{"id":19817,"date":"2008-03-16T15:18:00","date_gmt":"2008-03-16T14:18:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=19776"},"modified":"2008-03-16T15:18:00","modified_gmt":"2008-03-16T14:18:00","slug":"du-bist-sch-n","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/03\/16\/du-bist-sch-n\/","title":{"rendered":"Du bist sch\u00f6n"},"content":{"rendered":"<div><strong>Du versteckst es schon so lange vor mir<br \/>Du tust mir so leid,<br \/>was machst du nur mit dir?<\/strong><\/div>\n<div>U\u017e je to presne mesiac odkedy si sa s \u0148ou rozi\u0161iel\u2026To \u0165a to tak vzalo? Tak ve\u013emi si ju miloval? Tak velmi ti ch\u00fdba? \u017de si to musel urobi\u0165? \u00c1no br\u00e1\u0161ko,viem to dlho\u2026Bolo mi divn\u00e9, pre\u010do si naklad\u00e1\u0161 polovi\u010dn\u00e9 porcie, ke\u010f si rovnak\u00fd jed\u00e1k ako ja\u2026 A st\u00e1le to zmen\u0161uje\u0161\u2026Pre\u010do??? Vyh\u00fdba\u0161 sa mi, ke\u010f sa rozpr\u00e1vame, nepozer\u00e1\u0161 sa mi do o\u010d\u00ed\u2026M\u00e1m o teba strach\u2026Je mi stra\u0161ne \u013e\u00fato ke\u010f vid\u00edm,\u010do so sebou rob\u00ed\u0161\u2026<\/div>\n<div><strong>Du denkst ich seh&#8217;s nicht,<br \/>doch du bist krank!<br \/>Du machst nicht nur Di\u00e4t,<br \/>nein, du kotzt dich schlank!<\/strong><\/div>\n<div>Mysl\u00ed\u0161 si \u017ee to nevid\u00edm?Ako sa tr\u00e1pi\u0161?Ako tr\u00e1pi\u0161 svoje telo?U\u017e si ani nepam\u00e4t\u00e1m kedy si sa poriadne schut\u00ed najedol..Bill,preber sa!!!V\u0161etci vid\u00edme, \u017ee nedr\u017e\u00ed\u0161 len di\u00e9tu!Bol\u00ed n\u00e1s to!M\u0148a to bol\u00ed\u2026A ani nevie\u0161 ako\u2026Jasn\u00e9 akoby si aj mohol\u2026Mysl\u00ed\u0161 len na svoju postavu\u2026Si \u0148ou posadnut\u00fd\u2026.Bo\u017ee,tak velmi by som ti chcel pom\u00f4c\u0165\u2026Kazd\u00fdm d\u0148om si chud\u0161\u00ed a slab\u0161\u00ed\u2026Boj\u00edm sa \u017ee ti nestihnem ani poveda\u0165,\u010do k tebe c\u00edtim\u2026 Bill,l\u00e1ska,milujem \u0165a ale i nen\u00e1vid\u00edm za to, \u017ee sa pomaly zab\u00edja\u0161\u2026Tvoje inokedy vesel\u00e9 o\u010dk\u00e1,s\u00fa dnes bez tej \u017eivotnej iskry,s\u00fa smutn\u00e9 a pr\u00e1zdne\u2026.<\/div>\n<div><strong>Wundersch\u00f6ne Augen, gl\u00e4nzen nicht mehr<br \/>Wundersch\u00f6ne Augen, sind traurig und leer<\/strong><\/div>\n<div><strong>Du bist sch\u00f6n, willst sch\u00f6ner sein<br \/>Du bist d\u00fcnn, willst d\u00fcnner sein<br \/>Du l\u00fcgst dir mitten ins Gesicht,<br \/>du bist so sch\u00f6n und hasst dich<\/strong><\/div>\n<div><strong>Du bist sch\u00f6n, willst sch\u00f6ner sein,<br \/>hungerst dich noch kurz und klein<br \/>Immer wieder mit Gewalt,<br \/>steckst du dir deinen Finger in den Hals<\/strong><\/div>\n<div>-Flash back-<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Bill!Bill kde si??&#8220;kri\u010d\u00edm na teba, ale ty sa neoz\u00fdva\u0161\u2026Prejdem okolo k\u00fapelne a po\u010dujem divn\u00e9 zvuky,tak otvor\u00edm dvere a nakuknem.Pohlad ktor\u00fd sa mi naskytol bol srdce dr\u00e1saj\u00faci\u2026Si nad z\u00e1chodovou misou a m\u00e1\u0161 v hrdle prst\u2026Moja mysel prestala pobera\u0165 akoby som sa ocitol v medzipriestore\u2026.