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autor: Amdee<\/p>\n

<\/strong> Datum publikace na THF: 8. 1. 2010<\/p>\n

Pro\u010d sem nep\u0159ihodit n\u011bco o pozn\u00e1n\u00ed v\u00edc experiment\u00e1torsk\u00e9ho? Je to p\u0159eklad dal\u0161\u00ed, i kdy\u017e tentokr\u00e1t o pozn\u00e1n\u00ed star\u0161\u00ed pov\u00eddky od Amdee, kter\u00e1 se sv\u00fdm stylem pon\u011bkud li\u0161\u00ed od t\u011bch p\u0159edchoz\u00edch. Po p\u0159e\u010dten\u00ed t\u00e9to jednod\u00edlky v\u00e1m asi nep\u0159ijde v\u016fbec divn\u00e9, kdy\u017e v\u00e1m prozrad\u00edm, \u017ee Amdee ve sv\u00e9m psan\u00ed kdysi za\u010d\u00ednala pr\u00e1v\u011b b\u00e1sni\u010dkama. Pov\u00eddka je psan\u00e1 v dob\u011b, kdy byl Bill je\u0161t\u011b po\u0159\u00e1d k\u0159ehounk\u00e9, jem\u0148ounk\u00e9, rachitick\u00e9 vy\u017ele.<\/em><\/div>\n

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Tak\u017ee Amdee trochu jinak, neboli twincest z jej\u00edho pera na posedm\u00e9.<\/em><\/div>\n
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modrozelen\u00e1<\/em><\/div>\n
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„Tohle nen\u00ed norm\u00e1ln\u00ed“ – \u0159\u00edk\u00e1 mi m\u016fj bratr. Jeho hlas je p\u0159i\u0161krcen nap\u011bt\u00edm.<\/div>\n
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Dusiv\u00fdmi \u0159et\u011bzy, kter\u00e9 nikdo nevid\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Po\u010d\u00edt\u00e1m jeho \u017eebra.<\/div>\n
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Seznamuji se s nima jedno po druh\u00e9m.<\/div>\n
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Jeden prst, dal\u0161\u00ed prst.<\/div>\n
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To mi nesm\u00ed\u0161 d\u011blat.<\/div>\n
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„Tohle nen\u00ed, kruci, norm\u00e1ln\u00ed!“<\/div>\n
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Pl\u00e1cne m\u011b p\u0159es prsty, j\u00e1 ho popadnu je\u0161t\u011b pevn\u011bji.<\/div>\n
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Nikdy se t\u011b nevzd\u00e1m.<\/div>\n
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Nikdy.<\/div>\n
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„Pros\u00edm t\u011b, p\u0159esta\u0148…“ M\u00e1 slova jsou bezbrann\u00e1 proti doteku jeho k\u016f\u017ee.<\/div>\n
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K\u016f\u017ei, kterou vn\u00edm\u00e1m po cel\u00fd sv\u016fj \u017eivot, kterou jsem l\u00edbal, prahnul po n\u00ed, jizvil ji. V\u017edy a napo\u0159\u00e1d.<\/div>\n
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Vzlyknut\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Osam\u011bl\u00fd vzlyk. Jen jeden jedin\u00fd.<\/div>\n
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Nem\u016f\u017ee si v\u00edc dovolit.<\/div>\n
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Precizn\u00ed, \u010dern\u00e9 linky kolem o\u010d\u00ed. Dokonalost sama.<\/div>\n
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Stejn\u011b jako on s\u00e1m.<\/div>\n
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M\u00e9 pa\u017ee obejmou jeho pas.<\/div>\n
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Hlava spo\u010dine na jeho rameni.<\/div>\n
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Jsem hned za n\u00edm, o\u010di zav\u0159en\u00e9, smysly bd\u011bl\u00e9.<\/div>\n
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C\u00edt\u00edm ho od hlavy k pat\u011b jako sebe sama, k\u016f\u017ee na k\u016f\u017ei.<\/div>\n
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Dal\u0161\u00ed vzlyknut\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Zved\u00e1m hlavu.<\/div>\n
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Je t\u011b\u017ek\u00e1, tak hrozn\u011b zt\u011b\u017ekl\u00e1 \u0161\u00edlenstv\u00edm tohoto sv\u011bta.<\/div>\n
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Jako bych za to mohl.<\/div>\n
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Maminka p\u0159ik\u00e1zala se takhle sebe nedot\u00fdkat.<\/div>\n
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Brat\u0159i by tohle nem\u011bli.<\/div>\n
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Pono\u0159\u00edm se do jeho o\u010d\u00ed, kter\u00e9 vid\u00edm v zrcadle.<\/div>\n
