{"id":18522,"date":"2008-04-12T21:43:00","date_gmt":"2008-04-12T20:43:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=18482"},"modified":"2008-04-12T21:43:00","modified_gmt":"2008-04-12T20:43:00","slug":"zum-letzte-sein","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/04\/12\/zum-letzte-sein\/","title":{"rendered":"Zum letzte sein"},"content":{"rendered":"<div>&#8222;Fanou\u0161ci j\u00e1saj\u00ed, jsou \u0161\u0165astn\u00ed &#8211; ale co je s Billem? Co je s Tomem? Co se d\u011bje?&#8220; sl\u00fdch\u00e1v\u00e1me&#8230; sl\u00fdch\u00e1v\u00e1me holou pravdu, budoucnost, kter\u00e1 je neporaziteln\u00e1&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Sice nev\u00edme, kdy to p\u0159ijde, ale bude to brzy&#8230; velmi brzy.<\/div>\n<div>Okam\u017eik, kdy temnota vyjde ze sv\u00fdch z\u00e1kout\u00ed a r\u016f\u017ee zvadnou, kdy se pobod\u00e1me o jejich trny&#8230; Kdy sestoup\u00edme do st\u00edn\u016f a slunce pro n\u00e1s nav\u017edy z\u016fstane schovan\u00e9 za soumrakem&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>&lt;&#8211;&gt;<\/div>\n<div>Kdosi vch\u00e1z\u00ed do m\u00fdch dve\u0159\u00ed. Jen jedin\u00fd v\u00ed, \u017ee je\u0161t\u011b nesp\u00edm&#8230; jen jedin\u00fd v\u00ed, kdy se tr\u00e1p\u00edm&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Tome?&#8220; udiven\u011b na tebe pohl\u00e9dnu. Posledn\u00ed dobou za mnou m\u00e1lokdy chod\u00edv\u00e1\u0161&#8230; rad\u011bji pob\u00fdv\u00e1\u0161 s\u00e1m se sv\u00fdmi my\u0161lenkami v dobrovoln\u00e9m zajet\u00ed. K\u00e9\u017e bych i j\u00e1 byl takov\u00fd&#8230; pro\u010d d\u00e1v\u00e1m sv\u00e9 pocity v\u0161em najevo? Chci snad, abych byl litov\u00e1n? Ne, to nechci&#8230; jen chci aby \u010dlov\u011bk, jen\u017e je pro m\u011b d\u016fle\u017eit\u00fd, mi prop\u016fj\u010dil svou h\u0159ejivou n\u00e1ru\u010d&#8230; aby m\u011b odtrhl od v\u0161eho zl\u00e9ho a \u0161el se mnou do krajin bez zla a p\u0159etv\u00e1\u0159ky.<\/div>\n<div>Na tv\u00e9m \u010dele se ty\u010d\u00ed vr\u00e1ska zna\u010d\u00edc\u00ed zamy\u0161len\u00ed. Tv\u016fj v\u00fdraz je ustaran\u00fd, n\u011bco t\u011b tr\u00e1p\u00ed. Ale tomu nen\u00ed jen te\u010f, tomu u\u017e je del\u0161\u00ed dobu&#8230; i p\u0159esto\u017ee pro okol\u00ed si ten \u0161\u0165astn\u00fd hoch, jen\u017e si ka\u017ed\u00fd den u\u017e\u00edv\u00e1 s jinou. Jen mn\u011b ukazuje\u0161 sv\u00e9 prav\u00e9 pocity. Nikdo jin\u00fd nezn\u00e1 tv\u00e9 prav\u00e9 J\u00e1. Vlastn\u011b n\u011bkdo ano&#8230; j\u00e1 s\u00e1m&#8230; ale i p\u0159esto m\u00e1m v tob\u011b zmatek, ob\u010das t\u011b nepozn\u00e1v\u00e1m&#8230; ale to z\u0159ejm\u011b bude tou nevn\u00edmavost\u00ed v\u016f\u010di sv\u011btu&#8230; ne, nevn\u00edm\u00e1m, nec\u00edt\u00edm&#8230; propadl jsem se do temnot, noc m\u011b ztratila&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Panuje ticho, st\u00e1le ticho&#8230; Jen usedne\u0161 vedle m\u011b na postel. Svou hlavu p\u0159itiskne\u0161 ke kolen\u016fm a kone\u010dn\u011b prav\u00ed\u0161: &#8222;P\u0159i\u0161el jsem pop\u0159em\u00fd\u0161let.