&#8220;Bill?!\u010co\u2026\u010do to rob\u00ed\u0161?Pre\u010do?Ako?&#8220;neviem na \u010do sa \u0165a m\u00e1m sp\u00fdta\u0165 sk\u00f4r\u2026Zdvihne\u0161 ku mne tie svoje utr\u00e1pen\u00e9 o\u010di a smutne sa na m\u0148a pozrie\u0161:&#8220;Tom,pros\u00edm\u2026nekri\u010d\u2026ja\u2026neviem ako sp\u00e4\u0165\u2026nem\u00f4\u017eem presta\u0165\u2026ja\u2026u\u017e nevl\u00e1dzem\u2026pom\u00f4\u017e mi\u2026&#8220;Neveriacky sa na teba pozer\u00e1m\u2026&#8220;Bill,si anorektik?&#8220;Ty si len nemo prik\u00edvol\u2026Zveziem sa po stene dole a pla\u010dem\u2026priplazil si sa ku mne a chcel si ma obja\u0165\u2026no ja som sa nedal\u2026&#8220;Pre\u010do?Je to kv\u00f4li S\u00e1re?&#8220;Ty si znova prik\u00edvol..&#8220;Ona\u2026nechala ma lebo som pribral 3 kil\u00e1 a zdal som sa jej tu\u010dn\u00fd..ja\u2026miloval som ju\u2026.pre\u010do to urobila?&#8220; Nech\u00e1pavo si na m\u0148a pozrel\u2026&#8220;Neviem\u2026ale toto skon\u010d\u00ed Bill\u2026\u017eiadna nestoj\u00ed zato, aby si so seba robil \u017eiv\u00fa m\u0155tvolu\u2026Bill,pros\u00edm,ak ma m\u00e1\u0161 aspo\u0148 trochu r\u00e1d,s\u013e\u00fab mi \u017ee prestane\u0161..pros\u00edm\u2026Bill\u2026&#8220;Prit\u00falil si sa ku mne a pris\u013e\u00fabil mi to\u2026<\/div>\n<div>-koniec flash backu-<\/div>\n<div>nie,s\u013eub si nedodr\u017eal\u2026klame\u0161 s\u00e1m seba,klame\u0161 n\u00e1s\u2026m\u0148a\u2026 Nen\u00e1vid\u00ed\u0161 sa a skr\u00fdva\u0161 pred svetom\u2026 Pre\u010do? U\u017e skoro ani neje\u0161..Bill,uvedom si \u017ee toto vedie k z\u00e1hube!!! A\u2026ja \u0165a nechcem strati\u0165\u2026.<\/div>\n<div><strong>Der Weg, den du gehst,<br \/>f\u00fchrt nirgendwo hin.<br \/>Ich seh&#8216; Haut und Knochen,<br \/>ich bin doch nicht blind!<\/strong><\/div>\n<div>Cesta ktorou ide\u0161 nie je predp\u00edsan\u00e1 tebe\u2026.Nikam to nevedie\u2026Sna\u017e\u00ed\u0161 sa pretvarova\u0165, ale m\u0148a neoklame\u0161\u2026Bill,som tvoje dvoj\u010da!!Viem o tebe v\u0161etko\u2026Dnes si \u0161iel dolu po schodoch a skoro si spadol..Keby som \u0165a nezachytil zl\u00e1mal by si si v\u00e4zy..Si lahk\u00fd ako pierko\u2026Nevedel som \u010di dr\u017e\u00edm toho star\u00e9ho Billa ,alebo len jeho tie\u0148\u2026Bill,niesom slep\u00fd! Vid\u00edm \u017ee \u0165a to pohltilo e\u0161te viac\u2026Tak rob s t\u00fdm nie\u010do!To ti na mne u\u017e nez\u00e1le\u017e\u00ed??<\/div>\n<div><strong>Du stehst am Abgrund,<br \/>du merkst es nicht!<br \/>Du bist nicht mehr sch\u00f6n,<br \/>wenn du zusammenbrichst!<\/strong><\/div>\n<div>Stoj\u00ed\u0161 nad priepas\u0165ou, ale ty si to nev\u0161\u00edma\u0161\u2026Pre m\u0148a si ale st\u00e1le kr\u00e1sny, aj ke\u010f si to neni ty\u2026Milujem \u0165a tak\u00e9ho, ak\u00fd si\u2026Dnes som si chcel od teba po\u017ei\u010dia\u0165 baterky do mp3-jky\u2026 Klopal som a ty ni\u010d..Zlakol som sa a rozrazil dvere..Le\u017eal si na zemi a nejavil zn\u00e1mky \u017eivota.. Prihnal som sa k tebe a za\u010dal \u0165a o\u017eivova\u0165.. Na\u0161\u0165astie to pomohlo\u2026Bill,pre\u010do sa zab\u00edja\u0161? Pre\u010do?