{"id":18836,"date":"2008-04-07T01:05:00","date_gmt":"2008-04-07T00:05:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=18795"},"modified":"2008-04-07T01:05:00","modified_gmt":"2008-04-07T00:05:00","slug":"du-bist-nicht-allein-14","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/04\/07\/du-bist-nicht-allein-14\/","title":{"rendered":"Du bist nicht allein 14."},"content":{"rendered":"<div>TOM:<\/div>\n<div>Bill p\u0159estane b\u00e1snit o dokonalosti Lisy. Je do n\u00ed v\u011bt\u0161\u00ed bl\u00e1zen ne\u017e jsem p\u0159edpokl\u00e1dal. Asi jsem sv\u011bdkem zrodu jeho vysn\u011bn\u00e9 romantick\u00e9 l\u00e1sky.<\/div>\n<div>Pro\u010d ji ale nepro\u017e\u00edv\u00e1 se mnou? Tak r\u00e1d bych mu splnil v\u0161e o \u010dem tak nad\u0161en\u011b vypr\u00e1v\u00ed. Jen\u017ee to mi asi nikdy nebude dop\u0159\u00e1no.<\/div>\n<div>Lisa. To je ta p\u0159ek\u00e1\u017eka. P\u0159ek\u00e1\u017eka, kter\u00e1 mi br\u00e1n\u00ed ve spln\u011bn\u00ed Billov\u00fdch sn\u016f. P\u0159ek\u00e1\u017eka, kter\u00e1 za m\u011b jeho sny spln\u00ed. P\u0159ek\u00e1\u017eka, kterou nikdy nebudu schopen s\u00e1m p\u0159ekonat.<\/div>\n<div>Pro\u010d by m\u011bl b\u00fdt \u017eivot jednoduch\u00fd, kdy\u017e m\u016f\u017ee b\u00fdt tak slo\u017eit\u00fd? Pro\u010d bych se zamiloval do d\u00edvky nebo i do kluka, kdy\u017e se mohu zamilovat do sv\u00e9ho bratra?<\/div>\n<div>Rad\u011bji p\u0159estanu p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161let nad nespravedliv\u00fdm \u017eivotem. Nem\u00e1 to cenu. Nic nevymysl\u00edm a zbyte\u010dn\u011b tak d\u00e1v\u00e1m Billovi \u010das p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161let. P\u0159em\u00fd\u0161let, pro\u010d jsem posledn\u00ed dobou tak jin\u00fd.<\/div>\n<div>Vyslov\u00edm ot\u00e1zku, abych p\u0159etrhl tok my\u0161lenek. M\u00fdch i Billov\u00fdch. Zn\u00e1m na ni p\u0159edem odpov\u011b\u010f, ale i p\u0159es to se pt\u00e1m: &#8222;Jsi z n\u00ed asi fakt hotovej, co?&#8220; Nepoda\u0159\u00ed se mi v\u0161ak skr\u00fdt smutn\u00fd podt\u00f3n. Je\u0161t\u011b nejsem zcela schopen ovl\u00e1dat se. Bill si toho v\u0161imne.<\/div>\n<div>Tv\u00e1\u0159\u00ed se na\u0161tvan\u011b, ale odpov\u00edd\u00e1 na ot\u00e1zku jako by se ani nechumelilo. I jeho na\u0161tvan\u00e1 tv\u00e1\u0159 se za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1 uvol\u0148ovat a u\u017e je tu zase ten star\u00fd ukecan\u00fd Bill.<\/div>\n<div>P\u0159i jeho monologu se sesunu ze sedu do lehu. Respektive se rozval\u00edm Billovi na posteli. Za\u010d\u00ednaj\u00ed se mi pomalu kl\u00ed\u017eit o\u010di. Bratr\u016fv hlas je pro mne ukol\u00e9bavkou. Nech\u00e1v\u00e1m se j\u00edm un\u00e1\u0161et do \u0159\u00ed\u0161e sn\u016f, kde nen\u00ed Lisa. Do \u0159\u00ed\u0161e, kde beztrestn\u011b sv\u00edr\u00e1m svou l\u00e1sku v n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed a ona se na m\u011b bla\u017een\u011b usm\u00edv\u00e1.