{"id":19629,"date":"2008-03-19T02:50:00","date_gmt":"2008-03-19T01:50:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=19588"},"modified":"2008-03-19T02:50:00","modified_gmt":"2008-03-19T01:50:00","slug":"rozum-a-cit-ii-35","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/03\/19\/rozum-a-cit-ii-35\/","title":{"rendered":"Rozum a cit II 35."},"content":{"rendered":"
Tak nerv\u00f3zn\u00ed a vyd\u011b\u0161en\u00fd jako pr\u00e1v\u011b dnes, se nec\u00edtil je\u0161t\u011b nikdy za cel\u00fd sv\u016fj \u017eivot. Jestli se n\u011bkdy skute\u010dn\u011b b\u00e1l, nebylo to nic proti tomu, jak se jeho t\u011blo sv\u00edralo nyn\u00ed. P\u0159i ka\u017ed\u00e9m bouchnut\u00ed dve\u0159\u00ed, p\u0159i ka\u017ed\u00e9m rychl\u00e9m kroku po ztichl\u00e9 chodb\u011b, mu naskakovala hus\u00ed k\u016f\u017ee a v hrdle nebezpe\u010dn\u011b vysychalo. P\u0159ipadalo mu, jako by tady \u010dekal na svou vlastn\u00ed smrt, jako by jen sm\u00ed\u0159en\u011b o\u010dek\u00e1val ten verdikt, kter\u00fd mus\u00ed ka\u017edou chv\u00edli p\u0159ij\u00edt a on se d\u011bs\u00ed ka\u017ed\u00e9ho okam\u017eiku, kter\u00fd tu zpr\u00e1vu \u010d\u00edm d\u00e1l v\u00edce p\u0159ibli\u017eoval. Byl na dn\u011b, fyzicky, ale p\u0159edev\u0161\u00edm psychicky, proto\u017ee ve sv\u00e9 du\u0161i nach\u00e1zel jen chladn\u00e9 pr\u00e1zdno a celou jeho bytost\u00ed neskute\u010dn\u011b ot\u0159\u00e1sala sou\u010dasn\u00e1 situace. U\u017e tis\u00edckr\u00e1t se s\u00e1m sebe ptal pro\u010d. Pro\u010d zrovna Bill mus\u00ed platit tak ne\u00fanosn\u011b vysokou da\u0148 za sv\u016fj \u017eivot, nezaslou\u017e\u00ed si to, on ne!<\/div>\n
Za svoji k\u0159ehkou povahu a vrozenou l\u00e1skyplnost jej nesm\u00ed tak trestat, co jen by si po\u010dal? Bez n\u011bj. Slo\u017eil hlavu zoufale do dlan\u00ed a vy\u010derpan\u011b se sesunul na jednu z lavic v pr\u00e1zdn\u00e9 \u010dek\u00e1rn\u011b. Nem\u011bl pon\u011bt\u00ed, kolik hodin u\u017e v t\u00e9to m\u00edstnosti str\u00e1vil, ale bylo mu jasn\u00e9, \u017ee si ji bude pamatovat do konce \u017eivota naprosto p\u0159esn\u011b a do detail\u016f. Pohl\u00e9dnul unaven\u00fdma zarudl\u00fdma o\u010dima bez \u017eivota na n\u00e1st\u011bnn\u00e9 hodiny, na nich\u017e bylo n\u011bco po druh\u00e9 hodin\u011b r\u00e1no. P\u0159iv\u0159el v\u00ed\u010dka. Je tady t\u00e9m\u011b\u0159 t\u0159in\u00e1ct hodin. Nejhor\u0161\u00edch t\u0159in\u00e1ct hodin v jeho \u017eivot\u011b, kter\u00e9 st\u00e1le pokra\u010duj\u00ed, vle\u010dou se d\u00e1l a d\u00e1l t\u00edm sam\u00fdm sm\u011brem a p\u0159in\u00e1\u0161ej\u00ed je\u0161t\u011b v\u00edce t\u00e9 ub\u00edjej\u00edc\u00ed bolesti. Nev\u011bd\u011bl, jak dlouho bude \u010dekat, \u010dekat na to, a\u017e mu p\u0159ijdou ozn\u00e1mit, \u017ee bratr je mrtv\u00fd.<\/div>\n
