{"id":7568,"date":"2011-10-24T17:00:00","date_gmt":"2011-10-24T16:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=7548"},"modified":"2011-10-24T17:00:00","modified_gmt":"2011-10-24T16:00:00","slug":"only-for-you-40","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2011\/10\/24\/only-for-you-40\/","title":{"rendered":"Only For You 40."},"content":{"rendered":"
autor: Cera<\/strong><\/p>\n

Klika se pohnula ve zn\u00e1m\u00e9m pohybu pora\u017een\u00fdch. Z\u00e1mek klapnul a dve\u0159e se s tichost\u00ed uzav\u0159ely. Onen klid k n\u011bmu dol\u00e9hal se stejnou t\u011b\u017ekost\u00ed jako ml\u010denlivost na konci \u017eivota ozv\u011bny. S t\u00edm prazvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u011b d\u011bsiv\u00fdm tu\u0161en\u00edm, \u017ee vysn\u011bn\u00fd z\u00e1v\u011br dialogu bolestiv\u00fdch slov je je\u0161t\u011b st\u00e1le n\u011bkde v nedohlednu.<\/p>\n

Billovo srdce rozechv\u011ble nar\u00e1\u017eelo do hrudi jako rozbou\u0159en\u00e9 mo\u0159e na z\u010dernal\u00fd \u00fates. Zoufale se pot\u0159eboval nadechnout. P\u0159\u00edsun vzduchu pro tento okam\u017eik ztracen\u00fd nenach\u00e1zel cestu k vyprahl\u00fdm rt\u016fm. Zastavil se na k\u0159i\u017eovatce. T\u011blo, ocitaje se na pokraji vlastn\u00edch sil, se ji\u017e nedok\u00e1\u017ee udr\u017eet na nohou. V\u0161e, co jej doposud uchov\u00e1valo v hrd\u00e9m postoji, bez zn\u00e1mky strachu \u010di zav\u00e1h\u00e1n\u00ed, t\u0159\u00ed\u0161t\u00ed se v \u00fakrytu za nepr\u016fhlednou zd\u00ed na mili\u00f3ny drobn\u00fdch kousk\u016f.<\/p>\n

Klesl k zemi.<\/p>\n

Smutek se skryl za jemn\u00fd z\u00e1voj z \u010dern\u00fdch pramen\u016f a vyhasl\u00e9 o\u010di za konturu \u0159as. Zmatenost v\u00edt\u011bz\u00ed nad zdrav\u00fdm rozumem a pro te\u010f d\u00e1v\u00e1 pr\u016fchod \u0161\u00edlenstv\u00ed. Podivn\u00e1 milostn\u00e1 tragedie, v n\u00ed\u017e mu byla prop\u016fj\u010dena jedna z hlavn\u00edch rol\u00ed, nenach\u00e1z\u00ed vykoupen\u00ed. Zat\u00edm se zarazila v monologu beze slov.<\/div>\n

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„Co bych si m\u011bl pamatovat, mil\u00e1\u010dku<\/strong>.<\/em><\/div>\n

Kombinaci tajn\u00fdch gest? Zr\u00e1dce z \u0159ad vlastn\u00edch p\u0159\u00e1tel? Nebo jsi prost\u011b vyu\u017eil p\u0159\u00edle\u017eitosti a nab\u00eddl se prvn\u00edmu kolemjdouc\u00edmu jako n\u011bjak\u00e1 lacin\u00e1 d\u011bvka<\/strong>?“<\/em> <\/p>\n<\/div>\n
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Pronesen\u00e9 v\u011bty se vrac\u00ed v obrazech vzpom\u00ednek. Ot\u00e1\u010d\u00ed se zp\u011bt ve sv\u00e9m nest\u00e1l\u00e9m letu mysl\u00ed a jako \u0161\u00edpy, sm\u011b\u0159uj\u00edc\u00ed ke sv\u00e9mu ur\u010den\u00e9mu c\u00edli p\u0159\u00edmo uprost\u0159ed ter\u010de, se zabod\u00e1vaj\u00ed do srdce a kochaj\u00ed se prolitou bolest\u00ed zosobn\u011bnou v temn\u011b rud\u00e9 kapalin\u011b vyt\u00e9kaj\u00edc\u00ed z ran.<\/p><\/div>\n

