{"id":20464,"date":"2008-03-02T11:57:00","date_gmt":"2008-03-02T10:57:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=20422"},"modified":"2008-03-02T11:57:00","modified_gmt":"2008-03-02T10:57:00","slug":"cesta-do-pekel-6-1-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/03\/02\/cesta-do-pekel-6-1-3\/","title":{"rendered":"Cesta do pekel 6. (1\/3)"},"content":{"rendered":"<div style=\"text-align:center\"><strong>Der Freitag<\/strong><\/div>\n<div><em>Poslouchej poh\u00e1dku,<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>\u0161ept\u00e1m ti ji do vlas\u016f&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>M\u00e1me je\u0161t\u011b dostatek \u010dasu&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Na tom n\u011bco zm\u011bnit&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>By Cera<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Jen sp\u00e1t&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Zapomenout&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Ale tentokr\u00e1t ne na \u010das, ne na n\u011bj &#8211; zt\u011blesn\u011bn\u00ed m\u00fdch no\u010dn\u00edch m\u016fr&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Na svou bolest, na sv\u00e9 zoufalstv\u00ed&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Na sv\u016fj \u010din&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Na to, \u017ee jsem t\u011b nav\u017edy vyhnal ze sv\u00e9ho \u017eivota&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Jedin\u00e9 osob\u011b, kter\u00e1 m\u011b je\u0161t\u011b dok\u00e1zala ut\u011b\u0161it, dodat mi trochu odvahy, pot\u0159ebn\u00e9 s\u00edly, jsem uk\u00e1zal dve\u0159e. Oto\u010dil jsem se k n\u00ed z\u00e1dy, i kdy\u017e ona by to nikdy neud\u011blala.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Za to v\u0161ak m\u016f\u017ee on! Nem\u011bl se mu vet\u0159\u00edt do hlasu! U\u017e d\u00e1vno m\u011bl b\u00fdt pry\u010d! Od chv\u00edle, kdy zmizel ze zrcadla&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Ale byl tam v\u016fbec n\u011bkdy?<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Ne, ty v\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee ne&#8230;<\/div>\n<div><em>Ale co kdy\u017e ano? Jsem bl\u00e1zen, kdy\u017e v to v\u011b\u0159\u00edm?<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Ne, jsi hlup\u00e1k, sna\u017e\u00edc\u00ed se ospravedlnit sv\u00e9 skutky&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Chlapec se lesknouc\u00edma se o\u010dima rozhl\u00e9dl po pokoji. Po sv\u00e9m jedin\u00e9m \u00fato\u010di\u0161ti, kter\u00e9 se te\u010f stalo, stejn\u011b tak jako ostatn\u00ed m\u00edsta, nep\u0159\u00e1telsk\u00fdm \u00fazem\u00edm. Ani tady se nec\u00edtil v bezpe\u010d\u00ed. Ani tady se u\u017e nemohl ukr\u00fdt p\u0159ed \u00fatrapami \u017eivota.<\/div>\n<div>Le\u017eel na zemi. Pozoroval pr\u00e1zdn\u00fd strop. B\u00edl\u00fd, chladn\u00fd, bez \u017eivota. Tak jako on. On, kter\u00fd pomalu za\u010dal ztr\u00e1cet svou du\u0161i. Ten pust\u00fd strop mu n\u00e1hle p\u0159ipadal jako obloha pln\u00e1 hv\u011bzd. Bylo to v\u016fbec mo\u017en\u00e9? \u017de by se jeho srdce m\u011bnilo v k\u00e1men? Aby zapomn\u011blo na v\u0161echna p\u0159\u00edko\u0159\u00ed, na to, co uboh\u00fd chlapec zp\u016fsobil, a\u010d nerad&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Byl