{"id":19154,"date":"2008-03-29T14:55:00","date_gmt":"2008-03-29T13:55:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=19113"},"modified":"2008-03-29T14:55:00","modified_gmt":"2008-03-29T13:55:00","slug":"do-you-believe-in-god","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/03\/29\/do-you-believe-in-god\/","title":{"rendered":"Do you believe in God"},"content":{"rendered":"
‚V\u011b\u0159\u00ed\u0161 v Boha?‘ blesklo \u010dernovlas\u00e9mu mlad\u00edkovi hlavou. Zmaten\u011b sebou trhl. Pro\u010d se pt\u00e1 na tohle?<\/div>\n
‚Tak v\u011b\u0159\u00ed\u0161?‘ nal\u00e9hav\u00fd hl\u00e1sek, kter\u00fd ho je\u0161t\u011b v\u00edce pom\u00e1tl.<\/div>\n
„Asi ne…“ odpov\u011bd\u011bl nahlas.<\/div>\n
‚Tak pro\u010d se modl\u00ed\u0161?‘<\/div>\n
Pravda…kdy\u017e nev\u011b\u0159\u00ed, pro\u010d se modl\u00ed<\/em>?<\/div>\n
„Nechci svou du\u0161i poslat do pekla…“ vydechl a set\u0159el si slzu z tv\u00e1\u0159e. Kolik\u00e1tou u\u017e? Nev\u011bd\u011bl. Snad by se to u\u017e ani nedalo spo\u010d\u00edtat. Kolik noc\u00ed, tolik slz, tolik bolesti a tolik h\u0159\u00ed\u0161n\u00fdch my\u0161lenek.<\/div>\n
Na sv\u00e9ho bratra<\/em>.<\/div>\n
Tolik se b\u00e1l. B\u00e1l se s\u00e1m sebe. Co kdy\u017e se jednou u\u017e neudr\u017e\u00ed? Jen p\u0159i t\u00e9 my\u0161lence jeho \u00fatroby zaplnilo pal\u010div\u00e9 mraven\u010den\u00ed. Vid\u011bl v tom konec. Konec nad\u011bj\u00ed. Konec dn\u00ed, kdy mohl b\u00fdt bratrovi na bl\u00edzku. Ale taky konec bolesti. Konec l\u017ei a p\u0159etv\u00e1\u0159ky. Bylo by to vysvobozen\u00ed. Ale da\u0148 byla p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 krut\u00e1. Necht\u011bl ho ztratit. Nikdy.<\/em> Bez n\u011bj neznamenal nic. Byl jako pr\u00e1zdn\u00e1 sko\u0159\u00e1pka. Vyho\u0159el\u00e1 z\u00e1palka. Zbyte\u010dn\u00fd. Bezcenn\u00fd.<\/em><\/div>\n
„Bille?“ polekan\u011b sebou \u0161kubl a vy\u0161kr\u00e1bal se na nohy, pr\u00e1v\u011b ve chv\u00edli, kdy bratr rozrazil dve\u0159e jeho pokoje.<\/div>\n
„Jsi tady…“ \u00falevn\u011b si vydechl. Bill na n\u011bj vyt\u0159e\u0161til o\u010di.<\/div>\n
„Co pot\u0159ebuje\u0161?“ zeptal se jej nech\u00e1pav\u011b.<\/div>\n
„Zachr\u00e1nit!“ vyhrkl Tom. Ne\u017e se sta\u010dil Bill vzpamatovat, u\u017e ho bratr strkal ze dve\u0159\u00ed.<\/div>\n
„Pros\u00edm… br\u00e1\u0161ko! Jen j\u00ed \u0159ekni, \u017ee tady nejsem… n\u011bco j\u00ed nakecej… cokoli!“<\/div>\n
