{"id":7697,"date":"2011-10-05T17:00:00","date_gmt":"2011-10-05T16:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=7677"},"modified":"2011-10-05T17:00:00","modified_gmt":"2011-10-05T16:00:00","slug":"voices-in-your-head","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2011\/10\/05\/voices-in-your-head\/","title":{"rendered":"Voices in your head"},"content":{"rendered":"
autor: Mary<\/p>\n

<\/strong> Sna\u017eil se jim odol\u00e1vat dlouho. T\u011bm o\u010d\u00edm, kter\u00e9 ho bodaly do k\u016f\u017ee. \u0160epotu, jen\u017e mu trhal u\u0161i. Slov\u016fm, kter\u00e1 bolela. A tichu, v n\u011bm\u017e je sly\u0161el je\u0161t\u011b z\u0159eteln\u011bji.<\/div>\n

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Nejd\u0159\u00edve se je pokou\u0161el ignorovat. Potom se schov\u00e1val ve tm\u011b, k\u0159e\u010dovit\u011b sv\u00edraj\u00edc p\u011bsti a ti\u0161e mumlaj\u00edc zoufal\u00e9 prosby, zat\u00edmco jeho tv\u00e1\u0159e byly znovu a znovu rozd\u00edr\u00e1ny hork\u00fdmi slzami.<\/div>\n
Jenom\u017ee to bylo zbyte\u010dn\u00e9. Nic nepom\u00e1halo. Nemohl se nikde ukr\u00fdt, nemohl ut\u00e9ct, dostihli ho v\u0161ude.<\/div>\n
Na\u0161li ho a\u2026 d\u00edvali se. Sledovali ho. Bylo jich tolik, byli v\u0161ude a jejich pohled zna\u010dil jedin\u00e9.<\/p>\n

„V\u011bd\u00ed to, Bille, oni to v\u011bd\u00ed!“<\/p>\n

Pevn\u00e9 objet\u00ed a n\u011b\u017en\u00e9 hlazen\u00ed. Naivn\u00ed p\u0159\u00e1n\u00ed, aby to bylo zase jako d\u0159\u00edv. Plakali oba. Jeden strachem z nich<\/em>, druh\u00fd z obav o jejich l\u00e1sku. Z obav o bratra<\/em>.<\/div>\n

Vzdalovali se navz\u00e1jem. Jejich vztah se \u0159\u00edtil do z\u00e1huby, ale jen jeden z nich se tomu sna\u017eil zabr\u00e1nit.<\/p>\n

Tich\u00fd v\u00fdk\u0159ik v no\u010dn\u00ed tm\u011b. Prudce se posadil na posteli a vjel si prsty do sv\u011btl\u00fdch vlas\u016f. Zase tam byli. V\u0161ude. V\u017edycky.<\/div>\n

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„\u0160\u0161\u0161, nic se ned\u011bje, byl to jen sen\u2026“<\/p>\n

Vedle n\u011bj se ozval uklid\u0148uj\u00edc\u00ed hlas. Lhal. O kolik to v\u0161ak bylo jednodu\u0161\u0161\u00ed, ne\u017e p\u0159iznat si, jak krut\u00e1 je skute\u010dnost\u2026<\/div>\n

Skute\u010dnost, ve kter\u00e9 ho utvrdilo n\u011bm\u00e9 zavrt\u011bn\u00ed hlavou a bratr\u016fv vyd\u011b\u0161en\u00fd n\u00e1\u0159ek.<\/p>\n

„Ne, Bille, j\u00e1 je sly\u0161\u00edm po\u0159\u00e1d\u2026“<\/p>\n

Konej\u0161il ho a ukol\u00e9bal k sp\u00e1nku, p\u0159i\u010dem\u017e mu po tv\u00e1\u0159\u00edch st\u00e9kaly slzy bezmoci, aby se vz\u00e1p\u011bt\u00ed mohly rozt\u0159\u00ed\u0161tit o Tomovu tv\u00e1\u0159, i ve sp\u00e1nku zk\u0159ivenou ve v\u00fdrazu \u0161tvan\u00e9 zv\u011b\u0159e. Pron\u00e1sledovan\u00fd<\/em>\u2026 svou vlastn\u00ed mysl\u00ed, kter\u00e1 ho zradila a d\u00e1vala mu vid\u011bt v\u011bci, co nebyly.<\/p>\n

