{"id":4280,"date":"2014-01-26T18:10:00","date_gmt":"2014-01-26T17:10:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=4267"},"modified":"2014-01-26T18:10:00","modified_gmt":"2014-01-26T17:10:00","slug":"burning-red-leaves-3-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2014\/01\/26\/burning-red-leaves-3-3\/","title":{"rendered":"Burning Red Leaves 3\/3"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Bill sed\u00ed na kraji postele a je zachumlan\u00fd do pokr\u00fdvky. Ledov\u00e9 polibky p\u0159ich\u00e1zej\u00edc\u00ed zimy se op\u011bt hl\u00e1s\u00ed o slovo. Sleduje sp\u00edc\u00edho Toma a pomalu u toho kou\u0159\u00ed. Je u\u017e po poledni, ale i tak ho je\u0161t\u011b nechce vzbudit.<\/div>\n
Tom prospal cel\u00e9 dva dny. V kuse a bez probuzen\u00ed. V\u00edc jak \u010dty\u0159icet osm hodin. I kdy\u017e ve sp\u00e1nku vypad\u00e1 klidn\u011b, n\u011bco je tu hrozn\u011b \u0161patn\u011b a Bill to c\u00edt\u00ed ve sv\u00fdch kostech. V\u00ed to. Znovu pot\u00e1hne ze sv\u00e9 cigarety. Cigarety jsou t\u00edm jedin\u00fdm, co ho v posledn\u00ed dob\u011b dr\u017e\u00ed nad vodou. T\u00edm jedin\u00fdm krom\u011b Toma, pochopiteln\u011b.<\/div>\n
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Dnes se ho Bill pomalu boj\u00ed i pol\u00edbit. Tom tak hrozn\u011b zhubl, a\u017e se zd\u00e1, \u017ee i ten nejmen\u0161\u00ed dotyk by jej mohl rozb\u00edt na kusy. Billovy obavy jsou v\u0161udyp\u0159\u00edtomn\u00e9, a tak se ni\u010deho neodv\u00e1\u017e\u00ed.<\/div>\n
A jak je Tom bled\u00fd. Tom je skoro pr\u016fsvitn\u00fd. Posledn\u00ed dobou se jen m\u00e1to\u017en\u011b plou\u017e\u00ed kolem, a nen\u00ed ho skoro sly\u0161et, s v\u00fdjimkou okam\u017eik\u016f kdy krv\u00e1c\u00ed nebo zvrac\u00ed. N\u011bkdy se na n\u011bj Bill d\u00edv\u00e1 a mus\u00ed se sna\u017eit, aby v n\u011bm je\u0161t\u011b rozpoznal toho kluka, do kter\u00e9ho se zamiloval.<\/div>\n
Bill si povzdechne a k\u0159e\u010dovit\u011b si silnou rukou sev\u0159e obli\u010dej, aby zastavil sv\u00e9 slzy. Tom jen sp\u00ed a sp\u00ed. Bill se jen strachuje a strachuje. Kone\u010dn\u011b se mu poda\u0159ilo schrastit dostatek nato, aby uskute\u010dnil sv\u016fj pl\u00e1n a vy\u0159e\u0161il t\u00edm jejich probl\u00e9m.<\/div>\n
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Po dvou dal\u0161\u00edch vykou\u0159en\u00fdch cigaret\u00e1ch za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1 Tom m\u017eourav\u011b otv\u00edrat o\u010di a Billovi pad\u00e1 k\u00e1men ze srdce a m\u016f\u017ee se op\u011bt zhluboka nadechnout. Tom sv\u00fdm zrakem okam\u017eit\u011b vyhled\u00e1v\u00e1 Billa a na rozpraskan\u00fdch rtech se mu objevuje n\u011b\u017en\u00fd \u00fasm\u011bv.<\/div>\n
