{"id":7660,"date":"2011-10-10T18:00:00","date_gmt":"2011-10-10T17:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=7640"},"modified":"2011-10-10T18:00:00","modified_gmt":"2011-10-10T17:00:00","slug":"fear","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2011\/10\/10\/fear\/","title":{"rendered":"Fear"},"content":{"rendered":"
autor: Mary<\/p>\n

<\/strong> Strach je energie, kter\u00e1 po\u0161kozuje, uzav\u00edr\u00e1, skr\u00fdv\u00e1, hromad\u00ed a omezuje\u2026<\/p>\n

<\/em> Strach\u2026 Oby\u010dejn\u00e9 slovo na p\u011bt p\u00edsmen. Ka\u017ed\u00fd ho zn\u00e1. I j\u00e1\u2026<\/p>\n

A\u017e moc dob\u0159e.<\/p>\n

Boj\u00edm se. Tak moc, a\u017e m\u011b to dus\u00ed. Sv\u00edr\u00e1 m\u011b to a drt\u00ed, nem\u016f\u017eu se nadechnout, propad\u00e1m se do tmy, ztr\u00e1c\u00edm se s\u00e1m v sob\u011b.<\/p>\n

Kv\u016fli tob\u011b. Jenom kv\u016fli tob\u011b.<\/p>\n

Ty za to m\u016f\u017ee\u0161. Tvoje o\u010di. Tvoje rty. Tvoje \u00fasm\u011bvy. Tvoje vt\u00edpky. Tvoje jemn\u00e9 ruce se \u0161t\u00edhl\u00fdmi prsty. Ty. Ty a v\u0161echny ty doteky, kter\u00e9 mi v\u011bnuje\u0161. Jako bratrovi.<\/p>\n

Kdy u\u017e sakra pochop\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee je to m\u00e1lo?<\/p>\n

Douf\u00e1\u0161 v nemo\u017en\u00e9, on nikdy nep\u0159ijde, nezept\u00e1 se, nepochop\u00ed\u2026<\/p>\n

<\/em> U\u017e mi nesta\u010d\u00ed b\u00fdt jenom bratr, a to m\u011b neskute\u010dn\u011b d\u011bs\u00ed. Nikdy jsem nic takov\u00e9ho nec\u00edtil\u2026<\/div>\n

Je to siln\u00e9. Tak siln\u00e9, \u017ee m\u011b nenapad\u00e1 nic, k \u010demu by se to dalo p\u0159irovnat. Snad ani neexistuje n\u011bco takov\u00e9ho, nev\u00edm.<\/div>\n
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Je to moje prvn\u00ed l\u00e1ska. A z\u00e1rove\u0148 posledn\u00ed.<\/p>\n

Co by se stalo, kdybych ti to \u0159ekl? Sm\u00e1l by ses? K\u0159i\u010del? Nen\u00e1vid\u011bl bys m\u011b?<\/p>\n

To necht\u011bj v\u011bd\u011bt\u2026<\/p>\n

<\/em> Nic nem\u016f\u017ee b\u00fdt hor\u0161\u00ed ne\u017e to, co za\u017e\u00edv\u00e1m te\u010f. Ten v\u011b\u010dn\u00fd strach. Strach z odhalen\u00ed. Strach z tvoj\u00ed reakce. Strach ze samoty. Nechci z\u016fstat s\u00e1m!<\/p>\n

Ale nejv\u011bt\u0161\u00ed strach m\u00e1m z toho, \u017ee bys nec\u00edtil to sam\u00e9.<\/p>\n

Zab\u00edj\u00ed m\u011b to. A j\u00e1 je\u0161t\u011b nechci um\u0159\u00edt.<\/p>\n

,P\u0159ekonej sv\u016fj strach.‘ \u0158\u00edk\u00e1 se to, ne? Budu siln\u00fd. P\u0159ekon\u00e1m s\u00e1m sebe. P\u0159ekon\u00e1m sv\u016fj strach.<\/div>\n

Mus\u00edm.<\/p>\n

„Tome?“<\/p>\n

Mus\u00edm to alespo\u0148 zkusit. A\u0165 u\u017e to dopadne jakkoli.<\/p>\n

„Ano?“<\/p>\n

Strach mi st\u00e1hnul hrdlo, nem\u016f\u017eu ze sebe dostat ani slovo.<\/div>\n