„Ale…“ vzpouzel se Bill a po\u0159\u00e1dn\u011b st\u00e1le nech\u00e1pal, co po n\u011bm bratr vlastn\u011b chce. Probodl ho pohledem, ale kdy\u017e vid\u011bl, jak zoufale se Tom tv\u00e1\u0159\u00ed, jen odevzdan\u011b p\u0159ik\u00fdvl.<\/div>\n
„Dob\u0159e…“ rezignoval, nechal Toma st\u00e1t na chodb\u011b a zam\u00ed\u0159il ke dve\u0159\u00edm.<\/div>\n
„Ahoj… jdu za Tomem…“ vycenila na n\u011bj d\u00edvka b\u011bloskvouc\u00ed zuby, hned jak otev\u0159el.<\/div>\n
„Nen\u00ed tady, Katrin…“ odpov\u011bd\u011bl prost\u011b a p\u0159em\u00e1hal se, aby j\u00ed net\u0159\u00edskl dve\u0159mi p\u0159ed nosem. Nemohl ji vyst\u00e1t. Ne, \u017ee by ji znal snad n\u011bjak bl\u00ed\u017ee, ale nen\u00e1vid\u011bl ji u\u017e jen proto, \u017ee byla s jeho bratrem.<\/div>\n
„Jak nen\u00ed?“ na\u0161pulila nesouhlasn\u011b rty.<\/div>\n
„Tak… prost\u011b nen\u00ed…“ odseknul j\u00ed Bill.<\/div>\n
„Ne\u0159\u00edkal, \u017ee n\u011bkam p\u016fjde… no nevad\u00ed… pust\u00ed\u0161 m\u011b? Po\u010dk\u00e1m na n\u011bj…“ vykro\u010dila sm\u011brem do dve\u0159\u00ed, ale Bill j\u00ed zatarasil vstup rukou.<\/div>\n
„\u0158\u00edkal, \u017ee se vr\u00e1t\u00ed pozd\u011b… a…. a j\u00e1 m\u00e1m pr\u00e1ci… promi\u0148. \u0158eknu mu a\u0165 ti zavol\u00e1. \u010cau!“ v\u011bd\u011bl, \u017ee to od n\u011bj nen\u00ed zrovna mil\u00e9, ale co. Zabouchl dve\u0159e a oto\u010dil se sm\u011brem do ob\u00fdvac\u00edho pokoje.<\/div>\n
„Je pry\u010d?“ uji\u0161\u0165oval se Tom a vykukoval zpoza z\u00e1clony.<\/div>\n
„Jo…“ p\u0159ik\u00fdvnul Bill a t\u00e1zav\u011b se na n\u011bj oto\u010dil.<\/div>\n
„Zbo\u017e\u0148uju t\u011b, br\u00e1cho!“ a ne\u017e sta\u010dil n\u011bco ud\u011blat, sko\u010dil mu Tom kolem krku.<\/div>\n
„Co blbne\u0161?“ vyhrkl a odstr\u010dil ho od sebe. Vyd\u011b\u0161en\u011b mu z\u00edral do o\u010d\u00ed.<\/div>\n
„Tak… tak promi\u0148…“ omlouval se Tom. „Je ti n\u011bco?“<\/div>\n
„Co by mi m\u011blo b\u00fdt?“ vy\u0161t\u011bkl Bill prudce.<\/div>\n
„J\u00e1 nev\u00edm… jen… chov\u00e1\u0161 se jinak…“ trhl rameny.<\/div>\n
„Nic mi nen\u00ed!“ pot\u0159\u00e1sl Bill prudce hlavou, obe\u0161el bratra a vydupal schody do sv\u00e9ho pokoje.<\/div>\n