tak mlad\u00fd. Tak mlad\u00fd! Pro\u010d si vybral zrovna jeho naivn\u00ed d\u011btskou du\u0161i? Proto\u017ee v\u011bd\u011bl, \u017ee s n\u00ed to bude snadn\u00e9. \u017de ona se nebude moci br\u00e1nit&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>P\u0159ed o\u010dima si vybavil ten den jakoby to bylo v\u010dera. Den, kter\u00fdm si nav\u017edy zpe\u010detil sv\u016fj osud&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Sna\u017eili se s br\u00e1\u0161kou vymyslet melodii k jedn\u00e9 z jeho d\u011btinsk\u00fdch b\u00e1sni\u010dek. Tom vybrnk\u00e1val jednotliv\u00e9 t\u00f3ny a Billovy kradm\u00e9 prst\u00edky mu sem tam zm\u00e1\u010dkly n\u011bjakou tu strunu nav\u00edc&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Zorni\u010dky se mu roz\u0161\u00ed\u0159ily hr\u016fzou v nenad\u00e1l\u00e9m pozn\u00e1n\u00ed. Tom! Rychle vstal a rozb\u011bhl se do pokoje sv\u00e9ho dvoj\u010dete. Je\u0161t\u011b pl\u00e1la jisk\u0159i\u010dka nad\u011bje, \u017ee se jeho nejhor\u0161\u00ed obavy nevypln\u00ed, ale i ta pohasla, jakmile rozrazil dve\u0159e.<\/div>\n<div><em>S\u00e1m&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>V pr\u00e1zdn\u00e9 m\u00edstnosti&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>V pr\u00e1zdn\u00e9m dom\u011b&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Tom ho poslechl. Vysly\u0161el jeho prosbu. Ode\u0161el&#8230; Nav\u017edy?<\/div>\n<div>Mo\u017en\u00e1&#8230;<\/div>\n<div><em>Ne! P\u0159ece nemohl jen tak v\u0161echno zahodit! Sedmn\u00e1ct let spole\u010dn\u00e9ho \u017eivota&#8230; P\u0159ece nemohl jen tak zradit ono p\u0159\u00e1telstv\u00ed, bratrsk\u00e9 pouto&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Ale p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161lej&#8230; Kdo tu opravdu zradil? On ur\u010dit\u011b ne&#8230; Ubl\u00ed\u017eil jsi mu&#8230; T\u00edm nejhor\u0161\u00edm zp\u016fsobem &#8211; zasadil jsi mu r\u00e1nu p\u0159\u00edmo do srdce&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Bill do\u0161el pomalu ke stolu a vzal do rukou jejich spole\u010dnou fotografii. Usm\u00edvali se na sebe. Byli \u0161\u0165astn\u00ed, m\u011bli jeden druh\u00e9ho. Po tv\u00e1\u0159i mu stekla slza a ihned za n\u00ed n\u00e1sledovala dal\u0161\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div><em>Pro\u010d? Pro\u010d to v\u0161echno?<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>St\u00e1lo to za to?<\/em><\/div>\n<div>N\u00e1hle si n\u011bco uv\u011bdomil. V dom\u011b bylo a\u017e p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 ticho.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Mami?!&#8220; zak\u0159i\u010del, jak nejv\u00edc v tu chv\u00edli dok\u00e1zal. Zachv\u00e1tila ho panika. Nikdo se mu toti\u017e neozval. &#8222;Mami!&#8220; pokusil se znovu.<\/div>\n<div>Prohledal snad ka\u017ed\u00fd kout v dom\u011b. Nic&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Je to tady. V\u0161ichni ho opustili&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Vy\u010derpan\u011b se svezl po zdi dol\u016f. Po zdi pr\u00e1zdn\u00e9 kuchyn\u011b.