Zlostn\u011b hodil do nedalek\u00e9ho ko\u0161e pr\u00e1zdn\u00fd plastov\u00fd kel\u00edmek od k\u00e1vy. Prvn\u00ed co do sebe dok\u00e1zal dostat za tu \u00famorn\u011b dlouho dobu. Nev\u011bd\u011bl, co se stane po tom, kdyby se vyplnily obavy l\u00e9ka\u0159\u016f. Doposud se sna\u017eil myslet na tu lep\u0161\u00ed variantu, \u017ee to mo\u017en\u00e1 nebude hned, ale \u017ee m\u00e1 Bill je\u0161t\u011b po\u0159\u00e1d \u0161anci na uzdraven\u00ed, \u017ee p\u0159ece mus\u00ed j\u00edt ud\u011blat n\u011bco pro jeho z\u00e1chranu. Te\u010f mu ale st\u00e1le v\u00edce doch\u00e1zelo, \u017ee jeho nad\u011bje nejsou ni\u010d\u00edm podlo\u017een\u00e9 a opodstatn\u011bn\u00e9, \u017ee jsou vytvo\u0159eny jen pomoc\u00ed jeho p\u0159\u00e1n\u00ed, neznal p\u0159esn\u00fd rozsah po\u0161kozen\u00ed bratrova organismu, nep\u0159ipou\u0161t\u011bl si, \u017ee by to mohlo b\u00fdt tak v\u00e1\u017en\u00e9! V\u011bd\u011bl, \u017ee kdyby do\u0161lo na nejhor\u0161\u00ed, d\u0159\u00edve nebo pozd\u011bji by se odhodlal j\u00edt za n\u00edm. Nevydr\u017eel by to bez n\u011bj, nevydr\u017eel by to s\u00e1m, cel\u00fd jeho sv\u011bt by se mu rozpadnul pod rukama, to na \u010dem mu nejv\u00edc z\u00e1le\u017eelo u\u017e by se nikdy nevr\u00e1tilo a jemu by nezb\u00fdvalo v\u016fbec nic.<\/div>\n
Cht\u011bl b\u00fdt s n\u00edm, b\u00fdt mu nabl\u00edzku, kdyby snad n\u00e1hodou\u2026 Ale nedovolili mu z\u016fstat u n\u011bj, ka\u017edou chv\u00edli st\u00e1li u jeho postele a prov\u00e1d\u011bli neust\u00e1l\u00e9 testy a vy\u0161et\u0159en\u00ed, p\u0159ek\u00e1\u017eel by jim svou p\u0159\u00edtomnost\u00ed v jejich pr\u00e1ci, musel odej\u00edt. Na jednu stranu to mo\u017en\u00e1 bylo lep\u0161\u00ed. Nemohl se d\u00edvat na jeho ruce, rozp\u00edchan\u00e9 a promodral\u00e9 od jehel, kter\u00e9 jej napojovaly k p\u0159\u00edstroj\u016fm, udr\u017euj\u00edc\u00edch jej p\u0159i \u017eivot\u011b. Byl tak slab\u00fd, tak hrozn\u011b slab\u00fd, v\u017edycky jej zn\u00e1val jako silnou osobnost s pevnou v\u016fl\u00ed a jasn\u00fdm c\u00edlem a najednou jej vid\u011bl jako trosku na \u00fapln\u00e9m dn\u011b, jak bojuje o posledn\u00ed zbytky sv\u00e9ho \u017eivota, proto\u017ee p\u0159ece jen nebyl natolik siln\u00fd, aby se p\u0159iznal, \u017ee s\u00e1m to nem\u016f\u017ee zvl\u00e1dnout. Toma tak stra\u0161n\u011b bolelo, \u017ee kv\u016fli n\u011bmu je tady, je to jeho chyba! Neb\u00fdt jejich spole\u010dn\u00fdch probl\u00e9m\u016f, Bill by nes\u00e1hnul po l\u00e9c\u00edch, nikdy by jej to nenapadlo, kdyby mezi nimi nenastaly neshody. Bude si to vy\u010d\u00edtat, po\u0159\u00e1d a neust\u00e1le.<\/div>\n
Byl natolik zabr\u00e1n do sv\u00fdch truchliv\u00fdch my\u0161lenek, \u017ee v\u016fbec nepost\u0159ehl Billova hlavn\u00edho l\u00e9ka\u0159e, kter\u00fd ti\u0161e zavolal jeho jm\u00e9no. Zaregistroval jej teprve ve chv\u00edli, kdy polo\u017eil ruku zlehka na jeho rameno. Ztuhnul a jeho tv\u00e1\u0159 zbledla na popelav\u00fd odst\u00edn. Ne\u2026 zat\u00ednal p\u011bst do \u010dist\u011b b\u00edl\u00e9 l\u00e1tky seda\u010dky a b\u00e1l se i d\u00fdchat.<\/div>\n