<\/div>\n<div>N\u011bkdo m\u011b p\u0159ekuluje na posteli a p\u0159ikr\u00fdv\u00e1 m\u011b. V\u0161e jde ale mimo m\u011b. Pro\u017e\u00edv\u00e1m si sv\u016fj sen a nehodl\u00e1m se o \u0161t\u011bst\u00ed, kter\u00e9 mi p\u0159in\u00e1\u0161\u00ed, ni\u010d\u00edm a nik\u00fdm p\u0159ipravit.<\/div>\n<div>Sly\u0161\u00edm tich\u00e9 povzdechnut\u00ed. Zd\u00e1 se mi to? Nejsp\u00ed\u0161 ano. P\u0159ed o\u010dima vid\u00edm Billa stoj\u00edc\u00edho u m\u00e9 postele, s o\u010dima pln\u00fdma l\u00e1sky mne pozoruje. Samolib\u011b si hlad\u00edm b\u0159icho. Z bratrov\u00fdch pootev\u0159en\u00fdch \u00fast unikne slab\u00e9 povzdechnut\u00ed pln\u00e9 touhy a o\u010dek\u00e1v\u00e1n\u00ed. Dnes ho zklamu. M\u00e1m v pl\u00e1nu ho k sob\u011b p\u0159ivinout a okam\u017eit\u011b usnout. Dnes jsem tak unaven\u00fd, jen nev\u00edm, co m\u011b tak unavilo.<\/div>\n<div>Bill si ke mn\u011b opatrn\u011b leh\u00e1. Okam\u017eit\u011b si ho k sob\u011b p\u0159it\u00e1hnu. Pro\u010d se mi ale sna\u017e\u00ed vykroutit? Je\u0161t\u011b v\u00edce ho k sob\u011b p\u0159im\u00e1\u010dknu. C\u00edt\u00edm jeho t\u011blo nalepen\u00e9 na m\u00e9m. Slast\u00ed mu zafun\u00edm do vlas\u016f. St\u00e1le se sna\u017e\u00ed uvolnit. Pro\u010d? V\u017edy\u0165 jeho pohled sliboval tolik. Je na m\u011b snad na\u0161tvan\u00fd, \u017ee jsem dnes unaven\u00fd?<\/div>\n<div>Jen opatrn\u011b je\u0161t\u011b pos\u00edl\u00edm sv\u00e9 objet\u00ed. Uklidn\u00ed se. Za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1 sv\u00e9 napjat\u00e9 t\u011blo pokusy o vypro\u0161t\u011bn\u00ed se uvol\u0148ovat. Nakonec se mi stul\u00ed do n\u00e1ru\u010de a po chv\u00edli u\u017e zhluboka oddechuje. Je\u0161t\u011b ho jemn\u011b pohlad\u00edm po vlasech.<\/div>\n<div>Najednou se m\u016fj pohled na n\u00e1s dva zm\u011bn\u00ed. D\u00edv\u00e1m se z nohou postele na bla\u017een\u011b se usm\u00edvaj\u00edc\u00ed dvojici, sp\u00edc\u00ed ve vz\u00e1jemn\u00e9m objet\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>BILL:<\/div>\n<div>N\u011bkdo m\u011b jemn\u011b hlad\u00ed po tv\u00e1\u0159i.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Liso,&#8220; zamuml\u00e1m. Ruka, kter\u00e1 mne hlad\u00ed je tak jemn\u00e1. Nechci se probudit. Nechci pokazit p\u0159\u00edjemn\u00fd pocit rozl\u00e9vaj\u00edc\u00ed se mi po cel\u00e9m t\u011ble. Kdybych mohl, tak zavrn\u00edm blahem. Zopakuji jm\u00e9no, kter\u00e9 jsem p\u0159ed chv\u00edl\u00ed vyslovil.<\/div>\n<div>Jemn\u00e9 dotyky p\u0159estanou. J\u00e1 op\u011bt upad\u00e1m do hlubok\u00e9ho sp\u00e1nku. Za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1 se mi zd\u00e1t sen. Lisa le\u017e\u00ed vedle mne. D\u00edv\u00e1me se navz\u00e1jem od o\u010d\u00ed. Usm\u00edv\u00e1me se. Najednou do m\u011b Lisa za\u010dne nep\u0159\u00edjemn\u011b dloubat. Co to d\u011bl\u00e1? Pro\u010d do m\u011b r\u00fdpe prstem? Zn\u00e1m p\u0159\u00edjemn\u011bj\u0161\u00ed zp\u016fsoby, jak n\u011bkoho vzbudit.