{"id":556,"date":"2018-05-19T15:00:00","date_gmt":"2018-05-19T14:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=551"},"modified":"2018-05-19T15:00:00","modified_gmt":"2018-05-19T14:00:00","slug":"stretli-sme-sa-na-vianoce-50","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2018\/05\/19\/stretli-sme-sa-na-vianoce-50\/","title":{"rendered":"Stretli sme sa na Vianoce 50."},"content":{"rendered":"
autor: Jasalia<\/strong><\/div>\n
Viem. Trvalo to dlho. Ako pravidelne. Ale pozn\u00e1te to. Pri\u0161la jar, trebalo porobi\u0165 nie\u010do vonku. K tomu probl\u00e9my v pr\u00e1ci, po ktor\u00fdch som zmenila zamestnanie, zdravotn\u00e9 probl\u00e9my a tak podobne… a \u010do to teraz vyv\u00e1dza ten Tom? Mysl\u00edm origin\u00e1l. Mala som chu\u0165 ho trochu potr\u00e1pi\u0165, tak ako on tr\u00e1pi n\u00e1s, xi… Ale pr\u00edbeh je dop\u00edsan\u00fd. Kone\u010dne. \u010cakaj\u00fa n\u00e1s posledn\u00e9 \u010dasti, tak si to poriadne u\u017eite! :-p<\/em><\/div>\n
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Hoci Tom s\u013e\u00fabil, \u017ee bude trpezliv\u00fd, ako sa dni skracovali a ochladzovali, v\u0161etka pevn\u00e1 v\u00f4\u013ea sa pomaly vytr\u00e1cala. Bolo \u0165a\u017ek\u00e9 \u010daka\u0165, ke\u010f nevedel, \u010di bude na konci nejak\u00fd pozit\u00edvny v\u00fdsledok.<\/div>\n
A ke\u010f sa jese\u0148 za\u010dala pomaly meni\u0165 na zimu, vzdal to a nap\u00edsal Billovi smsku.<\/div>\n
„Ahoj, Billi. Ako sa m\u00e1\u0161? Ch\u00fdba\u0161 mi.“<\/div>\n
Spr\u00e1vu odoslal a \u010dakal na odpove\u010f. Ak mal by\u0165 k sebe \u00faprimn\u00fd, neveril, \u017ee mu brat odpovie. Jeho to v\u0161ak neodradilo. Rozhodol sa, \u017ee mu po\u0161le \u010fal\u0161iu spr\u00e1vu. A \u010fal\u0161iu.<\/div>\n
„Dnes som v obchode na\u0161iel tvoj ob\u013e\u00faben\u00fd \u010daj. Nemali ho cel\u00fd rok, tak som ti ho k\u00fapil. Ke\u010f pr\u00edde\u0161, d\u00e1m ti ho.“<\/div>\n
„Sn\u00edvalo sa mi o tebe. Boli sme deti a ty si pri\u0161iel ku mne do postele a objal si ma. Ch\u00fdba mi to. Chcel by som \u0165a ma\u0165 tu a obj\u00edma\u0165 \u0165a…“<\/div>\n
„Bl\u00ed\u017eia sa Vianoce. Pam\u00e4t\u00e1\u0161? Bude to na\u0161e prv\u00e9 v\u00fdro\u010die. Chcel by som ho s tebou osl\u00e1vi\u0165. Chcel by som s tebou osl\u00e1vi\u0165 Vianoce.“<\/div>\n
Najsk\u00f4r boli jeho spr\u00e1vy len ob\u010dasn\u00e9. Pred poslan\u00edm ka\u017edej spr\u00e1vy sa sna\u017eil odol\u00e1va\u0165 \u010do najdlh\u0161ie, ale v\u017edy ho to napokon premohlo a on spr\u00e1vu poslal. Postupne ich za\u010dal p\u00edsa\u0165 ka\u017ed\u00fd de\u0148. A potom aj viac kr\u00e1t denne. „Dobr\u00e9 r\u00e1no, Billi.“ a „Dobr\u00fa noc, Billi.“ „Ak\u00fd si mal de\u0148, Billi? Dnes som hral na jednom koncerte. Vlastne to bol len adventn\u00fd koncert, zaskakujem gitaristu, ktor\u00e9ho skolila chr\u00edpka, ale bolo to fajn. Chcel by som si zahra\u0165 s tebou.“<\/div>\n
„Gustav mi po\u017ei\u010dal nejak\u00e9 va\u0161e nahr\u00e1vky. S\u00fa zauj\u00edmav\u00e9. Za\u010dal som robi\u0165 aran\u017em\u00e1 k jednej z nich. S druhou gitarou to znie super. Chce by si to po\u010du\u0165?“<\/div>\n
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„Nie je to od neho f\u00e9r!“ s\u0165a\u017eoval sa Bill Samimu asi v polovici decembra. Sedeli v kuchyni u Billa a pop\u00edjali hor\u00faci \u010daj, zatia\u013e \u010do vonku fu\u010dal \u013eadov\u00fd vietor. V kuchyni, ale ani v celom byte nebola ani zn\u00e1mka po prebiehaj\u00facom advente a bl\u00ed\u017eiacich sa Vianociach. Samimu z toho bolo smutno. U\u017e sa na to Billa p\u00fdtal, no odpove\u010f ho nepote\u0161ila.<\/p><\/div>\n

