{"id":18764,"date":"2008-04-08T03:05:00","date_gmt":"2008-04-08T02:05:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=18724"},"modified":"2008-04-08T03:05:00","modified_gmt":"2008-04-08T02:05:00","slug":"dnes-neumirej-18","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/04\/08\/dnes-neumirej-18\/","title":{"rendered":"Dnes neum\u00edrej! 18."},"content":{"rendered":"<div>Bill si ani nesta\u010dil uv\u011bdomit co d\u011bl\u00e1 a u\u017e nesm\u011ble sch\u00e1zel schody dol\u016f z patra. P\u0159idr\u017eoval se z\u00e1bradl\u00ed, jak si p\u0159ipadal slab\u00fd. V tu chv\u00edli u\u017e v\u016fbec nepochyboval, byl p\u0159esv\u011bd\u010den\u00fd, \u017ee si m\u016f\u017ee n\u011bco d\u00e1t.<br \/>Oddechl si, kdy\u017e ve\u0161el do potemn\u011bl\u00e9 kuchyn\u011b a po matce nebylo nikde ani stopy. Tou\u017eebn\u011b hm\u00e1tl po dv\u00ed\u0159k\u00e1ch sk\u0159\u00ed\u0148ky, kde si Kaulitzovi d\u0159\u00edv skladovali v\u0161echny sladkosti. Jako ve sn\u00e1ch je otev\u0159el a jako ve sn\u00e1ch si prohl\u00ed\u017eel v\u0161echen jej\u00ed obsah.<br \/>O n\u011bkolik m\u00e1lo minut pozd\u011bji u\u017e se op\u011bt \u0161kr\u00e1bal nahoru do sv\u00e9ho pokoje, v rukou tabulku ml\u00e9\u010dn\u00e9 \u010dokol\u00e1dy, \u010dokol\u00e1dov\u00e9 su\u0161enky a pytl\u00edk \u017eelatinov\u00fdch bonbon\u016f.<br \/>V\u0161echno to rozlo\u017eil na posteli a nevydr\u017eel se na to d\u00edvat ani deset sekund a u\u017eu\u017e sahal po \u010dokol\u00e1d\u011b. Po n\u011bkolika minut\u00e1ch, kdy jen bez hnut\u00ed sed\u011bl a s bla\u017een\u00fdm v\u00fdrazem si nech\u00e1val v \u00fastech rozplynout kosti\u010dky \u010dokol\u00e1dy, si k t\u00e9 p\u0159\u00edjemn\u00e9 \u010dinnosti vzal mobil, se z\u00e1m\u011brem odepsat Tomovi.<br \/>Nesta\u010dil nacvakat do telefonu ani dv\u011b l\u00e1skypln\u00e1 souv\u011bt\u00ed a st\u0159\u00edbrn\u00fd alobal zel, krom\u011b n\u011bkolika \u010dokol\u00e1dov\u00fdch drobe\u010dk\u016f, pr\u00e1zdnotou.<br \/>T\u011blem se mu rozl\u00e9valo teplo a bla\u017een\u00fd pocit uspokojen\u00ed a s cht\u00ed\u010dem v o\u010d\u00edch rozbaloval su\u0161enky. Je\u0161t\u011b po\u0159\u00e1d nem\u011bl dost, zdaleka ne.<br \/>Zat\u00edmco si drobil do postele, cvakal d\u00e1l sms pro Toma. Ta zpr\u00e1va vyhl\u00ed\u017eela nad m\u00edru spokojen\u011b, \u0159\u00edkal si, kdy\u017e dopsal, zat\u00edmco se pokou\u0161el rozervat pestrobarevn\u00fd pytl\u00edk \u017eel\u00e9.<br \/>Odeslal zpr\u00e1vu a modlil se, aby v\u0161echno bylo jako d\u0159\u00edv. V sms Tomovi sd\u011blil, \u017ee se s n\u00edm moc r\u00e1d uvid\u00ed, tud\u00ed\u017e za n\u00edm za dva t\u00fddny p\u0159ijede, a\u0165 ho to bude st\u00e1t cokoliv.<br \/>Te\u010f u\u017e zb\u00fdv\u00e1 jen p\u0159esv\u011bd\u010dit matku, co\u017e nebude tak t\u011b\u017ek\u00e9, pop\u0159\u00edpad\u011b vymyslet n\u00e1hradn\u00ed pl\u00e1n, co\u017e by sice mohlo b\u00fdt malinko t\u011b\u017e\u0161\u00ed, ale zvl\u00e1dne se to. Pak sehnat n\u011bjak\u00e9 pen\u00edze na autobus a&#8230;a&#8230;doj\u00edt pro dal\u0161\u00ed balen\u00ed su\u0161enek.