{"id":20467,"date":"2008-03-02T11:54:00","date_gmt":"2008-03-02T10:54:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=20425"},"modified":"2008-03-02T11:54:00","modified_gmt":"2008-03-02T10:54:00","slug":"cesta-do-pekel-5-1-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2008\/03\/02\/cesta-do-pekel-5-1-3\/","title":{"rendered":"Cesta do pekel 5. (1\/3)"},"content":{"rendered":"<div><strong>Der Donnerstag<\/strong><\/div>\n<div><em>Cenu sl\u00e1vy j\u00e1 nau\u010dil se zn\u00e1t\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Te\u010f se j\u00ed pomalu za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1m b\u00e1t\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>By Cera<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Je\u0161t\u011b chv\u00edli. Jenom chv\u00edli. Kr\u00e1tk\u00fd okam\u017eik\u2026b\u00fdt ve tv\u00e9 n\u00e1ru\u010di.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>V\u011b\u010dnost\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Nechci se vzd\u00e1t, je\u0161t\u011b ne. Nechci se vzd\u00e1t tv\u00e9ho objet\u00ed, tebe\u2026sv\u00e9ho dvoj\u010dete.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>N\u00e1s\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>P\u0159eji si je\u0161t\u011b malou, malinkatou chv\u00edli spokojen\u011b sp\u00e1t. C\u00edtit tv\u00e9 klidn\u00e9 oddechov\u00e1n\u00ed. Tv\u016fj dech na l\u00edci. Bezpe\u010d\u00ed tv\u00fdch dlan\u00ed, ve kter\u00fdch se choul\u00edm, skr\u00fdv\u00e1m se p\u0159ed sv\u011btem\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>P\u0159ed jeho dosahem, i kdy\u017e v\u00edm, \u017ee mi to nen\u00ed nic platn\u00e9\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Cht\u011bl bych je\u0161t\u011b na setinu okam\u017eiku sp\u00e1t. Nec\u00edtit bolest, strach\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Z toho, co bude dnes\u2026Co bude z\u00edtra\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Pros\u00edm, vyvra\u0165 mi, \u017ee tohle nen\u00ed naposled. \u017de se to v\u0161echno vr\u00e1t\u00ed\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>\u0158ekni mi, jak dlouho tu oba budeme?<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Jak dlouho\u2026 tu budu j\u00e1?<\/em><\/div>\n<div>\u010cernovlas\u00fd chlapec otev\u0159el o\u010di. Po tv\u00e1\u0159i mu st\u00e9kala slza. Dal\u0161\u00ed den\u2026 St\u00e1le bl\u00ed\u017e tomu posledn\u00edmu. P\u0159iv\u0159el v\u00ed\u010dka a polykal perly zoufalc\u016f. Av\u0161ak i tak si n\u011bkter\u00e9 z nich na\u0161ly cesti\u010dku zpod klenby \u010dern\u00fdch \u0159as a sm\u00e1\u010dely z\u010dernal\u00fd pol\u0161t\u00e1\u0159 od make-upu a l\u00ed\u010didel.<\/div>\n<div>Pro\u010d venku sv\u00edt\u00ed slunce? Pro\u010d nen\u00ed zata\u017een\u00e1 obloha? Pro\u010d nepr\u0161\u00ed, kdy\u017e and\u00edlek pl\u00e1\u010de? Ale vid\u011bl n\u011bkdy n\u011bkdo \u010dern\u00fd d\u00e9\u0161\u0165?