{"id":19900,"date":"2008-03-16T01:55:00","date_gmt":"2008-03-16T00:55:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=19859"},"modified":"2008-03-16T01:55:00","modified_gmt":"2008-03-16T00:55:00","slug":"rozum-a-cit-i-25","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/03\/16\/rozum-a-cit-i-25\/","title":{"rendered":"Rozum a cit I 25."},"content":{"rendered":"<div>Tom pozoroval bratra, nemohl uv\u011b\u0159it, \u017ee mu lhal. Pro\u010d? Pro\u010d to ud\u011blal? V\u017edycky si \u0159\u00edkali v\u0161echno a zvl\u00e1\u0161\u0165 te\u010f, kdy\u017e k sob\u011b maj\u00ed bl\u00ed\u017e ne\u017e kdykoliv jindy, se do jejich \u017eivota zapletou l\u017ei? Bill mus\u00ed m\u00edt d\u016fvod, pro\u010d zatajuje Marcusovu p\u0159\u00edtomnost v jejich dom\u011b. Toma bodlo u srdce. Ne, toho by bratr nebyl schopen, v \u017e\u00e1dn\u00e9m p\u0159\u00edpad\u011b. V\u00ed jak moc pro n\u011bj znamen\u00e1, nedok\u00e1zal by mu takhle ubl\u00ed\u017eit! My\u0161lenky mu zb\u011bsile krou\u017eily hlavou, byl zaslepen\u00fd a nejist\u00fd, nech\u00e1pal co se kolem n\u011bj d\u011bje, co se d\u011bje s Billem, s \u010dlov\u011bkem za n\u011bj\u017e by dal \u017eivot, kter\u00fd byl pro n\u011bj na prvn\u00edm m\u00edst\u011b a tuto pozici nemohlo nic na sv\u011bt\u011b ohrozit. Nebo snad mohlo? \u017de by p\u0159i\u0161la r\u00e1na z \u00fapln\u011b jin\u00e9 strany ne\u017e by \u010dekal? V\u017edycky m\u011bl podv\u011bdom\u00fd strach, \u017ee to bude on, kdo zni\u010d\u00ed to kr\u00e1sn\u00e9 pouto mezi j\u00edm a Billem, kdo p\u0159inese do jejich vztahu ned\u016fv\u011bru nebo n\u011bkoho t\u0159et\u00edho. Ani ve snu nepo\u010d\u00edtal, \u017ee bratr by ho mohl tak snadno p\u0159edb\u011bhnout. Tom si promnul o\u010di. Mus\u00ed s t\u00edm p\u0159estat. Dokud nebude m\u00edt jasn\u00fd d\u016fkaz toho, z \u010deho Billa ve skrytu du\u0161e podez\u00edr\u00e1, nem\u00e1 pr\u00e1vo d\u011blat \u017e\u00e1dn\u00e9 ukvapen\u00e9 z\u00e1v\u011bry. Je nutn\u00e9 po\u010dkat, b\u00fdt trp\u011bliv\u00fd a opatrn\u00fd. Pod\u00edval se na bratra. Bill se cht\u011bl pr\u00e1v\u011b nap\u00edt, vzal mezi prsty vla\u017en\u00fd hrnek a pomalu jej sunul k \u00fast\u016fm. Ruce se mu tak siln\u011b t\u0159\u00e1sly, \u017ee \u0161\u00e1lek nedok\u00e1zal udr\u017eet rovn\u011b, usrknul sotva dou\u0161ek a velk\u00e1 \u010d\u00e1st ulp\u011bla na jeho mikin\u011b. Boj\u00e1cn\u011b se pod\u00edval na Toma a hrnek okam\u017eit\u011b odlo\u017eil. Takhle hloup\u011b se prozradit!<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Pro\u010d ses odl\u00ed\u010dil?