Pro\u010d to mus\u00ed\u0161 b\u00fdt zrovna ty?<\/p>\n

„D\u011bje se n\u011bco?“<\/p>\n

D\u011bje. Ale boj\u00edm se ti to \u0159\u00edct. Nechci t\u011b ztratit.<\/div>\n

Nikdy.<\/p>\n

„J\u00e1\u2026“<\/p>\n

Po\u0159\u00e1d jsem se sna\u017eil p\u0159iv\u00edrat o\u010di p\u0159ed pravdou. Ty m\u011b prost\u011b nem\u016f\u017ee\u0161<\/em> milovat.<\/div>\n

J\u00e1 ti to \u0159\u00edkal\u2026<\/em><\/div>\n
Slzy kanou po tv\u00e1\u0159\u00edch a stud\u00ed. Jako by byly z ledu\u2026<\/div>\n
P\u0159est\u00e1v\u00e1m p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161let. Nejde to.<\/p>\n

„Odve\u010f m\u016fj strach pry\u010d\u2026“<\/p>\n

Zbav m\u011b ho. Osvobo\u010f moje srdce. Zachra\u0148 m\u011b.<\/p>\n

Mus\u00ed\u0161 m\u011b vyrvat z jeho sp\u00e1r\u016f.<\/p>\n

Pros\u00edm\u2026<\/p>\n

Jen ty m\u016f\u017ee\u0161.<\/p>\n

„Jak?“<\/p>\n

Ud\u011bl\u00e1\u0161 to, kdy\u017e ti \u0159eknu? Boj\u00edm se, \u017ee ne. Mo\u017en\u00e1, kdybych poprosil\u2026<\/div>\n

Ne. Nebudu prosit. Mus\u00edm \u017e\u00e1dat. Mus\u00edm cht\u00edt. A j\u00e1 chci.<\/div>\n
P\u0159ekonej sv\u016fj strach, Bille\u2026<\/p>\n

„Miluj m\u011b.“<\/p>\n

Je to venku. Dok\u00e1zal jsem to. Vyhr\u00e1l jsem nad strachem.<\/p>\n

Je jedno, jak to dopadne. \u0158ekni n\u011bco. Cokoliv. P\u0159ijmu to a pochop\u00edm. Te\u010f u\u017e se neboj\u00edm ni\u010deho. Ani tebe.<\/p>\n

Jsem svobodn\u00fd.<\/p>\n

„J\u00e1 t\u011b miluju.“<\/p>\n

Nesm\u011bl\u00fd dotyk. Lehk\u00e9 objet\u00ed. Tvoje hork\u00e9 rty na m\u00fdch.<\/p>\n

Napl\u0148uje m\u011b n\u00e1dhern\u00fd pocit. Po cel\u00e9m t\u011ble c\u00edt\u00edm p\u0159\u00edjemn\u00e9 mraven\u010den\u00ed. Jsem \u0161\u0165astn\u00fd.<\/p>\n

Kone\u010dn\u011b!<\/p>\n

M\u00e1m v\u0161echno, po \u010dem jsem tou\u017eil. V\u0161echno, \u010deho jsem se b\u00e1l.<\/p>\n

Ale j\u00e1 sv\u016fj strach p\u0159ekonal.<\/p>\n

A z\u00edskal jsem Toma.<\/p>\n

autor: Mary<\/strong><\/div>\n

betaread: Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

autor: Mary Strach je energie, kter\u00e1 po\u0161kozuje, uzav\u00edr\u00e1, skr\u00fdv\u00e1, hromad\u00ed a omezuje\u2026 Strach\u2026 Oby\u010dejn\u00e9 slovo na p\u011bt p\u00edsmen. Ka\u017ed\u00fd ho zn\u00e1. I j\u00e1\u2026 A\u017e moc dob\u0159e. Boj\u00edm se. Tak moc, a\u017e m\u011b to dus\u00ed. Sv\u00edr\u00e1 m\u011b to a drt\u00ed, nem\u016f\u017eu se nadechnout,<\/p>\n

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