{"id":19164,"date":"2008-03-29T14:42:00","date_gmt":"2008-03-29T13:42:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=19123"},"modified":"2008-03-29T14:42:00","modified_gmt":"2008-03-29T13:42:00","slug":"smrt-zustava-avsak-laska-pretrvava","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/03\/29\/smrt-zustava-avsak-laska-pretrvava\/","title":{"rendered":"Smrt z\u016fst\u00e1v\u00e1, av\u0161ak l\u00e1ska p\u0159etrv\u00e1v\u00e1"},"content":{"rendered":"<div><em>Nikdo se m\u011b neptal, jestli se chci narodit, tak mi te\u010f ne\u0159\u00edkejte, jak m\u00e1m \u017e\u00edt!<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Douf\u00e1m, \u017ee nastane den, kdy se na\u0161e cesty propletou znovu a znovu. Douf\u00e1m, \u017ee u\u017e nikdy t\u011b neuvid\u00edm ml\u010det, i kdy\u017e, co kdy\u017e tam bude jen ticho? Jen ticho, kter\u00e9ho se ob\u00e1v\u00e1m, jen ticho, kter\u00e9 mi trh\u00e1 srdce a zapaluje m\u00e9 o\u010di, kter\u00e9 neodol\u00e1vaj\u00ed n\u00e1hl\u00fdm p\u0159\u00edval\u016fm slz.Ticho, kter\u00e9 te\u010f neza\u017e\u00edv\u00e1m, ani kdy\u017e o to \u017e\u00e1d\u00e1m.U\u010d\u00edte mne, jak se m\u00e1m chovat te\u010f. U\u010d\u00edte mne, jak to m\u00e1m d\u00e1le sn\u00e1\u0161et. U\u010d\u00edte mne, donutit se \u017e\u00edt. Ale pro\u010d? Pro\u010d mi \u0159\u00edd\u00edte \u017eivot? Co kdy\u017e chci ponechat toto m\u00edsto jin\u00e9mu tvoru, kter\u00fd by se m\u00edsto mne postavil na nohy a za\u010dal \u017e\u00edt tak, jak j\u00e1 jsem nedovedl. Ne bez tebe. Ne s\u00e1m. Nemohu. Nechci. Tak pro\u010d jsi to dovolil? P\u0159eje\u0161 si, abych \u017eil s\u00e1m? Bez tebe? Ne, ur\u010dit\u011b ne, na to jsem t\u011b znal a\u017e p\u0159\u00edli\u0161. Ano, p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 d\u016fkladn\u011b a to se mi vymstilo. Kousek ovoce jsme ochutnali a u\u017e se nedok\u00e1zali vr\u00e1tit zp\u011bt. Zak\u00e1zan\u00e9 ovoce m\u016f\u017ee b\u00fdt sladk\u00e9, ale ho\u0159kost, kter\u00e1 se pot\u00e9 objev\u00ed, se mus\u00ed vy\u0159e\u0161it hned, ale to jsme neud\u011blali. Byli jsme slab\u00ed na to, abychom zastavili posv\u00e1tnou l\u00e1sku n\u00e1s dvou\u2026 P\u0159\u00edli\u0161 slab\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n<div><strong><em>Zku\u0161enost je to,co z\u00edsk\u00e1\u0161,kdy\u017e nez\u00edsk\u00e1\u0161 to,co chce\u0161\u2026<\/em><\/strong><\/div>\n<div>R\u00e1d bych je\u0161t\u011b jednou vid\u011bl tv\u016fj \u00fasm\u011bv, ale nen\u00ed to pot\u0159ebn\u00e9. Ne\u0159\u00edk\u00e1 se, \u017ee kdy\u017e se poran\u00ed\u0161, z\u016fstanou ti jen \u0161r\u00e1my, kter\u00e9 se po \u010dase zahoj\u00ed? Tak pro\u010d moje \u0161r\u00e1my p\u0159etrv\u00e1vaj\u00ed? Jsem jin\u00fd t\u00edm, \u017ee jsem neplakal, kdy\u017e jsi upadal do hlubok\u00e9ho sp\u00e1nku? Jsem takov\u00fd, \u017ee kdy\u017e mi n\u011bkdo zas\u00e1hne srdce, z\u016fstane tam ji\u017e do noci? Mysl\u00edm, \u017ee ano. Alespo\u0148 ty jsi tam z\u016fstal\u2026<\/div>\n<div><em>Nikdo ti nesm\u00ed ubli\u017eovat, pokud to ty s\u00e1m nedovol\u00ed\u0161\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Na mal\u00fd okam\u017eik jsem zav\u00e1hal a ty jsi toho vyu\u017eil. Na mal\u00fd okam\u017eik jsem zapochyboval a ty jsi to nedovedl pochopit. Na mal\u00fd okam\u017eik jsem se oto\u010dil a ty jsi mi zmizel hluboko pod v\u00fdstupkem. Ubl\u00ed\u017eili ti, \u017ee ano? V\u00edm to, proto\u017ee mn\u011b ubli\u017eovali tak\u00e9. Jen\u017ee