Jak dlouho to je\u0161t\u011b vydr\u017e\u00ed? Nen\u00ed herec, aby st\u00e1le dr\u017eel sv\u00e9 emoce na uzd\u011b. A zvl\u00e1\u0161\u0165 p\u0159ed chv\u00edl\u00ed. Schoulil se do klub\u00ed\u010dka v rohu postele a nechal sv\u00e9 slzy ti\u0161e t\u00e9ct po tv\u00e1\u0159i. Jak jen se nen\u00e1vid\u011bl za to, \u017ee mus\u00ed b\u00fdt tak zvr\u00e1cen\u00fd a milovat sv\u00e9ho bratra. Pro\u010d nem\u016f\u017ee b\u00fdt norm\u00e1ln\u00ed jako v\u0161ichni ostatn\u00ed? Cht\u011blo se mu k\u0159i\u010det. Pot\u0159eboval tu bolest ze sebe n\u011bjak dostat. Nam\u00edsto toho zase podlehl slz\u00e1m…<\/div>\n
„Ty… pl\u00e1\u010de\u0161?“ ozvalo se mu t\u011bsn\u011b u ucha. Zamrazilo ho. Jak to, \u017ee nesly\u0161el jak p\u0159ich\u00e1z\u00ed?? B\u00e1l se otev\u0159\u00edt o\u010di.<\/div>\n
„Bille… co se stalo?“ uc\u00edtil jeho ruku na sv\u00fdch z\u00e1dech. P\u0159\u00e1l si, aby se ho nikdy nep\u0159estal dot\u00fdkat.<\/div>\n
„Tak co se d\u011bje… v\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee mi to m\u016f\u017ee\u0161 \u0159\u00edct.“<\/div>\n
„Nem\u016f\u017eu…“ zakroutil zd\u011b\u0161en\u011b hlavou, ale st\u00e1le neotv\u00edral o\u010di.<\/div>\n
„Pro\u010d ne?“ st\u00e1le spo\u010d\u00edval svou dlan\u00ed na jeho z\u00e1dech. Bill m\u011bl pocit, \u017ee pod t\u00edm dotekem snad uho\u0159\u00ed.<\/div>\n
„Bude\u0161 m\u011b nen\u00e1vid\u011bt…“ za\u0161eptal a kone\u010dn\u011b se odhodlal pod\u00edvat se mu do o\u010d\u00ed. To, co v nich vid\u011bl ho tak p\u0159ekvapilo, \u017ee ani nijak nezareagoval, kdy\u017e jeho bratr znovu promluvil.<\/div>\n
„Nem\u016f\u017eu t\u011b nen\u00e1vid\u011bt, proto\u017ee t\u011b miluji…“<\/div>\n
Chv\u00edli si naprosto beze slov hled\u011bli do o\u010d\u00ed, a kdy\u017e si u\u017e Bill myslel, \u017ee to d\u00e9le nevydr\u017e\u00ed, bratr se k n\u011bmu nahl a pol\u00edbil ho na \u00fasta.<\/div>\n
‚V\u011b\u0159\u00ed\u0161 v Boha?‘<\/div>\n
„Ano\u2026 te\u010f u\u017e ano…“<\/div>\n
‚Tak pro\u010d u\u017e se nemodl\u00ed\u0161?‘<\/div>\n
„Proto\u017ee te\u010f v\u00edm, \u017ee v pekle nebudu s\u00e1m…“<\/p>\n

autor: Lisa<\/strong>
betaread: Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

‚V\u011b\u0159\u00ed\u0161 v Boha?‘ blesklo \u010dernovlas\u00e9mu mlad\u00edkovi hlavou. Zmaten\u011b sebou trhl. Pro\u010d se pt\u00e1 na tohle? ‚Tak v\u011b\u0159\u00ed\u0161?‘ nal\u00e9hav\u00fd hl\u00e1sek, kter\u00fd ho je\u0161t\u011b v\u00edce pom\u00e1tl. „Asi ne…“ odpov\u011bd\u011bl nahlas. ‚Tak pro\u010d se modl\u00ed\u0161?‘ Pravda…kdy\u017e nev\u011b\u0159\u00ed, pro\u010d se modl\u00ed? „Nechci svou du\u0161i poslat do<\/p>\n

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