<\/div>\n<div>Pomalu se za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1m probouzet, p\u0159i\u010dem\u017e nezapomenu nevrle zabru\u010det. N\u011bjak mus\u00edm uk\u00e1zat, \u017ee se mi tento zp\u016fsob buzen\u00ed nel\u00edb\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>Nejd\u0159\u00edve otev\u0159u jedno a vz\u00e1p\u011bt\u00ed druh\u00e9 oko. Usm\u011bji se. Vid\u00edm toti\u017e Lisu.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Br\u00fd r\u00e1nko,&#8220; dol\u00e9h\u00e1 k m\u00fdm u\u0161\u00edm hlas, kter\u00fd rozhodn\u011b Lise nepat\u0159\u00ed. Ale nech\u00e1pu komu by tak mohl pat\u0159it. Jsem ve stavu, kdy\u017e jsem n\u011bkde mezi sp\u00e1nkem a bd\u011bn\u00edm.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Br\u00fd,&#8220; odpov\u00edm. Zamrk\u00e1m. Tom? Co ten tady d\u011bl\u00e1? Pro\u010d le\u017e\u00ed v m\u00e9 posteli? Nech\u00e1pav\u011b se na n\u011bj pod\u00edv\u00e1m.<\/div>\n<div>Pak si vzpomenu. V\u010dera u m\u011b vlastn\u011b usnul. Vzpomenu si i na jeho chvat, kter\u00fdm m\u011b k sob\u011b p\u0159it\u00e1hnul a nepustil. U\u017e v\u00edm, jak u n\u011bj holky vydr\u017e\u00ed a\u017e do r\u00e1na. Mus\u00edm se za\u010d\u00edt sm\u00e1t.<\/div>\n<div>TOM:<\/div>\n<div>Otev\u0159u o\u010di. N\u011bco nebo sp\u00ed\u0161e n\u011bkdo je na m\u011b natisknut\u00fd a p\u0159\u00edjemn\u011b h\u0159eje. Pooto\u010d\u00edm hlavu, abych zjistil kdo to je. Panebo\u017ee. Bill? Co u v\u0161ech \u010dert\u016f d\u011bl\u00e1 v m\u00e9m pokoji. V m\u00e9 posteli. Na m\u00e9m rameni? \u0160okem m\u00e1lem p\u0159estanu d\u00fdchat.<\/div>\n<div>Moment, n\u011bco tu nehraje. Rozhl\u00e9dnu se po pokoji. Nebyl n\u00e1hodou m\u016fj jinak za\u0159\u00edzen\u00fd? A nechci nic \u0159\u00edkat, ale tolik \u010dern\u00fdch tri\u010dek jsem v \u017eivot\u011b po podlaze rozh\u00e1zeno nem\u011bl a zajist\u00e9 ne takhle mal\u00fdch.<\/div>\n<div>Pak mi to dojde. J\u00e1 jsem u Billa. Vzpomenu si. Lisa. Vypr\u00e1v\u011bl mi o n\u00ed a j\u00e1 musel usnout. Pro\u010d ho ale sv\u00edr\u00e1m v n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed?<\/div>\n<div>Nepatrn\u011b se zavrt\u00edm. I p\u0159es mu\u0161\u00ed v\u00e1hu sv\u00e9ho bratra u\u017e skoro nec\u00edt\u00edm ruku od ramene dol\u016f. Billa to neprobere. Jsem r\u00e1d. Mohu se beztrestn\u011b d\u00edvat na jeho poklidnou tv\u00e1\u0159. Lehce se sklon\u00edm a p\u0159ivon\u00edm si k jeho vlas\u016fm. Bla\u017een\u011b p\u0159iv\u0159u o\u010di. Je mo\u017en\u00e9, \u017ee m\u016f\u017ee b\u00fdt n\u011bkdo tak dokonal\u00fd? Pro\u010d to ale mus\u00ed b\u00fdt zrovna m\u016fj bratr?