{"id":7815,"date":"2011-09-17T18:00:00","date_gmt":"2011-09-17T17:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/?p=7794"},"modified":"2011-09-17T18:00:00","modified_gmt":"2011-09-17T17:00:00","slug":"forever-and-ever","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/twincestblog.cz\/domains\/twincestblog.cz\/2011\/09\/17\/forever-and-ever\/","title":{"rendered":"Forever and ever"},"content":{"rendered":"
autor: Mary<\/p>\n

<\/strong> Ka\u017ed\u00fd den je to stejn\u00e9. Vstaneme pozd\u011b dopoledne a vyraz\u00edme n\u011bkam na ob\u011bd. Zbytek dne tr\u00e1v\u00edme spolu, mazl\u00edme se a l\u00edb\u00e1me, dokud se kolem t\u0159et\u00ed nevytrat\u00ed\u0161 z domu se slovy, \u017ee si mus\u00ed\u0161 n\u011bco nutn\u011b za\u0159\u00eddit. Vr\u00e1t\u00ed\u0161 se za dv\u011b hodiny a pt\u00e1\u0161 se m\u011b, jak jsem se m\u011bl. Ve\u010der jdeme za klukama, do kina, nebo se na n\u011bco d\u00edv\u00e1me doma, sami dva. A pak si lehneme vedle sebe do na\u0161\u00ed spole\u010dn\u00e9 postele, pov\u00edd\u00e1me si a j\u00e1 t\u011b dr\u017e\u00edm v n\u00e1ru\u010di tak dlouho, a\u017e mi usne\u0161 s hlavou na rameni. Ani potom t\u011b neopou\u0161t\u00edm, hlad\u00edm t\u011b po tv\u00e1\u0159\u00edch a p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161l\u00edm, pro\u010d mi l\u017ee\u0161.<\/p>\n

Pamatuju si, jak jsme byli mal\u00ed. Mohlo n\u00e1m b\u00fdt tak \u0161est, ani jeden jsme je\u0161t\u011b nev\u011bd\u011bli, co k tomu druh\u00e9mu c\u00edt\u00edme. Ale u\u017e tehdy jsme si byli jist\u00ed, \u017ee spolu z\u016fstaneme nav\u017edycky. Vzpom\u00edn\u00e1m si p\u0159esn\u011b na tv\u00e1 slova, p\u0159esto\u017ee jsi je u\u017e tolikr\u00e1t poru\u0161il – nebo mo\u017en\u00e1 pr\u00e1v\u011b proto, nev\u00edm – dodnes si dok\u00e1\u017eu doslova vybavit tv\u016fj hlas, v\u010detn\u011b t\u00f3nu, kdy\u017e jsi vyslovil sv\u016fj slib. „Nikdy ti nebudu lh\u00e1t, Tome\u2026“<\/p>\n

Tak co se sakra zm\u011bnilo, Bille, co se stalo, pro\u010d u\u017e ke mn\u011b nejsi tak up\u0159\u00edmn\u00fd jako tenkr\u00e1t? Pro\u010d si pro m\u011b vym\u00fd\u0161l\u00ed\u0161 v\u0161echny ty hezk\u00e9 poh\u00e1dky, m\u00edsto toho, abys mi \u0159ekl pravdu? Proto\u017ee realita je krut\u00e1. Mnohem krut\u011bj\u0161\u00ed ne\u017e na\u0161e sny. A ty m\u011b j\u00ed chce\u0161 uchr\u00e1nit.<\/div>\n

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Ale\u2026 J\u00e1 to v\u00edm. V\u0161echno. Mysl\u00ed\u0161 snad, \u017ee jsem si nev\u0161iml, \u017ee tv\u00e9 o\u010di ztratily ten kr\u00e1sn\u00fd t\u0159pyt? \u017de tv\u00e9 \u00fasm\u011bvy jsou jenom hran\u00e9? Mysl\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee nevid\u00edm to, jak se mi ztr\u00e1c\u00ed\u0161 p\u0159ed o\u010dima? Nebo to, \u017ee kdykoli t\u011b pohlad\u00edm, z\u016fstane mi v dlani hrst tv\u00fdch \u010dern\u00fdch vlas\u016f? Mysl\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee nesly\u0161\u00edm, jak v noci pl\u00e1\u010de\u0161 do pol\u0161t\u00e1\u0159e? Jsem tv\u00e9 dvoj\u010de, l\u00e1sko. Copak bys to p\u0159ede mnou mohl skr\u00fdt? To p\u0159ece nejde\u2026<\/p>\n