<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Bille\u2026&#8220; \u0161eptnul mu tich\u00fd hlas do vlas\u016f. &#8222;Nepla\u010d\u2026&#8220; <em>Bol\u00ed m\u011b srdce\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Bill se oto\u010dil k bratrovi, polo\u017eil mu hlavu na rameno. Tom ho jemn\u011b hladil po dlouh\u00fdch, temn\u00fdch vlasech a hr\u00e1l si s jednotliv\u00fdmi b\u00edl\u00fdmi pram\u00ednky. Zrychlen\u00fd tlukot br\u00e1\u0161kova srdce se pomalu ust\u00e1lil, av\u0161ak i p\u0159esto se k n\u011bmu st\u00e1le pevn\u011b tiskl. Jakoby se i p\u0159es v\u0161echna p\u0159edchoz\u00ed uji\u0161t\u011bn\u00ed b\u00e1l, \u017ee ho jeho dvoj\u010de opust\u00ed. Ale copak mohl? V\u017edy\u0165 ho miloval\u2026 Byl mu dra\u017e\u0161\u00ed, ne\u017e cokoli jin\u00e9ho na sv\u011bte. Dra\u017e\u0161\u00ed, ne\u017e vlastn\u00ed \u017eivot\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Pokojem se nesla tich\u00e1 prosba, Billov\u00fdmi \u00fasty v\u0161ak nevy\u0159\u010dena. Byla vyslovena jeho du\u0161\u00ed.<\/div>\n<div><em>Pros\u00edm, nepou\u0161t\u011bj m\u011b\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Nechci tu b\u00fdt s\u00e1m\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Dr\u017e m\u011b\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Pevn\u011b!<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Jak nejd\u00e9le dok\u00e1\u017ee\u0161\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div>A Tom to vol\u00e1n\u00ed poslechl. Ml\u010dky, beze slov.<\/div>\n<div>Dr\u017eel ho pevn\u011b, nepou\u0161t\u011bl\u2026<\/div>\n<div style=\"text-align:center\">* * *<\/div>\n<div>Bill se pomalu sesunul na volnou \u017eidli vedle sv\u00e9ho bratra. Neop\u011btoval mat\u010din pozdrav, neodpov\u00eddal na jej\u00ed starostliv\u00e9 ot\u00e1zky. Nevn\u00edmal je. Jen strnule sed\u011bl a d\u00edval se p\u0159ed sebe. Do pr\u00e1zdna. Ztracen ve sv\u00e9 vlastn\u00ed mysli\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Nenam\u00e1hal se s odli\u010dov\u00e1n\u00edm. Pro\u010d taky? Jeho tv\u00e1\u0159 z\u016fstala stejn\u00e1 jako v\u010dera ve\u010der. Z\u010dernal\u00e1 od rozmazan\u00fdch l\u00ed\u010didel, p\u0159esto b\u011blostn\u00e1 s pr\u00e1zdn\u00fdm v\u00fdrazem v hn\u011bd\u00fdch hlubin\u00e1ch. Kdyby jste do nich spadli, s jistotou jste v tu chv\u00edli v\u011bd\u011bli, \u017ee budete padat v\u011b\u010dn\u011b.<\/div>\n<div>Ledov\u00fdmi prsty se nat\u00e1hl po sn\u00eddani p\u0159ed sebou. Kousek ukousl. Nerozezn\u00e1val nasl\u00e1dlou chu\u0165 v\u00e1no\u010dky ani marmel\u00e1dy. Rozpadala se mu v \u00fastech a m\u011bnila v pouh\u00fd troud. Tepl\u00fd citr\u00f3nov\u00fd \u010daj chutnal jak nejtrp\u010d\u00ed z v\u00edn a jeden jedin\u00fd dou\u0161ek se mu p\u0159evaloval na jazyku nes\u010detn\u011b dlouhou dobu, ne\u017e se odv\u00e1\u017eil kone\u010dn\u011b spolknout.<\/div>\n<div>V\u0161echno ztr\u00e1celo sv\u016fj p\u016fvodn\u00ed v\u00fdznam. Vytratily se barvy a z\u016fstala jen pochmurn\u00e1 \u0161e\u010f. Ani b\u00edl\u00e1 ani \u010dern\u00e1 &#8211; \u0161ed\u00e1.