<\/div>\n<div><em>Tak takhle vypad\u00e1 konec&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>V osam\u011bn\u00ed&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Bez p\u0159\u00e1tel&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Bez rodiny&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Bez jedin\u00e9 jistoty, kterou m\u011bl&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div>\u010cernovlas\u00fd chlapec pora\u017een\u011b sklopil hlavu. Takhle to necht\u011bl, nic z toho se nem\u011blo st\u00e1t&#8230; Plakal. Znovu.<\/div>\n<div>Ne, plakal skoro bez p\u0159est\u00e1n\u00ed&#8230; U\u017e v\u00edce ne\u017e p\u011bt dn\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div>Jako v mr\u00e1kot\u00e1ch vstal a roze\u0161el se zp\u011bt nahoru. Ne v\u0161ak k sob\u011b, ale ke sv\u00e9mu br\u00e1\u0161kovi. Byla to v\u0161ak jen mal\u00e1 n\u00e1hra\u017eka&#8230; V\u011bci, i kdy\u017e s jasn\u00fdm podpisem doty\u010dn\u00e9ho, nedok\u00e1\u017eou nahradit \u017eiv\u00e9ho \u010dlov\u011bka.<\/div>\n<div>Nev\u011bd\u011bl, co m\u00e1 d\u011blat. Do o\u010d\u00ed se mu draly dal\u0161\u00ed a dal\u0161\u00ed slzy, st\u00e9kaly mu po napuchl\u00fdch tv\u00e1\u0159\u00edch, ale on u\u017e je nevn\u00edmal. U\u017e d\u00e1vno&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Ti\u0161e se choulil v rohu pokoje a rozhl\u00ed\u017eel se po \u010dty\u0159ech tak zn\u00e1m\u00fdch st\u011bn\u00e1ch. Utla\u010dovaly ho. Pomalu se bl\u00ed\u017eily k sob\u011b. Ub\u00edraly mu volnost pohybu, volnost \u017eivota. Ale cht\u011bl je\u0161t\u011b v\u016fbec \u017e\u00edt?<\/div>\n<div>Vstal. Do\u0161el k bratrovu stolu, dosedl na \u017eidli a polo\u017eil p\u0159ed sebe dva \u010dist\u00e9 listy pap\u00edru. Chopil se tu\u017eky a za\u010dal ps\u00e1t&#8230;<\/div>\n<div><em>Moji draz\u00ed, rodino, p\u0159\u00e1tel\u00e9, v\u0161ichni, co jsem m\u011bl tolik r\u00e1d,<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>V\u00edm, \u017ee a\u017e tento dopis najdete, j\u00e1 u\u017e budu d\u00e1vno pry\u010d. V\u00edm, \u017ee budete bre\u010det, v\u00edm, \u017ee se budete pt\u00e1t, ale nikdo z v\u00e1s nebude zn\u00e1t odpov\u011b\u010f na to, pro\u010d jsem to ud\u011blal.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Mo\u017en\u00e1 si to budete d\u00e1vat za vinu, mo\u017en\u00e1 budete vinit onoho moder\u00e1tora, av\u0161ak jedin\u00fd, kdo na tom nese vinu, jsem j\u00e1 s\u00e1m. Proto\u017ee tohle nebyl d\u016fsledek chvilkov\u00e9ho pomaten\u00ed mysli&#8230; Sv\u016fj hrob jsem si za\u010dal kopat ji\u017e p\u0159ed mnoha lety.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Nech\u00e1pete? Ani j\u00e1 to d\u0159\u00edve nech\u00e1pal. Myslel jsem, \u017ee v\u0161echno se obejde bez n\u00e1sledk\u016f. Ale skute\u010dnost je p\u0159ece jen odli\u0161n\u00e1. M\u00e1 minulost m\u011b dohnala a j\u00e1 u\u017e nem\u011bl dost sil na dal\u0161\u00ed zoufal\u00fd b\u011bh.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>M\u00e1te pravdu. M\u00e1te pr\u00e1vo alespo\u0148 na vysv\u011btlen\u00ed&#8230; av\u0161ak&#8230; j\u00e1 v\u00e1m ho nemohu poskytnout. Nechci.