Jedn\u00e1 se snad o znamen\u00ed nebo nazna\u010denou odpov\u011b\u010f na nevy\u0159\u010den\u00e9 ot\u00e1zky vypl\u00fdvaj\u00edc\u00ed z nejistoty?<\/div>\n
Toho, \u017ee osud vy\u0159kl jasn\u00e9 ne<\/em> a rozhodl se tak zabr\u00e1nit op\u011btovn\u00e9mu ochutn\u00e1n\u00ed zak\u00e1zan\u00e9ho, odhalen\u00ed zapov\u011bzen\u00e9ho, a odvr\u00e1tit se od jejich vz\u00e1jemn\u00fdch cit\u016f, nech\u00e1vaj\u00edc jeden zvr\u00e1cen\u00fd vtah prov\u017edy poh\u0159b\u00edt v trosky?<\/p>\n

A pro\u010d.<\/p>\n

Proto\u017ee\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

\u010cist\u00e1 l\u00e1ska, a\u0165 nevinn\u011bj\u0161\u00ed, av\u0161ak s p\u0159\u00edchut\u00ed padl\u00fdch and\u011bl\u016f poru\u0161uj\u00edc\u00edch pravidla, si nezaslou\u017e\u00ed op\u011bt vzl\u00e9tnout k oblak\u016fm, n\u00fdbr\u017e b\u00fdt jednou prov\u017edy s\u017e\u00edr\u00e1na v ohn\u00edch pekeln\u00fdch.<\/em><\/div>\n
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M\u011bl by to vzd\u00e1t. Vyu\u017e\u00edt p\u0159\u00edle\u017eitosti zapomn\u011bn\u00ed. D\u00e1t na stovky vz\u00e1jemn\u00fdch p\u0159e\u0161lap\u016f, kter\u00e9 je s bratrem v prozat\u00edmn\u00ed p\u0159\u00edtomnosti odd\u011bluj\u00ed od sebe, a skon\u010dit. Dovolit si nov\u00fd za\u010d\u00e1tek, neohl\u00ed\u017eej\u00edc se do minulosti, n\u00fdbr\u017e jen vp\u0159ed – do budoucnosti.<\/p><\/div>\n

U\u017e nenaslouchat n\u00e1\u0159k\u016fm nitra. Nav\u011bky ohluchnout.<\/p>\n

P\u0159estat odpou\u0161t\u011bt.<\/em><\/p>\n

– Jak ho\u0159k\u00e9 dilema.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

Bled\u00e1 ple\u0165 se n\u00e1hle jakoby rozjasn\u00ed neviditelnou jiskrou, je\u017e nem\u00e1 zrozen\u00ed ani z\u00e1niku. Pousm\u011bje se. Vlastn\u00ed rozum sna\u017e\u00ed se jej zm\u00e1st, av\u0161ak cit dnes zd\u00e1 se siln\u011bj\u0161\u00ed.<\/div>\n

Ne, on se nenech\u00e1 oklamat. Nem\u016f\u017ee.<\/div>\n
Proto\u017ee miluje. Dnes u\u017e si je toho v\u011bdom s jistotou. Miluje a nev\u011b\u0159\u00ed<\/em> na\u0161ept\u00e1va\u010d\u016fm sv\u011bdom\u00ed.<\/div>\n
Pr\u00e1v\u011b pro tuhle chv\u00edli rozhodne se b\u00fdt t\u00edm odv\u00e1\u017en\u011bj\u0161\u00edm a bojovat. I kdyby se cel\u00fd sv\u011bt postavil proti nim, on se vzep\u0159e a bude pokra\u010dovat. U\u017e jenom proto, \u017ee mu bylo dop\u0159\u00e1no si vzpomenout – naleznout onu n\u00e1dhernou schopnost probouzet v jeho br\u00e1\u0161kovi n\u011bco tak kr\u00e1sn\u00e9ho.<\/div>\n
Dovoleno okusit zak\u00e1zan\u00e9 a \u017e\u00edt.<\/p>\n

