{"id":18714,"date":"2008-04-09T11:06:00","date_gmt":"2008-04-09T10:06:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=18674"},"modified":"2008-04-09T11:06:00","modified_gmt":"2008-04-09T10:06:00","slug":"only-for-you-11","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/04\/09\/only-for-you-11\/","title":{"rendered":"Only For You 11."},"content":{"rendered":"<div>Pro\u010d? Pro\u010d se v\u017edycky nech\u00e1m oklamat nad\u011bj\u00ed? Pro\u010d, i kdy\u017e v\u00edm, \u017ee je to naprosto zbyte\u010dn\u00e9, se j\u00ed nech\u00e1m zaslepit natolik, \u017ee v okam\u017eiku, kdy procitnu do reality, se bolest, je\u017e snad ani ne na desetinu sekundy utlumila, stane je\u0161t\u011b bolestn\u011bj\u0161\u00ed, ne\u017e p\u0159edt\u00edm? Pro\u010d mus\u00edm d\u011blat po\u0159\u00e1d dokola st\u00e1le stejnou chybu? Pro\u010d se nikdy nepou\u010d\u00edm?<\/div>\n<div>Kolikr\u00e1t u\u017e se takhle pt\u00e1m?<\/div>\n<div>Po kolik\u00e1t\u00e9 se l\u00e1skou sou\u017e\u00edm?<\/div>\n<div>Pro\u010d nem\u016f\u017eu m\u00edt to,<\/div>\n<div>Po \u010dem tolik tou\u017e\u00edm\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Kolikr\u00e1t odpov\u011b\u010f p\u0159edem u\u017e zn\u00e1m?<\/div>\n<div>Kolikr\u00e1t ti slova l\u00e1sky do noci za\u0161ept\u00e1m &#8211;<\/div>\n<div>Ne\u017e je doopravdy usly\u0161\u00ed\u0161\u2026<\/div>\n<div>P\u0159esn\u011b tahle slova se mi sama od sebe poskl\u00e1dala hlav\u011b, kdy\u017e jsme se mu d\u00edval do o\u010d\u00ed. Nikdy jsem b\u00e1sni\u010dky nepsal. Nikdy se mi kv\u016fli \u017e\u00e1dn\u00e9 d\u00edvce nezalily o\u010di slzami. To v\u0161echno jenom kv\u016fli Billovi. Zm\u011bnil m\u011b&#8230; Proutn\u00edka, v\u0161ude obletovan\u00e9ho prince, p\u0159em\u011bnil na smrteln\u011b zamilovanou princeznu, \u010dekaj\u00edc\u00ed na sv\u00e9ho vysvoboditele, v podob\u011b kr\u00e1sn\u00e9ho prince na b\u00edl\u00e9m koni.<\/div>\n<div>A kv\u016fli \u010demu? Aby zapomn\u011bl a j\u00e1 se propadal do temn\u00e9 propasti zoufalstv\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Prvn\u00ed kapka slan\u00e9 vody mi chce st\u00e9ct po tv\u00e1\u0159i. Rychle zamrk\u00e1m, abych ji zastavil. U\u017e nem\u016f\u017eu d\u00e1l.<\/div>\n<div>Vstanu a vyb\u011bhnu z pokoje, nech\u00e1vaj\u00edc sv\u00e9, st\u00e1le nic netu\u0161\u00edc\u00ed dvoj\u010de, za sebou. U\u017e se je nesna\u017e\u00edm zastavit. St\u00e9kaj\u00ed mi po tv\u00e1\u0159i jedna za druhou. Je mi to jedno. U\u017e je mi v\u0161echno jedno\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Vb\u011bhnu do pokoje, zamknu za sebou a vrhnu se s hlasit\u00fdm brekem na postel.<\/div>\n<div>Nikdy p\u0159edt\u00edm jsem nebre\u010del.<\/div>\n<div>Nikdy p\u0159edt\u00edm jsem toti\u017e nemiloval\u2026<\/div>\n<div>L\u00e1ska srdce v dlani sv\u00edr\u00e1<\/div>\n<div>Zoufalstv\u00ed slzy dopadaj\u00ed na pol\u0161t\u00e1\u0159<\/div>\n<div>Zradila m\u011b nad\u011bje i v\u00edra<\/div>\n<div>Cht\u011bl bych op\u011bt pol\u00edbit tvou tv\u00e1\u0159\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Tolik bych cht\u011bl a nem\u016f\u017eu. Tolik bych si p\u0159\u00e1l op\u011bt c\u00edtit bezpe\u010d\u00ed ve tv\u00e9 n\u00e1ru\u010di, nam\u00edsto abych tady te\u010f obj\u00edmal ply\u0161\u00e1ka a sm\u00e1\u010del mu jeho jemnou hebkou srst.Tolik bych ti cht\u011bl \u0159\u00edct, jak t\u011b m\u00e1m r\u00e1d, ani\u017e bys mnou opovrhoval. Tolik bych t\u011b cht\u011bl zp\u011bt. Tolik bych t\u011b cht\u011bl op\u011bt milovat\u2026<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Tome?&#8220; Sly\u0161\u00edm tv\u016fj hlas. Neodpov\u00edd\u00e1m. Pro\u010d vyslovuje\u0161 moje jm\u00e9no? Pro\u010d mi to d\u011bl\u00e1\u0161? Hrozn\u011b to bol\u00ed! P\u0159ipom\u00edn\u00e1\u0161 mi t\u00edm snad schv\u00e1ln\u011b skute\u010dnost, \u017ee u\u017e m\u011b nemiluje\u0161? Kam zmizela ta n\u011bha, v\u00e1\u0161e\u0148, touha? Kam zmizela l\u00e1ska? Pro\u010d jsi ji ukryl? V\u00edm, \u017ee je n\u011bkde v tob\u011b, tak pro\u010d ji neposlouch\u00e1\u0161?