<\/div>\n<div>Ticho, kter\u00e9 se kolem n\u011bj rozprost\u00edralo, bylo n\u00e1hle p\u0159eru\u0161eno tich\u00fdm \u0161epotem, jen\u017e postupn\u011b z\u00edsk\u00e1val na hlasitosti.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Kdy\u017e jste spali, volal zase David. Ptal se na Billa, jak mu je a jestli doraz\u00edte na to dne\u0161n\u00ed focen\u00ed a rozhovory.&#8220; Informovala pr\u00e1v\u011b pan\u00ed Kaulitzov\u00e1 sv\u00e9ho star\u0161\u00edho syna.<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Dob\u0159e, d\u00edky, mami. Mu pak zatelefonuju a domluv\u00edme se.&#8220; Pod\u011bkoval Tom a s obavami pohl\u00e9dl na sv\u00e9ho br\u00e1\u0161ku. Zvl\u00e1dl by to? U\u017e te\u010f je na pokraji zhroucen\u00ed\u2026 a novin\u00e1\u0159i? Ti na to nebudou br\u00e1t ohled. Budou cht\u00edt jen jeho tv\u00e1\u0159 na tituln\u00ed stran\u011b sv\u00fdch \u010dasopis\u016f\u2026<\/div>\n<div>&#8222;Nechci tam j\u00edt\u2026&#8220; za\u0161eptal do nastal\u00e9ho ticha snad prvn\u00ed v\u011btu toho dne, jako by Tomovi odpov\u00eddal &#8222;Nem\u016f\u017eu\u2026&#8220; Zvedl se a vyb\u011bhl do sv\u00e9ho pokoje.<\/div>\n<div>Simone se u\u017e zvedla, \u017ee za n\u00edm p\u016fjde, ale jeden odm\u00edtav\u00fd pohled star\u0161\u00edho syna j\u00ed v tom zabr\u00e1nil. S hlasit\u00fdm vzdechnut\u00edm se posadila znovu na \u017eidli a vy\u010derpan\u011b schovala tv\u00e1\u0159 do dlan\u00ed. Tohle nebyli ti mal\u00ed kluci, kte\u0159\u00ed j\u00ed tajn\u011b kradli cukrov\u00ed, kdy\u017e si naivn\u011b mysleli, \u017ee se ned\u00edv\u00e1. Tihle chlapci st\u00e1li na pokraji dosp\u011blosti. Zm\u011bnili se. Sl\u00e1va je zm\u011bnila. Oloupila je o ten posledn\u00ed st\u0159\u00edpek bezstarostnosti, o posledn\u00ed roky jejich d\u011btstv\u00ed\u2026 Stejn\u011b jako ji oloupila o mo\u017enost sledovat, jak rostou\u2026<\/div>\n<div>Pro\u010d vlastn\u011b?<\/div>\n<div style=\"text-align:center\">* * *<\/div>\n<div>Bill dopadl na rozestlanou postel. P\u0159it\u00e1hl si k sob\u011b pol\u0161t\u00e1\u0159, na n\u011bm\u017e je\u0161t\u011b p\u0159ed n\u011bkolika m\u00e1lo minutami oddychoval spokojen\u011b Tom, a plakal. Slzy mu kanuly po l\u00edc\u00edch, padaly na pol\u0161t\u00e1\u0159 jako st\u0159emhlav\u00fd vodop\u00e1d a vsakovaly se do b\u00edl\u00e9ho pl\u00e1tna. Jeho drobn\u00e9 t\u011blo se ot\u0159\u00e1salo vzlyky. Dechu se mu p\u0159es n\u011b skoro nedost\u00e1valo.<\/div>\n<div><em>Tak tahle vypad\u00e1 samotn\u00e9 dno? Je jako hrobka\u2026 Temn\u00e1 a hlubok\u00e1, bez schod\u016f, bez \u017eeb\u0159\u00edku, \u010di jedin\u00e9ho tenk\u00e9ho provazu.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>D\u00edv\u00e1\u0161 se nahoru na sv\u011btlo\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Sl\u00e1bne\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Poklop se uzav\u00edr\u00e1\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>A\u017e nakonec zmiz\u00ed i posledn\u00ed paprsek slunce a tebe pohlt\u00ed neproniknuteln\u00e1 tma.