&#8220; v\u0161imnul si zachmu\u0159en\u00fd Tom bratrova obli\u010deje, kter\u00fd byl naprosto \u010dist\u00fd, co\u017e mu p\u0159i\u0161lo zna\u010dn\u011b nelogick\u00e9, proto\u017ee se je\u0161t\u011b p\u0159ed jeho odchodem pe\u010dliv\u011b l\u00ed\u010dil. Bill trhnul rameny. Nemohl d\u011blat nic jin\u00e9ho, ve chv\u00edli kdy ode\u0161el Marcus si p\u0159i pohledu z okna v\u0161imnul p\u0159ich\u00e1zej\u00edc\u00edho Toma a nesm\u011bl p\u0159ece z\u016fstat z roztekl\u00fdmi \u0161minkami po cel\u00e9m obli\u010deji. Nem\u011bl \u010das se znovu upravit, jedin\u00e9 co stihnul, bylo opl\u00e1chnout si tv\u00e1\u0159 ledovou vodou a modlit se aby brzy vymizel rud\u00fd n\u00e1dech jeho napuchl\u00fdch o\u010d\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;To mus\u00edm m\u00edt make-up i doma, abych se ti l\u00edbil?&#8220; p\u0159e\u0161el do \u00fatoku, aby si bratr nev\u0161imnul nervozity v jeho hlase.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Ne, ty v\u00ed\u0161 \u017ee t\u011b miluju takhle.&#8220; Bill zalapal po dechu. Bylo to \u00fapln\u011b poprv\u00e9, kdy mu Tom jasn\u011b a do o\u010d\u00ed \u0159ekl \u017ee ho miluje. Nikdy p\u0159edt\u00edm se o tom nezm\u00ednil, v\u017edycky pou\u017e\u00edval fr\u00e1ze, jako\u017ee ho nesm\u00edrn\u011b vzru\u0161uje a p\u0159itahuje ale teprve te\u010f od n\u011bj sly\u0161el ta slova, po nich\u017e tou\u017eil od sam\u00e9ho za\u010d\u00e1tku. Sklopil hlavu. Pro\u010d musely p\u0159ij\u00edt v tak nevhodn\u00fd \u010das? L\u017ee mu, l\u017ee Tomovi, chce zatajit celou pravdu a on mu \u0159ekne \u017ee ho miluje. Bill si p\u0159ipadal jako nejv\u011bt\u0161\u00ed pokrytec. Jak jen m\u016f\u017ee p\u0159ijmout v\u0161echnu tu jeho n\u011bhu a n\u00e1klonnost, kdy\u017e je k n\u011bmu tak neup\u0159\u00edmn\u00fd? Nevyznal se s\u00e1m v sob\u011b, nev\u011bd\u011bl jak d\u00e1l, neum\u011bl rozpoznat, co by bylo pro oba nejlep\u0161\u00ed. Pot\u0159eboval b\u00fdt s\u00e1m, aspo\u0148 na p\u00e1r minut se zbavit bratrova bedliv\u00e9ho dohledu. Vzpomn\u011bl si na pokapanou mikinu. Prudce vstal.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Mus\u00edm do koupelny,&#8220; ozn\u00e1mil a odkr\u00e1\u010del nahoru. Tom nev\u00e1hal ani vte\u0159inu, jen co utichly bratrovy kroky na schodech, co nejti\u0161eji se vydal za n\u00edm. Ne\u0161el d\u00e1l, z\u016fstal st\u00e1t u pootev\u0159en\u00fdch koupelnov\u00fdch dve\u0159\u00ed a m\u011bl dovnit\u0159 perfektn\u00ed v\u00fdhled. Bill rozepnul zip a opatrn\u011b sejmul od\u011bv z ramen. Kdy\u017e l\u00edmcem zavadil o sv\u016fj krk, bolestiv\u011b usykl. V\u016fbec se neobt\u011b\u017eoval s n\u011bjak\u00fdm pran\u00edm, hodil mikinu na dno ko\u0161e s pr\u00e1dlem a p\u0159ed zrcadlem si jemn\u011b sahal na rud\u00e9 skvrny na krku. Byly t\u0159i a byly tak obrovsk\u00e9! Nen\u00e1vid\u011bl Marcuse, nen\u00e1vid\u011bl ho za to, jak odporn\u011b si jej ozna\u010dil, snad aby vytvo\u0159il d\u016fkaz toho, \u017ee se Billa dot\u00fdkaly jin\u00e9 rty ne\u017e Tomovy. Vzal do ruky tubu s make-upem a sna\u017eil se co nejl\u00e9pe cel\u00e9 to svinstvo na sv\u00e9 k\u016f\u017ei skr\u00fdt, \u0161lo to t\u011b\u017eko, vlastn\u011b to nem\u011blo v\u016fbec \u017e\u00e1dn\u00fd \u00fa\u010dinek. Jak se mu jen poda\u0159\u00ed utajit to p\u0159ed Tomem! P\u0159es den to nebude tak zl\u00e9, m\u016f\u017ee nosit v\u011bci ke krku a tvrdit, \u017ee se nachladil, ale co v noci? Tom s n\u00edm jist\u011b bude cht\u00edt sp\u00e1t, jist\u011b ho bude cht\u00edt svl\u00e9knout. Nev\u011bd\u011bl si rady.