<\/div>\n<div>Za\u0161lapal jsi na\u0161i l\u00e1sku,<\/div>\n<div>poklad v hloubi ukryt\u00fd.<\/div>\n<div>Za\u0161lapal jsi na\u0161i l\u00e1sku<\/div>\n<div>Objevit ji m\u016f\u017ee\u0161 zase jenom ty\u2026<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Tome!&#8220; zkou\u0161\u00ed\u0161 to znovu. Pro\u010d prost\u011b nem\u016f\u017ee\u0161 j\u00edt pry\u010d a nechat m\u011b nepokoji? Pro\u010d m\u011b nenech\u00e1\u0161 ut\u00e1p\u011bt v sebel\u00edtosti? Pro\u010d mi to za ka\u017edou cenu chce\u0161 d\u011blat je\u0161t\u011b t\u011b\u017e\u0161\u00ed?<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Tome! Co se stalo? Ud\u011blal jsem n\u011bco \u0161patn\u011b?&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Ne, nic jsi neud\u011blal \u0161patn\u011b.&#8220; Odpov\u00edm. On za nic nem\u016f\u017ee. Nen\u00ed to jeho vina. Nikdo nemohl tu\u0161it, \u017ee kdy\u017e toho r\u00e1na nasedne do auta, u\u017e se dom\u016f nevr\u00e1t\u00ed stejn\u00fd jako d\u0159\u00edv. Nen\u00ed jeho vina, \u017ee si nic nepamatuje.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Tak pro\u010d jsi utekl? J\u00e1 to nech\u00e1pu! Pros\u00edm, pus\u0165 m\u011b dovnit\u0159!&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>Ano, s\u00e1m si to \u0159ekl. Nic nech\u00e1pe\u0161 a j\u00e1 v sob\u011b nikdy nenaleznu dost odvahy na to, abych ti to vysv\u011btlil. U\u017e znovu nechci za\u017e\u00edt tu nejistotu, to ticho. Stejn\u011b jako kdysi. Kdy\u017e jsem ti poprv\u00e9 vyj\u00e1d\u0159il sv\u00e9 city. Ne\u017e jsi mi odpov\u011bd\u011bl polibkem\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Tehdy jsem riskoval a vyplatilo se. Ale te\u010f u\u017e ne. Te\u010f u\u017e t\u011b nezn\u00e1m tak jako d\u0159\u00edv. Jsi u\u017e n\u011bkdo jin\u00fd. Ov\u0161em i tak osoba, je\u017e jsem zaprodal sv\u00e9 srdce i du\u0161i\u2026<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Bille, te\u010f chci b\u00fdt s\u00e1m. Odejdi.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Ne. Neodejdu! N\u011bco mi taj\u00ed\u0161, a j\u00e1 chci v\u011bd\u011bt co. Pro\u010d mi to neprozrad\u00ed\u0161? Kam se pod\u011blo to tvoje nad\u0161en\u00ed? Kde je ten Tom, co mi v nemocnici tak horliv\u011b vypr\u00e1v\u011bl o na\u0161em d\u011btstv\u00ed a v\u0161emo\u017en\u00fdch kousc\u00edch, je\u017e jsme prov\u00e1d\u011bli dosp\u011bl\u00fdm? Kam se pod\u011bl? Co jsem ud\u011blal jinak, \u017ee z tebe mus\u00edm v\u0161echno dolovat?&#8220; jsi zoufal\u00fd. Ch\u00e1pu, jak se te\u010f c\u00edt\u00ed\u0161, ale nejsem schopen ti jakkoli pomoci. Proto\u017ee j\u00e1 s\u00e1m pot\u0159ebuji pomoct. Od tebe. Pot\u0159ebuji zachr\u00e1nit\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Zachra\u0148 m\u011b,<\/div>\n<div>vysly\u0161 slova nevy\u0159\u010den\u00e1<\/div>\n<div>Pochop u\u017e kone\u010dn\u011b,<\/div>\n<div>co to v\u0161echno znamen\u00e1.<\/div>\n<div>Jsi ztracen\u00fd ve sv\u011bt\u011b, je\u017e t\u011b obklopuje. M\u011bl jsem b\u00fdt tv\u00fdm pr\u016fvodcem, ale selhal jsem p\u0159i prvn\u00ed v\u011bt\u0161\u00ed zkou\u0161ce.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Otev\u0159i, Tome. Pros\u00edm.&#8220; Naposledy se pokou\u0161\u00ed\u0161. Zved\u00e1m se a vyslechnu tv\u00e9 prosby. Ot\u00edr\u00e1m si slzy ze zarudl\u00fdch tv\u00e1\u0159\u00ed a nasad\u00edm kamenn\u00fd v\u00fdraz. Odemyk\u00e1m. Sed\u00ed\u0161 na zemi. Vyhled\u00e1\u0161 m\u016fj pohled. Lesknou se. Stejn\u011b jako p\u0159ed chv\u00edl\u00ed m\u011b. Nam\u00edsto abys mi v\u0161ak kone\u010dn\u011b polo\u017eil ot\u00e1zky, je\u017e jsi mi pokl\u00e1dal zpoza dve\u0159\u00ed, zvedne\u0161 se a rozb\u011bhne\u0161 se do sv\u00e9ho pokoje.<\/div>\n<div>Asi jsem v\u00e1hal p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 dlouho.<\/div>\n<div>Zradil jsem t\u011b.<\/p>\n<p>autor: <strong>Cera<\/strong><br \/>betaread: <strong>Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Pro\u010d? Pro\u010d se v\u017edycky nech\u00e1m oklamat nad\u011bj\u00ed? 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