ty jsi se vzp\u00edral, necht\u011bl jsi jim to dovolit a tak t\u011b zas\u00e1hli sv\u00fdm bodav\u00fdm \u0161\u00edpem zvan\u00fdm l\u00e1ska\u2026<\/div>\n<div><em>Nem\u016f\u017ee\u0161 zab\u00edt to, co jsi nevytvo\u0159il&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Lhal bych, kdybych \u0159ekl, \u017ee jsi mne nezklamal. Nev\u00edm pro\u010d bych k tob\u011b musel c\u00edtit ten cit, kter\u00fd si nen\u00ed hoden nosit tv\u00e9 a m\u00e9 jm\u00e9no. V\u017edy\u0165 my jsme nic takov\u00e9ho necht\u011bli sly\u0161et. Nepot\u0159ebovali jsme sly\u0161et to, co c\u00edt\u00edme. My to v\u011bd\u011bli, ale jen dv\u011b slova to zkazila. \u0158ekl jsi je. \u0158ekl jsi je, kdy\u017e jsi odch\u00e1zel. Myslel jsi, \u017ee to zabije\u0161? Ne, nemohlo to um\u0159\u00edt, kdy\u017e to nepat\u0159ilo jenom n\u00e1m\u2026<\/div>\n<div><em>Chce\u0161 realizovat sv\u00e9 sny?Probu\u010f se!<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Sv\u00e9 sny? Ne, m\u00e9 sny se poh\u0159bily s tebou. Klesly s tvou rakv\u00ed a ulo\u017eily se na v\u011b\u010dnost. Nemysl\u00edm, \u017ee bych je cht\u011bl za\u017e\u00edt znovu, ale t\u0159eba jen jeden jedin\u00fd okam\u017eik s tebou. \u0160lo by to? Ov\u0161em\u017ee ne. M\u011bl jsem si toho v\u00e1\u017eit d\u0159\u00edve a sv\u00e9 sny prom\u011bnit ve skute\u010dnost. Pro\u010d jsem se tolik b\u00e1l, Bille? Co jsem ud\u011blal tak zl\u00e9ho, \u017ee mi b\u016fh bere to tv\u00e9 srdce, kter\u00e9 z\u016fstalo v m\u00e9m. Zapom\u00edn\u00e1m \u017e\u00edt? Tv\u016fj \u00fasm\u011bv mi v\u017edy napov\u011bd\u011bl, jakou cestou j\u00edt d\u00e1le. Te\u010f ji\u017e p\u0159ihl\u00ed\u017e\u00edm k jedin\u00e9 mo\u017en\u00e9 cest\u011b, kde na konci bude\u0161 st\u00e1t s otev\u0159enou n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed a bude\u0161 \u010dekat, a\u017e se ti op\u011bt p\u0159itisknu na t\u011blo. Nebudu \u010dekat, ale nechci, abys to bral, jako n\u011bco zl\u00e9ho. \u017d\u00edt ji\u017e nebudeme nikdy, ale milovat se m\u016f\u017eeme po\u0159\u00e1d. Kdo \u0159ekl, \u017ee <em>miluje a\u017e do smrti<\/em>? Jak\u00e1 to le\u017e. Nejpodlej\u0161\u00ed le\u017e&#8230; <em>Se smrt\u00ed nekon\u010d\u00ed l\u00e1ska a s l\u00e1skou nekon\u010d\u00ed smrt\u2026<\/p>\n<p><\/em> autor: <strong>Ter<\/strong><br \/>betaread:<strong>Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Nikdo se m\u011b neptal, jestli se chci narodit, tak mi te\u010f ne\u0159\u00edkejte, jak m\u00e1m \u017e\u00edt! Douf\u00e1m, \u017ee nastane den, kdy se na\u0161e cesty propletou znovu a znovu. Douf\u00e1m, \u017ee u\u017e nikdy t\u011b neuvid\u00edm ml\u010det, i kdy\u017e, co kdy\u017e tam bude jen ticho?<\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a class=\"myButt \" href=\"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/03\/29\/smrt-zustava-avsak-laska-pretrvava\/\">Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[45],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-19164","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ff-jednodilky"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19164","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=19164"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19164\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=19164"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=19164"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=19164"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}