom\u00edn\u00e1\u0161 si? Na d\u016fkaz se usm\u011bje\u0161. D\u011bkuji. Sv\u00fdm \u00fasm\u011bvem jsi mi prop\u016fj\u010dil kysl\u00edk\u2026 m\u00e9 pl\u00edce se t\u00edsn\u00ed, vzduchem, jen\u017e zde panuje, byly z\u00fa\u017eeny. Tv\u00e9 o\u010di se zav\u00edraj\u00ed\u2026 \u00fasm\u011bv ti pohr\u00e1v\u00e1 na rtech. Bille\u2026 je\u0161t\u011b nen\u00ed tv\u016fj \u010das, na to pamatuj. To j\u00e1 jsem ten, kdo p\u00ed\u0161e tv\u016fj osud. Nikdo jin\u00fd nem\u00e1 pr\u00e1vo b\u00fdt tv\u00fdm nad\u0159\u00edzen\u00fdm.<\/div>\n
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Pohyb tv\u00e9 ruky! C\u00edtil jsem pohyb tv\u00e9 ruky! M\u00e9 o\u010di okam\u017eit\u011b za\u010dnou oponovat \u00fanav\u011b, hled\u00ed na tv\u00e9 dosud zav\u0159en\u00e9 o\u010di, jejich\u017e \u0159asy se za\u010d\u00ednaj\u00ed chv\u011bt.<\/div>\n
Vn\u00edmaj\u00ed ka\u017ed\u00fd z\u00e1chv\u011bv tv\u00e9ho t\u011bla. Dal\u0161\u00ed nepatrn\u00fd pohyb tv\u00e9 ruky\u2026 Bille\u2026 je\u0161t\u011b ti nebyl konec ur\u010den, j\u00e1 to v\u011bd\u011bl. „Tome\u2026“ tv\u00e9 rty promluv\u00ed. Jm\u00e9no vyslov\u00ed s neskute\u010dnou n\u011b\u017enost\u00ed, m\u00e9 jm\u00e9no\u2026 Bille, na tento okam\u017eik jsem \u010dekal tolik t\u011b\u017ek\u00fdch dn\u016f\u2026 Mnoho dn\u00ed jsem zde hladov a \u017e\u00edzniv prosed\u011bl, v\u011brn\u011b \u010dekal na n\u00e1vrat sv\u00e9ho p\u00e1na. Jsi tu, Bille. V\u0161e je zachr\u00e1n\u011bno. Ale n\u00e1\u0161 osud je velmi nejasn\u00fd, boj\u00edm se vyj\u00edt vst\u0159\u00edc o\u010d\u00edm okol\u00ed. Ale te\u010f bude\u0161 ty m\u016fj and\u011bl, ty p\u0159evezme\u0161 mou roli. Jsem p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 vys\u00edlen, unaven svou pozic\u00ed. Celou dobu jsem t\u011b chr\u00e1nil a te\u010f m\u016fj \u010das vypr\u0161el. Pod\u011bl\u00ed\u0161 se se mnou o k\u0159\u00eddla, vi\u010f \u017ee ano?<\/div>\n
Usm\u011bje\u0161 se. And\u011bli m\u016fj\u2026<\/div>\n
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Tento temn\u00fd den pln\u00fd de\u0161tiv\u00fdch kapek se na n\u00e1s usm\u00edv\u00e1. Hled\u00edme na slunce, kter\u00e9 se skr\u00fdv\u00e1 za mraky. Jen my jej m\u016f\u017eeme vid\u011bt, jen my vid\u00edme chybu, kterou na v\u00e1s B\u016fh zanechal. Zapomn\u011bl v\u00e1s poslat do opravny, jste zka\u017eeni. A my? Jsme ti dob\u0159\u00ed, jednou n\u00e1m bude p\u0159ed\u00e1no \u017eezlo a budeme vl\u00e1dnout. Nau\u010d\u00edme v\u00e1s vid\u011bt to dobr\u00e9 na \u017eivot\u011b, chyby budou zlikvidov\u00e1ny. Incest nen\u00ed trestn\u00fd\u2026 jeliko\u017e je to na\u0161e p\u0159edstava. N\u00e1\u0161 sen, to\u0165 n\u00e1\u0161 \u017eivot. B\u00fdti neviditeln\u00ed\u2026 pohlceni okam\u017eikem. Sv\u00edc\u00ed, kter\u00e1 nikdy nevyhasne.<\/div>\n