V\u00edm i to, kam ka\u017ed\u00e9 odpoledne chod\u00ed\u0161. Do nemocnice. A v\u00edm, co to znamen\u00e1, p\u0159esto\u017ee ty mi to odm\u00edt\u00e1\u0161 \u0159\u00edct, i kdy\u017e si mus\u00ed\u0161 b\u00fdt v\u011bdom toho, \u017ee t\u00edm d\u011bl\u00e1\u0161 v\u0161echno jenom hor\u0161\u00ed. Ubli\u017euje ti to. Ptal jsem se toho doktora, ke kter\u00e9mu chod\u00ed\u0161. A on mi \u0159ekl p\u0159esn\u011b to, co jsem necht\u011bl sly\u0161et.<\/div>\n

Jsi nemocn\u00fd, Bille, u\u017e podruh\u00e9. Jen\u017ee tentokr\u00e1t je to naposledy.<\/p>\n

Obj\u00edm\u00e1m t\u011b, tisknu si tv\u00e9 k\u0159ehk\u00e9 t\u011blo k hrudi a jen t\u011b pozoruju. Vypad\u00e1\u0161 jako and\u00edlek, kdy\u017e sp\u00ed\u0161, jsi tak sladk\u00fd\u2026 Jemn\u011b se usm\u00edv\u00e1\u0161. Zd\u00e1 se ti n\u011bco hezk\u00e9ho, zlat\u00ed\u010dko? Douf\u00e1m, \u017ee ano\u2026<\/div>\n

Polyk\u00e1m slzy. Pro\u010d zrovna ty? U\u017e jednou jsi tu zkrvenou rakovinu p\u0159ekonal! Nebo i v tom jsi mi lhal?!<\/div>\n
Ne, j\u00e1 v\u00edm, \u017ee ne. Vyhr\u00e1l jsi nad n\u00ed, byl jsi v po\u0159\u00e1dku. I dokto\u0159i to \u0159\u00edkali. Jenom\u017ee ona z tv\u00e9ho t\u011bla nezmizela, jenom na chv\u00edli zastr\u010dila dr\u00e1pky, aby po t\u011bch n\u00e1dhern\u00fdch m\u011bs\u00edc\u00edch, kdy jsme si mysleli, \u017ee u\u017e je v\u0161echno zl\u00e9 za n\u00e1mi, ude\u0159ila znovu. Siln\u011bji. A zastihla t\u011b nep\u0159ipraven\u00e9ho, neschopn\u00e9ho se j\u00ed ubr\u00e1nit.<\/p>\n

Um\u00edr\u00e1\u0161. Ta nemoc t\u011b pomalu ni\u010d\u00ed, roze\u017e\u00edr\u00e1 t\u011b zevnit\u0159. Zab\u00edj\u00ed t\u011b. A nikdo ti u\u017e nem\u016f\u017ee pomoct, je pozd\u011b\u2026<\/div>\n

Nev\u00edm, kolik \u010dasu ti je\u0161t\u011b zb\u00fdv\u00e1. Neptal jsem se. Proto\u017ee dokud to nev\u00edm, m\u016f\u017eu po\u0159\u00e1d doufat, \u017ee jednoho dne r\u00e1no vstanu a ty bude\u0161 zdrav\u00fd. Jak bl\u00e1hov\u00e1 nad\u011bje\u2026 Ale j\u00e1 t\u011b miluju, tak\u017ee budu v\u017edycky doufat. Nic jin\u00e9ho u\u017e mi toti\u017e nezb\u00fdv\u00e1.<\/p>\n

Otev\u00edr\u00e1\u0161 o\u010di. Nep\u0159ekvapuje m\u011b to, posledn\u00ed dobou se bud\u00ed\u0161 \u010dasto. Ale tentokr\u00e1t\u2026 je to jin\u00e9.<\/div>\n

„Tomi\u2026“ zast\u00e9n\u00e1\u0161 a nehty mi zaryje\u0161 do pa\u017ee. V o\u010d\u00edch se ti zalesknou slzy a vyd\u011b\u0161en\u011b se mi rozt\u0159ese\u0161 v n\u00e1ru\u010di. I ty jsi poznal, \u017ee se n\u011bco d\u011bje. V obli\u010deji m\u00e1\u0161 vepsan\u00fd d\u011bs.<\/p>\n