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„Dobr\u00e9 r\u00e1no, kr\u00e1so moje.“ Za\u0161ept\u00e1.<\/div>\n
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Bill se m\u00e1lem usm\u011bje, m\u00e1lem se k n\u011bmu sklon\u00ed, aby ho m\u00e1lem pol\u00edbil, pak si ale vzpomene, \u017ee u\u017e je skoro odpoledne, \u017ee \u010das b\u011b\u017e\u00ed a \u017ee Tom se mu vytr\u00e1c\u00ed p\u0159\u00edmo p\u0159ed o\u010dima.<\/div>\n
Sna\u017e\u00ed se v sob\u011b zmobilizovat tolik naka\u017eliv\u00e9ho entuziazmu, kolik to jen jde.<\/div>\n
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„Dneska t\u011b beru k doktorovi.“<\/div>\n
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Kdy\u017e Tom p\u0159ich\u00e1z\u00ed dom\u016f, opatrn\u011b za sebou zav\u00edr\u00e1 venkovn\u00ed dve\u0159e. Je\u0161t\u011b ne\u017e vstoup\u00ed do kuchyn\u011b, uc\u00edt\u00ed v\u016fni a pochop\u00ed, \u017ee Bill mus\u00ed va\u0159it. V kuchyni na n\u011bj \u010dek\u00e1 zjeven\u00ed, spat\u0159\u00ed prskaj\u00edc\u00edho Billa, kter\u00fd se pot\u00fdk\u00e1 s troubou, a pohled na n\u011bj v n\u011bm probud\u00ed ne\u010dekan\u00e9 pocity n\u011bhy.<\/div>\n
Dramaticky do sebe nasaje vzduch a p\u0159iv\u00edr\u00e1 o\u010di: „Hmm, to bude ba\u0161ta.“<\/div>\n
Bill se bleskov\u011b narovn\u00e1v\u00e1 od trouby, aby rychle pronesl: „Pot\u0159ebuje\u0161 se sakra po\u0159\u00e1dn\u011b naj\u00edst,“ a u\u017e se zase sp\u011b\u0161n\u011b skl\u00e1n\u00ed k va\u0159en\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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Tom nem\u00e1 srdce odm\u00edtnout, kdy\u017e se p\u0159ed n\u00edm kone\u010dn\u011b objev\u00ed tal\u00ed\u0159 fantasticky vypadaj\u00edc\u00ed porce n\u011b\u010deho, co muselo Billovi trvat cel\u00e9 hodiny. N\u011bha se v n\u011bm oz\u00fdv\u00e1 nanovo.<\/div>\n
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„D\u00edky.“ Pron\u00e1\u0161\u00ed, kdy\u017e se jeho o\u010di st\u0159etnou s Billov\u00fdmi. „Nemohl bych si p\u0159\u00e1t lep\u0161\u00ed hospody\u0148ku.“<\/div>\n
Bill odfrkne, ale na pohor\u0161en\u00fd pohled u\u017e nem\u00e1 sil. Nespou\u0161t\u00ed z Toma o\u010di. Sleduje pozorn\u011b, jak \u017ev\u00fdk\u00e1, a \u010dek\u00e1, a\u017e spolkne i to posledn\u00ed sousto.<\/div>\n
„Tak jak\u2026?“ Zept\u00e1 se, kdy\u017e je kone\u010dn\u011b spokojen s porc\u00ed, kterou do sebe musel Tom nah\u00e1zet.<\/div>\n
„Tak jak co?“ Op\u00e1\u010d\u00ed na to Tom.<\/div>\n
„Tak co u doktora?“<\/div>\n
Tom pokr\u010d\u00ed rameny. „Dobr\u00fd.“<\/div>\n
„Dobr\u00fd?“ Bill svra\u0161t\u00ed t\u00e1zav\u011b \u010dern\u00e9 obo\u010d\u00ed.<\/div>\n