„Pokud chcete j\u00edt za bratrem, m\u016f\u017eete. P\u0159ed n\u011bkolika minutami se probral.“<\/div>\n
„Co\u017ee?“<\/div>\n
„Ano, je p\u0159i v\u011bdom\u00ed, ale jasn\u011b v\u00e1m \u0159\u00edk\u00e1m, \u017ee to nic neznamen\u00e1, nem\u00e1me vyhr\u00e1no, v\u0161echno z\u00e1le\u017e\u00ed na testech, jejich\u017e vyhodnocen\u00ed bude hotovo z\u00edtra r\u00e1no. Znovu \u0159\u00edk\u00e1m, z\u00e1zraky se ned\u011bj\u00ed\u2026“ Tom jej neposlouchal, cht\u011bl sly\u0161et jen to dobr\u00e9, jen to kr\u00e1sn\u00e9, t\u00edm ostatn\u00edm se m\u016f\u017ee zab\u00fdvat kdykoliv jindy. Rychl\u00fdmi kroky m\u00ed\u0159il k prosklen\u00fdm dve\u0159\u00edm nemocni\u010dn\u00edho pokoje a nevn\u00edmal hlas doktora, jen\u017e za n\u00edm volal, \u017ee Bill je pod siln\u00fdmi l\u00e9ky a vn\u00edm\u00e1 jen velice m\u00edrn\u011b. Tom m\u011bl co d\u011blat aby udr\u017eel slzy u\u017e p\u0159i p\u0159ekro\u010den\u00ed prahu. Vid\u011bt jej takhle zni\u010den\u00e9ho, mu \u010dinilo opravdov\u00e1 muka, jeho stav jej d\u011bsil, p\u0159esto se sna\u017eil na bratra nep\u016fsobit p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 negativn\u011b.<\/div>\n
„Bille\u2026“ za\u0161eptal t\u0159esouc\u00edm se hlasem a po\u010dkal, a\u017e k n\u011bmu bratr obr\u00e1t\u00ed s n\u00e1mahou hlavu.<\/div>\n
Nep\u0159em\u00fd\u0161lel nad ni\u010d\u00edm, cht\u011bl mu b\u00fdt co nejbl\u00ed\u017ee, sl\u00edbit, \u017ee v\u0161echno zase bude dobr\u00e9, pomoci mu. Nev\u011bd\u011bl jak, nebylo to v jeho sil\u00e1ch, ale prost\u011b si nemohl pomoci. P\u0159istoupil k jeho posteli a nesm\u00edrn\u011b jemn\u011b se jen matn\u011b dotknul sv\u00fdmi chv\u011bj\u00edc\u00edmi se rty t\u011bch jeho, bezbarv\u00fdch, such\u00fdch a popraskan\u00fdm, kter\u00e9 jindy m\u00edvaly sv\u016fj p\u0159irozen\u00fd, m\u00edrn\u011b zbarven\u00fd odst\u00edn, dnes p\u016fsobily t\u00e9m\u011b\u0159 fialov\u00fdm prochladl\u00fdm dojmem. Slza z Tomov\u00fdch o\u010d\u00ed dopadla na bratrovu b\u00edlou tv\u00e1\u0159.<\/div>\n
„Jsem tady,“ za\u0161eptal.<\/p>\n

autor: Heidi<\/strong>
betaread: Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Tak nerv\u00f3zn\u00ed a vyd\u011b\u0161en\u00fd jako pr\u00e1v\u011b dnes, se nec\u00edtil je\u0161t\u011b nikdy za cel\u00fd sv\u016fj \u017eivot. Jestli se n\u011bkdy skute\u010dn\u011b b\u00e1l, nebylo to nic proti tomu, jak se jeho t\u011blo sv\u00edralo nyn\u00ed. P\u0159i ka\u017ed\u00e9m bouchnut\u00ed dve\u0159\u00ed, p\u0159i ka\u017ed\u00e9m rychl\u00e9m kroku po ztichl\u00e9 chodb\u011b,<\/p>\n

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