{"id":18717,"date":"2008-04-09T11:03:00","date_gmt":"2008-04-09T10:03:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=18677"},"modified":"2008-04-09T11:03:00","modified_gmt":"2008-04-09T10:03:00","slug":"only-for-you-8","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/04\/09\/only-for-you-8\/","title":{"rendered":"Only For You 8."},"content":{"rendered":"<div>Ka\u017ed\u00fd z n\u00e1s to zn\u00e1. Ka\u017ed\u00fd z n\u00e1s to za\u017e\u00edv\u00e1. Zazvon\u00ed bud\u00edk, vy ho otr\u00e1ven\u011b vypnete s t\u00edm, \u017ee ho p\u0159\u00ed\u0161t\u011b, pokud jste to je\u0161t\u011b neud\u011blali, doopravdy zahod\u00edte a s pot\u011b\u0161en\u00edm budete sledovat, jak se t\u0159\u00ed\u0161t\u00ed o prot\u011bj\u0161\u00ed ze\u010f a rozpad\u00e1 se na mal\u00e9 kous\u00ed\u010dky. S n\u00e1mahou se donut\u00edte vst\u00e1t z vyh\u0159\u00e1t\u00fdch pe\u0159in a v duchu si \u0159eknete: &#8222;Tak a je tu dal\u0161\u00ed den.&#8220; Ano, pouh\u00fd dal\u0161\u00ed den v pr\u00e1ci, \u010di ve \u0161kole. Den, ni\u010d\u00edm se neli\u0161\u00edc\u00ed od t\u011bch p\u0159edchoz\u00edch. Den, postr\u00e1daj\u00edc\u00ed jakoukoliv zm\u011bnu.<\/div>\n<div>Za n\u011bjakou dobu si nakonec s hr\u016fzou uv\u011bdom\u00edte, \u017ee to, co jste p\u0159edt\u00edm d\u011blali s nad\u0161en\u00edm, nyn\u00ed vykon\u00e1v\u00e1te pouze ze zvyku. \u017de to, co se v\u00e1m kdysi zd\u00e1lo vzru\u0161uj\u00edc\u00ed, ztratilo sv\u00e9 osobit\u00e9 kouzlo\u2026 \u017de se z v\u00e1s pomalu st\u00e1vaj\u00ed naprogramovan\u00ed roboti, kte\u0159\u00ed se zapnou v okam\u017eiku, kdy zap\u00edp\u00e1 ji\u017e zm\u00edn\u011bn\u00fd bud\u00edk, a vypnou ve chv\u00edli, kdy ulehnou, aby na\u010derpali s\u00edly na pouh\u00fd dal\u0161\u00ed den ve sv\u00e9m a\u017e p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 usp\u011bchan\u00e9m \u017eivot\u011b. Dokonce si na to zvykneme natolik, \u017ee v\u00e1s vykolej\u00ed cokoliv neo\u010dek\u00e1van\u00e9ho, vymykaj\u00edc\u00edho se norm\u00e1lu. I sebemen\u0161\u00ed mali\u010dkost. A\u0165 u\u017e se jedn\u00e1 o pouh\u00e9 p\u0159ekvapen\u00ed nebo n\u011bjakou nep\u0159\u00edjemnou situaci, s n\u00ed\u017e si, jak zjist\u00edme, kv\u016fli tomu zab\u011bhl\u00e9mu stereotypu, nebudeme v\u011bd\u011bt rady.<\/div>\n<div>A p\u0159esn\u011b v takov\u00e9 situaci jsem se te\u010f ocitl i j\u00e1.<\/div>\n<div>S hlavou st\u00e1le polo\u017eenou na Billov\u011b hrudi jsem se pod jeho pohledem c\u00edtil jako mal\u00e9 d\u00edt\u011b, je\u017e rodi\u010de p\u0159istihli ve sp\u00ed\u017ei se zapatlanou pusou od ryb\u00edzov\u00e9 marmel\u00e1dy. Stejn\u011b tak provinile.<\/div>\n<div>Jedna moje polovina sk\u00e1kala radost\u00ed z toho, \u017ee mohu op\u011bt sly\u0161et tlukot bratrova srdce, ov\u0161em ta druh\u00e1 hled\u011bla s velmi dob\u0159e zakr\u00fdvanou bolest\u00ed do hn\u011bd\u00fdch o\u010d\u00ed, nyn\u00ed sv\u00fdm zp\u016fsobem pr\u00e1zdn\u00fdch. Bez l\u00e1sky. Nemysl\u00edm tu bratrskou, ale zak\u00e1zanou\u2026 L\u00e1sku, kde slova &#8222;Miluji t\u011b&#8220; nejsou jen ot\u0159epan\u00e1 fr\u00e1ze, ale hol\u00fd fakt.