„Nechcem, aby boli Vianoce. Chcel by som zaspa\u0165 a zobudi\u0165 sa a\u017e na jar,“ povedal mu vtedy Bill a jemu z toho bolo do pla\u010du.<\/div>\n
„Chce \u0165a sp\u00e4\u0165. A vie\u0161, ako to je. V l\u00e1ske a vo vojne…“<\/div>\n
„Ale toto nie je spr\u00e1vne. Je to m\u00f4j brat, Sami.“<\/div>\n
„Bol tvoj\u00edm bratom pred ko\u013eko… p\u00e4tn\u00e1stimi rokmi? Je to tak d\u00e1vno, Billi. Cel\u00e9 tie roky si si myslel, \u017ee \u017eiadneho brata nem\u00e1\u0161. Ale na\u0161iel si Toma. \u00da\u017easn\u00e9ho chalana, ktor\u00fd \u0165a miloval najviac na svete. A st\u00e1le \u0165a miluje.“<\/div>\n
„Ale je to m\u00f4j brat!“<\/div>\n
„Tak pre\u010do s n\u00edm nie si? Pre\u010do s n\u00edm netr\u00e1vi\u0161 \u010das, nechod\u00ed\u0161 na p\u00e1rty, nestret\u00e1vate sa spolu na rodinn\u00fdch obedoch a nehr\u00e1te v spolo\u010dnej kapele? Preto\u017ee presne toto by si mal so svoj\u00edm bratom robi\u0165. Tr\u00e1vi\u0165 s n\u00edm \u010das. Bratovi by si mal na jeho spr\u00e1vy odpoveda\u0165.“<\/div>\n
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„Ty to nech\u00e1pe\u0161. Pre\u010do mi to rob\u00ed\u0161? Vie\u0161, \u017ee to nie je tak\u00e9 jednoduch\u00e9!“<\/div>\n
„\u00c1no, viem. Ale viem aj to, \u017ee takto to \u010falej nejde. Tr\u00e1pi\u0161 sa ty a tr\u00e1pi\u0161 aj Toma. Vie\u0161, \u010do mi povedal Tom? Vraj by sa chcel vr\u00e1ti\u0165 v \u010dase a pre\u017ei\u0165 tie t\u00fd\u017edne s tebou e\u0161te raz. Aj napriek v\u0161etk\u00fdm t\u00fdm mesiacom potom, napriek v\u0161etkej tej bolesti a bezn\u00e1deji, by si to pokojne zopakoval. Preto\u017ee to st\u00e1lo za to. St\u00e1lo to za v\u0161etku t\u00fa boles\u0165.“ Bill tuho stisol vie\u010dka, no aj tak sa mu spod nich vykot\u00fa\u013eali slzy. Tom bol proste \u00fa\u017easn\u00fd! Ale…<\/div>\n
„Nie je to tak\u00e9 jednoduch\u00e9. Dobre to vie\u0161. Aj keby som chcel, vie\u0161, \u017ee nem\u00f4\u017eem.“<\/div>\n
„Pre\u010do si to mysl\u00ed\u0161?“<\/div>\n
„Je to predsa nez\u00e1konn\u00e9! Bol by to incest!“<\/div>\n
„No… \u00e1no. Ale pravda je, \u017ee okrem n\u00e1s to nikto nevie. Pre v\u0161etk\u00fdch naokolo je Tom tvoj priate\u013e. Pochybujem, \u017ee si \u013eu\u010fom vo svojom okol\u00ed rozpr\u00e1val o tom, \u017ee si sp\u00e1val so svoj\u00edm bratom. \u010ci?“<\/div>\n
„Zbl\u00e1znil si sa? Samozrejme \u017ee nie! Nie\u010do tak\u00e9 by som predsa nemohol nikomu poveda\u0165.“<\/div>\n
„Spr\u00e1vne. Nikto to nevie. Vieme to len ja s Andym, G\u00e9\u010dka a va\u0161a rodina. A \u00faprimne, minim\u00e1lne my \u0161tyria by sme zvl\u00e1dli prija\u0165, \u017ee ste sa dali dokopy.“<\/div>\n
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„Ako si t\u00fdm m\u00f4\u017ee\u0161 by\u0165 tak\u00fd ist\u00fd?“<\/p><\/div>\n