<\/div>\n<div>Tom st\u00e1l op\u0159en\u00fd o ze\u010f a m\u011bl zav\u0159en\u00e9 o\u010di. Tolik cht\u011bl d\u016fkaz a te\u010f by si najednou p\u0159\u00e1l, aby nikdy \u017e\u00e1dn\u00fd nedostal. Mo\u017en\u00e1 by mu bylo l\u00e9pe v mlhav\u00e9 nejistot\u011b pln\u00e9 ot\u00e1zek, ne\u017e kdy\u017e pr\u00e1v\u011b z\u00edskal jasn\u00e9 odpov\u011bdi. Jak jen mohl? Bill, jeho Bill. Trpce se usm\u00e1l. Ne, u\u017e nen\u00ed jen jeho, svoje prvenstv\u00ed si v bratrov\u011b lo\u017enici nedok\u00e1zal uh\u00e1jit p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 dlouho. P\u0159\u00edli\u0161 moc se kochal pomy\u0161len\u00edm, \u017ee Bill pat\u0159\u00ed jen jemu, \u017ee to co m\u016f\u017ee on, nikomu jin\u00e9mu nedovol\u00ed, \u017ee na n\u011bj m\u00e1 pr\u00e1vo sahat jen on. Jak byl naivn\u00ed. P\u0159em\u00fd\u0161lel, co ud\u011blal \u0161patn\u011b, kde se stala chyba, co byl ten d\u016fvod bratrova \u00fat\u011bku do ciz\u00ed n\u00e1ru\u010de? Copak mu nesta\u010dil? Jeho city mu byly m\u00e1lo? Nejsp\u00ed\u0161 ano, podle t\u011bch flek\u016f na jeho k\u016f\u017ei, se Bill asi vy\u017e\u00edv\u00e1 v mnohem drsn\u011bj\u0161\u00edm zp\u016fsobu l\u00e1sky ne\u017e mu poskytoval on. Nerozum\u011bl tomu. Poka\u017ed\u00e9 cht\u011bl pro Billa neskute\u010dnou jemnost a n\u011bhu, zach\u00e1zel s n\u00edm jako by byl z cukru a jak se mu odvd\u011b\u010dil? Za jeho z\u00e1dy se nech\u00e1v\u00e1 surov\u011b ob\u0161\u0165ast\u0148ovat od \u010dlov\u011bka, jen\u017e nikdy netajil, \u017ee mu jde o Billovo t\u011blo, \u017ee ho chce z\u00edskat jako trofej, jako dal\u0161\u00ed z\u00e1\u0159ez. Poda\u0159ilo se mu to. Tom prudce zamrkal, nesnesl by aby ho bratr vid\u011bl v slz\u00e1ch. Nem\u011bl ani pon\u011bt\u00ed jak se zachov\u00e1, netu\u0161il co bude d\u00e1l. Nezvl\u00e1dne se o Billa d\u011blit, to by ze\u0161\u00edlel \u017e\u00e1rlivost\u00ed, pocit, \u017ee na k\u016f\u017ei kter\u00e9 se dot\u00fdk\u00e1 on, u\u017e byly n\u011b\u010d\u00ed ruce, by jej neskute\u010dn\u011b mu\u010dil. Bu\u010f bude m\u00edt bratra jen pro sebe, nebo ho nebude m\u00edt v\u016fbec\u2026<\/p>\n<p>autor: <strong>Heidi<\/strong><br \/>betaread: <strong>Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Tom pozoroval bratra, nemohl uv\u011b\u0159it, \u017ee mu lhal. Pro\u010d? Pro\u010d to ud\u011blal? V\u017edycky si \u0159\u00edkali v\u0161echno a zvl\u00e1\u0161\u0165 te\u010f, kdy\u017e k sob\u011b maj\u00ed bl\u00ed\u017e ne\u017e kdykoliv jindy, se do jejich \u017eivota zapletou l\u017ei? 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