<br \/>Kousl se do rtu. Nem\u011bl to d\u011blat, nem\u011bl to j\u00edst, v\u016fbec nad t\u00edm nem\u011bl uva\u017eovat&#8230; Co ho to jen napadlo ?<br \/>Ztratil v\u0161echno, o co se tak dlouho sna\u017eil, jen proto, \u017ee m\u011bl prost\u011b chu\u0165 ? Ach, je tak nezodpov\u011bdn\u00fd, Tom m\u011bl pravdu. Nem\u00e1 pevnou v\u016fli, \u017e\u00e1dnou trp\u011blivost&#8230; Byl na sebe tak na\u0161tvan\u00fd&#8230;<br \/>Tom to s tou hezkost\u00ed beztak nemyslel v\u00e1\u017en\u011b. Bill nebyl dokonal\u00fd, v\u011bd\u011bl to. Moc dob\u0159e to v\u011bd\u011bl, ub\u00edjelo ho to&#8230;<br \/>Jen\u017ee, co te\u010f ? Bu\u010f bude muset cel\u00e9 ty dva t\u00fddny doopravdy nej\u00edst, no anebo&#8230;<br \/>Ne\u017e sta\u010dil doopravdy za\u010d\u00edt uva\u017eovat nad onou druhou mo\u017enost\u00ed, mobil na posteli se op\u011bt rozvibroval.<br \/>Billovi zasv\u00edtily o\u010di, vypustil z hlavy v\u0161echny starosti ohledn\u011b jeho v\u00e1hy a pustil se do \u010dten\u00ed odpov\u011bdi.<br \/><em>&#8222;Okay, budu s tebou po\u010d\u00edtat. Taky t\u011b r\u00e1d uvid\u00edm, Bille. A hlavn\u011b bu\u010f opatrn\u00fd, v\u00ed\u0161 \u017ee matka si v\u0161echno prov\u011b\u0159uje&#8230; Ne, \u017ee se prost\u011b sebere\u0161 a odjede\u0161, kdy\u017e v\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee nesm\u00ed\u0161&#8230; P\u0159iprav si n\u011bjak\u00fd pl\u00e1n, s n\u011bk\u00fdm se t\u0159eba domluv a hlavn\u011b j\u00ed nedej z\u00e1minku ti nev\u011b\u0159it. Spol\u00e9h\u00e1m na tebe. Tak zat\u00edm, t\u011b\u0161\u00edm se, T.&lt;3&#8220;<\/em><br \/>Bill se slab\u00fdm \u00fasm\u011bvem pohl\u00ed\u017eel na z\u00e1\u0159\u00edc\u00ed displej. Byl o tolik milej\u0161\u00ed, ne\u017e v posledn\u00edch dnech&#8230; Billa to a\u017e podez\u0159ele zar\u00e1\u017eelo.<br \/>T\u0159eba to doopravdy znamenalo, \u017ee se k n\u011bmu Tom zase vr\u00e1t\u00ed. Uv\u011bdomil si, \u017ee se vlastn\u011b ani neroze\u0161li a z Tomovy strany to z\u0159ejm\u011b m\u011blo vyzn\u00edvat tak, \u017ee je v\u0161echno v po\u0159\u00e1dku, jako by \u017e\u00e1dn\u00fd t\u0159et\u00ed \u010dlov\u011bk v jejich vztahu ani neexistoval. Pravda, z jeho smsek to zase tolik poznat nebylo, ale na tom nez\u00e1le\u017eelo &#8211; Bill stejn\u011b v\u011bd\u011bl, na \u010dem je.<br \/>To, \u017ee p\u0159ed chv\u00edl\u00ed spo\u0159\u00e1dal m\u00e1lem tolik kalori\u00ed, jako nem\u011bl za cel\u00fd t\u00fdden, se mu naprosto vytratilo z mysli. Zcela na to zapomn\u011bl, jak nam\u00e1hal sv\u016fj p\u0159et\u00ed\u017een\u00fd mozek a sna\u017eil se z n\u011bj vypudit logick\u00e9 vysv\u011btlen\u00ed pro Tomovo zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00ed chov\u00e1n\u00ed.<br \/>Napadala ho tak bezstarostn\u00e1 vysv\u011btlen\u00ed, \u017ee je musel v\u0161echna zavrhnout, jak moc byla nepravd\u011bpodobn\u00e1. P\u0159eci&#8230; je to on &#8211; Bill, on p\u0159eci <em>nem\u016f\u017ee<\/em> m\u00edt takov\u00e9 \u0161t\u011bst\u00ed&#8230;<br \/>Anebo mo\u017en\u00e1 &#8211; a to se mu zd\u00e1lo nejpravd\u011bpodobn\u011bj\u0161\u00ed &#8211; m\u011bl Tom zkr\u00e1tka jen dobrou n\u00e1ladu, nebo se s t\u00edm n\u011bk\u00fdm t\u0159et\u00edm mali\u010dko poh\u00e1dal a stejn\u011b to bude za chv\u00edli dobr\u00e9&#8230; Nav\u00edc, ty sms nebyly nijak citov\u011b vypjat\u00e9, v\u016fbec nep\u0159ipom\u00ednaly zpr\u00e1v z d\u0159\u00edv\u011bj\u0161ka, ale p\u0159eci jenom&#8230; alespo\u0148 odpov\u011bd\u011bl. A oproti p\u0159edchoz\u00edm dn\u016fm, byl doopravdy mil\u00fd&#8230; A &#8211; a co\u017e bylo nejd\u016fle\u017eit\u011bj\u0161\u00ed &#8211; cht\u011bl Billa vid\u011bt.