Pro Billa to bylo t\u011b\u017ek\u00e9. On toti\u017e vid\u011bl i sly\u0161el. Vid\u011bl, jak se mu Tom m\u011bn\u00ed p\u0159ed o\u010dima. Sly\u0161el ho vzlykat do pol\u0161t\u00e1\u0159e, nejm\u00e9n\u011b stokr\u00e1t. A trhalo mu to srdce. Snad ho p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 miloval. Nebo byl jenom slab\u00fd? Jak jinak si vysv\u011btlit, \u017ee neschopen pod\u00edvat se pravd\u011b do o\u010d\u00ed, opakoval st\u00e1le dokola tut\u00e9\u017e v\u011btu.<\/p>\n

„Zase to bude dobr\u00e9, slibuju\u2026“<\/p>\n

Le\u017eeli t\u011bsn\u011b vedle sebe, dv\u011b bled\u00e1, chv\u011bj\u00edc\u00ed se t\u011bla. Dv\u011b zmu\u010den\u00e9 du\u0161e ml\u010dky \u017eebraj\u00edc\u00ed o to, aby u\u017e to skon\u010dilo, aby u\u017e m\u011bli klid\u2026 Alespo\u0148 na chv\u00edli.<\/p>\n

Ni\u010dilo je to, oba. Ani jeden se tomu v\u0161ak nedok\u00e1zal postavit, bojovat s t\u00edm\u2026 proto\u017ee by museli p\u0159estat p\u0159edst\u00edrat, \u017ee se nic ned\u011bje. A na to nebyli p\u0159ipraven\u00ed.<\/p>\n

„Chyb\u00ed\u0161 mi, br\u00e1\u0161ko\u2026 Chyb\u00ed mi ten star\u00fd Tom\u2026“<\/p>\n

Bill sv\u00edral bratra v n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed a prokl\u00ednal se. Kdyby jen m\u011bl u\u017e tenkr\u00e1t v\u00edc odvahy\u2026<\/p>\n

Sem je zavedlo nekone\u010dn\u00e9 skr\u00fdv\u00e1n\u00ed. Zklamali se sami v sob\u011b, zat\u00edmco Tom se propadal st\u00e1le hloub\u011bji. Do \u010dernoty, mezi sv\u00e9 p\u0159edstavy a p\u0159eludy.<\/div>\n

Tak hluboko, \u017ee u\u017e nebylo n\u00e1vratu. Cesta zp\u011bt se ztratila ve spleti temn\u00fdch k\u0159ivolak\u00fdch z\u00e1kout\u00ed jeho du\u0161e.<\/p>\n

A Tom p\u0159estal ut\u00edkat. Dostihli ho. U\u017e se o nic nesna\u017eil, nechal je, aby ho naplnili, vzdal sv\u016fj d\u00e1vno prohran\u00fd boj. P\u0159edt\u00edm jim k \u0159e\u0161en\u00ed chyb\u011bla odvaha. Te\u010f s\u00edla.<\/p>\n

Byl to snad trest za jejich l\u00e1sku? \u0160\u00edlenstv\u00ed? Mo\u017en\u00e1. Vysok\u00e1 da\u0148 za p\u00e1r okam\u017eik\u016f \u0161t\u011bst\u00ed, za p\u00e1r chvil v n\u00e1ru\u010di milovan\u00e9ho.<\/p>\n

Takhle peklo trest\u00e1 h\u0159\u00edchy\u2026<\/p>\n

autor: Mary<\/strong><\/div>\n

betaread: Janule<\/strong><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

autor: Mary Sna\u017eil se jim odol\u00e1vat dlouho. T\u011bm o\u010d\u00edm, kter\u00e9 ho bodaly do k\u016f\u017ee. \u0160epotu, jen\u017e mu trhal u\u0161i. Slov\u016fm, kter\u00e1 bolela. A tichu, v n\u011bm\u017e je sly\u0161el je\u0161t\u011b z\u0159eteln\u011bji. Nejd\u0159\u00edve se je pokou\u0161el ignorovat. Potom se schov\u00e1val ve tm\u011b, k\u0159e\u010dovit\u011b sv\u00edraj\u00edc<\/p>\n

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