{"id":18516,"date":"2008-04-12T21:51:00","date_gmt":"2008-04-12T20:51:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=18476"},"modified":"2008-04-12T21:51:00","modified_gmt":"2008-04-12T20:51:00","slug":"nothingness","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/04\/12\/nothingness\/","title":{"rendered":"Nothingness"},"content":{"rendered":"
Tom pozoruje chlapce sed\u00edc\u00edho uprost\u0159ed m\u00edstnosti. Temn\u00e9 m\u00edstnosti, tak pr\u00e1zdn\u00e9 a p\u0159itom pln\u00e9 nekon\u010d\u00edc\u00edho nap\u011bt\u00ed.<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Tolik pocit\u016f se zde odr\u00e1\u017e\u00ed…<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Bolest.<\/div>\n
L\u00edtost.<\/div>\n
Obavy.<\/div>\n
Strach.<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Po tv\u00e1\u0159i mu kanou slzy, \u010dern\u00e9 slzy, slzy smutku a utrpen\u00ed. Jeho t\u011blo se ot\u0159\u00e1s\u00e1 pod nesly\u0161n\u00fdmi vzlyky…<\/div>\n
Boj\u00ed se. Moc se boj\u00ed.<\/div>\n
Boj\u00ed se z\u00e1huby… z nezn\u00e1m\u00e9ho.<\/div>\n
Dok\u00e1\u017ee mu onen \u010dlov\u011bk pomoci? Dok\u00e1\u017ee mu v\u016fbec n\u011bkdo pomoci?<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Rette mich…<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Ich kann nich allein sein… h\u00f6rst du mich? Oder h\u00f6rst du mich nicht? Ich weiss nicht, mein Herz ist d\u00fcrr… und leer.<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
„Bille?“<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Odv\u00e1\u017e\u00ed se dredat\u00fd chlapec, kter\u00fd sed\u00ed na star\u00e9 d\u0159ev\u011bn\u00e9 \u017eidli v rohu, to stvo\u0159en\u00ed oslovit.<\/div>\n
Up\u0159en\u011b, t\u00e9m\u011b\u0159 bez mrknut\u00ed oka pozoruje postavu, na kter\u00e9 \u00fazk\u00fdm ok\u00fdnkem dopad\u00e1 slab\u00fd pruh sv\u011btla.<\/div>\n
Chlapec v\u0161ak nereaguje. Zd\u00e1 se, \u017ee u\u017e nen\u00ed na onom sv\u011bt\u011b…<\/div>\n
Jen jeden jedin\u00fd jej dok\u00e1\u017ee zachr\u00e1nit… podat pomocnou ruku.<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
„Pros\u00edm…“<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Dob\u00fdv\u00e1 se op\u011bt alespo\u0148 n\u00e1znaku \u017eivota.<\/div>\n
Nechce v\u011b\u0159it, \u017ee je to pravda… nesm\u00ed b\u00fdt!<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Ale \u010dernovlas\u00fd kluk up\u0159en\u011b sleduje tmav\u00fd kout t\u00e9to m\u00edstnosti…<\/div>\n
… nesly\u0161\u00ed, nebo sly\u0161et nechce?<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Kolena si je\u0161t\u011b v\u00edce p\u0159itiskne k brad\u011b.<\/div>\n
Chce pry\u010d.<\/div>\n
Chce b\u00fdt n\u011bkdo jin\u00fd… a s n\u011bk\u00fdm jin\u00fdm.<\/div>\n
Jinak… nem\u00e1 smysl \u017e\u00edt.<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
„Bille, m\u00e1m t\u011b r\u00e1d, moc r\u00e1d… ale…“<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Neodv\u00e1\u017e\u00ed se pokra\u010dovat. Bratr, na kter\u00e9m up\u0159en\u011b lp\u011bl pohledem ji\u017e n\u011bkolik des\u00edtek minut, jej m\u00e1lem prop\u00e1lil pohledem…<\/div>\n
Du\u0161e and\u011bla, t\u011blo \u010f\u00e1bla… anebo to bylo naopak?<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Tom bolestn\u011b ucukl.<\/div>\n
Ten pohled jej spaloval.<\/div>\n
To \u017ee je jeho bratr? Dvoj\u010de? Jeho druh\u00e9 j\u00e1?<\/div>\n
Ach Bille…<\/div>\n
… brat\u0159\u00ed\u010dku m\u016fj.<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Bill nad\u00e1le pokra\u010doval ve sledov\u00e1n\u00ed vzduchopr\u00e1zdna.<\/div>\n
Co se mu hon\u00ed hlavou?<\/div>\n
Co jsou jeho sny a strasti?<\/div>\n
Je mu lze pomoci?<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Tom v\u011bd\u011bl, co se mu hon\u00ed hlavou.<\/div>\n
Ale on necht\u011bl, aby to takto dopadlo!<\/div>\n
M\u016f\u017ee to napravit?<\/div>\n
M\u016f\u017ee mu pomoci od horouc\u00edch pekel?<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