„Jsem v pohod\u011b.“<\/div>\n
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Tom sleduje Billovu reakci. Vid\u00ed, jak se jeho tv\u00e1\u0159 znovu rozz\u00e1\u0159ila a spat\u0159uje v jeho o\u010d\u00edch jiskry. Tomovo srdce pomalu stahuje ledov\u00e1 kazajka. Mou\u010dn\u00edk doj\u00edd\u00e1 se z\u00e1dum\u010div\u00fdm v\u00fdrazem.<\/div>\n
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V temnot\u011b noci se Tom p\u0159ivine na jejich posteli k Billovi. Vdechuje jeho v\u016fni, ukl\u00e1d\u00e1 si ji do pam\u011bti a zakop\u00e1v\u00e1 hluboko do srdce. N\u011b\u017en\u011b se ot\u0159e nosem o ten Bill\u016fv a bla\u017een\u011b si povzdychne, kdy\u017e mu Bill gesto op\u011btuje. Ukl\u00e1d\u00e1 si tak\u00e9 tohle.<\/div>\n
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„Opravdu je v\u0161echno v po\u0159\u00e1dku?“ Za\u0161ept\u00e1 Bill.<\/div>\n
Tom zav\u00edr\u00e1 o\u010di a kone\u010dky prst\u016f obj\u00ed\u017ed\u00ed kontury Billovy tv\u00e1\u0159e. Druhou rukou se chyt\u00e1 jeho boku. C\u00edt\u00ed, jak se cel\u00fd chv\u011bje. Nechce to \u0159\u00edct. V\u00ed, \u017ee to \u0159\u00edct mus\u00ed.<\/div>\n
„J\u00e1, Bille, um\u00edr\u00e1m.“<\/div>\n
Bill svra\u0161t\u00ed tv\u00e1\u0159 a jeho o\u010di se do\u0161iroka rozt\u00e1hnou \u0161okem a d\u011bsem. „Ne… to ne.“ Vyjekne. „V\u017edy\u0165 jsi \u0159\u00edkal, \u017ee jsi v pohod\u011b.“<\/div>\n
„Ale v\u017edy\u0165 j\u00e1 jsem.“<\/div>\n
„Ty um\u00edr\u00e1\u0161 a jsi p\u0159itom v pohod\u011b?“<\/div>\n
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Billovy prsty se zat\u00ednaj\u00ed do Tomova t\u011bla, Bill se ho chyt\u00e1 a p\u0159itahuje si ho k sob\u011b. Tom se ho chyt\u00e1 je\u0161t\u011b siln\u011bji, archivuje si a mapuje cel\u00e9 Billovo t\u011blo, nav\u011bky si do mysli schov\u00e1v\u00e1 ka\u017edou jeho m\u011bkkou k\u0159ivku a ka\u017ed\u00fd ostr\u00fd \u00fahel.<\/div>\n
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„Ty taky um\u00edr\u00e1\u0161.“ Vydechne zvolna Tom. Vzdouvaj\u00ed se v n\u011bm emoce a d\u011bl\u00e1 mu probl\u00e9my mluvit. „My v\u0161ichni um\u00edr\u00e1me, Bille. Ka\u017ed\u00e1 pro\u017eit\u00e1 vte\u0159ina n\u00e1s p\u0159ibli\u017euje neodvratn\u00e9mu konci.“<\/div>\n
Bill zat\u0159epe vzpurn\u011b hlavou. „Ne, to pros\u00edm t\u011b ne\u0159\u00edkej.“<\/div>\n
„Ale v\u017edy\u0165 je to pravda.“<\/div>\n
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Najednou se zvedaj\u00ed hr\u00e1ze a z Tomov\u00fdch o\u010d\u00ed se val\u00ed nekone\u010dn\u00e9 proudy slz. Te\u010f u\u017e je nezastav\u00ed. B\u011bduje a na\u0159\u00edk\u00e1, zavrt\u00e1v\u00e1 si obli\u010dej do Billova krku a chv\u011bj\u00edc\u00edmi rty ho po n\u011bm l\u00edb\u00e1.<\/div>\n