<\/div>\n<div>Na dal\u0161\u00ed p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161len\u00ed nem\u00e1m \u010das, proto\u017ee se na no\u010dn\u00edm stolku rozdrn\u010d\u00ed telefon. Sakra. To mi v\u0161echny kr\u00e1sn\u00e9 chvilky s n\u00edm mus\u00ed n\u011bco pokazit? Vztekle se po n\u011bm nat\u00e1hnu. Billova hlava sklouzne z m\u00e9ho ramene do m\u011bkk\u00fdch pol\u0161t\u00e1\u0159\u016f. Ani to ho neprobud\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>Mobil mi vy\u0159v\u00e1v\u00e1 v ruce. Zm\u00e1\u010dknu prvn\u00ed tla\u010d\u00edtko, co mi p\u0159ijde pod ruku. Ten nesnesiteln\u00fd zvuk okam\u017eit\u011b p\u0159estane. To m\u011b mohlo napadnout, \u017ee si br\u00e1\u0161ka d\u00e1 bud\u00edk o hodinu d\u0159\u00edve ne\u017e vst\u00e1v\u00e1m j\u00e1. Ty jeho \u00fapravy. V\u017edy\u0165 je kr\u00e1sn\u00fd i bez l\u00ed\u010den\u00ed. Jen\u017ee jednou si vytvo\u0159il roli namalovan\u00e9ho Billa a bez v\u00fdjimky se j\u00ed dr\u017e\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>Je\u0161t\u011b chv\u00edli se koch\u00e1m pohledem na sp\u00edc\u00edho bratra. Pak ho za\u010dnu jemn\u011b budit. Nejd\u0159\u00edv ho jen nepatrn\u011b pohlad\u00edm po tv\u00e1\u0159i. N\u011bco zamuml\u00e1. Zkus\u00edm to znovu. &#8222;Liso,&#8220; dok\u00e1\u017eu rozeznat jm\u00e9no, kter\u00e9 mi vzalo nad\u011bji b\u00fdt s Billem v\u00edc ne\u017e bratry.<\/div>\n<div>Zaraz\u00edm se. Ruka se mi za\u010dne chv\u011bt. Mus\u00edm se za\u010d\u00edt ovl\u00e1dat. Mus\u00edm si za\u010d\u00edt zvykat na to jm\u00e9no, na ni, na mraven\u010den\u00ed, kter\u00e9 poci\u0165uji kolem \u017ealudku, kdykoli sly\u0161\u00edm jej\u00ed jm\u00e9no. Naposledy ho jemn\u011b pohlad\u00edm po tv\u00e1\u0159i. Chci si vtisknout do pam\u011bti jemnost jeho k\u016f\u017ee. Chci si nav\u017edy pamatovat Billa spokojen\u011b sp\u00edc\u00edho vedle m\u011b a sebe s v\u011bdom\u00edm, \u017ee jsem ho p\u0159ed p\u00e1r minutami sv\u00edral v n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed. Zav\u0159u o\u010di a naposledy si vybav\u00edm obr\u00e1zek n\u00e1s dvou na posteli.<\/div>\n<div>Za\u010dnu Billa budit o n\u011bco intenzivn\u011bji ne\u017e p\u0159ed chv\u00edl\u00ed. M\u00edrn\u011b s n\u00edm zat\u0159esu. Nic. Zkus\u00edm to znovu. Stejn\u00e1 reakce. Za\u010dnu do n\u011bj tedy m\u00edrn\u011b dloubat. To u\u017e se br\u00e1\u0161ka za\u010dne s nevrl\u00fdm bru\u010den\u00ed probouzet.<\/div>\n<div>Otev\u0159e jedno oko a n\u00e1sledn\u011b druh\u00e9. Usm\u011bje se.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Br\u00fd r\u00e1nko,&#8220; zazub\u00edm se na n\u011bj.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Br\u00fd,&#8220; broukne mi na odpov\u011b\u010f. Zamrk\u00e1. Nech\u00e1pav\u011b se na m\u011b pod\u00edv\u00e1. Asi \u010dekal n\u011bkoho jin\u00e9ho.<\/p>\n<p>autor: <strong>Akkira<\/strong><br \/>betaread: <strong>Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>TOM: Bill p\u0159estane b\u00e1snit o dokonalosti Lisy. Je do n\u00ed v\u011bt\u0161\u00ed bl\u00e1zen ne\u017e jsem p\u0159edpokl\u00e1dal. Asi jsem sv\u011bdkem zrodu jeho vysn\u011bn\u00e9 romantick\u00e9 l\u00e1sky. Pro\u010d ji ale nepro\u017e\u00edv\u00e1 se mnou? Tak r\u00e1d bych mu splnil v\u0161e o \u010dem tak nad\u0161en\u011b vypr\u00e1v\u00ed. 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