„Jsi moje v\u0161echno… ale milovat t\u011b nem\u016f\u017eu…“<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Tom se zaposlouchal do ticha.<\/div>\n
Sly\u0161\u00ed v n\u011bm jeho bratr n\u011bco?<\/div>\n
Sly\u0161\u00ed v n\u011bm jeho utrpen\u00ed a l\u00edtost?<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Sly\u0161\u00ed v n\u011bm z\u00e1chranu s n\u00e1pisem ,,Du bist alles was ich bin, und alles was mich meine Ader flie\u00dft…,, ?<\/div>\n
Nesly\u0161\u00ed, on\u011bm\u011bl.<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Nechce nad\u00e1le poslouchat slova, vych\u00e1zej\u00edc\u00ed z \u00fast sv\u00e9ho bratra, trh\u00e1 to jeho srdce na kusy.<\/div>\n
U\u017e z n\u011bj t\u00e9m\u011b\u0159 nic nezbylo…<\/div>\n
Pro\u010d to tak kaz\u00ed\u0161?<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
„Vra\u0165 se mi…“<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Dred\u00e1\u010d, jeho\u017e srdce krv\u00e1c\u00ed se zved\u00e1 a m\u00ed\u0159\u00ed ke dve\u0159\u00edm, jeho o\u010di ji\u017e nad\u00e1le nejsou schopny toto pozorovat.<\/div>\n
Jeho pocity nejdou popsat, moc cit\u016f na jeden list… Jsou tak t\u00ed\u017eiv\u00e9, a… ho\u0159k\u00e9.<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Ztratil jej u\u017e nav\u017edy?<\/div>\n
Co m\u00e1 ud\u011blat pro jeho n\u00e1vrat? – Pokl\u00e1d\u00e1 si ot\u00e1zku, na kterou zn\u00e1 odpov\u011b\u010f. K\u00e9\u017e by j\u00ed neznal. Takto se jeho srdce tr\u00e1p\u00ed je\u0161t\u011b v\u00edce…<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Bill nevn\u00edmaje okol\u00ed nad\u00e1le sed\u00ed na studen\u00e9, tvrd\u00e9 zemi.<\/div>\n
Teprve a\u017e sl\u016fvko t\u011b\u017ece sly\u0161iteln\u00e9 jej probere…<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
„Odpus\u0165…“<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Za\u0161ept\u00e1 Tom slovo, kter\u00e9 u\u017e cht\u011bl \u0159\u00edci mnohokr\u00e1t.<\/div>\n
Ale jako z\u00e1plata na v\u0161echny trhliny nesta\u010d\u00ed…<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Odch\u00e1z\u00ed.<\/div>\n
U\u017e nev\u011b\u0159\u00ed, \u017ee se Bill\u016fv stav zlep\u0161\u00ed.<\/div>\n
Ale v\u00fdchodisko zn\u00e1 – pro\u010d mu nepom\u016f\u017ee?<\/div>\n
S\u00e1m nezn\u00e1 odpov\u011b\u010f… ich bin hier irgendwo gelandet …<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Ne\u017e zav\u0159e dve\u0159e, kter\u00fdm do m\u00edstnosti na okam\u017eik vnikne popruh ostr\u00e9ho sv\u011btla, pod\u00edv\u00e1 se na bratra.<\/div>\n
Tohle z n\u011bj ud\u011blal on… Bill si tohle nezaslou\u017e\u00ed.<\/div>\n
Jedna jedin\u00e1 slan\u00e1 slza st\u00e9k\u00e1 chlapci po tv\u00e1\u0159i… nesplnil sv\u016fj \u00fakol.<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Bill se po r\u00e1n\u011b, kter\u00e1 zna\u010dila zav\u0159en\u00ed dve\u0159\u00ed, v z\u00e1chvatu pl\u00e1\u010de zhroutil na zem.<\/div>\n
U\u017e to nechce sn\u00e1\u0161et!<\/div>\n
U\u017e nechce \u017e\u00edt!<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Warum schreist du nicht…<\/div>\n
–<\/div>\n
Osud je n\u011bkdy tvrd\u00fd… a to i nepr\u00e1vem…<\/div>\n
– D\u00e1 se to pochopit jen v p\u0159\u00edpad\u011b, \u017ee si hodn\u011b budete v\u0161\u00edmat detail\u016f a m\u00edt bujnou fantazii. A tomu, kdo to pochop\u00ed… Bravo! \ud83d\ude42<\/em><\/p>\n

autor: Shellayn<\/strong>
betaread: Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Tom pozoruje chlapce sed\u00edc\u00edho uprost\u0159ed m\u00edstnosti. Temn\u00e9 m\u00edstnosti, tak pr\u00e1zdn\u00e9 a p\u0159itom pln\u00e9 nekon\u010d\u00edc\u00edho nap\u011bt\u00ed. – Tolik pocit\u016f se zde odr\u00e1\u017e\u00ed… – Bolest. L\u00edtost. Obavy. Strach. – Po tv\u00e1\u0159i mu kanou slzy, \u010dern\u00e9 slzy, slzy smutku a utrpen\u00ed. Jeho t\u011blo se ot\u0159\u00e1s\u00e1<\/p>\n

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