„Um\u00edr\u00e1m, j\u00e1, Bille, um\u00edr\u00e1m. Cel\u00fd sv\u011bt um\u00edr\u00e1 se mnou.“<\/div>\n
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Jsou ve vz\u00e1jemn\u00e9m objet\u00ed a m\u016f\u017eou se uma\u010dkat. Z Tomova hrdla se derou p\u0159er\u00fdvav\u00e9 vzlyky, kter\u00e9 se sna\u017e\u00ed ut\u00e1p\u011bt v Billov\u011b k\u016f\u017ei a douf\u00e1, \u017ee v n\u00ed nadobro zmiz\u00ed, \u017ee se tam do Billa vs\u00e1knou a pak zas bude dob\u0159e. Douf\u00e1, \u017ee to p\u0159estane bolet. Zakr\u00e1tko se k n\u011bmu p\u0159id\u00e1v\u00e1 i Bill a oce\u00e1n slan\u00e9ho smutku je prol\u00e9v\u00e1n d\u00e1l. Pl\u00e1\u010dou a pl\u00e1\u010dou spolu. Prol\u00e9vaj\u00ed slzy pro Toma, pro cel\u00fd sv\u011bt, pro smrt a pro l\u00e1sku.<\/div>\n
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V\u011bk je proklet\u00edm, kter\u00e9mu nikdo neunikne. Je tu dal\u0161\u00ed rok a maj\u00ed to v n\u011bm je\u0161t\u011b o n\u011bco t\u011b\u017e\u0161\u00ed. Tom je k\u0159eh\u010d\u00ed ne\u017e porcel\u00e1nov\u00e1 panna a tvrdohlav\u011bj\u0161\u00ed ne\u017e beran.<\/div>\n
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„Jsem v pohod\u011b,“ tvrd\u00ed a pot\u00e1civ\u011b se sna\u017e\u00ed dovl\u00e9ct do lo\u017enice. Bill mu nev\u011b\u0159\u00ed, proto\u017ee s\u00e1m u\u017e nev\u00ed, \u010demu se v\u011b\u0159it za st\u00e1vaj\u00edc\u00ed situace d\u00e1. N\u00e1sleduje Toma, a kdy\u017e m\u00edj\u00ed zrcadlo, m\u00e1lem se v n\u011bm nepozn\u00e1v\u00e1. Kdy se z n\u011bj stal ten unaven\u00fd, \u017eivotem se\u0161l\u00fd ciz\u00e1k, co te\u010f na n\u011bj civ\u00ed?<\/div>\n
Je tak neskute\u010dn\u011b unaven\u00fd. A tak beznad\u011bjn\u011b zamilovan\u00fd. Je zal\u00e1skovan\u00fd bez ohledu na to, jak hlasit\u011b a nemilosrdn\u011b jim kuchy\u0148sk\u00e9 hodiny sv\u00fdm tik\u00e1n\u00edm odpo\u010d\u00edt\u00e1vaj\u00ed zb\u00fdvaj\u00edc\u00ed \u010das. S\u010d\u00edtaj\u00ed jim spole\u010dn\u00e9 okam\u017eiky, od\u010d\u00edtaj\u00ed ka\u017edou vte\u0159inu. Tik tak, tik tak, tik tak.<\/div>\n
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Bill mu pom\u00e1h\u00e1 a nadzved\u00e1v\u00e1 pe\u0159inu, pod kterou se Tom sna\u017e\u00ed pomalu zasunout. Pokojem se rozl\u00e9h\u00e1 vrzav\u00e9 prask\u00e1n\u00ed Tomov\u00fdch kloub\u016f. Tom zamru\u010d\u00ed bolest\u00ed a zavrt\u00e1v\u00e1 se do pe\u0159in, kde je v teple a v bezpe\u010d\u00ed. Aspo\u0148 pro te\u010f.<\/div>\n
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„Dneska tam nep\u016fjdem?“ Bill se pt\u00e1 u\u017e nap\u016fl sp\u00edc\u00edho Toma.<\/div>\n