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Koupu se v jeho sou\u017een\u00ed, v jeho slz\u00e1ch.<\/div>\n
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Ut\u00e1p\u00edm se v nich. Tonu a spo\u010d\u00edv\u00e1m kone\u010dn\u011b nav\u017edy v pokoji.<\/div>\n
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V\u0161\u00edm\u00e1m si jich.<\/div>\n
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M\u00fdch rukou.<\/div>\n
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Obto\u010den\u00fdch kolem jeho pasu, ale v zapomn\u011bn\u00ed vidiny jeho \u017eeber. Jedno, druh\u00e9, t\u0159et\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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On nen\u00e1vid\u00ed sv\u016fj vlastn\u00ed obraz.<\/div>\n
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J\u00e1 nen\u00e1vid\u00edm jeho nen\u00e1vist.<\/div>\n
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„O\u0161ukej m\u011b, Tome.“<\/div>\n
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„Ne.“<\/div>\n
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M\u00e1 ruka u\u017e ale sj\u00ed\u017ed\u00ed n\u00ed\u017e, p\u0159es hrbol jeho kostnat\u00e9ho boku.<\/div>\n
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M\u011bl bych si ji u\u0159\u00edznout. Proradn\u00fd sk\u0159ivan na\u0161\u00ed touhy.<\/div>\n
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„O\u0161ukej m\u011b.“<\/div>\n
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Te\u010f u\u017e pl\u00e1\u010de.<\/div>\n
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„A k \u010demu to bude dobr\u00e9?“ Pt\u00e1m se a m\u016fj prost\u0159edn\u00edk bloud\u00ed po k\u0159ivce jeho p\u0159irozen\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Pro mne v\u016fn\u011b nebes.<\/div>\n
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Je pro mne r\u00e1jem. V\u017edycky byl.<\/div>\n
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Proto to tak nen\u00e1vid\u00edm<\/div>\n
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„P\u0159ipad\u00e1m si potom kr\u00e1sn\u00fd.“<\/div>\n
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„To nikam, Bille, nepovede.“<\/div>\n
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I ve mn\u011b je jeho sou\u017een\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Jsme jen holou k\u016f\u017e\u00ed, prostoprostou nahotou. Dot\u00fdk\u00e1m se ho, abych ho spasil.<\/div>\n
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A v\u017edy vnive\u010d.<\/div>\n
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„Jestli to nebude\u0161 ty, bude to n\u011bkdo jin\u00fd. M\u016fj adres\u00e1\u0159 je pln\u00fd telefonn\u00edch \u010d\u00edsel\u2026“<\/div>\n
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„O to nem\u00e1m pochyb.“<\/div>\n
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Stejn\u011b nikomu nezavol\u00e1.<\/div>\n
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D\u00edv\u00e1 se na sebe. J\u00e1 se d\u00edv\u00e1m na n\u011bj.<\/div>\n
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Vid\u00ed\u0161, jak jsme si bl\u00edzc\u00ed? Vid\u00ed\u0161, jak jsme jeden?<\/div>\n
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Tvrdne mu pod m\u00fdmi chtiv\u00fdmi prsty.<\/div>\n
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Nemyslete si, \u017ee po n\u011bm neprahnu, proto\u017ee tak to v\u016fbec nen\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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„Jsem, Tome, o\u0161kliv\u00fd?“<\/div>\n
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Jeho slzy jsou mou l\u00e1zn\u00ed. No\u0159\u00edm se do jedn\u00e9, pak druh\u00e9, t\u0159et\u00ed. P\u0159estal jsem je po\u010d\u00edtat.<\/div>\n
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„Ne, nejsi.“<\/div>\n
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Promlouv\u00e1m k n\u011bmu srdcem, ne \u00fasty.<\/div>\n
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Jedovat\u00e9 jazyky o n\u011bm \u0159\u00edkaj\u00ed, \u017ee je o\u0161kliv\u00fd. Odporn\u00fd. Sm\u011b\u0161n\u00fd.<\/div>\n
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M\u016fj bratr.<\/div>\n