&#8220; Zn\u00ed to jako prosba? M\u00e1m b\u00fdt kl\u00ed\u010dem k tv\u00fdm my\u0161lenk\u00e1m? Ne, nechci b\u00fdt vyu\u017eit&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Soucitn\u011b se na tebe pod\u00edv\u00e1m. No tak, br\u00e1\u0161ko&#8230; co t\u011b tr\u00e1p\u00ed? Chci ti p\u0159in\u00e9st \u00fat\u011bchu, ale pro m\u011b je to tak t\u011b\u017ek\u00e9&#8230; s\u00e1m bych pot\u0159eboval uti\u0161it. Pohladit, obejmout, srdce pln\u00e9 kladn\u00fdch cit\u016f nab\u00eddnout&#8230; Pro\u010d jsou v\u0161ichni tak slep\u00ed? &#8211; Nevid\u00ed zni\u010denou tv\u00e1\u0159. A hlu\u0161\u00ed? &#8211; Nesly\u0161\u00ed balady, v nich\u017e \u017eebr\u00e1m o pomoc&#8230; nesly\u0161\u00ed, maj\u00ed o\u010di jen pro na\u0161e and\u011blsk\u00e9 tv\u00e1\u0159e, nic v\u00edc je nezaj\u00edm\u00e1&#8230; Ale pro\u010d&#8230; aspo\u0148 ty, Tome&#8230; pomoz mi, v ka\u017ed\u00e9 p\u00edsni\u010dce t\u011b pros\u00edm&#8230; zp\u00edv\u00e1m ti je, copak to nevid\u00ed\u0161? Ale ano, jen jsi vlastn\u00edmi starostmi zaslepen&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Svou ruku opatrn\u011b polo\u017e\u00edm na tv\u00e1 ramena. Pot\u0159ebuji c\u00edtit teplo, je\u017e s\u00e1l\u00e1 z tv\u00e9 poko\u017eky, pot\u0159ebuji v\u011bd\u011bt, \u017ee tu jsi, vedle m\u011b&#8230; Pohl\u00e9dnu do tv\u00e9 ustaran\u00e9 tv\u00e1\u0159e, kter\u00e1 by mohla vypr\u00e1v\u011bt; do o\u010d\u00ed, kter\u00e9 jsou kaln\u011b zast\u0159eny a prob\u00edh\u00e1 v nich slo\u017eit\u00fd matematick\u00fd \u00fakon&#8230; jen n\u011bco \u0159ekni, pom\u016f\u017eu ti&#8230; chci ti pomoci&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>P\u0159itul\u00edm se k tob\u011b&#8230; tak moc se t\u0159ese\u0161&#8230; co se d\u011bje? Snad si nebyl t\u00e9\u017e ob\u011bt\u00ed temn\u00e9 noci&#8230; ne, to bych nerad&#8230; Tome, m\u00e1m o tebe strach&#8230; Strach, kter\u00fd se st\u00e1v\u00e1 pro m\u00e9 srdce dal\u0161\u00ed z\u00e1t\u011b\u017e\u00ed&#8230; ale co kdy\u017e jej neunesu? Ne, to se nesm\u00ed st\u00e1t&#8230; p\u0159i\u0161el bych o tebe.<\/div>\n<div>Pohl\u00e9dnu na tvoj\u00ed basebolku, je\u017e st\u00edn\u00ed tv\u00e9 and\u011blsk\u00e9 kr\u00e1se&#8230; s opatrnost\u00ed ti ji sund\u00e1m a odlo\u017e\u00edm na stolek po boku postele. Nereaguje\u0161&#8230; nic ned\u011bl\u00e1\u0161&#8230; <em>nebr\u00e1n\u00ed\u0161 se, snad nechce\u0161 pomoci&#8230;<\/em> ale Tome, jsem tu pro tebe&#8230; v\u017edy jsem tu byl.