Zap\u0159is\u00e1hl\u00fd ateista p\u0159eje si alespo\u0148 doufat.<\/em><\/p>\n

Sta\u010d\u00ed my\u0161lenka na dv\u011b nekone\u010dn\u011b hlubok\u00e9 t\u016fn\u011b, jejich\u017e barva m\u011bn\u00ed se v paprsc\u00edch slunce do pr\u016fzra\u010dn\u00e9ho odst\u00ednu toho nejvz\u00e1cn\u011bj\u0161\u00edho z kov\u016f, onu sm\u00ed\u0161enou nevy\u0159\u010denou bolest s bezmeznou kaj\u00edcnost\u00ed. \u010cist\u00fd cit, kter\u00fd se v n\u00e1sleduj\u00edc\u00edm zlomku \u010dasu m\u016f\u017ee zm\u011bnit ve stejn\u011b \u010dirou abstraktn\u00ed nen\u00e1vist – i p\u0159esto tak jasn\u011b \u010ditelnou v\u0161emi jeho smysly. Z jist\u00e9ho \u00fahlu patologick\u00e1 l\u00e1ska probuzen\u00e1 z \u017e\u00e1rlivosti.<\/div>\n

Tom ho miluje.<\/em><\/div>\n
Oni se miluj\u00ed.<\/div>\n
(Te\u010f u\u017e to ch\u00e1pal.)<\/em><\/div>\n
To se ned\u00e1 zni\u010dit.<\/div>\n
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Jen tak.<\/em><\/strong><\/div>\n
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Bill pat\u0159il jemu<\/strong>. On pat\u0159il Billovi.<\/em><\/div>\n
Spolu tvo\u0159ili p\u00e1r. Dvojici zapov\u011bzen\u00fdch milenc\u016f.<\/div>\n
Tajemstv\u00ed.<\/em><\/div>\n
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Jen\u017ee.<\/em><\/div>\n
Synonyma onoho slova prov\u00e1zela i sebehor\u0161\u00ed p\u0159elud \u0161\u0165astn\u00e9ho okam\u017eiku v jeho druh\u00e9m \u017eivot\u011b, kter\u00fd za\u010d\u00ednal spolu s novou kapitolou za spoustou zpola popsan\u00fdch stran knihy, do n\u00ed\u017e se jen velice pozvolna vracelo t\u011bch nespo\u010det vymazan\u00fdch odstavc\u016f.<\/div>\n
V\u0161echny snahy bortila ji\u017e na jejich z\u00e1rodku a nutila jej se plaho\u010dit na z\u00e1kladech jak\u00e9hosi \u010dehosi, co v kone\u010dn\u00e9m d\u016fsledku neznamenalo nic v\u00edc ani nic m\u00ed\u0148 ne\u017e nic.<\/div>\n
Plou\u017eila se za v\u0161emi jeho kroky jako st\u00edn a vyu\u017e\u00edvala jak\u00e9koliv z\u00e1minky k \u00fatoku na jeho zran\u011bn\u00e9 srdce pln\u00e9 v\u00fd\u010ditek a bolesti z nepochopen\u00e9 l\u00e1sky.<\/p>\n