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Je na to n\u011bjak\u00e1 odpov\u011bd\u011bt?<\/div>\n
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Sv\u011bt se s n\u00e1mi to\u010d\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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J\u00e1 se sm\u011bji.<\/div>\n
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V\u0161ichni se sm\u011bj\u00ed se mnou.<\/div>\n
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Zapomenout je tak snadn\u00e9.<\/div>\n
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Stoj\u00ed vedle mne. Opil\u00fd.<\/div>\n
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Jako kdybych nebyl i j\u00e1.<\/div>\n
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Bl\u00e1zniv\u00fd koloto\u010d v hlav\u011b. Pod vlivem alkoholu, drog.<\/div>\n
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Pod vlivem l\u00e1sky.<\/div>\n
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Stali jsme se mistry p\u0159etv\u00e1\u0159ky.<\/div>\n
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Sm\u00edch. A po n\u00e1s potopa.<\/div>\n
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V\u00edm, \u017ee to tak n\u011bjak bude.<\/div>\n
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Napsal jsem pro n\u011bj jednou p\u00edse\u0148. To jsme byli je\u0161t\u011b mal\u00ed kluci.<\/div>\n
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Nikdy jsem mu ji ale nezahr\u00e1l.<\/div>\n
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„Je mi \u0161patn\u011b.“<\/div>\n
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Sm\u011bje se u toho a j\u00e1 nev\u00edm, co \u0159\u00edct.<\/div>\n
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Posledn\u00ed dobou mu je zle \u010dasto.<\/div>\n
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A je unaven\u00fd.<\/div>\n
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\u0158\u00edkaj\u00ed n\u00e1m ale, \u017ee se jede norm\u00e1ln\u011b d\u00e1l.<\/div>\n
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Mysl\u00ed t\u00edm na\u0161e koncerty.<\/div>\n
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Ani nev\u00edm, ve kter\u00e9m m\u011bst\u011b pr\u00e1v\u011b jsme.<\/div>\n
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Jako kdyby na tom m\u011blo z\u00e1le\u017eet.<\/div>\n
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Za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1 mi b\u00fdt zle taky. A nen\u00ed to alkoholem.<\/div>\n
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Jsou to ty lidi kolem.<\/div>\n
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Chci j\u00edt dom\u016f, on ale ne.<\/div>\n
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Karneval p\u0159etv\u00e1\u0159ky pokra\u010duje.<\/div>\n
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Neojel jsem ho u\u017e cel\u00e9 t\u00fddny.<\/div>\n
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Tak jsem to str\u010dil do jedn\u00e9 takov\u00e9.<\/div>\n
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Ani jsem se nezeptal na jej\u00ed jm\u00e9no.<\/div>\n
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Stejn\u011b je to tak lep\u0161\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Pruhy barev se plaz\u00ed po st\u011bn\u00e1ch jako up\u00ed\u0159i. Up\u00edry j\u00e1 dob\u0159e zn\u00e1m.<\/div>\n
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Zn\u00e1m taky poh\u00e1dkov\u00fd r\u00e1j.<\/div>\n
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Kdysi jsme v n\u011bm \u017eili. Ne\u017e p\u0159i\u0161li up\u00ed\u0159i.<\/div>\n
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Ztratil svou nevinnost.<\/div>\n
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Kdo v\u00ed, jestli je mo\u017en\u00e9 vr\u00e1tit se na za\u010d\u00e1tek. A\u017e bude v\u0161emu konec.<\/div>\n
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Nitern\u00e1 podstata jeho sama pod t\u0159pytkama a pomp\u00e9znost\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Cel\u00fd z\u00e1\u0159\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Chci se jeho sv\u011btla dotknout.<\/div>\n
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B\u00fdt \u0161\u0165astn\u00fd. Aspo\u0148 pro jednou.<\/div>\n