<\/div>\n<div>Sund\u00e1m gumi\u010dku, je\u017e svazuje tv\u00e9 dredy&#8230; jen krok k dokonalosti&#8230; Dredy se ti pot\u00e9 samovoln\u011b spust\u00ed&#8230; ano, jsi kr\u00e1sn\u00fd&#8230; moc kr\u00e1sn\u00fd. Cel\u00e1 mati\u010dka Zem\u011b by se mohla nad tebou rozpl\u00fdvat, jsi m\u016fj mal\u00fd dredat\u00fd and\u00edlek&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Je tu neoklamateln\u00e9 ticho&#8230; sly\u0161\u00edte ho? Ano, j\u00e1 ano&#8230; mu\u010d\u00ed m\u011b, m\u00fdm u\u0161\u00edm p\u0159in\u00e1\u0161\u00ed neskute\u010dn\u00e1 muka. &#8222;Br\u00e1\u0161ko&#8230; co se d\u011bje&#8230;&#8220; opt\u00e1m se t\u011b. A a\u010dkoli o\u010dek\u00e1v\u00e1m odpov\u011b\u010f, je\u017e by kone\u010dn\u011b skon\u010dila to tr\u00e1pen\u00ed, tv\u00e9 rty chladn\u011b ml\u010d\u00ed\u2026 dr\u00e1saj\u00ed m\u00e9 srdce. To ticho m\u011b t\u00ed\u017e\u00ed&#8230; zab\u00edj\u00ed m\u011b. Ano, nesn\u00e1\u0161\u00edm ticho&#8230; v\u00edte to? Jist\u011b\u017ee&#8230; nikdo nem\u00e1 r\u00e1d ticho. Ticho, kter\u00e9 n\u00e1m dr\u00e1s\u00e1 srdce na miliony kousk\u016f a nic jej nechce slepit&#8230; jen jedin\u00fd cit, kter\u00fd by n\u00e1m byl darov\u00e1n&#8230; Tak Tome&#8230; netrap m\u011b&#8230; m\u00e9 srdce nen\u00ed moc siln\u00e9, opravdu ne&#8230; jednoho dne se nadobro rozlom\u00ed a nic jej neslep\u00ed&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Pomalu nato\u010d\u00ed\u0161 sv\u016fj obli\u010dej vst\u0159\u00edc m\u00e9mu. Ne, nechci vid\u011bt to utrpen\u00ed&#8230; kdyby jej alespo\u0148 m\u00e9 zrcadlo neodr\u00e1\u017eelo&#8230; ale k \u010demu mi to je? Te\u010f vid\u00edm s\u00e1m sebe, sv\u00e9 druh\u00e9 j\u00e1, kter\u00e9 tak bezhlav\u011b miluji&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Mu\u010div\u00e9 ticho pokra\u010duje, av\u0161ak do m\u00e9ho n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed padne\u0161. Obj\u00edm\u00e1\u0161 m\u011b, div m\u011b neuma\u010dk\u00e1\u0161. Ano, vyvol\u00e1v\u00e1\u0161 ve mn\u011b miliony emoc\u00ed, av\u0161ak ony nev\u011bd\u00ed, co si maj\u00ed po\u010d\u00edt&#8230; nemohou naj\u00edt tu spr\u00e1vnou uli\u010dku. M\u00e9 srdce st\u00e1le pl\u00e1\u010de, je t\u00fdr\u00e1no&#8230; tv\u00e1 bolest se p\u0159en\u00e1\u0161\u00ed i na m\u011b, jsem slab\u00fd, velmi slab\u00fd&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Ale tento okam\u017eik&#8230;. je vz\u00e1cn\u00fd, nezaplatiteln\u00fd. Vyvol\u00e1v\u00e1 v m\u00e9m srdci radost, ale nap\u011bt\u00ed a smutek noci se dr\u017e\u00ed ve vzduchu&#8230; nikdo se te\u010f nem\u016f\u017ee c\u00edtit \u0161\u0165asten. Nikdo. Proto\u017ee dva jsou jeho zdrojem&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Zcela z\u0159eteln\u011b sly\u0161\u00edm tv\u016fj zrychlen\u00fd dech a tvoje srdce, je\u017e hlasit\u011b bije&#8230; bije pro m\u011b? K\u00e9\u017e by&#8230; Ano, tolik p\u0159ac\u00edch v\u011bt padlo, je\u017e by cht\u011bly b\u00fdt spln\u011bny&#8230; ale jde to? Nev\u00edm, nic nev\u00edm&#8230; na