„Promi\u0148 mi to,“ za\u0161ept\u00e1\u0161, omlouv\u00e1\u0161 se za sv\u00e9 l\u017ei. Sleduju, jak nam\u00e1hav\u011b lap\u00e1\u0161 po dechu, kdy\u017e se za\u010dne\u0161 sv\u00edjet v neovladateln\u00e9m z\u00e1chvatu p\u0159\u00ed\u0161ern\u00fdch k\u0159e\u010d\u00ed. Po tv\u00e1\u0159\u00edch ti st\u00e9kaj\u00ed slzy, l\u00e1skypln\u011b je st\u00edr\u00e1m, ti\u0161\u00edm t\u011b polibky na \u010delo a \u0161ept\u00e1m, \u017ee se nem\u00e1\u0161 za co omlouvat. Tisknu t\u011b k sob\u011b a odm\u00edt\u00e1m pustit, slibuju, \u017ee to bude zase dobr\u00e9\u2026<\/p>\n

Jen\u017ee nebude, to v\u00edme oba.<\/p>\n

Pl\u00e1\u010du a ty slan\u00e9 kapky m\u00e9ho smutku ti kanou do vlas\u016f, kter\u00e9 d\u00e1vno pozbyly lesku, a vp\u00edj\u00ed se do nich stejn\u011b jako j\u00e1 do tv\u00fdch rt\u016f. L\u00edb\u00e1m t\u011b nenasytn\u011b, s hlubokou l\u00e1skou, a ty mi to stejn\u011b v\u00e1\u0161niv\u011b opl\u00e1c\u00ed\u0161. Pot\u0159ebuju c\u00edtit tvoji bl\u00edzkost, v\u011bd\u011bt, \u017ee jsi tady je\u0161t\u011b po\u0159\u00e1d se mnou, je to tak pln\u00e9 doutnaj\u00edc\u00ed touhy a dlouho skr\u00fdvan\u00e9 bolesti\u2026 Boj\u00edm se. Tak \u0161\u00edlen\u011b moc se boj\u00edm, \u017ee by to mohlo b\u00fdt naposled!<\/p>\n

Ale nen\u00ed. Tv\u00e9 k\u0159e\u010de polevily, pomalu se uklid\u0148uje\u0161. Zlehka p\u0159ej\u00ed\u017ed\u00edm kone\u010dky prst\u016f po kontur\u00e1ch tv\u00e9ho obli\u010deje, sna\u017e\u00edm se ulo\u017eit si ho do pam\u011bti\u2026 proto\u017ee tady nebude\u0161 nav\u017edy. Dnes se to nestalo. Ale co z\u00edtra, co poz\u00edt\u0159\u00ed? Kdo mi zaru\u010d\u00ed, \u017ee tady za t\u00fdden nebudu us\u00ednat s\u00e1m?<\/p>\n

„Tome, a\u017e\u2026 k tomu dojde\u2026 nechci b\u00fdt s\u00e1m,“ \u0161pitne\u0161 a vtiskne\u0161 mi d\u011btsk\u00fd polibek na rty. „Pros\u00edm\u2026“<\/div>\n

„Neboj se, l\u00e1sko, nebude\u0161 s\u00e1m.“ Oplat\u00edm mu polibek a p\u0159itisknu si jeho hlavu na hru\u010f. Nen\u00ed d\u016fle\u017eit\u011b, co se stalo, kolikr\u00e1t mi lhal, ani to, \u017ee to brzo skon\u010d\u00ed. Nez\u00e1le\u017e\u00ed na ni\u010dem, d\u016fle\u017eit\u00ed jsme jen my dva. A na\u0161e l\u00e1ska. „Nikdy nebude\u0161 s\u00e1m. Proto\u017ee j\u00e1 budu v\u017edycky s tebou.“<\/p>\n

autor: Mary<\/strong><\/div>\n

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autor: Mary Ka\u017ed\u00fd den je to stejn\u00e9. Vstaneme pozd\u011b dopoledne a vyraz\u00edme n\u011bkam na ob\u011bd. Zbytek dne tr\u00e1v\u00edme spolu, mazl\u00edme se a l\u00edb\u00e1me, dokud se kolem t\u0159et\u00ed nevytrat\u00ed\u0161 z domu se slovy, \u017ee si mus\u00ed\u0161 n\u011bco nutn\u011b za\u0159\u00eddit. Vr\u00e1t\u00ed\u0161 se za dv\u011b<\/p>\n

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