A tak jdeme vst\u0159\u00edc \u017eivotu, jen\u017e n\u00e1m soudn\u011b nastavuje svou ruku. A my ji s \u00fasm\u011bvem na tv\u00e1\u0159\u00edch p\u0159ij\u00edm\u00e1me, nic toti\u017e nem\u016f\u017ee naru\u0161it na\u0161e \u0161t\u011bst\u00ed. A\u0165 nen\u00e1vist \u010di ur\u00e1\u017eky, pohrd\u00e1n\u00ed \u010di ignorace\u2026 na\u0161e l\u00e1ska je v\u017edy tu. Je mocn\u00e1, pevn\u011b spleten\u00e1. Nikdo nem\u016f\u017ee jej\u00ed ocelov\u00e9 \u0159et\u011bzy p\u0159eru\u0161it, chyb\u00ed kl\u00ed\u010d a pila, kter\u00e1 by mohla spojen\u00ed p\u0159esekat.<\/div>\n
Nezastav\u00edte n\u00e1s. Budeme tu po\u0159\u00e1d, na v\u011bky.<\/div>\n
Ale je\u0161t\u011b st\u00e1le tu z\u016fst\u00e1v\u00e1 na\u0161e pan\u00ed, na\u0161e jedin\u00e1 rozhod\u010d\u00ed. Jen ona n\u00e1s m\u016f\u017ee zastavit. Pan\u00ed s mocn\u00fdm jm\u00e9nem Smrt. Ona jedin\u00e1 je kl\u00ed\u010dn\u00edkem na\u0161ich z\u00e1mk\u016f\u2026 ona m\u00e1 to opr\u00e1vn\u011bn\u00ed se ti\u0161e vkr\u00e1st do na\u0161eho \u017eivota a potrestat n\u00e1s. Ur\u010dit bod, kde se na\u0161e hodiny zastav\u00ed.<\/div>\n
Nicm\u00e9n\u011b ji p\u0159ijmeme, s \u00fasm\u011bvem na rtech. Budeme toti\u017e um\u00edrat spolu, s h\u0159ejiv\u00fdm pocitem v srdci, \u017ee jsme n\u011bco dok\u00e1zali. Dok\u00e1zali jsme toti\u017e sv\u011btu uk\u00e1zat na\u0161\u00ed l\u00e1sku, kter\u00e1 je nezni\u010diteln\u00e1\u2026 kter\u00e9 se boj\u00edte.<\/div>\n
Odpus\u0165te n\u00e1m, ale byl to n\u00e1\u0161 osud, kter\u00fd jste s takovou je\u0161itnost\u00ed odm\u00edtali p\u0159ijmout\u2026<\/div>\n
J\u00edt krajinou p\u00eds\u010ditou,<\/em><\/div>\n
p\u0159es kaktusy pichlav\u00e9.<\/em><\/div>\n
M\u00edjet lidi z\u00e1hadn\u00e9,<\/em><\/div>\n
b\u00fdti trest\u00e1ni za v\u0161emocn\u00e9.<\/em><\/div>\n
Proprat se a\u017e ke konci,<\/em><\/div>\n
k hranic\u00edm d\u00e1le vedouc\u00edm.<\/em><\/div>\n
Nastal \u010das odchodu,<\/em><\/div>\n
pros\u00edm, nech n\u00e1s tu\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n

autor: Shellayn<\/strong>
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„Bille, ne! A\u0165 n\u00e1s nikdo nevid\u00ed!“ vy\u010d\u00edt\u00e1m ti a odstrkuji t\u011b od sebe. Bez n\u00e1znaku l\u00edtosti, a proto m\u00e1m te\u010f mo\u017enost vid\u011bt tv\u016fj chmurn\u00fd obli\u010dej. „Bille\u2026“ hlad\u00edm t\u011b po tv\u00e1\u0159i. V\u017edy\u0165 v\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee nesm\u00edme\u2026 l\u00e1sko\u2026 Bylo by pak po v\u0161em. Po na\u0161ich<\/p>\n

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