zem upadla \u010dern\u00e1 temnota, je\u017e n\u00e1s \u010din\u00ed slep\u00fdmi&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Tv\u016fj smutek pronik\u00e1 do m\u00e9ho srdce, kter\u00e9 je ji\u017e tak p\u0159et\u00ed\u017eeno. Brat\u0159\u00ed\u010dku, po n\u011bkolik\u00e1t\u00e9 se t\u011b pt\u00e1m&#8230; jak ti m\u00e1m pomoci, kdy\u017e m\u011b samotn\u00e9ho srdce bol\u00ed? Ka\u017ed\u00fd l\u00edtostiv\u00fd pohled, jen\u017e je mi v\u011bnov\u00e1n, m\u011b zab\u00edj\u00ed&#8230; pro\u010d v\u0161ichni c\u00edt\u00ed m\u00e9 ne\u0161t\u011bst\u00ed, pro\u010d v\u0161ichni tu\u0161\u00ed, \u017ee se n\u011bco d\u011bje&#8230; Ano, kdyby m\u00e1 du\u0161e mohla ml\u010det a o\u010di tak moc nevypr\u00e1v\u011bly&#8230; Ale je to m\u016fj sen? Ne, nen\u00ed&#8230; smutek mus\u00ed b\u00fdt objeven, a pak mus\u00ed b\u00fdt zabit&#8230; Ale nezabije to i nositele onoho smutku? Ne, pokud smutek zabije onen vyvolen\u00fd, princ ve\u010dern\u00edch noc\u00ed&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Sv\u00e9 slzy, je\u017e dopadaj\u00ed na mou tv\u00e1\u0159, neskryje\u0161&#8230; Ano, pl\u00e1\u010de\u0161. Tome, pros\u00edm, ne&#8230; p\u0159esta\u0148! To ty m\u00e1\u0161 b\u00fdt ten siln\u00fd, ty m\u011b m\u00e1\u0161 vysvobodit&#8230; neporu\u0161 z\u00e1kony p\u0159\u00edrody, pros\u00edm. A odpov\u011bz mi, co se s tebou d\u011bje? Odpov\u011bz&#8230; pohl\u00e9dnu ti do o\u010d\u00ed&#8230; tak, vid\u00ed\u0161 u\u017e? Vid\u00ed\u0161 ten smutek? Ale ne, ty za\u010dni prvn\u00ed&#8230; ty&#8230; &#8222;Bille&#8230; M\u00e9 srdce se t\u0159\u00ed\u0161t\u00ed, ji\u017e del\u0161\u00ed dobu&#8230; A zb\u00fdv\u00e1 jen posledn\u00ed kousek, ne\u017e se rozpadne \u00fapln\u011b&#8230; zachr\u00e1n\u00ed\u0161 jej?&#8220; slzy se do ticha noci linou i z m\u00fdch o\u010d\u00ed&#8230; Ano, kdy\u017e chce\u0161, um\u00ed\u0161 kr\u00e1sn\u011b promlouvat&#8230; um\u00ed\u0161 m\u011b rozplakat, chce\u0161-li; um\u00ed\u0161 m\u011b i zab\u00edt, a\u010dkoliv nechce\u0161&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Tv\u016fj trhan\u00fd hlas, jen\u017e protrhl ticho, je nanic&#8230; to pusto je tu zas, ale jak se jej zbavit? U\u017e jej nechci c\u00edtit, chci c\u00edtit jen tebe&#8230; jen tebe, v zemi slunce&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Brat\u0159\u00ed\u010dku&#8230; opravdu ti chci pomoci&#8230; jen pov\u00eddej, pov\u00eddej a zabij tu noc&#8230;<\/div>\n<div><em>J\u00e1 nikdy nedopust\u00edm, aby si na sam\u00e9m okraji propasti st\u00e1l<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>a vanouc\u00edm v\u011btrem byl k p\u00e1du nab\u00e1d\u00e1n&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Kde se ta slova ve mn\u011b berou? To j\u00e1 s\u00e1m v\u011bd\u011bt&#8230; ne, to m\u00e9 srdce se projevuje&#8230; projevuje sv\u00e9 city, kter\u00e9 byly