{"id":19192,"date":"2008-03-29T11:20:00","date_gmt":"2008-03-29T10:20:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=19151"},"modified":"2008-03-29T11:20:00","modified_gmt":"2008-03-29T10:20:00","slug":"things-i-ve-never-said","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/03\/29\/things-i-ve-never-said\/","title":{"rendered":"Things I&#8217;ve never said"},"content":{"rendered":"<div>V\u0161ichni se po\u0159\u00e1d za n\u011b\u010d\u00edm hon\u00ed. Tou\u017e\u00ed po t\u00e1mhletom, cht\u011bj\u00ed tamto.<\/div>\n<div><em>J\u00e1<\/em> nikdy ne\u017e\u00e1dal nic.<\/div>\n<div>A <em>p\u0159esto<\/em> jsem toho dostal spoustu. Tak pro\u010d si toho nedok\u00e1\u017eu v\u00e1\u017eit?<\/div>\n<div>Mo\u017en\u00e1 proto, \u017ee to jedin\u00e9, po \u010dem jsem v\u017edy tou\u017eil, se mi nikdy nesplnilo&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Touha, kter\u00e1 se t\u0159epot\u00e1 na dosah prst\u016f a p\u0159esto, kdy\u017e se k n\u00ed nat\u00e1hnete usko\u010d\u00ed zase o takov\u00fd kousek, abyste k n\u00ed nemohli.<\/div>\n<div>To nevy\u0159\u010den\u00e9 poku\u0161en\u00ed se mi tetel\u00ed na jazyku a p\u0159esto mi \u00fasta nikdy nedovol\u00ed prodrat se ven a vyk\u0159i\u010det jej do sv\u011bta.<\/div>\n<div><em>Nesplniteln\u00e9<\/em>&#8230;tak se mi jev\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>A p\u0159esto jsem se v\u017edy \u0159\u00eddil heslem &#8211; <em>nic<\/em> nen\u00ed nemo\u017en\u00e9. Nebo alespo\u0148 ne pro m\u011b. Ale nev\u011b\u0159\u00edm v z\u00e1zraky &#8211; co si neud\u011bl\u00e1\u0161 s\u00e1m, to nem\u00e1\u0161. Tak to je a v\u017edy bylo. Nem\u00e1 smysl sna\u017eit se to zm\u011bnit&#8230; a j\u00e1 se o to ani nepokou\u0161\u00edm. Beru p\u0159\u00edle\u017eitosti, tak jak se mi nab\u00edzej\u00ed a nept\u00e1m se.<\/div>\n<div>Ale p\u0159ece&#8230; v <em>tomhle<\/em> m\u00e1m z\u00e1brany. Nedok\u00e1\u017eu p\u0159\u00edle\u017eitost chytit a kdy\u017e se mi to p\u0159ece jen poda\u0159\u00ed, zbab\u011ble ji nech\u00e1m proklouznout mezi prsty. P\u0159esto si nakonec \u0159\u00edk\u00e1m, \u017ee to tak asi m\u011blo b\u00fdt. <em>Osud<\/em>&#8230; v kter\u00fd koneckonc\u016f taky nev\u011b\u0159\u00edm.<\/div>\n<div>Obelh\u00e1vat s\u00e1m sebe. To jsem se za posledn\u00ed dobu nau\u010dil docela dob\u0159e.<\/div>\n<div>Nikdy nelituj toho, co jsi ud\u011blal. Dal\u0161\u00ed z m\u00fdch pravidel. Nelituju&#8230; lituju v\u011bc\u00ed, kter\u00e9 jsem neud\u011blal a <em>m\u011bl<\/em> jsem. Lituju slov, kter\u00e9 <em>m\u011bly<\/em> b\u00fdt proneseny a p\u0159esto jsem se nikdy neodv\u00e1\u017eil je vy\u0159knout.<\/div>\n<div>Ta l\u00edtost m\u011b s\u017e\u00edr\u00e1. Je tak dot\u011brn\u00e1 a st\u00e1le se hl\u00e1s\u00ed o slovo. Stejn\u011b jako <em>touha<\/em>.<\/div>\n<div>Pro\u010d si \u010dlov\u011bk v\u017edy vyb\u00edr\u00e1 pro n\u011bj v\u011bci nedosa\u017eiteln\u00e9? Aby dok\u00e1zal svou neporazitelnost? Aby dok\u00e1zal, \u017ee dostane i to, co je zd\u00e1nliv\u011b nere\u00e1ln\u00e9?<\/div>\n<div>Mo\u017en\u00e1&#8230; nebo prost\u011b nev\u011bdomky vyhled\u00e1v\u00e1 situace, kter\u00e9 mu p\u0159inesou tolik bolesti a zadostiu\u010din\u011bn\u00ed, \u017ee jej to t\u00e9m\u011b\u0159 zlom\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>&#8218;Usm\u00edvej se, v\u017edy\u0165 jsi \u0161\u0165astn\u00fd?