{"id":18837,"date":"2008-04-07T01:00:00","date_gmt":"2008-04-07T00:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=18796"},"modified":"2008-04-07T01:00:00","modified_gmt":"2008-04-07T00:00:00","slug":"du-bist-nicht-allein-13","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/04\/07\/du-bist-nicht-allein-13\/","title":{"rendered":"Du bist nicht allein 13."},"content":{"rendered":"<div>TOM:<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Tob\u011b to vad\u00ed?&#8220; pt\u00e1 se s obavami v hlase Bill. C\u00edt\u00edm, \u017ee ho mrz\u00ed, \u017ee s n\u00edm nesd\u00edl\u00edm jeho radost. Ale nejde to. Radost nemohu ani p\u0159edst\u00edrat, r\u00e1d bych kv\u016fli n\u011bmu, ale nejde to. Smutek se ve mn\u011b m\u00eds\u00ed se zlost\u00ed. Znaj\u00ed se m\u011bs\u00edc, n\u011bkolikr\u00e1t se s n\u00ed se\u0161el, ale on mi to \u0159\u00edk\u00e1 a\u017e te\u010f. Pro\u010d?<\/div>\n<div>M\u00e1 zlost vypluje na povrch: &#8222;Ne, jen jsi mi p\u0159ed chv\u00edl\u00ed \u0159ekl, \u017ee jste se sezn\u00e1mili p\u0159ed m\u011bs\u00edcem a ty mi o n\u00ed \u0159\u00edk\u00e1\u0161 a\u017e te\u010f? Pro\u010d? J\u00e1 ti p\u0159eci taky \u0159\u00edk\u00e1m v\u0161echno a doufal jsem, \u017ee ty m\u011b taky. Jen\u017ee jak vid\u00edm, tak asi ne.&#8220;<\/div>\n<div>Bill na m\u011b p\u0159ekvapen\u011b kouk\u00e1. Z\u0159ejm\u011b takovou reakci ne\u010dekal.<\/div>\n<div>P\u0159ekvapen\u00fd v\u00fdraz v Billov\u011b tv\u00e1\u0159i\u010dce vyst\u0159\u00edd\u00e1 na\u0161tv\u00e1n\u00ed. Vy\u010dte mi, \u017ee j\u00e1 mu tak\u00e9 ne\u0159\u00edk\u00e1m v\u0161echno. Co t\u00edm mysl\u00ed? Ani nad t\u00edm nemus\u00edm p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161let, hned mi to toti\u017e ujasn\u00ed. Pr\u00fd ze m\u011b mus\u00ed dolovat jm\u00e9na d\u00edvek, kter\u00e9 potk\u00e1v\u00e1 r\u00e1no v koupeln\u011b. Bl\u00e1z\u00ednek. Ani nev\u00ed jak jsem se t\u00edm jeho vyzv\u00edd\u00e1n\u00edm bavil. Mluv\u00edm v minul\u00e9m \u010dase, proto\u017ee mne m\u00e9 no\u010dn\u00ed toulky m\u011bstem a lov d\u00edvek v minisuk\u00fdnk\u00e1ch p\u0159e\u0161ly.<\/div>\n<div>Po zji\u0161t\u011bn\u00ed, \u017ee pro mne Bill nen\u00ed jen bratrem, jsem pokra\u010doval v zab\u011bhl\u00e9m \u017eivot\u011b. Jen\u017ee po n\u011bkolika ne\u00fasp\u011b\u0161n\u00fdch noc\u00edch jsem toho rad\u011bji nechal. D\u00edvky mne u\u017e nevzru\u0161ovaly. Alespo\u0148 ne ty, kter\u00e9 nebyly podobn\u00e9 Billovi. A pokud u\u017e jsem na\u0161el tu, kter\u00e1 se mu podobala \u00fasm\u011bvem, o\u010dima, vlasy, pohyby, v\u00fdrazem, p\u0159ivedl jsem si ji na pokoj a popustil uzdu sv\u00e9 fantazii. P\u0159edstavoval jsem si m\u00edsto n\u00ed, jich, Billa. Jen\u017ee to jsem se musel hl\u00eddat, abych nevyk\u0159ikl jm\u00e9no sv\u00e9ho bratra. A neust\u00e1l\u00e9 hl\u00edd\u00e1n\u00ed v\u00e1m nakonec zkaz\u00ed \u00fapln\u00fd pro\u017eitek. U\u017e jsem prost\u011b nemohl pokra\u010dovat ani\u017e bych se prozradil.