<\/div>\n<div>Musel jsem lh\u00e1t. Jako v tom snu. Znovu.<\/div>\n<div>Odtrhnu se rychle od opojn\u011b von\u00edc\u00ed Billovy k\u016f\u017ee, a\u017e se mi dredy rozlet\u00ed okolo obli\u010deje a \u0159eknu prvn\u00ed v\u011bc, kterou mi slina p\u0159inese na jazyk.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Bille, promi\u0148. J\u00e1\u2026 pova\u017eoval jsem t\u011b za ply\u0161\u00e1ka\u2026&#8220; Uzn\u00e1v\u00e1m, je to hovadina, ov\u0161em m\u011b v tu chv\u00edli fakt nic jin\u00e9ho nenapadlo.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Ply-ply\u0161\u00e1ka?&#8220; zatv\u00e1\u0159\u00ed se pochybova\u010dn\u011b.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;No, ano. Takov\u00fdho velk\u00fdho, b\u00edl\u00fdho, roztomil\u00fdho, hrozn\u011b chundelat\u00fdho medv\u011bda, co jsem ho od tebe dostal k \u0161estn\u00e1ct\u00fdm narozenin\u00e1m.&#8220; J\u00e1 debil mu to je\u0161t\u011b potvrd\u00edm. A na d\u016fkaz toho, \u017ee to mysl\u00edm opravdu v\u00e1\u017en\u011b, pok\u00fdv\u00e1m hlavou a zamrk\u00e1m. Holt, z rozjet\u00e9ho vlaku se jen t\u011b\u017eko vystupuje\u2026<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Aha\u2026&#8220; za\u0161ept\u00e1 zklaman\u011b. Ne, zklaman\u011b ne. To se jedn\u00e1 jenom o pouh\u00fd dal\u0161\u00ed v\u00fdplod moj\u00ed fantazie, tou\u017e\u00edc\u00ed po n\u00e1vratu milovan\u00e9ho. Prost\u011b za\u0161ept\u00e1. Bez grimasy, bez citu. V\u00fdsledek jeho vt\u00edrav\u00e9ho nutk\u00e1n\u00ed zareagovat. Nebo ne?<\/div>\n<div>Po minut\u011b dal\u0161\u00edho trapn\u00e9ho ticha si nepatrn\u011b odka\u0161lu.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Ehm\u2026 douf\u00e1m, \u017ee se ti u\u017e nezd\u00e1l \u017e\u00e1dn\u00fd d\u011bsiv\u00fd sen\u2026 P\u016fjdu se obl\u00edct a uva\u0159it sn\u00eddani\u2026 tousty. Tak potom doraz\u2026&#8220; vstanu a odejdu do sv\u00e9ho pokoje.<\/div>\n<div>Zabouchnu dve\u0159e, oto\u010d\u00edm kl\u00ed\u010dem a sval\u00edm se z\u00e1dy na rozestlanou postel. Nech\u00e1m klesnout v\u00ed\u010dka a zhluboka se nadechnu. Tv\u00e1\u0159 se mi po dlouh\u00e9 dob\u011b uvoln\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>Nechci, nechci znova bre\u010det. Nechci se znovu ut\u00e1p\u011bt v zoufal\u00fdch slz\u00e1ch, p\u0159in\u00e1\u0161ej\u00edc\u00edch mi \u010d\u00e1ste\u010dn\u011b \u00falevu, ale hlavn\u011b utrpen\u00ed. J\u00e1 mus\u00edm b\u00fdt siln\u00fd. Kv\u016fli sob\u011b i kv\u016fli Billovi. Mus\u00edm b\u00fdt siln\u00fd za n\u00e1s za oba.<\/div>\n<div>Oble\u010du si kalhoty, triko, mikinu a sv\u00e1\u017eu si dredy do ohonu. Odemknu a sestoup\u00edm po schodech dol\u016f do kuchyn\u011b.<\/div>\n<div>Postav\u00edm se k lince a vynd\u00e1m v\u0161echny pot\u0159ebn\u00e9 ingredience a pom\u016fcky k p\u0159\u00edprav\u011b sn\u00eddan\u011b. Jsem do pr\u00e1ce natolik zabr\u00e1n, \u017ee si ani nev\u0161imnu, \u017ee dorazil m\u016fj br\u00e1\u0161ka a nyn\u00ed stoj\u00ed u prot\u011bj\u0161\u00ed st\u011bny a zkoum\u00e1 zar\u00e1movan\u00e9 rodinn\u00e9 fotografie. Jsem do pr\u00e1ce natolik zabr\u00e1n, \u017ee si ani nev\u0161imnu, \u017ee m\u011b po o\u010dku pozoruje.