{"id":19046,"date":"2008-04-01T15:57:00","date_gmt":"2008-04-01T14:57:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=19005"},"modified":"2008-04-01T15:57:00","modified_gmt":"2008-04-01T14:57:00","slug":"bezmoc","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/04\/01\/bezmoc\/","title":{"rendered":"Bezmoc"},"content":{"rendered":"
„Miluju T\u011b,“ zn\u00ed mu v u\u0161\u00edch a i kdy\u017e v\u00ed, \u017ee to nen\u00ed pravda, nut\u00ed ho to doufat a v\u011b\u0159it, \u017ee jednou to bude zase takov\u00e9 jako p\u0159ed t\u00edm\u2026 \u017de bude moci bratra obejmout, kdy\u017e budou sami, p\u0159itisknout se na jeho hru\u010f, poslouchat tlukot jeho srdce, vn\u00edmat ka\u017edi\u010dk\u00fd sval jeho t\u011bla, l\u00edbat hebk\u00e9 rty a d\u00edvat se do jeho dokonal\u00fdch o\u010d\u00ed. A\u010dkoli, \u010d\u00edm del\u0161\u00ed odlou\u010den\u00ed a nez\u00e1jem z bratrovy strany p\u0159etrv\u00e1v\u00e1, je si jist, \u017ee u\u017e NIKDY to nebude jako d\u0159\u00edv.<\/div>\n
Sfoukne posledn\u00ed sv\u00ed\u010dku, kter\u00e1 je\u0161t\u011b tan\u010dila sv\u016fj tanec, poodstoup\u00ed od okna, kter\u00e9 mu dote\u010f d\u00e1valo mo\u017enost alespo\u0148 trochu voln\u011b d\u00fdchat a jeho tich\u00e9, zoufal\u00e9 a bezmocn\u00e9 kroky sm\u011b\u0159uj\u00ed k posteli, kde se odehr\u00e1lo tolik z toho, co by nejrad\u011bji zapomenul\u2026 Jen\u017ee zapomenout nem\u016f\u017ee, sta\u010d\u00ed jeden jedin\u00fd pohled na pol\u0161t\u00e1\u0159, kter\u00fd Tom tolik miloval, jeden jedin\u00fd pohled na m\u00edsto, kde sp\u00e1val a slzy si samovoln\u011b najdou cestu z pod jeho \u0159as. V\u00edc toho nevydr\u017e\u00ed a jeho k\u0159ehk\u00e9, l\u00e1skou zklaman\u00e9 t\u011blo, se zhrout\u00ed na postel, na polovinu, kter\u00e1 pat\u0159ila Tomovi. Sv\u016fj nos zabo\u0159\u00ed do pol\u0161t\u00e1\u0159e a s\u00e1m se tr\u00fdzn\u00ed t\u00edm, \u017ee se sna\u017e\u00ed p\u0159ivon\u011bt a douf\u00e1, \u017ee se mu vybav\u00ed vzpom\u00ednky\u2026 To v\u0161e se mu poda\u0159\u00ed, ale b\u011bhem vte\u0159iny pochop\u00ed, \u017ee tohle nen\u00ed to, co by mu mohlo jakkoli pomoci od jeho „procesu“ zapomn\u011bn\u00ed. P\u0159it\u00e1hne si pe\u0159inu a\u017e pod krk, zachumlan\u00fd jako housenka, ze kter\u00e9 se pr\u00e1v\u011b st\u00e1v\u00e1 kr\u00e1sn\u00fd mot\u00fdl, kter\u00fd nev\u00ed nic o \u0161p\u00edn\u011b tohohle sv\u011bta, se sna\u017e\u00ed zahnat jakoukoli my\u0161lenku na Toma, i kdy\u017e si p\u0159ed malou chv\u00edl\u00ed p\u0159\u00e1l prav\u00fd opak. Lid\u00e9 chybuj\u00ed, o tom v\u00ed sv\u00e9 a stra\u0161n\u011b r\u00e1d by tohle pov\u011bd\u011bl i Tomovi, \u017ee jeho \u00fat\u011bk, jeho zbab\u011blost byla jen chyba, kter\u00e1 se stala pod t\u00edhou okam\u017eiku, jen\u017ee s postupem dal\u0161\u00ed vte\u0159iny se p\u0159esv\u011bd\u010duje o opaku. On necht\u011bl l\u00e1sku, kterou mu nab\u00edzel. Jeho n\u00e1ru\u010d mu byla dobr\u00e1 jen ve chv\u00edli, kdy se c\u00edtil s\u00e1m a kdy pot\u0159eboval pomoct, proto\u017ee v\u011bd\u011bl, \u017ee Bill, zamilovan\u00fd a\u017e po u\u0161i, svou n\u00e1ru\u010d v\u017edy otev\u0159e, v\u017edy bude m\u00edt p\u0159ipraven\u00e1 n\u011bjak\u00e1 slova \u00fat\u011bchy, v\u011bd\u011bl, \u017ee by pro n\u011bj ud\u011blal prvn\u00ed posledn\u00ed. Vyu\u017e\u00edval toho? Vyu\u017e\u00edval Billa, jeho druhou p\u016flku, tu lep\u0161\u00ed p\u016flku, pro doby, kdy \u017e\u00e1dn\u00e1 jin\u00e1 n\u00e1ru\u010d nebyla voln\u00e1? V\u0161ichni kolem, kte\u0159\u00ed o jejich vztahu v\u011bd\u011bli, o tom byli p\u0159esv\u011bd\u010deni, ale Bill se domn\u00edval, \u017ee to nen\u00ed pravda, \u017ee on s\u00e1m to v\u00ed nejl\u00edp.<\/div>\n