<\/div>\n<div>Sv\u00fdm vysv\u011btlen\u00edm na\u0161\u00ed hry: Jak se jmenuje? vezmu Billovi z rukou mo\u017enost pou\u017e\u00edt proti mn\u011b vlastn\u00ed v\u00fd\u010ditku. Chv\u00edli se je\u0161t\u011b tv\u00e1\u0159\u00ed, \u017ee mi n\u011bco \u0159ekne, ale nakonec mu vzpom\u00ednka na na\u0161e spole\u010dn\u00e1 r\u00e1na, kdy h\u00e1dal jm\u00e9no nov\u00e9ho \u00falovku, rozt\u00e1hne rty do \u0161irok\u00e9ho \u00fasm\u011bvu. Ale p\u0159eci jeho \u00fasm\u011bv n\u011bco kaz\u00ed. Drobn\u00e1 vr\u00e1ska na \u010dele. Nad n\u011b\u010d\u00edm p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161l\u00ed. Asi mu do\u0161lo, \u017ee posledn\u00ed dva m\u011bs\u00edce za mnou u\u017e r\u00e1no nechod\u00ed rozehr\u00e1t hru: Jak se jmenuje?<\/div>\n<div>L\u00e1me si nejsp\u00ed\u0161 hlavu pro\u010d. Kdyby tak v\u011bd\u011bl. Asi by tu se mnou tak v klidu nesed\u011bl. Kdyby znal pravdu, mo\u017en\u00e1 by mne zavrhnul, dr\u017eel si odstup nebo bych ho te\u010f sv\u00edral v n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed s \u00famyslem nikdy nepustit. Jen\u017ee on pravdu nezn\u00e1 a j\u00e1 m\u00e1m strach, \u017ee se j\u00ed ze m\u011b pokus\u00ed vym\u00e1mit. Nem\u016f\u017eu mu to \u0159\u00edct. Ne te\u010f, kdy\u017e cel\u00fd z\u00e1\u0159\u00ed \u0161t\u011bst\u00edm. Nem\u016f\u017eu mu to \u0161t\u011bst\u00ed zkazit i za cenu toho, \u017ee se budu tr\u00e1pit nevy\u0159\u010den\u00fdm tajemstv\u00edm.<\/div>\n<div>Uv\u011bdom\u00edm si, \u017ee bych m\u011bl projevit v\u011bt\u0161\u00ed \u00fa\u010dast a tak se zept\u00e1m: &#8222;No, jak\u00e1 je? Pov\u00eddej p\u0159ece.&#8220; Na to br\u00e1\u0161ka \u010dekal. Pusa se mu rozb\u011bhne a j\u00e1 po chv\u00edli zn\u00e1m Lisu stejn\u011b dob\u0159e jako on. Ne-li l\u00e9pe.<\/div>\n<div>BILL:<\/div>\n<div>Po\u0159\u00e1d se sna\u017e\u00edm zjistit Tom\u016fv v\u00fdraz, ale m\u011bs\u00edce se rozhodl mi v tom st\u00e1le br\u00e1nit. Rad\u011bji toho nech\u00e1m. Nemohu si pomoct, ale na tv\u00e1\u0159i se mi znovu usad\u00ed \u00fasm\u011bv. Podv\u011bdom\u00ed mi \u0159\u00edk\u00e1, abych zjistil, co se s Tomem posledn\u00ed dobou d\u011bje, ale mysl mi zam\u011bstn\u00e1v\u00e1 Lisa a vypr\u00e1v\u011bn\u00ed o n\u00ed. Nakonec se Tom u\u017e pom\u011brn\u011b norm\u00e1ln\u00edm hlasem zept\u00e1: &#8222;No, jak\u00e1 je? Pov\u00eddej p\u0159ece.&#8220; Na to jsem \u010dekal. Touto ot\u00e1zkou prolomil nap\u011bt\u00ed, kter\u00e9 v pokoji za\u010dalo panovat. Jsem r\u00e1d, \u017ee se zeptal. Rozpov\u00edd\u00e1m se. Mluv\u00edm o v\u0161em. Jak vypad\u00e1, jak se chov\u00e1, prost\u011b jak\u00e1 je. Mluv\u00edm a mluv\u00edm. Skoro se zapom\u00edn\u00e1m nadechovat.<\/div>\n<div>Po chv\u00edli zn\u00e1 Tom Lisu stejn\u011b dob\u0159e jako j\u00e1. Op\u011bt \u010dek\u00e1m na jeho reakci. Chv\u00edle ticha.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Jsi z n\u00ed asi fak hotovej, co?&#8220; pronese br\u00e1\u0161ka. Mluv\u00ed n\u011bjak sklesle. Pomalu si za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1m myslet, \u017ee je mu docela jedno, co mu tady vlastn\u011b \u0159\u00edk\u00e1m. Nechci si ale kazit radost h\u00e1dkou s Tomem, kter\u00e1 v\u017edy stoj\u00ed za to. P\u0159isuzuji t\u00f3n jeho hlasu \u00fanav\u011b a p\u0159ejdu to. Znovu se rozpov\u00edd\u00e1m. Jsem asi v\u00e1\u017en\u011b hor\u0161\u00ed jak holka. Tom se p\u0159i m\u00e9m monologu pohodln\u011bji usad\u00ed. Dob\u0159e, bu\u010fme p\u0159esn\u00ed. Rozval\u00ed se