<\/div>\n<div>Potom ke mn\u011b p\u0159istoup\u00ed a ani\u017e by cokoli \u0159ekl, za\u010dne strouhat tvrd\u00fd s\u00fdr a n\u00e1sledn\u011b kr\u00e1jet zeleninu. Pracujeme jako sehran\u00fd t\u00fdm. Nic proti tomu nenam\u00edt\u00e1m. Alespo\u0148 chv\u00edli m\u00e1m toti\u017e pocit, \u017ee se n\u011bco vr\u00e1tilo&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Kdy\u017e je j\u00eddlo hotov\u00e9, napln\u00edm dv\u011b velk\u00e9 sklenice a\u017e po okraj pomeran\u010dov\u00fdm d\u017eusem a p\u0159ejdu za Billem ke stolu.<\/div>\n<div>Cht\u011bl bych si s n\u00edm pov\u00eddat, ale m\u00e1m a\u017e p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 \u017eiv\u011b v pam\u011bti sv\u016fj dne\u0161n\u00ed sen a probuzen\u00ed. Jsem natolik zahloub\u00e1n do sebe, \u017ee si ani nev\u0161imnu toho, \u017ee si na kalhoty prdnu po\u0159\u00e1dnou d\u00e1vku ke\u010dupu.<\/div>\n<div>M\u00e9 dvoj\u010de se nen\u00e1padn\u011b pod\u00edv\u00e1 sm\u011brem kam dopadl a n\u00e1sledn\u011b zrudne v okam\u017eiku, kdy zjist\u00ed, \u017ee ho pozoruji se zdvi\u017een\u00fdm obo\u010d\u00edm. Dok\u00e1\u017eete si p\u0159eci p\u0159estavit, co se mi pr\u00e1v\u011b m\u016f\u017ee honit hlavou.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Bille?&#8220; oslov\u00edm br\u00e1\u0161ku, jeho\u017e pohled se z m\u00e9ho rozkroku, kam jsem se st\u00e1le je\u0161t\u011b nepod\u00edval, p\u0159esunul na st\u016fl.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;M\u00e1\u0161 tam&#8230; M\u00e1\u0161 tam&#8230;&#8220; za\u010dne koktat.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Co?&#8220; Zept\u00e1m se a sna\u017e\u00edm se zbavit my\u0161lenky, \u017ee tam p\u0159ece ur\u010dit\u011b n\u011bco m\u00e1m, kdy\u017e jsem kluk.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Flek.&#8220; Zak\u0159en\u00ed se.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Sakra!&#8220; vyk\u0159iknu a rozb\u011bhnu se do koupelny, kde si se spoustou nad\u00e1vek si ke\u010dup z kalhot set\u0159u. Skv\u011bl\u00fd, nam\u00edsto ke\u010dupov\u00fdho fleku, m\u00e1m dvakr\u00e1t v\u011bt\u0161\u00ed mokrej flek.<\/div>\n<div>Vr\u00e1t\u00edm se a za\u010dnu skl\u00edzet ze stolu. Sv\u00fdmi my\u0161lenkami zase ute\u010du mimo realitu. Op\u011bt si vychutn\u00e1v\u00e1m ten n\u00e1dhern\u00fd pocit, kter\u00fd se m\u011b zmoc\u0148uje p\u0159i vzpom\u00ednce na park a Billovo pol\u00edben\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>V\u00edm, sed\u00ed kousek ode m\u011b, av\u0161ak nen\u00ed to ten Bill, jeho\u017e miluji. Nen\u00ed to Bill, kter\u00e9mu bych dok\u00e1zal beze strachu vyj\u00e1d\u0159it sv\u00e9 city. Ten m\u016fj Bill je ukryt n\u011bkde uvnit\u0159. Le\u017e\u00ed pod hromadou sut\u011b, uzam\u010den za ocelov\u00fdmi dve\u0159mi a zoufale k\u0159i\u010d\u00ed o pomoc. K\u0159i\u010d\u00ed, jak nejv\u00edc m\u016f\u017ee. J\u00e1 ho v\u0161ak nesly\u0161\u00edm. Nesly\u0161\u00ed ho ani samotn\u00fd akt\u00e9r, okolo n\u011bho\u017e se to v\u0161echno odehr\u00e1v\u00e1.