„Preto\u017ee v\u00e1s m\u00e1me radi. A nechceme sa u\u017e viac pozera\u0165, ako sa tr\u00e1pite. Chceli by sme by\u0165 s vami. S vami oboma, nie len s jedn\u00fdm alebo druh\u00fdm. A pre n\u00e1s… ty si Bill a Tom je tvoj priate\u013e a je to tak od chv\u00edle, \u010do ste sa spoznali. A nez\u00e1le\u017e\u00ed na tom, \u010do bolo pred p\u00e4tn\u00e1stimi rokmi.“<\/div>\n
„Pre\u010do to berie\u0161 tak v pohode? Tebe sa to v\u00f4bec nezd\u00e1 odporn\u00e9?“<\/div>\n
„Odporn\u00e9? A \u010do, \u017ee sa \u013e\u00fabite? Nie, nezd\u00e1. Popravde, ja si v\u00e1s ako bratov ani neviem predstavi\u0165. \u017de by som v\u00e1s nevidel sa obj\u00edma\u0165 a bozk\u00e1va\u0165 a vrha\u0165 na seba zamilovan\u00e9 poh\u013eady… Nie, to fakt nie. To by ste u\u017e neboli vy,“ odmietol to, kr\u00fatiac hlavou, Sami.<\/div>\n
„Znie to tak jednoducho. Ale never\u00edm, \u017ee by to tak vzali aj ostatn\u00ed.“<\/div>\n
„Pod\u013ea m\u0148a hej. Ale keby aj nie, \u010do chce\u0161 robi\u0165? Cel\u00fd \u017eivot sa tr\u00e1pi\u0165 len preto, \u010do povedia \u013eudia? Tvoja rodina a priatelia by mali st\u00e1\u0165 pri tebe, ale ak nie, ich probl\u00e9m. Ni\u010d ti predsa nebr\u00e1ni od\u00eds\u0165! V\u00e1m obom! M\u00f4\u017eete od\u00eds\u0165 niekam \u010faleko a za\u010da\u0165 odznova. Pokia\u013e viem, nem\u00e1\u0161 tu ve\u013ea \u013eud\u00ed, s ktor\u00fdmi by ste si boli ve\u013emi bl\u00edzki. A v poslednej dobe sa moc nestret\u00e1va\u0161 ani s nami a s rodinou. Mysl\u00edm si, \u017ee ak by ste sa s Tomom rozhodli by\u0165 spolu a ostatn\u00ed by v\u00e1s odmietli, pokojne m\u00f4\u017eete od\u00eds\u0165 a za\u010da\u0165 niekde odznova. Niekde, kde budete len Bill a Tom, milenci.“<\/div>\n
„Mysl\u00ed\u0161 to v\u00e1\u017ene?“<\/div>\n
„Absol\u00fatne. Ale bolo by mi to \u013e\u00fato, preto\u017ee by ste mi ch\u00fdbali. Tak\u017ee d\u00fafam, \u017ee by ste sa neods\u0165ahovali pr\u00edli\u0161 \u010faleko.“<\/div>\n
„Si bl\u00e1zon, Sami, vie\u0161 to?“<\/div>\n
„Samozrejme. Ale pr\u00e1ve preto ma v\u0161etci tak miluj\u00fa!“<\/div>\n
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Ke\u010f Sami odi\u0161iel domov, Bill ostal sedie\u0165 v kuchyni a prem\u00fd\u0161\u013eal. Naozaj by to bolo tak\u00e9 \u013eahk\u00e9? Zahodi\u0165 v\u0161etko za hlavu a za\u010da\u0165 odznova? Cel\u00e9 tie mesiace sa tr\u00e1pil t\u00fdm, \u017ee mal sex s vlastn\u00fdm bratom a \u017ee po tom st\u00e1le t\u00fa\u017ei. Bolo to \u00faplne zbyto\u010dn\u00e9? V\u0161etko to tr\u00e1penie? Tak ve\u013emi s n\u00edm chcel by\u0165. By\u0165 spolu, rozpr\u00e1va\u0165 sa, smia\u0165… mohli by to robi\u0165 ako bratia, ale pravda bola, \u017ee si to nevedel predstavi\u0165 bez toho ostatn\u00e9ho. Lebo by\u0165 s Tomom sa zdalo by\u0165 tak\u00e9 prirodzen\u00e9 ako d\u00fdchanie. Len\u017ee by\u0165 s Tomom z\u00e1rove\u0148 znamenalo obj\u00edma\u0165 sa s n\u00edm, dot\u00fdka\u0165 sa ho, bozk\u00e1va\u0165… Ak by mali by\u0165 len bratia, toto by nemohli robi\u0165. To by v\u0161ak znamenalo, \u017ee by si museli st\u00e1le d\u00e1va\u0165 pozor na ka\u017ed\u00fd poh\u013ead, ka\u017ed\u00fd dotyk, ka\u017ed\u00e9 slovo. By\u0165 neust\u00e1le v strehu – dok\u00e1zali by to? Ako dlho by trvalo, k\u00fdm by sa z nich stali skuto\u010dne len bratia? Lebo on si to nevedel ani predstavi\u0165. \u017de by u\u017e Toma nemohol chyti\u0165 za ruku, obja\u0165 ho \u010di sa len tak st\u00fali\u0165 v jeho n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed. Ve\u010f si boli tak\u00ed bl\u00edzki… ale… pravdou bolo, \u017ee si boli tak\u00ed bl\u00edzki aj ako bratia. U\u017e ako mal\u00ed chlapci sa radi obj\u00edmali, sp\u00e1vali spolu v posteli a d\u00e1vali si pusinky. Chcel nasp\u00e4\u0165 svojho brata, no ak by ho mal ma\u0165 bez tohto, u\u017e by to nebolo to, \u010do kedysi stratil. Mo\u017eno keby spolu str\u00e1vili detstvo a dospievanie, t\u00e1to ich bl\u00edzkos\u0165 by sa \u010dasom vytratila aj sama a z nich by sa stali len oby\u010dajn\u00ed bratia. V skuto\u010dnosti v\u0161ak tomu neveril. Naozaj to mohlo by\u0165 tak, ako sa p\u00edsalo v t\u00fdch \u010dl\u00e1nkoch? \u017de by sa medzi nimi mohol vytvori\u0165 rovnak\u00fd mileneck\u00fd vz\u0165ah, ak\u00fd maj\u00fa teraz, aj keby sa nikdy nerozdelili?<\/p><\/div>\n