dlouho schov\u00e1ny v hlubin\u00e1ch nejv\u011bt\u0161\u00edch&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Ale u\u017e by to m\u011blo skon\u010dit&#8230; tato nekone\u010dn\u00e1 chv\u00edle&#8230; roztrh\u00e1 m\u011b na kusy&#8230; chci to? Ne&#8230; tohle mus\u00ed m\u00edt dohru, toto nesm\u00ed tak rychle skon\u010dit&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Kdybych mohl, Tome, ud\u011blal bych to&#8230; Ale nem\u016f\u017eu, s\u00e1m pot\u0159ebuji z\u00e1chrann\u00fd \u010dlun&#8230; Tome, s\u00e1m m\u011b mu\u010d\u00ed\u0161&#8230;&#8220; za\u0161ept\u00e1m a \u010dek\u00e1m. \u010cek\u00e1m, a\u017e noc ustoup\u00ed&#8230; a\u017e den uk\u00e1\u017ee sv\u00e9 p\u0159\u00edv\u011btiv\u00e9 str\u00e1nky, ulev\u00ed na\u0161\u00edm du\u0161\u00edm, a noc&#8230; pop\u0159eje n\u00e1m kr\u00e1sn\u00fd den. Ale to se nestane, v\u0161echno v\u00edm, v\u0161echno&#8230; osud nelze oklamat.<\/div>\n<div>Pohl\u00e9dne\u0161 do o\u010d\u00ed m\u00fdch a j\u00e1 v nich spat\u0159\u00edm z\u00e1blesk nad\u011bje. Ale nebyl to jen v\u00fdplod m\u00e9 fantazie? Ne, pros\u00edm, a\u0165 je to pravda&#8230; A\u0165 m\u011b protentokr\u00e1t m\u00e9 smysly neklamou, a\u0165 se p\u0159elud neodv\u00e1\u017e\u00ed do m\u00e9 hlavy vstoupit&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Roze\u0161tk\u00e1m se. Ne, nechci \u017e\u00edt! Nechci tu b\u00fdt! Chci zachr\u00e1nit&#8230; osud n\u00e1m p\u0159edur\u010dil \u0161patn\u00e9 role, zapomn\u011bl&#8230; zapomn\u011bl na n\u00e1s. Nev\u011bd\u011bl&#8230; proto\u017ee my jsme vybo\u010dili z cest n\u00e1m ur\u010den\u00fdch, vybrali jsme si jinou cestu, tu svou&#8230; nikdy n\u00e1m ji nevezme, av\u0161ak mo\u017en\u00e1 brzo skon\u010d\u00ed. To ticho n\u00e1s zab\u00edj\u00ed&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Klid&#8230; Br\u00e1\u0161ko&#8230;&#8220; to m\u00e1 b\u00fdt \u00fat\u011bcha? Ne, to nesta\u010d\u00ed&#8230; bl\u00ed\u017e\u00ed se konec, ji\u017e to v\u00edm&#8230; jedna slza st\u0159\u00edd\u00e1 druhou, srdce za\u010dalo krv\u00e1cet&#8230; Ano, bl\u00ed\u017e\u00ed se konec.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Ne, konec je tu, ty jej nevid\u00ed\u0161?&#8220; t\u00e1\u017ei se t\u011b a snad o\u010dek\u00e1v\u00e1m odpov\u011b\u010f. Ne, ne\u010dek\u00e1m&#8230; ne\u010dek\u00e1m u\u017e na nic. U\u017e se nech\u00e1v\u00e1m un\u00e1\u0161et na vln\u00e1ch mo\u0159e, nic jin\u00e9ho mi nezb\u00fdv\u00e1&#8230; m\u00e1m-li prohr\u00e1t, prohraji&#8230; dobrovoln\u011b se odd\u00e1m nekone\u010dn\u00fdm temnot\u00e1m.