<br \/>Billovi posko\u010dilo srdce.<br \/>Jestli mu Tom p\u0159ijde naproti na n\u00e1dra\u017e\u00ed, tak ho zl\u00edbe na m\u00edst\u011b, a\u0165 u\u017e je okolo dal\u0161\u00edch tis\u00edc lid\u00ed, s t\u00edm n\u011bk\u00fdm t\u0159et\u00edm v \u010dele, nebo ne&#8230;<br \/>Billa znerv\u00f3z\u0148ovalo, \u017ee ani nev\u00ed, jestli je ten &#8222;n\u011bkdo t\u0159et\u00ed&#8220; kluk, nebo holka, p\u0159\u00e1l si ale, aby to byl kluk a Bill mu mohl bez v\u00fd\u010ditek rozb\u00edt hubu. P\u0159inejmen\u0161\u00edm se o to pokusit.<br \/>Cosi uvnit\u0159 mu v\u0161ak \u0159\u00edkalo, \u017ee to tak nebude&#8230;<br \/>Tom sice v\u017edycky b\u00fdval bisexu\u00e1ln\u00ed, holky v\u0161ak v\u017edycky byly na prvn\u00edm m\u00edst\u011b. Pokud to m\u011bl Bill \u0159\u00edct up\u0159\u00edmn\u011b, Tom i <em>jeho<\/em>, jako\u017eto sv\u00e9ho nejv\u00e1\u017en\u011bj\u0161\u00edho partnera, bral pon\u011bkud&#8230;jinak, ne\u017e jako opravdov\u00e9ho kluka.<br \/>A p\u0159i sebekritick\u00e9m pohledu do zrcadla &#8211; Bill se mu ani nedivil&#8230;<br \/>Nicm\u00e9n\u011b, nic by ho nedok\u00e1zalo vyto\u010dit v\u00edc, ne\u017e kdyby zjistil, \u017ee ten, kdo sd\u00edl\u00ed nam\u00edsto jeho lo\u017ee s bratrem, je ve skute\u010dnosti vysok\u00e1 dokonal\u00e1 blond\u00fdna s bokov\u00fdmi kalhotami a kr\u00e1tk\u00fdm topem. <em>Huben\u00e1<\/em> blond\u00fdna&#8230;<br \/>Bill zatnul sv\u00e9 k\u0159ehk\u00e9 prsty v p\u011bst. Nevid\u011bl, \u017ee sp\u00ed\u0161 p\u016fsob\u00ed jen jako k\u016fstky, pota\u017een\u00e9 b\u00edlou k\u016f\u017e\u00ed, nevid\u011bl, \u017ee cel\u00e9 jeho t\u011blo je jen kostra, n\u011bjak\u00fdm z\u00e1zrakem dr\u017e\u00edc\u00ed pohromad\u011b&#8230; Jasn\u011b se r\u00fdsuj\u00edc\u00ed kl\u00ed\u010dn\u00ed kosti a \u017eebra zcela p\u0159ehl\u00ed\u017eel. Vid\u011bl p\u0159ed sebou jen ten nedosa\u017eiteln\u00fd c\u00edl a u\u017e byl <em>tak<\/em> bl\u00edzko&#8230; Sta\u010dilo jen zatnout zuby, nezastavovat se a j\u00edt d\u00e1l&#8230; Tak daleko na cest\u011b k dokonalosti&#8230;<br \/>Pot\u0159\u00e1sl hlavou. T\u0159eba to nem\u00e1 ani smysl&#8230;uv\u011bdomil si. Je\u0161t\u011b chv\u00edli sed\u011bl na posteli, tup\u011b z\u00edral p\u0159ed sebe a uva\u017eoval. Nakonec se se sv\u00fdm druh\u00fdm j\u00e1 shodl, \u017ee prozat\u00edm pob\u011b\u017e\u00ed k c\u00edli poklusem, pozvolna&#8230; A po setk\u00e1n\u00ed s Tomem u\u017e bude aspo\u0148 v\u011bd\u011bt, na \u010dem je. Jestli je\u0161t\u011b v\u00edce zvolnit, ba \u00fapln\u011b zastavit (byl si jist\u00fd, \u017ee do t\u00e9hle f\u00e1ze nikdy nedosp\u011bje&#8230; u\u017e kv\u016fli jeho vlastn\u00edmu p\u0159esv\u011bd\u010den\u00ed), anebo naopak zrychlit. V hloubi du\u0161e