na posteli. Ani nev\u00edm jak, ale od Lisy se dostanu k z\u00edt\u0159ej\u0161\u00edmu dnu. Za\u010dnu nad\u00e1vat na Davida, \u017ee p\u0159eci nen\u00ed norm\u00e1ln\u00ed, aby n\u00e1m sjednal tolik rozhovor\u016f, kter\u00e9 prost\u011b nem\u016f\u017eeme stihnout. Odpov\u011bd\u00ed je mi ale Tomovo zachr\u00e1p\u00e1n\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>D\u011bl\u00e1 si ze m\u011b srandu? Nehodl\u00e1 mi douf\u00e1m zabrat celou postel a sp\u00e1t v n\u00ed. M\u016fj drah\u00fd brat\u0159\u00ed\u010dek se nat\u00e1hl jak \u0161irok\u00fd tak dlouh\u00fd p\u0159es celou mou postel a milosrdn\u011b mi p\u0159enechal m\u00edste\u010dko, kde pr\u00e1v\u011b sed\u00edm.<\/div>\n<div>Naklon\u00edm se nad n\u011bj s \u00famyslem ho probudit, ale rozmysl\u00edm si to. P\u0159i pohledu na jeho tv\u00e1\u0159 se n\u00e1padu hned vzd\u00e1m. Tom vypad\u00e1 tak klidn\u011b, jemn\u011b se usm\u00edv\u00e1, po dlouh\u00e9 dob\u011b u n\u011bj vid\u00edm p\u0159irozen\u00fd \u00fasm\u011bv. Ne ten frajersk\u00fd pro fotografy a kamery. Jemn\u011b Toma odval\u00edm, aby nele\u017eel nap\u0159\u00ed\u010d, vysouk\u00e1m zpod n\u011bj deku a p\u0159ikryji ho. N\u011bco nesrozumiteln\u00e9ho zamuml\u00e1 a p\u0159it\u00e1hne si pe\u0159inu bl\u00ed\u017e k t\u011blu.Chv\u00edli si pohr\u00e1v\u00e1m s my\u0161lenkou, \u017ee se p\u0159esunu k Tomovi do pokoje, ale lenost zv\u00edt\u011bz\u00ed. Sund\u00e1m si triko a kalhoty a jen v boxerk\u00e1ch si zalezu k Tomovi.<\/div>\n<div>Okam\u017eit\u011b po m\u011b hr\u00e1bne a p\u0159ilep\u00ed se ke mn\u011b. P\u0159ekvapen\u00edm strnu. Nesp\u00ed snad a d\u011bl\u00e1 si ze m\u011b srandu? \u010cek\u00e1m jestli po men\u0161\u00edm kroucen\u00ed se sm\u00edchem pust\u00ed, ale p\u0159it\u00e1hne si m\u011b je\u0161t\u011b v\u00edc. Asi v\u00e1\u017en\u011b sp\u00ed a pokl\u00e1d\u00e1 mn\u011b za sou\u010d\u00e1st sv\u00e9ho snu. Po dal\u0161\u00edch nezda\u0159en\u00fdch pokusech se vyprostit z Tomova sev\u0159en\u00ed se vzd\u00e1v\u00e1m. Teplo jeho t\u011bla mne za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1 pomalu usp\u00e1vat. U\u017e se ani nepokou\u0161\u00edm o novou vlnu snahy vyprostit se a najdu si vhodnou polohu ke span\u00ed, to je stulen\u00ed se Tomovi do n\u00e1ru\u010de&#8230; Je\u0161t\u011b ne\u017e upadnu do \u0159\u00ed\u0161e prapodivn\u00fdch sn\u016f p\u0159ipust\u00edm, \u017ee se mi takov\u00e9hle us\u00edn\u00e1n\u00ed za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1 zamlouvat. I kdy\u017e bych asi rad\u011bji us\u00ednal s Lisou v n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed a ne v bratrov\u011b n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed. P\u0159esto proti jeho objet\u00ed u\u017e d\u00e1le neprotestuji a kone\u010dn\u011b us\u00edn\u00e1m.<\/p>\n<p>autor: <strong>Akkira<\/strong><br \/>betaread: <strong>Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>TOM: &#8222;Tob\u011b to vad\u00ed?&#8220; pt\u00e1 se s obavami v hlase Bill. C\u00edt\u00edm, \u017ee ho mrz\u00ed, \u017ee s n\u00edm nesd\u00edl\u00edm jeho radost. Ale nejde to. Radost nemohu ani p\u0159edst\u00edrat, r\u00e1d bych kv\u016fli n\u011bmu, ale nejde to. 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