<\/div>\n<div>Tome&#8230; z\u016fsta\u0148 tu se mnou, hlavn\u011b tu z\u016fsta\u0148&#8230; nesm\u00ed\u0161 nic p\u0159eru\u0161it, nesm\u00ed\u0161 se hnout, nesm\u00ed\u0161 promluvit &#8211; p\u0159il\u00e1kal by si sem zlod\u011bje na\u0161ich du\u0161\u00ed&#8230; t\u011bch, je\u017e dr\u017e\u00ed v rukou na\u0161e osudy&#8230; sta\u010d\u00ed jen pohnout brvou a bude po n\u00e1s&#8230; Tome, chci um\u0159\u00edt v tv\u00e9m n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed&#8230; kol\u00edb\u00e1n v n\u011bm, chci sly\u0161et posledn\u00ed sl\u016fvka \u00fat\u011bchy, a\u010d fale\u0161n\u00e1 a proradn\u00e1&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Bille&#8230; v\u00edm to, v\u0161e to v\u00edm&#8230;&#8220; co v\u00ed\u0161? Co ty v\u00ed\u0161&#8230; kdy\u017e v\u0161e v\u00ed\u0161, v\u011bz p\u0159edev\u0161\u00edm to nejd\u016fle\u017eit\u011bj\u0161\u00ed, v\u011bz co m\u00e1\u0161 ud\u011blat&#8230; co vdechne posledn\u00ed elix\u00edr nad\u011bje do m\u00e9ho srdce&#8230; nechci, aby to bolelo&#8230; aby m\u00e9 slzy p\u0159i tom z o\u010d\u00ed tekly&#8230; ale ty budou t\u00e9ct i tak, \u017e\u00e1d\u00e1\u0161 si o to&#8230; ta spole\u010dn\u00e1 soustrast nad sebou sam\u00fdma&#8230; je to ne\u00faprosn\u00e9.<\/div>\n<div>Hlad\u00ed\u0161 m\u011b po vlasech, m\u00e1 hlava lp\u00ed na tv\u00e9m rameni. T\u00e9\u017e c\u00edt\u00edm tv\u00e9 t\u0159esouc\u00ed se t\u011blo, je\u017e ovl\u00e1d\u00e1 mr\u00e1z, tak jako to m\u00e9&#8230; U\u017e nen\u00ed pomoci, ji\u017e n\u00e1m nikdo nepom\u016f\u017ee. Ale pro\u010d to tak rychle skon\u010dilo? Toto je nespravedliv\u00fd konec&#8230; Av\u0161ak v\u0161echno kr\u00e1sn\u00e9 kon\u010d\u00ed. Kon\u010d\u00ed bolestiv\u011b a s utrpen\u00edm &#8211; to jest to, co n\u00e1m nikdo nesd\u011blil. Ka\u017ed\u00fd to pozn\u00e1 a\u017e na sam\u00e9m konci, na konci za\u010d\u00e1tku, br\u00e1n\u011b k nekone\u010dnu&#8230; bloud\u011bn\u00edm od nikam k nikam, str\u00e1d\u00e1n\u00edm mysli, krv\u00e1cen\u00edm srdce&#8230; Ne, nechci to c\u00edtit. Je\u0161t\u011b ne, je\u0161t\u011b tu s tebou chci b\u00fdt&#8230; Tvou h\u0159ejivou l\u00e1sku c\u00edtit.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Naposled, Tome&#8230; je\u0161t\u011b jednou, zaslou\u017e\u00edme si to&#8230;&#8220; skrz sv\u00e9 slzy vy\u0159knu rozhodnut\u00ed, na kter\u00e9 se neklade odpor&#8230; mus\u00ed mu b\u00fdt vyhov\u011bno, mysl spokojena&#8230; ke \u0161\u0165astn\u00e9mu sp\u00e1nku un\u00e1\u0161ena&#8230; ano, ale to nejde.. toto je realita a ne ta poh\u00e1dka, o n\u00ed\u017e sn\u00edme&#8230; ne, v\u0161e je jinak&#8230; v\u0161e se pom\u00e1tlo, sv\u011bt je naruby, ka\u017ed\u00fd k\u00e1men je obr\u00e1cen\u00fd, ji\u017e te\u010f c\u00edt\u00edm jak vzduch se st\u00e1v\u00e1 pro n\u00e1s m\u00e9n\u011b d\u00fdchateln\u00fdm, otupuje n\u00e1s.