v\u011bd\u011bl, \u017ee d\u011bl\u00e1 hlouposti. N\u011bkde uvnit\u0159 sebe ch\u00e1pal, \u017ee honit se za dokonalost\u00ed je po\u0161etil\u00e9. Jeho marnivost, hrdost a cti\u017e\u00e1dostivost v\u0161ak byla mnohem, mnohem siln\u011bj\u0161\u00ed. Byl <em>tak<\/em> zaslepen\u00fd&#8230;<br \/>Znovu zalehl oble\u010den\u00fd do postele; alobal pod n\u00edm nep\u0159\u00edjemn\u011b kovov\u011b za\u0161ustil a ve\u0161ker\u00e9 drobe\u010dky se vysypaly do oran\u017eov\u00e9ho povle\u010den\u00ed.<br \/>Bude to tak nejlep\u0161\u00ed&#8230; Prost\u011b bude j\u00edst, m\u00e1lo, ale bude. Po\u010dk\u00e1 ty dva t\u00fddny. Stejn\u011b to nedopadne jinak, ne\u017e \u017ee zjist\u00ed, \u017ee m\u011bl celou dobu pravdu a k tomu, aby Toma op\u011bt z\u00edskal kompletn\u011b zp\u00e1tky, sta\u010d\u00ed jen p\u00e1r kr\u016f\u010dk\u016f&#8230; Kr\u016f\u010dk\u016f k dokonalosti. C\u00edtil, jak se mu ten vt\u00edrav\u00fd hl\u00e1sek v jeho hlav\u011b vysm\u00edv\u00e1 &#8211; <em>byl tak zaslepen\u00fd&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Bohu\u017eel, jedin\u00fd \u010dlov\u011bk, kter\u00fd by b\u00fdval byl schopen Billa p\u0159im\u011bt, aby za\u010dal p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161let realisticky, zbavit ho t\u00e9 d\u011bsiv\u00e9 zaslepenosti, byl pr\u00e1v\u011b ten \u010dlov\u011bk, kv\u016fli kter\u00e9mu to v\u0161echno bylo, kv\u016fli komu se Billova marnivost zv\u00fd\u0161ila a\u017e ke kritick\u00e9mu bodu, kdy nevid\u011bl nic d\u016fle\u017eit\u011bj\u0161\u00edho, ne\u017e dos\u00e1hnout sv\u00e9ho jedin\u00e9ho c\u00edle &#8211; dokonalosti. Natolik byl do Toma zbl\u00e1zn\u011bn\u00fd&#8230;<br \/>Bylo pozoruhodn\u00e9, jak si ka\u017ed\u00fd dok\u00e1zal s takovou p\u0159esv\u011bd\u010divost\u00ed vsugerovat, od pravdy tolik li\u0161\u00edc\u00ed se skute\u010dnost&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>autor: <strong>Ketty<\/strong><br \/>betaread: <strong>Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Bill si ani nesta\u010dil uv\u011bdomit co d\u011bl\u00e1 a u\u017e nesm\u011ble sch\u00e1zel schody dol\u016f z patra. P\u0159idr\u017eoval se z\u00e1bradl\u00ed, jak si p\u0159ipadal slab\u00fd. V tu chv\u00edli u\u017e v\u016fbec nepochyboval, byl p\u0159esv\u011bd\u010den\u00fd, \u017ee si m\u016f\u017ee n\u011bco d\u00e1t.Oddechl si, kdy\u017e ve\u0161el do potemn\u011bl\u00e9 kuchyn\u011b a<\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a class=\"myButt \" href=\"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/04\/08\/dnes-neumirej-18\/\">Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[104],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18764","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-dnes-neumirej"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18764","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=18764"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18764\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=18764"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=18764"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=18764"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}