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A v\u0161e je stejn\u011b jen le\u017e a my to oba v\u00edme.<\/div>\n
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Sv\u011bt se nep\u0159est\u00e1v\u00e1 s n\u00e1ma to\u010dit. My se nep\u0159est\u00e1v\u00e1me usm\u00edvat.<\/div>\n
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\u017divot a jeho krut\u00e1 tv\u00e1\u0159.<\/div>\n
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Na sam\u00e9m konci v\u0161eho.<\/div>\n
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„Miluje\u0161 m\u011b, Tome?“<\/div>\n
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Miluji ho v\u016fbec?<\/div>\n
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Jeho dech je zrychlen\u00fd. P\u0159er\u00fdvan\u00fd. Nam\u00e1han\u00fd.<\/div>\n
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Boj\u00edm se ho dotknout.<\/div>\n
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Boj\u00edm se, \u017ee ho rozbiju na kusy. Je zranitelnost sama.<\/div>\n
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„Z\u00e1le\u017e\u00ed na tom v\u016fbec?“<\/div>\n
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„Nez\u00e1le\u017e\u00ed.“<\/div>\n
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V tom je ten probl\u00e9m.<\/div>\n
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Pro\u010d mi to nen\u00ed jedno. Pro\u010d mi nen\u00ed v\u0161echno jedno?<\/div>\n
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Moje p\u00e9ro je hluboko v n\u011bm.<\/div>\n
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Mysl\u00ed si, \u017ee se tak pro m\u011b stane kr\u00e1sn\u00fdm.<\/div>\n
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V tom je n\u00e1\u0161 dal\u0161\u00ed probl\u00e9m.<\/div>\n
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Nemluv\u00edm k n\u011bmu.<\/div>\n
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Sta\u010d\u00edme si i beze slov.<\/div>\n
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To jednou s\u00e1m \u0159ekl b\u011bhem rozhovoru. Ve Francii.<\/div>\n
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Pravd\u011bpodobn\u011b ve Francii.<\/div>\n
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Prost\u011bradlo je pros\u00e1kl\u00e9 potem.<\/div>\n
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Je tu v cel\u00e9 sv\u00e9 kr\u00e1se a jen pro m\u011b, oddan\u00fd.<\/div>\n
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M\u016fj bratr.<\/div>\n
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Jedn\u00e1 \u0161patn\u011b. Jedn\u00e1 spr\u00e1vn\u011b.<\/div>\n
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To jeho dilema stejn\u011b nevy\u0159e\u0161\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Pr\u016fse\u010d\u00edky minulosti a budoucnosti jej dr\u017e\u00ed pohromad\u011b.<\/div>\n
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Nem\u016f\u017ee si dovolit neust\u00e1t to.<\/div>\n
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Moje p\u00e9ro v jeho zadku.<\/div>\n
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Hlad\u00edm jeho tv\u00e1\u0159.<\/div>\n
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Jsi tak n\u00e1dhern\u00fd.<\/div>\n
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Ne\u0159eknu nic, proto\u017ee mi stejn\u011b nev\u011b\u0159\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Dovnit\u0159 a zase zp\u00e1tky.<\/div>\n
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Skrze n\u011bj.<\/div>\n
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Dopou\u0161t\u00edm se na n\u011bm n\u00e1sil\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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A ani toho nelituji. Neum\u00edm jak.<\/div>\n
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L\u00edtost je pro slabochy.<\/div>\n
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Chutn\u00e1 po jahod\u00e1ch a \u0161leha\u010dce.<\/div>\n
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Sebezrada.<\/div>\n
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Sladk\u00e1 sebezrada, kdy\u017e klameme sebe navz\u00e1jem.<\/div>\n
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Nejde mu o to, aby se ud\u011blal.<\/div>\n