„Jak bych taky nemohl? Jsem p\u0159ece jeho bratr, jeho dvoj\u010de!“ \u0159\u00edk\u00e1val v\u017edy na Tomovu obhajobu a nenechal se p\u0159esv\u011bd\u010dit ani p\u0159\u00edle\u017eitostnou nev\u011brou, kter\u00e9 byl u Toma sv\u011bdkem. Nenechal se p\u0159esv\u011bd\u010dit slovy, kter\u00e1 z Tomov\u00fdch \u00fast padala v \u010dase, kdy byl pod vlivem n\u011bjak\u00e9ho toho alkoholu. Nenechal se p\u0159esv\u011bd\u010dit ni\u010d\u00edm, s\u00e1m v\u011b\u0159il a doufal, \u017ee jen on to v\u00ed nejl\u00edp, \u017ee v\u0161ichni kolem n\u011bj se pletou\u2026 Doplatil na to, to v\u00ed\u2026 Bohu\u017eel a\u017e te\u010f, po n\u011bkolika proplakan\u00fdch ve\u010derech, po n\u011bkolika zoufal\u00fdch pokusech o nav\u00e1z\u00e1n\u00ed kontaktu s bratrem. Te\u010f u\u017e to v\u00ed\u2026 Bohu\u017eel, a\u017e te\u010f\u2026 A\u010dkoli si to nep\u0159\u00e1l, d\u00e1val za pravdu v\u0161em. Oni m\u011bli pravdu, on jen zaslepen\u011b doufal, proto\u017ee l\u00e1ska um\u00ed jen zaslepit mysl.<\/div>\n
Pro\u010d se to d\u011bje jemu? Dal Tomovi v\u0161echno, o co ho kdy po\u017e\u00e1dal\u2026 Nemusel ani mluvit, poka\u017ed\u00e9 um\u011bl odhadnout, na co Tom mysl\u00ed, po \u010dem tou\u017e\u00ed.<\/div>\n
„Pro\u010d???!!!“ D\u00e1l u\u017e nemohl svou bolest skr\u00fdvat hluboko v sob\u011b, musel ji vypustit ven\u2026 Musel, proto\u017ee jinak by ho to uvnit\u0159 roztrhalo na tis\u00edce kous\u00ed\u010dk\u016f.<\/div>\n
„V\u017edy\u0165 j\u00e1 T\u011b miluju! Dal jsem Ti v\u0161e, byl jsem tu pro Tebe, kdy\u017e jsi pot\u0159eboval, a Tvoje odm\u011bna? Zachov\u00e1\u0161 se ke mn\u011b jak k pra\u0161iv\u00e9mu psovi!!“ k\u0159i\u010del, i kdy\u017e si myslel, \u017ee jeho bolest NIKDY NIKDO nevysly\u0161\u00ed.<\/div>\n
„Taky T\u011b miluju Bille\u2026“ ozvalo se ode dve\u0159\u00ed a i kdy\u017e si Bill myslel p\u0159ed chv\u00edl\u00ed n\u011bco jin\u00e9ho, Tom\u016fv hlas ho usv\u011bd\u010dil v tom, \u017ee se spletl, \u017ee bratrovi k\u0159ivdil\u2026 Sp\u00e1l\u00ed se nebo ne? Bude m\u00edt pravdu on nebo drtiv\u00e1 v\u011bt\u0161ina? O tom nep\u0159em\u00fd\u0161lel a jako u\u017e n\u011bkolikr\u00e1t otev\u0159el Tomovi svou n\u00e1ru\u010d\u2026<\/div>\n
„You love me, but you don\u00b4t know who I\u00b4m\u2026 So let me go, let me go\u2026“<\/div>\n
Jak by nemohl v\u011bd\u011bt? On mus\u00ed v\u011bd\u011bt\u2026 Mus\u00ed\u2026 A\u0165 u\u017e tak \u010di onak, jinou pravdu ne\u017e tu svou, zaslepenou, si nep\u0159ipou\u0161t\u011bl\u2026<\/div>\n
„V\u00edm kdo jsi\u2026“ za\u0161eptal ti\u0161e do Tomovy n\u00e1ru\u010de a jako u\u017e po n\u011bkolik\u00e1t\u00e9 us\u00ednal se slzami v o\u010d\u00edch a s nad\u011bj\u00ed v srdci, \u017ee tentokr\u00e1t to bude jin\u00e9, \u017ee tentokr\u00e1t to bude v po\u0159\u00e1dku\u2026 V\u0161e uk\u00e1\u017ee jen \u010das\u2026<\/p>\n

autor: L\u016fca<\/strong>
betaread: Michelle M.<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

„Miluju T\u011b,“ zn\u00ed mu v u\u0161\u00edch a i kdy\u017e v\u00ed, \u017ee to nen\u00ed pravda, nut\u00ed ho to doufat a v\u011b\u0159it, \u017ee jednou to bude zase takov\u00e9 jako p\u0159ed t\u00edm\u2026 \u017de bude moci bratra obejmout, kdy\u017e budou sami, p\u0159itisknout se na jeho hru\u010f,<\/p>\n

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