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Vzal si svoj mobil a otvoril si spr\u00e1vy od Toma. Chcel ich zmaza\u0165, ale nedok\u00e1zal to. Aj dnes r\u00e1no mu pri\u0161la spr\u00e1va. P\u00edsal mu, \u017ee videl v obchode n\u00e1dhern\u00fd n\u00e1ramok, ktor\u00fd by sa mu ur\u010dite p\u00e1\u010dil. St\u00e1le na\u0148ho mysl\u00ed, aj po tom v\u0161etkom, \u010do mu urobil. Tom chcel by\u0165 s n\u00edm a on chcel by\u0165 s Tomom. Naozaj by to mohlo by\u0165 tak\u00e9 jednoduch\u00e9? Naozaj by sa dok\u00e1zal vzda\u0165 v\u0161etk\u00e9ho, \u010do tu m\u00e1, a od\u00eds\u0165 odtia\u013eto, ak by ich rodina neprijala? Vzda\u0165 sa priate\u013eov? Skuto\u010dne by to bolo tak\u00e9 jednoduch\u00e9?<\/p>\n

autor: Jasalia<\/strong><\/div>\n

betaread: J. :o)<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

autor: Jasalia Viem. Trvalo to dlho. Ako pravidelne. Ale pozn\u00e1te to. Pri\u0161la jar, trebalo porobi\u0165 nie\u010do vonku. K tomu probl\u00e9my v pr\u00e1ci, po ktor\u00fdch som zmenila zamestnanie, zdravotn\u00e9 probl\u00e9my a tak podobne… a \u010do to teraz vyv\u00e1dza ten Tom? Mysl\u00edm origin\u00e1l. Mala<\/p>\n

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