Tom ho zradil.<\/em><\/div>\n

Pokusil se uniknout vlastn\u00edmu z\u00e1rmutku z odm\u00edtnut\u00ed.<\/em><\/strong><\/div>\n
Podvedl.<\/em><\/div>\n
Nebo\u0165 ztratil v\u00edru ve sv\u016fj boj.<\/em><\/strong><\/div>\n
Nazval ho d\u011bvkou!<\/em><\/div>\n
A p\u0159itom celou dobu vid\u011bl\u2026<\/em><\/strong><\/div>\n
Koho? Kr\u00e1su? Prop\u00e1snutou minulost?<\/em><\/div>\n
Jen Tebe, le\u010d v rud\u00fdch kontur\u00e1ch sv\u00e9 \u017e\u00e1rlivosti.<\/em><\/strong> <\/p>\n

Ona konfrontace dvou n\u00e1zor\u016f jeho vlastn\u00ed mysli vyzn\u00edvala bl\u00e1zniv\u011b. N\u011bkde na pomez\u00ed pomatenosti pat\u0159\u00edc\u00ed za pevn\u011b uzam\u010denou br\u00e1nu. Alespo\u0148 chvilkami, kdy ona tak \u010di tak pok\u0159iven\u00e1 n\u00e1lada kol\u00eds\u00e1.<\/div>\n

\u010cernovl\u00e1skovo nitro mu nebezpe\u010dn\u011b pravdivou v\u011btu na\u0161ept\u00e1valo s p\u0159\u00edli\u0161n\u00fdm nad\u0161en\u00edm a dostate\u010dnou hlasitost\u00ed.<\/p>\n

Karty se nadobro p\u0159evr\u00e1tily.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Zat\u00edmco to mlad\u0161\u00ed z dvoj\u010dat pozvolna sp\u011blo k rozhodnut\u00ed, \u010di se snad u\u017e ocitlo na jeho definitivn\u00edm konci, a z\u00e1rove\u0148 na \u00fapln\u00e9m za\u010d\u00e1tku dal\u0161\u00ed \u017eivotn\u00ed etapy, star\u0161\u00ed setrv\u00e1valo na m\u00edst\u011b. Neschopno \u010dehokoli. T\u00edha pravdy a d\u011bsiv\u00e9ho proz\u0159en\u00ed vlastn\u00edho omylu na n\u011bj dol\u00e9hala v nep\u0159edstaviteln\u00e9 intenzit\u011b. S\u00e1m dokonce chv\u00edlemi podl\u00e9hal dojmu, \u017ee ho snad zadus\u00ed.<\/p><\/div>\n

Po tolika dnech str\u00e1d\u00e1n\u00ed, kdy se smi\u0159oval s nevyhnuteln\u00fdm a \u0159\u00edkal sbohem ve\u0161ker\u00fdm sv\u00fdm nad\u011bj\u00edm, mu osud seslal vytou\u017eenou p\u0159\u00edle\u017eitost a on\u2026 ji promarnil.<\/p>\n

V o\u010d\u00edch se mu slan\u011b zalesklo. Z pootev\u0159en\u00fdch rt\u016f unikl hlasit\u00fd n\u00e1dech a onen jas se prom\u011bnil v slzu st\u00e9kaj\u00edc\u00ed po tv\u00e1\u0159i. A\u010d skryt\u00fd romantik, Tom ji\u017e nev\u011b\u0159il ve \u0161\u0165astn\u00e9 konce n\u011bkolika set str\u00e1nkov\u00fdch rom\u00e1n\u016f. Postr\u00e1dal i to sebemen\u0161\u00ed p\u0159esv\u011bd\u010den\u00ed, \u017ee hlavn\u00ed postavy, kter\u00e9 se ocitly v labyrintu citu, \u017ealu a nekone\u010dn\u00fdch klam\u016f, v posledn\u00ed kapitole zjist\u00ed, \u017ee se staly jen dal\u0161\u00ed ob\u011bt\u00ed nedorozum\u011bn\u00ed, vr\u00e1t\u00ed se k sob\u011b a budou spole\u010dn\u011b \u017e\u00edt sv\u00e9 vlastn\u00ed nav\u017edy.<\/div>\n