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Jen kdy\u017e to do n\u011bj proboha str\u010d\u00edm.<\/div>\n
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St\u00e1v\u00e1 se tak s\u00e1m sob\u011b kr\u00e1sn\u00fdm.<\/div>\n
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Jeho kosti se viditeln\u011b r\u00fdsuj\u00ed pod k\u016f\u017e\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Necht\u011bn\u011b mu d\u011bl\u00e1m mod\u0159iny po t\u011ble.<\/div>\n
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\u010cern\u00e1 a modr\u00e1. Na pozad\u00ed b\u011bloby slonov\u00e9 kosti.<\/div>\n
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Je u\u017e pozd\u011b, ale n\u00e1m na tom nesejde.<\/div>\n
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Stejn\u011b \u017eijeme noc\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Nen\u00e1vid\u00edm se za to, co d\u011bl\u00e1m.<\/div>\n
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Napln\u011bni nen\u00e1vist\u00ed a\u017e po okraj.<\/div>\n
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Ud\u011blala to z n\u00e1s minulost a p\u0159\u00edtomnost.<\/div>\n
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Kdysi jsme \u017eili v poh\u00e1dkov\u00e9m r\u00e1ji, vy to nev\u00edte?<\/div>\n
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„Kurva, j\u00e1 t\u011b tak p\u0159ece nen\u00e1vid\u00edm.“<\/div>\n
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A je to. \u0158ekl jsem to.<\/div>\n
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„Tak fajn.“<\/div>\n
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Nev\u00edm, jestli si d\u011bl\u00e1 legraci.<\/div>\n
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Mn\u011b to vtipn\u00e9 nep\u0159ipad\u00e1.<\/div>\n
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Up\u00edn\u00e1 se na m\u011b.<\/div>\n
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Zem\u0159el bych, kdyby neup\u00ednal.<\/div>\n
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Zem\u0159el. Smrt\u00ed, co nezn\u00e1 smilov\u00e1n\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Lep\u0161\u00ed by bylo mo\u017en\u00e1 se zeptat, jestli po t\u011bch letech u\u017e polomrtv\u00ed nejsme.<\/div>\n
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M\u00e9 prsty obkresluj\u00ed \u010dern\u00e9 linky tetov\u00e1n\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Nep\u0159estaneme k\u0159i\u010det, budeme se vracet ke sv\u00fdm ko\u0159en\u016fm.<\/div>\n
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Ud\u011bl\u00e1m se a on ne.<\/div>\n
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Proto\u017ee mu na tom nesejde.<\/div>\n
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Le\u017e\u00ed v poloze je\u0161t\u011b nenarozen\u00e9ho plodu.<\/div>\n
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Je se tak schoul\u00edm tak\u00e9.<\/div>\n
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Na\u0161e mate\u0159sk\u00e9 l\u016fno.<\/div>\n
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Na\u0161e postel pro dne\u0161n\u00ed noc.<\/div>\n
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Bok po boku.<\/div>\n
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Vrac\u00edme se k na\u0161im ko\u0159en\u016fm.<\/div>\n
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Zb\u00fdv\u00e1 t\u0159icet vte\u0159in.<\/div>\n
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Hystericky je\u010d\u00ed na\u0161e jm\u00e9no.<\/div>\n
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Je\u0161t\u011b p\u0159ed roky bych se z toho mohl pod\u011blat.<\/div>\n
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Vypad\u00e1 tak sebev\u011bdom\u011b.<\/div>\n
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Jako B\u016fh s\u00e1m.<\/div>\n
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A p\u0159esto tak ztracen.<\/div>\n
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K\u0159i\u010d\u00ed jeho jm\u00e9no.<\/div>\n
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BillBillBillBiiiiiiiiiiiiiiill<\/div>\n
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Stoj\u00edm po jeho boku.<\/div>\n
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V\u017edy jeho ochranitel, v\u017edy jeho star\u0161\u00ed bratr.<\/div>\n