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Nechci v\u00e1m je\u0161t\u011b v\u00edce ubl\u00ed\u017eit. P\u0159eji si, abyste si m\u011b pamatovali takov\u00e9ho, jak\u00fdm jsem byl a jak\u00fdm jsem se tou\u017eil st\u00e1t&#8230; Za ka\u017edou cenu, klidn\u011b i tu nejvy\u0161\u0161\u00ed&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Neobvi\u0148ujte sl\u00e1vu, ona za nic nem\u016f\u017ee. To pouze j\u00e1 cht\u011bl kr\u00e1\u010det sv\u011btem v\u0161emi milov\u00e1n&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Av\u0161ak, pros\u00edm, neobvi\u0148ujte sebe&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>S ve\u0161kerou l\u00e1skou<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>V\u00e1\u0161 Bill<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Jednou se zase setk\u00e1me&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Snad&#8230;<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Upustil pero a uslzen\u00fdma o\u010dima se zahled\u011bl na z poloviny popsan\u00fd pap\u00edr. Bylo to pro n\u011bj tak t\u011b\u017ek\u00e9&#8230; Nikdy by si nebyl pomyslel, \u017ee nap\u00ed\u0161e z\u00e1v\u011b\u0165 d\u0159\u00edv, jak p\u0159ed pades\u00e1t\u00fdmi narozeninami. A te\u010f tu sed\u011bl a d\u00edval se pr\u00e1v\u011b na ni. V\u017edy\u0165 nem\u011bl ani co odk\u00e1zat&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Rozt\u0159esen\u011b se zvedl a zam\u00ed\u0159il i s listinou do sv\u00e9ho pokoje pro ob\u00e1lku. \u00dahledn\u011b do n\u00ed slo\u017eil pap\u00edr a p\u0159es ni p\u0159ev\u00e1zal \u010dernou stu\u017eku, kterou na\u0161el v kuchyni. Bylo to k nev\u00ed\u0159e, ale musel se za sv\u016fj v\u00fdtvor pochv\u00e1lit. Tohle bylo to jedin\u00e9, co se mu za posledn\u00ed dny opravdu poda\u0159ilo. Co zvl\u00e1dl bez chybi\u010dky. To, co si ur\u010dit\u011b nebude vy\u010d\u00edtat&#8230;<\/div>\n<div>Te\u010f zb\u00fdvalo jen&#8230; Bill vzal mezi prsty dal\u0161\u00ed ze sv\u00fdch b\u011blostn\u00fdch ob\u00e1lek a vydal se s n\u00ed zp\u011bt do bratrova pokoje. Op\u011bt dosedl za st\u016fl, kde u\u017e na n\u011bj opu\u0161t\u011bn\u011b \u010dekal dal\u0161\u00ed pap\u00edr. Pevn\u011b stiskl pero, kter\u00fdm psal p\u0159ed chv\u00edl\u00ed. Byl p\u0159ipraven br\u00e1\u0161kovi napsat pravdu. Tu, kterou se p\u0159ed n\u00edm tak b\u00e1l vyslovit nahlas&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>autor: <strong>Elis, Cera<\/strong><br \/>betaread: <strong>Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Der Freitag Poslouchej poh\u00e1dku, \u0161ept\u00e1m ti ji do vlas\u016f&#8230; M\u00e1me je\u0161t\u011b dostatek \u010dasu&#8230; Na tom n\u011bco zm\u011bnit&#8230; By Cera Jen sp\u00e1t&#8230; Zapomenout&#8230; Ale tentokr\u00e1t ne na \u010das, ne na n\u011bj &#8211; zt\u011blesn\u011bn\u00ed m\u00fdch no\u010dn\u00edch m\u016fr&#8230; Na svou bolest, na sv\u00e9 zoufalstv\u00ed&#8230; Na<\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a class=\"myButt \" href=\"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/03\/02\/cesta-do-pekel-6-1-3\/\">Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[56],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-20464","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-cesta-do-pekel"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20464","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=20464"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20464\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=20464"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=20464"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=20464"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}