<\/div>\n<div>Pro\u010d?<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee kolem n\u011bj je toho tolik nezn\u00e1m\u00e9ho a nov\u00e9ho, \u017ee si nev\u0161\u00edm\u00e1 detail\u016f, mal\u00fdch, av\u0161ak p\u0159esto velice d\u016fle\u017eit\u00fdch\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee nevid\u00ed bolest, kter\u00e1 se mi v\u017edy v nest\u0159e\u017een\u00e9m okam\u017eiku objev\u00ed o\u010d\u00edch. V\u017edy, kdy\u017e se ode m\u011b odvr\u00e1t\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee nevid\u00ed m\u00e9 tak \u010dasto se lesknouc\u00ed o\u010di\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee nevid\u00ed m\u00e9 slzy\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee je slep\u00fd\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee kolem n\u011bj je tolik nov\u00fdch hlas\u016f, \u017ee mezi nimi nerozezn\u00e1 jeden jedin\u00fd\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee nesly\u0161\u00ed m\u00e9 tich\u00e9 vol\u00e1n\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee nesly\u0161\u00ed ani m\u00e9 tich\u00e9 prosby\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee nesly\u0161\u00ed m\u00e9 vzlyky, je\u017e tlum\u00ed noc\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee je hluch\u00fd\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee kdy\u017e u\u017e mi polo\u017e\u00ed tis\u00edce ot\u00e1zek, nen\u00ed tam ona jedna, na kterou bych mu tolik tou\u017eil odpov\u011bd\u011bt, ne\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee se nezept\u00e1 tak, aby se dozv\u011bd\u011bl pravdu\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee se nezept\u00e1 tak, abych mu ji mohl s d\u016fv\u011brou sv\u011b\u0159it\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee se nezept\u00e1, jeliko\u017e ho nikdy nic podobn\u00e9ho nenapadne\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee je n\u011bm\u00fd\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee nev\u00ed, co mezi n\u00e1mi bylo a snad je\u0161t\u011b je\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee nev\u00ed, \u017ee mezi n\u00e1mi bylo i n\u011bco siln\u011bj\u0161\u00edho ne\u017e pouto mezi dvoj\u010daty\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee nev\u00ed, \u017ee mezi n\u00e1mi bylo i n\u011bco jin\u00e9ho ne\u017e pouto sourozeneck\u00e9\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee nev\u00ed, \u017ee se milujeme\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Proto\u017ee ztratil pam\u011b\u0165\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Ano, pam\u011b\u0165. Ta st\u00e1le se nedostavuj\u00edc\u00ed se k\u0159i\u0161\u0165\u00e1lov\u00e1 truhla pln\u00e1 vzpom\u00ednek, kter\u00e1 jedin\u00e1 by mi dok\u00e1zala otev\u0159\u00edt br\u00e1nu k jeho srdci a znovu se us\u00eddlit na m\u00edst\u011b v n\u011bm, ur\u010den\u00e9m pouze pro milence.<\/div>\n<div>Takov\u00fdchto proto\u017ee, d\u016fvod\u016f, pro\u010d to zat\u00edm nen\u00ed jako d\u0159\u00edv, se mi hon\u00ed hlavou nespo\u010det.