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Dneska bude op\u011bt ho\u0159et purpura spadan\u00e9ho list\u00ed. Bill dok\u00e1\u017ee uh\u00e1dnout, po \u010dem prahne Tomovo srdce, v\u00ed, \u017ee chce vid\u011bt ji. Znenad\u00e1n\u00ed poci\u0165uje zoufalstv\u00ed, kdy\u017e si uv\u011bdom\u00ed, \u017ee Tomova \u0161ance na usm\u00ed\u0159en\u00ed se s n\u00ed jim proklouz\u00e1v\u00e1 mezi prsty.<\/div>\n
Tomovy z\u00e1\u0159iv\u00e9 o\u010di se up\u00edraj\u00ed na Billa, ale pak se pevn\u011b zav\u00edraj\u00ed a Tom zat\u0159epe hlavou. Po lemu Billovy ko\u0161ile se natahuje vyz\u00e1bl\u00e1, t\u0159esouc\u00ed se ruka. Zat\u00e1hne za ni, a i kdy\u017e je to jen drobn\u00e9 gesto, na kter\u00e9 Bill nemus\u00ed reflektovat, stejn\u011b jej uposlechne.<\/div>\n
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„Poj\u010f sem,“ pros\u00ed Billa ochrapt\u011bl\u00fdm, ale n\u011b\u017en\u00fdm hlasem.<\/div>\n
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Jak jinak, ne\u017e \u017ee neodol\u00e1 a p\u0159isune se k Tomovi, a\u017e se nad jeho zesl\u00e1bl\u00fdm t\u011blem skl\u00e1n\u00ed jak smute\u010dn\u00ed vrba. Tomovy smrteln\u011b bled\u00e9 ruce obto\u010d\u00ed Billovo t\u011blo, a\u017e spo\u010dinou na jeho pozad\u00ed. Bill zalap\u00e1 po dechu. Tom sv\u00e9 ruce p\u0159esouv\u00e1 dop\u0159edu a i p\u0159es Billovo oble\u010den\u00ed do nich chyt\u00e1 jeho p\u0159irozen\u00ed. Bill sebou zavrt\u00ed a sna\u017e\u00ed se vymanit z Tomova objet\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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„To nem\u016f\u017eeme.“ K\u00e1r\u00e1 Toma jako mal\u00e9 d\u00edt\u011b. Douf\u00e1, \u017ee to bude schopen Tom pochopit. V\u017edy\u0165 by ho mohl zab\u00edt. Sta\u010d\u00ed tak m\u00e1lo. Jeden chybn\u00fd, un\u00e1hlen\u00fd pohyb a zlom\u00ed ho jako suchou v\u011btvi\u010dku. M\u016f\u017ee b\u00fdt po v\u0161em, ani\u017e by si toho s\u00e1m v\u0161iml.<\/div>\n
„Bille.“ Tom ti\u0161e \u0161ept\u00e1 a m\u011bs\u00ed\u010dn\u00ed svit oza\u0159uje slzy lesknouc\u00ed se v jeho o\u010d\u00edch. „Pros\u00edm.“<\/div>\n
Bill p\u0159iv\u00edr\u00e1 o\u010di, aby v sob\u011b sebral s\u00edlu a Toma odm\u00edtl. V\u017edy\u0165 to d\u011bl\u00e1 pro jeho bezpe\u010d\u00ed. Pro jeho p\u0159e\u017eit\u00ed. Tomovy prsty p\u0159ejedou po Billov\u011b \u010delisti. „Pros\u00edm.“ Zahuhl\u00e1 znovu.<\/div>\n
Bill se podd\u00e1v\u00e1 a okam\u017eik jeho rezignace je sladkoho\u0159k\u00fd. Zakusuje se do vlastn\u00edho rtu a pok\u00fdvne hlavou, i kdy\u017e v\u00ed, \u017ee rozum mu vel\u00ed jinak. Rozum mu vel\u00ed, ale n\u011bco jin\u00e9ho mu p\u0159ikazuje kapitulovat. Mo\u017en\u00e1 je to zoufalstv\u00ed v Tomov\u00fdch o\u010d\u00edch, mo\u017en\u00e1 je to zoufalstv\u00ed v t\u011bch jeho.<\/div>\n