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Naposled&#8230;&#8220; za\u0161ept\u00e1\u0161. Sly\u0161\u00edm ten smutek, to vol\u00e1n\u00ed&#8230; na kter\u00e9 nikdo neodpov\u00edd\u00e1, jen mus\u00edme naslouchat. Sv\u00e9 rty k tv\u00fdm p\u0159ibl\u00ed\u017e\u00edm a nech\u00e1m se pohlcovat okam\u017eikem, jen\u017e se nikdy nevr\u00e1t\u00ed. Bude zaznamen\u00e1n v d\u011bjin\u00e1ch minulosti, na kter\u00e9 stejnak nikdo nenaraz\u00ed&#8230; ale v na\u0161ich srdc\u00edch&#8230; z\u016fstanou nav\u017edy. Nav\u017edy si budeme v\u011bdomi sv\u00e9 l\u00e1sky, i kdyby n\u00e1m srdce byly ukradeny&#8230; i kdybychom se stali samotn\u00fdmi \u010f\u00e1bli.<\/div>\n<div>Slzy st\u00e1le vyt\u00e9kaj\u00ed. Odt\u00e9k\u00e1 z n\u00e1s v\u0161e. V\u0161echny vzpom\u00ednky&#8230; Na\u0161e t\u011bla pozb\u00fdvaj\u00ed \u017eivota, ale bojuj\u00ed o n\u011bj&#8230; bezradn\u011b, je to bez \u0161ance&#8230; Tome, d\u00edky za v\u0161e, za tvou l\u00e1sku, kterou jsem byl po sv\u00e9 v\u011bky udr\u017eov\u00e1n na \u017eivu. Za tv\u00e9 pohledy, kter\u00e9 m\u011b dov\u00e1d\u011bly k nep\u0159\u00ed\u010detnosti. Za tvoje pohlazen\u00ed, kter\u00e9 mi pom\u00e1h\u00e1, za tv\u016fj posledn\u00ed polibek, kter\u00fd zanech\u00e1v\u00e1 stopu smrteln\u00e9ho tajemstv\u00ed&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>M\u00e9 t\u011blo by ho\u0159elo, kdyby mohlo&#8230; ale pohlcuje n\u00e1s mr\u00e1z&#8230; ten krut\u00fd mr\u00e1z, u\u017e je tu&#8230; zab\u00edj\u00ed n\u00e1s&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Pro\u010d&#8230; zn\u00ed m\u00e1 posledn\u00ed ot\u00e1zka&#8230; pro\u010d si n\u00e1s zde nenechal d\u00e9le? Copak je skute\u010dn\u00e1 l\u00e1ska tak trestn\u00e1? Asi ano&#8230; hodna smrti.<\/div>\n<div>Um\u00edr\u00e1me, ne\u0161\u0165astni&#8230; zklam\u00e1ni t\u00edmto sv\u011btem&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Ale a\u010dkoli na\u0161e t\u011bla v prach se rozpadaj\u00ed, na\u0161e krv\u00e1cej\u00ed srdce po\u0159\u00e1d n\u011bkde ho\u0159\u00ed&#8230; nezapom\u00ednaj\u00ed, i kdy\u017e si to nebesa p\u0159ej\u00ed&#8230; jsme proti, jsme neporaziteln\u00ed&#8230; Ale jednu slabinu st\u00e1le m\u00e1me&#8230; &#8211; u\u017e c\u00edt\u00edm ostnat\u00e9 trny usychaj\u00edc\u00edch r\u016f\u017e\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div><em>Stra\u0161ideln\u00e9 nestv\u016fry, je\u017e ze st\u00edn\u016f vystupuj\u00ed,<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>soumrak, kter\u00fd nah\u00e1n\u00ed strach&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>a zb\u00fdv\u00e1 tu jen posledn\u00ed, ten prach&#8230;<\/em><\/p>\n<p>autor: <strong>Shellayn<\/strong><br \/>betaread: <strong>Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&#8222;Fanou\u0161ci j\u00e1saj\u00ed, jsou \u0161\u0165astn\u00ed &#8211; ale co je s Billem? Co je s Tomem? Co se d\u011bje?&#8220; sl\u00fdch\u00e1v\u00e1me&#8230; sl\u00fdch\u00e1v\u00e1me holou pravdu, budoucnost, kter\u00e1 je neporaziteln\u00e1&#8230; Sice nev\u00edme, kdy to p\u0159ijde, ale bude to brzy&#8230; velmi brzy. 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