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Opatrovn\u00edk a lapa\u010d sn\u016f.<\/div>\n
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„Lituje\u0161 toho n\u011bkdy?“ Pt\u00e1 se.<\/div>\n
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„Nikdy.“<\/div>\n
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Oba v\u00edme, \u017ee je to le\u017e.<\/div>\n
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Zb\u00fdv\u00e1 0 vte\u0159in.<\/div>\n
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***<\/div>\n
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Nebere to konce.<\/div>\n
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B\u00fdt milov\u00e1n a nen\u00e1vid\u011bn.<\/div>\n
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M\u016fj bratr p\u0159ij\u00edm\u00e1 v\u0161e.<\/div>\n
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I ty nejv\u011bt\u0161\u00ed r\u00e1ny.<\/div>\n
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Nev\u011bd\u00ed, jak je ve sv\u00e9m nitru rozdr\u00e1san\u00fd.<\/div>\n
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S poklady se takhle p\u0159ece nezach\u00e1z\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Jako se \u0161p\u00ednou.<\/div>\n
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J\u00e1 zklamu.<\/div>\n
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A on se hrout\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Jednou na to ur\u010dit\u011b dojde.<\/div>\n
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Kdysi jsem tohle v\u0161echno miloval.<\/div>\n
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Jsem spout\u00e1n s jeho osudem.<\/div>\n
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S jeho hasnouc\u00ed svatoz\u00e1\u0159\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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„Cht\u011bl bych s t\u00edm, Bille, pra\u0161tit.“<\/div>\n
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Vypad\u00e1 zklaman\u011b. Kou\u0161e se do rtu.<\/div>\n
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V ruce m\u00e1 misku se zmrzlinou.<\/div>\n
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Tak to je ur\u010dit\u011b ned\u011ble.<\/div>\n
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D\u00edv\u00e1me se na rann\u00ed kreslen\u00e9 seri\u00e1ly.<\/div>\n
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„A to kv\u016fli mn\u011b?“<\/div>\n
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„Ne.“<\/div>\n
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Ano.<\/div>\n
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„Budu se v\u00edc sna\u017eit. Postar\u00e1m se, aby to \u0161lo l\u00edp.“<\/div>\n
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Znovu se ut\u00e1p\u00edm v jeho o\u010d\u00edch.<\/div>\n
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Vypad\u00e1 je\u0161t\u011b ospale.<\/div>\n
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Po\u0159\u00e1d stejn\u011b kr\u00e1sn\u00fd.<\/div>\n
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Po\u010d\u00edt\u00e1m jeho slzy.<\/div>\n
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Jedna. Druh\u00e1. Des\u00e1t\u00e1.<\/div>\n
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„Vyser se na to, Bille. To je kone\u010dn\u00e1.“<\/div>\n
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A je to v\u0161e, co m\u00e1me.<\/div>\n
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Nen\u00ed se u\u017e kam schovat. Zn\u00e1me jen \u0161krabo\u0161ky na\u0161\u00ed ma\u0161kar\u00e1dy.<\/div>\n
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Kdy\u017e jsme byli mal\u00ed, m\u011bli jsme trika s n\u00e1pisy Bill a Tom, proto\u017ee jsme byli k nerozezn\u00e1n\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Jen tak v\u011bd\u011bli, kter\u00fd byl kter\u00fd.<\/div>\n
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Zbyl u\u017e z n\u011bho ale jen st\u00edn.<\/div>\n
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Z jednou kr\u00e1sn\u00e9ho kv\u011btu.<\/div>\n
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Nikdy to nevzd\u00e1.<\/div>\n
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J\u00e1 k n\u011bmu nikdy neoto\u010d\u00edm z\u00e1da.<\/div>\n