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Kdy\u017e se spolu miluj\u00ed, Billa se zmoc\u0148uje zdrcuj\u00edc\u00ed pocit definitiva. Miluj\u00ed se a je to tak n\u011b\u017en\u00e9, \u017ee se tomu snad ani ned\u00e1 \u0159\u00edct sex. Kr\u00e1sa a s\u00edla jejich pouta p\u0159inese slzy. Chce b\u00fdt s Tomem spout\u00e1n na v\u011bky v\u011bk\u016f. P\u0159esn\u011b takhle. T\u011blo na t\u011ble, k\u016f\u017ee ke k\u016f\u017ei, srdce k srdci.<\/div>\n
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Kdy\u017e je po v\u0161em, Billovo siln\u00e9, vysok\u00fdmi zdmi chr\u00e1n\u011bn\u00e9 srdce, se rozpad\u00e1 na tis\u00edce drobn\u00fdch kousk\u016f. Us\u00edn\u00e1 vedle Toma pod pokr\u00fdvkou melancholie. Je propleten s Tomem, pohlcen Tomem, je Tomem. Vdechuje Toma. Zd\u00e1 se mu o Tomovi.<\/div>\n
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Bill se probouz\u00ed pocitem chladu, kter\u00fd tla\u010d\u00ed na jeho t\u011blo. Zd\u00e1 se to b\u00fdt Tom, ale z\u00e1rove\u0148 ne.<\/div>\n
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Bill se posad\u00ed a m\u017eourav\u011b se sna\u017e\u00ed zaost\u0159it zrak. Nem\u00e1 \u010das se ani nadechnout. K\u0159ik, kter\u00fd se vydere a\u017e ze samotn\u00e9ho dna jeho zlomen\u00e9 du\u0161e, probod\u00e1v\u00e1 bu\u0161\u00edc\u00ed srdce v\u0161emocn\u00e9ho vesm\u00edru a ot\u0159\u00e1s\u00e1 nebesy i peklem samotn\u00fdm.<\/div>\n
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Bill v dlani k\u0159ehce sv\u00edr\u00e1 hrom\u00e1dku seschl\u00e9ho, rud\u00e9ho list\u00ed, z\u00e1\u0159ivost\u00ed sv\u00e9 barvy mnohem jasn\u011bj\u0161\u00edho, ne\u017e jak\u00e9 kdy za pades\u00e1t let sv\u00e9ho \u017eivota spat\u0159il, a vyhazuje jej do vzduchu. Je to shled\u00e1n\u00ed na m\u00edst\u011b, kde sv\u00e9 srdce ve v\u011bku necel\u00fdch jeden\u00e1cti let kdysi upsal \u010derven\u00e9mu podzimn\u00edmu list\u00ed, ka\u0161tanov\u011b hn\u011bd\u00fdm o\u010d\u00edm a klukovi jm\u00e9nem Tom.<\/div>\n
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Zasm\u011bje se a jeho potemn\u011bl\u00fd, hlubok\u00fd sm\u00edch je poznamenan\u00fd pro\u017eit\u00fdmi roky. Je dut\u00fd a pr\u00e1zdn\u00fd, je tr\u00fdzn\u011bn vzpom\u00ednkami \u0161\u0165astn\u011bj\u0161\u00edch dob. Kdy\u017e p\u0159iv\u0159e v\u00ed\u010dka pln\u00e9 vr\u00e1sek a povol\u00ed sv\u00e9 v\u011bdom\u011b potla\u010dovan\u00e9 fantazii uzdu, st\u00e1v\u00e1 se z n\u011bj op\u011bt dobyvatel, jeho\u017e \u017eivot byl prov\u00e1zen epick\u00fdm hrdinstv\u00edm a trag\u00e9di\u00ed. A te\u010f je tady, je na konci sv\u00e9 cesty.<\/div>\n