<\/div>\n<div><strong>Warum<br \/>Es ist dein Spiegelbild, das l\u00fcgt<br \/>Es schreit dich an, damit du dich selbst betr\u00fcgst<br \/>Du bist krank, ja, du bringst dich langsam um<br \/>Du hasst dich immer mehr<br \/>Warum<\/strong><\/div>\n<div>Bill!! Po\u010duje\u0161 ma?? Kri\u010d\u00edm na teba\u2026 Ale odpove\u010f neprich\u00e1dza \u017eiadna\u2026U\u017e v\u00f4bec nekomunikuje\u0161\u2026Viem \u017ee je to koniec\u2026. No neprip\u00fa\u0161\u0165am si to\u2026Doktora si odmietol\u2026 Moju aj maminu pomoc tie\u017e\u2026 \u017devraj sa z toho vyl\u00ed\u017ee\u0161 s\u00e1m\u2026 no nezvl\u00e1dol si to\u2026 U\u017e 2x si mal z\u00e1chvat\u2026 Bill,si chor\u00fd aj ke\u010f si to neprip\u00fa\u0161\u0165a\u0161\u2026 Zomiera\u0161.. A s tebou aj ja\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Dnes som pri\u0161iel domov zo \u0161koly sk\u00f4r.. Bol si doma s\u00e1m\u2026 Rychle som \u0165a \u0161iel skontrolova\u0165\u2026 Na\u0161iel som \u0165a znova pri z\u00e1chode\u2026 Bol si mal\u00e1tny,nevedel si sa postavi\u0165\u2026 Zrazu si sa za\u010dal trias\u0165\u2026 Vystra\u0161ene si sa na m\u0148a pozrel\u2026 Ja som \u0165a objal.. Vedel som kolko bije\u2026 Tisol som si \u0165a k sebe\u2026&#8220;Tom\u2026pros\u00edm\u2026ja e\u0161te nechcem\u2026ja\u2026preboha..nie\u2026&#8220; brblal si si popod nos..&#8220;P\u0161\u0161\u0161t\u2026Billi\u2026neboj v\u0161etko bude ok\u2026&#8220; uklud\u0148oval som \u0165a..&#8220;Nie nebude\u2026ja sa trasiem\u2026Tomi\u2026mus\u00edm ti nie\u010do poveda\u0165\u2026chcel som presta\u0165 kv\u00f4li tebe ale nevedel som ako..nechcel som, aby si si o mne myslel \u017ee som slaboch.. Tom..ja\u2026milujem \u0165a\u2026velmi a u\u017e dlh\u0161iu dobu\u2026&#8220; povedal si vys\u00edlene\u2026 &#8222;Billi\u2026l\u00e1ska\u2026aj ja \u0165a milujem..pre\u010do si mi to nepovedal?? Mohlo to by\u0165 teraz inak\u2026&#8220; priznal som sa aj ja\u2026Bill sa ku mne naklonil a za\u010dali sme sa pomaly a jemne bozk\u00e1va\u0165\u2026bolo to n\u00e1dhern\u00e9 a\u017e na to \u017ee\u2026.Bill sa triasol st\u00e1le menej a menej\u2026 Prestal spolupracova\u0165\u2026 Jeho stisk povolil\u2026Jeho telo mi ochablo v n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed\u2026 Za\u010dal som nekontrolovatelne vzlyka\u0165 a triast s Billom\u2026no on u\u017e bol\u2026m\u0155tvy\u2026 Prekl\u00ednal som seba aj jeho\u2026 Keby som mu pomohol,mohli sme by\u0165 \u0161\u0165astn\u00fd\u2026 Bill bol \u010fal\u0161ou obetou anorexie\u2026 A pritom kv\u00f4li takej hl\u00faposti\u2026. S n\u00edm odi\u0161iel aj kus zo m\u0148a\u2026 Nevedel som kedy, ale vedel som, \u017ee raz sa s n\u00edm znova stretnem\u2026 Tam hore a budeme \u0161\u0165astn\u00fd\u2026Len ja a m\u00f4j Bill\u2026.<\/div>\n<div>Das Ende\u2026.In\u0161pirovan\u00e9 pies\u0148ou od &#8222;LaFee&#8220;- &#8222;Du bist sch\u00f6n\u2026.&#8220;<\/p>\n<p>autor: <strong>Renkaa<\/strong><br \/>betaread: <strong>Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Du versteckst es schon so lange vor mirDu tust mir so leid,was machst du nur mit dir? U\u017e je to presne mesiac odkedy si sa s \u0148ou rozi\u0161iel\u2026To \u0165a to tak vzalo? Tak ve\u013emi si ju miloval? 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