Nejednalo se toti\u017e o skute\u010dnost. Nejednalo se o \u017eivot, do kter\u00e9ho se byl ka\u017ed\u00fd den nucen probouzet. A neexistovala \u017e\u00e1dn\u00e1 vedlej\u0161\u00ed postava, u n\u00ed\u017e by nalezl rozh\u0159e\u0161en\u00ed a radu, jak vyklouznout z onoho zb\u011bsil\u00e9ho koloto\u010de ne\u0161\u0165astn\u00fdch p\u0159\u00edhod, je\u017e zapo\u010daly dnem Billovy nehody.<\/p>\n

To<\/em> mezi nimi bylo tajemstv\u00ed.<\/p>\n

Nebo si to alespo\u0148 myslel. Na\u010d tedy pokou\u0161et \u0161t\u011bst\u00ed a kr\u00e1\u010det vst\u0159\u00edc sv\u00e9mu no\u010dn\u00edmu d\u011bsu, zoufal\u00e9mu strachu z prozrazen\u00ed a n\u00e1sledn\u00e9mu trestu v podob\u011b odlou\u010den\u00ed od jedin\u00e9ho \u010dlov\u011bka, kter\u00e9ho kdy opravdu miloval?<\/div>\n

Ale pak si vzpomn\u011bl na toho chlapce. To ml\u010denliv\u00e9 pochopen\u00ed. Na rud\u00e9 plameny vlas\u016f a poklidnou t\u016fni sv\u011btl\u00fdch duhovek. S jeho jizvou, zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00ed k\u0159ehkost\u00ed, a p\u0159itom silnou v\u016fl\u00ed vyrvat se z okov\u016f vepsan\u00e9ho osudu a bojovat. Vytrvat, p\u0159ekonat n\u00e1strahy a nakonec se postavit na prahu sv\u00fdch sn\u016f.<\/div>\n
Do posledn\u00ed kapky vlastn\u00ed krve.<\/div>\n
(-Pro jistotu si nep\u0159ipou\u0161t\u011bj\u00edc selh\u00e1n\u00ed, kter\u00e9 jako jedin\u00e9 by ho dok\u00e1zalo zastavit.-)<\/div>\n
Tak pro\u010d ne on?<\/div>\n
Zkusit to\u2026<\/div>\n
(-P\u0159estat prodl\u00e9vat v sebel\u00edtosti.)<\/div>\n
Je\u0161t\u011b jednou\u2026<\/div>\n
(-Konat, postavit se \u010delem k vlastn\u00edm proh\u0159e\u0161k\u016fm.)<\/div>\n
Naposled.<\/em><\/strong> <\/p>\n

Zhluboka se nadechl. Rozt\u0159esen\u00fdmi prsty sesb\u00edral ty \u00fapln\u011b posledn\u00ed st\u0159\u00edpky sv\u011btla nad\u011bje, z postran\u00ed kapsy vyt\u00e1hl mobil, vy\u0165ukal p\u00e1r \u010d\u00edsel a pronesl p\u00e1r rychl\u00fdch slov. Pak zasedl za st\u016fl a nat\u00e1hl se pro \u010dist\u00fd arch pap\u00edru.<\/div>\n

Pokud by tohle nevy\u0161lo, pak u\u017e nic.<\/p>\n

autor: Cera<\/strong><\/div>\n

betaread: Janule<\/p>\n

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autor: Cera Klika se pohnula ve zn\u00e1m\u00e9m pohybu pora\u017een\u00fdch. Z\u00e1mek klapnul a dve\u0159e se s tichost\u00ed uzav\u0159ely. Onen klid k n\u011bmu dol\u00e9hal se stejnou t\u011b\u017ekost\u00ed jako ml\u010denlivost na konci \u017eivota ozv\u011bny. S t\u00edm prazvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u011b d\u011bsiv\u00fdm tu\u0161en\u00edm, \u017ee vysn\u011bn\u00fd z\u00e1v\u011br dialogu bolestiv\u00fdch slov<\/p>\n

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