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Nikdy toho nenech\u00e1me.<\/div>\n
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Polo\u017e\u00ed svou misku na koberec.<\/div>\n
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Rozep\u00edn\u00e1 m\u016fj poklopec.<\/div>\n
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„Billi… ne.“<\/div>\n
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Jeho rty se st\u0159etnou s m\u00fdm penisem, j\u00e1 vzlykav\u011b zast\u00e9n\u00e1m.<\/div>\n
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Brat\u0159i by tohle nikdy nem\u011bli.<\/div>\n
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Mor\u00e1lka do na\u0161eho sv\u011bta nepat\u0159\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Ale a\u0165 si, tohle je p\u0159ece jen l\u00e1ska.<\/div>\n
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Jeden druh l\u00e1sky.<\/div>\n
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Chci s kapelou skon\u010dit.<\/div>\n
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S t\u00edm jedin\u00fdm, co m\u00e1me.<\/div>\n
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„Bez tohohle nejsem nic.“ Zamuml\u00e1, kdy\u017e rty saje m\u016fj penis.<\/div>\n
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M\u00e1 na mysli na\u0161i kapelu nebo m\u00e9ho pt\u00e1ka?<\/div>\n
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A je v tom v\u016fbec rozd\u00edl?<\/div>\n
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„Ni\u010d\u00ed n\u00e1s to.“<\/div>\n
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Nar\u00e1\u017e\u00edm na na\u0161i kapelu. Nar\u00e1\u017e\u00edm na to mezi m\u00fdma nohama.<\/div>\n
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Nech\u00e1m ho, a\u0165 si poslou\u017e\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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A\u0165 spolyk\u00e1 m\u00e9 semeno.<\/div>\n
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Znovu k sob\u011b poci\u0165uji nen\u00e1vist.<\/div>\n
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On ale v\u00ed, jak na mne.<\/div>\n
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„Tomi\u2026\u2026\u2026\u2026“<\/div>\n
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***<\/div>\n
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Jsem jak na horsk\u00e9 dr\u00e1ze.<\/div>\n
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St\u0159emhlav\u00fd samosp\u00e1d z v\u00fd\u0161ky a\u017e na sam\u00e9 dno.<\/div>\n
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A on je tu se mnou.<\/div>\n
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„Tom a j\u00e1\u2026 jsme ve v\u0161em stejn\u00ed. Jako jeden \u010dlov\u011bk. Nedok\u00e1zal bych bez n\u011bj \u017e\u00edt.“<\/div>\n
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Kdy\u017e jsme byli prckov\u00e9, o tomhle jsme snili.<\/div>\n
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V\u0161ak v\u00edte, o kapele a sv\u011btov\u00e9 sl\u00e1v\u011b.<\/div>\n
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A v\u0161e se n\u00e1m to splnilo.<\/div>\n
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A je to na\u0161\u00ed trag\u00e9di\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Z\u00edskat, co chcete.<\/div>\n
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Dostat se a\u017e na nejhlub\u0161\u00ed dno va\u0161ich sn\u016f.<\/div>\n
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Nedoz\u00edrn\u00e9 dno Mari\u00e1nsk\u00e9ho p\u0159\u00edkopu.<\/div>\n
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autor: Amdee<\/strong><\/div>\n

p\u0159eklad: modrozelen\u00e1<\/strong><\/div>\n
betaread: J. :o)<\/p>\n

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autor: Amdee Datum publikace na THF: 8. 1. 2010 Pro\u010d sem nep\u0159ihodit n\u011bco o pozn\u00e1n\u00ed v\u00edc experiment\u00e1torsk\u00e9ho? Je to p\u0159eklad dal\u0161\u00ed, i kdy\u017e tentokr\u00e1t o pozn\u00e1n\u00ed star\u0161\u00ed pov\u00eddky od Amdee, kter\u00e1 se sv\u00fdm stylem pon\u011bkud li\u0161\u00ed od t\u011bch p\u0159edchoz\u00edch. Po p\u0159e\u010dten\u00ed t\u00e9to<\/p>\n

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