<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Otev\u0159el o\u010di. Mysl\u00ed mu prolet\u011bla jedna jedin\u00e1 my\u0161lenka a na krati\u010dk\u00fd okam\u017eik zastavila ten p\u0159\u00edval slz. Ov\u0161em opravdu jen na okam\u017eik\u2026 Potom ho spustila na novo, s je\u0161t\u011b v\u011bt\u0161\u00ed silou\u2026 Byla tak zr\u00e1dn\u00e1, tak v\u00e1biv\u00e1\u2026<\/div>\n<div><em>Sta\u010dilo by tak m\u00e1lo\u2026 Jen kr\u00e1tk\u00e1 bolest a v\u0161echno by zmizelo. V\u0161echna bolest, strach, tr\u00e1pen\u00ed\u2026 V\u0161echny v\u00fd\u010ditky. Pro\u010d odkl\u00e1dat to, co je stejn\u011b nevyhnuteln\u00e9\u2026 V\u017edy\u0165 \u010dekat na smrt, je jako \u010dekat na vlak\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>U\u017e v d\u00e1li vid\u00ed\u0161 temn\u00fd st\u00edn, kou\u0159 zvedaj\u00edc\u00ed se k obloze\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Ale on st\u00e1le nep\u0159ij\u00ed\u017ed\u00ed\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>A ty \u010dek\u00e1\u0161\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Bill odm\u00edtav\u011b zakroutil hlavou, jakoby ji cht\u011bl odehnat. Ale marn\u011b. Vytrvale, bez p\u0159est\u00e1vky mu tepala do sp\u00e1nk\u016f a\u017e myslel, \u017ee z toho ze\u0161\u00edl\u00ed. Zm\u00edtal se n\u011bkde mezi \u017eivotem a smrt\u00ed a nev\u011bd\u011bl, jak m\u00e1 onu k\u0159ehkou hranici opustit. Nedalo se naklonit ani k jedn\u00e9 stran\u011b\u2026<\/div>\n<div><em>Zradit Toma? Odej\u00edt? Nechat ho tu samotn\u00e9ho bez jedin\u00e9ho sl\u016fvka rozlou\u010den\u00ed?<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Ne\u2026 To nem\u016f\u017ee\u2026Nesm\u00ed!<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Mus\u00ed bojovat, by\u0165 p\u0159edem prohranou v\u00e1lku. Dokud mu zbudou s\u00edly\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div>Znovu p\u0159iv\u0159el o\u010di. Tolik si p\u0159\u00e1l sp\u00e1t. Alespo\u0148 na p\u00e1r minut odpoutat se od toho v\u0161eho, na chv\u00edli zapomenout a sn\u00edt. O tom, co by mohlo b\u00fdt, kdyby\u2026 Ne, o tom co m\u016f\u017ee b\u00fdt! Tady neexistuje prostor, ani \u010das, ne\u0159\u00edd\u00ed se podle lidsk\u00e9ho sv\u011bta\u2026 Pouze lidskou fantazi\u00ed\u2026<\/div>\n<div><em>Ti\u0161e k\u0159i\u010d\u00edm\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Vol\u00e1m t\u011b.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><em>Sly\u0161\u00ed\u0161 m\u011b?<\/em><\/p>\n<p>autor: <strong>Elis, Cera<\/strong><br \/>betaread: <strong>Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Der Donnerstag Cenu sl\u00e1vy j\u00e1 nau\u010dil se zn\u00e1t\u2026 Te\u010f se j\u00ed pomalu za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1m b\u00e1t\u2026 By Cera Je\u0161t\u011b chv\u00edli. Jenom chv\u00edli. Kr\u00e1tk\u00fd okam\u017eik\u2026b\u00fdt ve tv\u00e9 n\u00e1ru\u010di. V\u011b\u010dnost\u2026 Nechci se vzd\u00e1t, je\u0161t\u011b ne. Nechci se vzd\u00e1t tv\u00e9ho objet\u00ed, tebe\u2026sv\u00e9ho dvoj\u010dete. 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