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Sah\u00e1 po n\u00e1dobce a chov\u00e1 ji v n\u00e1ru\u010di jako d\u011b\u0165\u00e1tko. Jeho d\u011b\u0165\u00e1tko\u2026 jeho baby\u2026 jeho Tom. Promarnil tolik let \u017eivota zaho\u0159klost\u00ed a vztekem na osud, kter\u00fd mu p\u0159inesl l\u00e1sku a pak mu ji zase vzal d\u0159\u00edv, ne\u017e ji mohl po\u0159\u00e1dn\u011b u\u017e\u00edt. Byl skoro je\u0161t\u011b d\u00edt\u011b, kdy\u017e se to tenkr\u00e1t stalo, kdy\u017e mu z\u00e1ludn\u00e9 pa\u0159\u00e1ty smrti vyrvaly jeho souzen\u00e9ho. Jeho srdce st\u00e1le bol\u00ed. St\u00e1le je su\u017eov\u00e1no pocitem viny a z\u00e1rmutkem a ztr\u00e1tou.<\/div>\n
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Ale jeho l\u00e1ska, ta se smrt\u00ed zotro\u010dit nedala. L\u00e1ska v n\u011bm \u017eije d\u00e1l, je p\u0159\u00edtomna v jeho vzpom\u00ednk\u00e1ch, je ve v\u0161em, co ho obklopuje. Ve v\u0161em, co ho obklopuje, vid\u00ed Toma. Obzvl\u00e1\u0161t\u011b pak na tomto m\u00edst\u011b. Obzvl\u00e1\u0161t\u011b tady, kde ho\u0159\u00ed rud\u00e9 list\u00ed. \u010cas je jen m\u00edrou, kter\u00e1 den za dnem krade du\u0161e t\u011bl\u016fm. Sv\u011bt ale p\u0159etrv\u00e1v\u00e1 d\u00e1l a l\u00e1ska je t\u00edm, co ho p\u0159etv\u00e1\u0159\u00ed. Bill se j\u00ed nechal prom\u011bnit tak\u00e9.<\/div>\n
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Je \u010das.<\/div>\n
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Zkrabat\u011bl\u00e9 prsty opatrn\u011b od\u0161roubov\u00e1vaj\u00ed v\u00ed\u010dko n\u00e1dobky. Zap\u00e1lil se ohe\u0148 a jeho ch\u0159t\u00e1n za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1 po\u017e\u00edrat kupu list\u00ed. Bill jej fascinovan\u011b sleduje. Tomova star\u00e1 matka, tak star\u00e1, \u017ee sotva sama d\u00fdch\u00e1, sleduje ohe\u0148 s n\u00edm. Jsou tu jen sami dva. Jsou tady s Tomem a urovn\u00e1vaj\u00ed letit\u00fd spor s \u010derno\u010dernou temnotou, kterou m\u016f\u017ee zrodit jen \u017eivot s\u00e1m.<\/div>\n
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Billovy prsty p\u0159ich\u00e1zej\u00ed do styku s popelem v mal\u00e9 urn\u011b, zavrt\u00e1vaj\u00ed se do n\u011bj a nervy v jeho t\u011ble zajisk\u0159\u00ed v\u00fdboji. Znovu ho c\u00edt\u00ed. Znovu c\u00edt\u00ed Toma. Nabere hrstku z n\u00e1dobky popela do dlan\u011b a vhod\u00ed ji do ho\u0159\u00edc\u00edch plamen\u016f, nejd\u0159\u00edv jednu, potom dal\u0161\u00ed. Propou\u0161t\u00ed ostatky Toma a s n\u00edm se nadechuje i Billovo srdce.<\/div>\n