&#8216; nesl\u00fdch\u00e1m tohle \u010dasto? Kde vzali tu neochv\u011bjnou jistotu, \u017ee to tak v\u00e1\u017en\u011b je? A kdo jim dal pr\u00e1vo mi \u0159\u00edkat, co d\u011blat a jak se c\u00edtit?<\/div>\n<div>Oni <em>sami<\/em>&#8230; tak, jako si drze dovolujeme kritizovat a radit, p\u0159esto\u017ee nejsme o nic lep\u0161\u00ed, ne\u017e ti, kter\u00fdm tak r\u00e1di n\u011bco vy\u010d\u00edt\u00e1me, tak si dovolujeme posuzovat, jak se maj\u00ed c\u00edtit ostatn\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div><em>Da\u0159\u00ed se ti &#8211; bu\u010f \u0161\u0165astn\u00fd<\/em>. Co kdy\u017e se mi ale neda\u0159\u00ed to, co ve skute\u010dnosti chci?<\/div>\n<div><em>Hrout\u00ed se ti sv\u011bt<\/em> &#8211; truchli pro n\u011bj. Co kdy\u017e o tenhle pra\u0161iv\u00fd sv\u011bt ale nestoj\u00edm?<\/div>\n<div>Ne\u010dek\u00e1m nikoho, kdo by pochopil. A j\u00e1 o to nejsp\u00ed\u0161 ani nestoj\u00edm. Co z toho, \u017ee m\u00e1te sp\u0159\u00edzn\u011bnou du\u0161i? V\u016fbec nic to na v\u011bci nem\u011bn\u00ed. Jist\u011b&#8230; m\u016f\u017eete o v\u011bcech mluvit. Ale slova&#8230; co vlastn\u011b znamenaj\u00ed? P\u00e1r p\u00edsmen, poskl\u00e1dan\u00fdch tak, aby jim ostatn\u00ed rozum\u011bli. P\u0159esto ale jen hrstka z nich mo\u017en\u00e1 tu\u0161\u00ed, co jimi mysl\u00edte. Doopravdy ale slovy \u010dlov\u011bk nevyj\u00e1d\u0159\u00ed t\u00e9m\u011b\u0159 nic. Jsou p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 pr\u00e1zdn\u00e1&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Tak jako nem\u016f\u017eete d\u00e1t \u017e\u00edzniv\u00e9mu nap\u00edt z pr\u00e1zdn\u00e9 lahve, tak nem\u016f\u017eete vyj\u00e1d\u0159it sv\u00e9 my\u0161lenky pr\u00e1zdn\u00fdmi slovy.<\/div>\n<div>Vid\u00ed\u0161? Kolik jsem jich vypl\u00fdtval te\u010f, p\u0159esto\u017ee by mi sta\u010dily pouze dv\u011b&#8230;<\/div>\n<div><em>Miluji T\u011b&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Ta, kter\u00e1 z\u016fstanou nikdy nevy\u0159\u010den\u00e1&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p>autor: <strong>Lisa<\/strong><br \/>betaread: <strong>Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>V\u0161ichni se po\u0159\u00e1d za n\u011b\u010d\u00edm hon\u00ed. Tou\u017e\u00ed po t\u00e1mhletom, cht\u011bj\u00ed tamto. J\u00e1 nikdy ne\u017e\u00e1dal nic. A p\u0159esto jsem toho dostal spoustu. Tak pro\u010d si toho nedok\u00e1\u017eu v\u00e1\u017eit? Mo\u017en\u00e1 proto, \u017ee to jedin\u00e9, po \u010dem jsem v\u017edy tou\u017eil, se mi nikdy nesplnilo&#8230; Touha,<\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a class=\"myButt \" href=\"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/03\/29\/things-i-ve-never-said\/\">Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[45],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-19192","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ff-jednodilky"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19192","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=19192"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19192\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=19192"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=19192"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=19192"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}