<\/div>\n<div>V\u0161echny maj\u00ed sv\u00e9 opodstatn\u011bn\u00ed a v\u0161echny maj\u00ed stejn\u00e9 \u0159e\u0161en\u00ed. Ale to nep\u0159ich\u00e1z\u00ed a nep\u0159ich\u00e1z\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n<div>T\u0159eba kdybych se za\u010dal modlit, kdybych ho poprosil, B\u016fh by m\u00e1 p\u0159\u00e1n\u00ed vysly\u0161el\u2026<\/div>\n<div>T\u0159eba se jedn\u00e1 jen o cenu za sl\u00e1vu\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Ne. To jenom Svat\u00ed se nud\u00ed a m\u00edchaj\u00ed kartami na\u0161eho osudu\u2026 A B\u016fh\u2026 Ten s t\u00edm nic neud\u011bl\u00e1. Mo\u017en\u00e1 m\u00e1vne rukou na znamen\u00ed, a\u0165 si d\u011blaj\u00ed, co cht\u011bj\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Lidi ho u\u017e toti\u017e d\u00e1vno nezaj\u00edmaj\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n<div>B\u016fh je toti\u017e k\u2026<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Tome?&#8220; vytrhne m\u011b Bill z \u00favah zrovna ve chv\u00edli, kdy jsem si za\u010dal hr\u00e1t na kac\u00ed\u0159e a cht\u011bl tomu naho\u0159e ud\u011blit p\u00e1r nov\u00fdch jmen a p\u0159\u00edvlastk\u016f a t\u00edm mu p\u011bkn\u011b od srdce sd\u011blit, co si o n\u011bm mysl\u00edm\u2026<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Ano?&#8220; pohl\u00e9dnu mu do o\u010d\u00ed. Je v nich n\u011bco zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00edho, co nedok\u00e1\u017eu pojmenovat&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;\u0158ekne\u0161 mi, kdo je to na t\u011bch fotk\u00e1ch?&#8220; uk\u00e1\u017ee na obr\u00e1zky a j\u00e1 p\u0159ik\u00fdvnu. Kdo v\u00ed, t\u0159eba si vzpomene\u2026 Alespo\u0148 na n\u011bco\u2026 Cokoli\u2026<\/p>\n<p>autor: <strong>Cera<\/strong><br \/>betaread: <strong>Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Ka\u017ed\u00fd z n\u00e1s to zn\u00e1. Ka\u017ed\u00fd z n\u00e1s to za\u017e\u00edv\u00e1. Zazvon\u00ed bud\u00edk, vy ho otr\u00e1ven\u011b vypnete s t\u00edm, \u017ee ho p\u0159\u00ed\u0161t\u011b, pokud jste to je\u0161t\u011b neud\u011blali, doopravdy zahod\u00edte a s pot\u011b\u0161en\u00edm budete sledovat, jak se t\u0159\u00ed\u0161t\u00ed o prot\u011bj\u0161\u00ed ze\u010f a rozpad\u00e1 se<\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a class=\"myButt \" href=\"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/04\/09\/only-for-you-8\/\">Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[108],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18717","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-only-for-you"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18717","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=18717"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18717\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=18717"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=18717"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=18717"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}