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Jazyky plamen\u016f polykaj\u00ed v\u0161e, s \u010d\u00edm p\u0159ijdou do styku. Konzumuj\u00ed list\u00ed, Tom\u016fv popel, Bill\u016fv strach. Zav\u0159e o\u010di a ten kluk tu stoj\u00ed p\u0159\u00edmo p\u0159ed n\u00edm. Kluk Tom, jeho \u017eivotn\u00ed l\u00e1ska. Ocelov\u00fd krou\u017eek v jeho rtu z\u00e1\u0159\u00ed skoro stejn\u011b jako jeho \u00fasm\u011bv. Do zlatava op\u00e1len\u00e1 k\u016f\u017ee, o\u010di v plamenech, uhlov\u011b \u010dern\u00e9 cop\u00e1nky spleten\u00fdch vlas\u016f. Je huben\u00fd jak lunt, kr\u00e1sn\u00fd a k\u0159ehk\u00fd jak porcel\u00e1nov\u00e1 panna a je t\u00edm jedin\u00fdm, co si kdy Bill v \u017eivot\u011b p\u0159\u00e1l. Zatou\u017e\u00ed po tom se ho znovu je\u0161t\u011b jednou moci dotknout. Uc\u00edtit jeho poko\u017eku a tlukot jeho srdce, nas\u00e1t dech jeho \u00fast. Pak ale otev\u0159e o\u010di a Tom je pry\u010d. Jeho Tom stoup\u00e1 k oblak\u016fm a do nebes, kter\u00e9 jsou jeho domovem.<\/div>\n
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„U\u017e jsi v pohod\u011b.“ Za\u0161ept\u00e1 Bill do tmy.<\/div>\n
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Nikdy se s t\u00edm \u00fapln\u011b nevyrovn\u00e1. A nikdy nebude \u00fapln\u011b v po\u0159\u00e1dku. Krutost \u017eivota mu vzala jeho l\u00e1sku a on nikdy neodpust\u00ed ani nezapomene.<\/div>\n
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Te\u010f \u010dek\u00e1 smrt na n\u011bj.<\/div>\n
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Je \u0159ada na n\u011bm, ale Bill\u016fv strach se kamsi vytratil. Prom\u011bnil se ve sm\u00ed\u0159liv\u00fd pocit klidu a zadostiu\u010din\u011bn\u00ed. Lou\u010d\u00ed se tu s koncem podzimu a s jeho l\u00e1skou, lou\u010d\u00ed se s Tomem. Po Billov\u011b zest\u00e1rl\u00e9 tv\u00e1\u0159i st\u00e9k\u00e1 slza. Jeho lou\u010den\u00ed s Tomem ale p\u0159ece neznamen\u00e1 sbohem. Je to jen moment\u00e1ln\u00ed nashledanou a\u017e do doby, kdy se op\u011bt spolu n\u011bkdy a n\u011bkde setkaj\u00ed.<\/div>\n
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autor: Abe<\/strong><\/div>\n
p\u0159eklad: modrozelen\u00e1<\/strong><\/div>\n
betaread: J. :o)<\/strong><\/div>\n
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pokra\u010dov\u00e1n\u00ed ———- Bill sed\u00ed na kraji postele a je zachumlan\u00fd do pokr\u00fdvky. Ledov\u00e9 polibky p\u0159ich\u00e1zej\u00edc\u00ed zimy se op\u011bt hl\u00e1s\u00ed o slovo. Sleduje sp\u00edc\u00edho Toma a pomalu u toho kou\u0159\u00ed. Je u\u017e po poledni, ale i tak ho je\u0161t\u011b nechce vzbudit. Tom prospal<\/p>\n

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